If you can love like this

Chapter 24

"Sit down, aren't you tired?" Geng Mochi had already sat on the sofa by the window at some point. After driving for more than two hours, he looked a little tired, and patted the seat beside him, "Sit down, Aunt Yang will meet later I'll make you some tea."

I heard from him on the way that he hired two people to guard the villa. Aunt Yang was their old nanny, and she is still in charge of cleaning and housekeeping in the villa. Her wife, Master Liu, is in charge of the tea garden.

The two sat and chatted a few words, which naturally involved me running back to Star City from Shanghai, and he had the nerve to ask me, "Why did you run back? Isn't it good to go to France?"

"You have no right to decide my life, even my parents can't be my master, why do you think so arbitrarily that going to France is a good arrangement for me?"

"You still don't understand me." He sighed, "I just want to live with you quietly, without being disturbed..."

"But if your heart is not peaceful, fleeing to any corner of the world will not help."

"Maybe, I'm really not at peace, it started the day I met you."

I looked at him. I haven't seen him for more than two months. He has lost weight again, but he is still in good spirits. The warm sunlight shines on him through the large floor-to-ceiling windows, making his face appear a strange light, which is stronger than sunlight. Warm, but also more dazzling than the sun.That ray of light flooded me for no reason with some terrible incentive, and my heart began to fall into inexplicable sadness again. I still couldn't see through this man, his gentle face, just across the distance of a coffee table. What kind of heart is hidden behind...

"Well, is it convenient for you to arrange a time for the program on the radio station?" I looked at him and got down to business.

Geng Mochi looked at me with a funny smile, obviously my impatience was too obvious, "Let's talk about something else first, it's work if you don't talk." Obviously, he was delaying time.

"What do you want to say?" I had no choice but to drag him along.

"Let's start with my childhood. For example, I was born in this villa."

This made me interested. If knowing more about him would be beneficial for the program, I would look directly at him and wait for him to speak.

"When I was young..." He raised his head and stared at the ceiling motionlessly, as if lost in memories, "I can't say I was unhappy when I was young, but I was rarely happy. My father passed away when I was very young, and my mother remarried later. When I came to Shanghai, my stepfather was also a businessman and treated me very well. He and his ex-wife already had three children, and I made four together. He was busy with business and rarely stayed with us. In my impression He is just an outline of my father. When I was a teenager, my mother immigrated to New Zealand with my sister and stepfather. Soon I also went to France to study, but I was not with them. Although they repeatedly asked me to go to New Zealand, I finally I still chose to return to China. As for this villa, a relative used to live here. Later, their family went out to do business, and the house was vacant. I couldn’t live here myself, so I had to ask an old couple to help It's the Aunt Yang you saw just now, her wife must be busy at the tea shop right now, so she went to call him."

"That's all?" I was disappointed.

"That's all." He replied.

I looked at him and suddenly asked: "You said your childhood was happy, but not happy, why?"

"No reason, not happy is not happy."

"Doesn't playing the piano make you happy?"

His eyes became colder, "Whoever said that I am happy when I play the piano, I don't like playing the piano at all!"

My eyes widened in disbelief, "You don't like playing the piano?"

"No child likes it! Just imagine, which child likes to be nailed to a piano bench since childhood? I am the child who grew up nailed to a piano bench. I have no freedom, no games, no partners. I enjoy all the happiness that ordinary children can enjoy. No! Do you think I will like it?" As he said this, there was a kind of resolute sadness in his eyes, which made people feel pain in his heart.

"Then you don't have to play."

"No way, I have to pretend, because my mother likes me to play the piano, and I have to like what she likes. Although she will not blame me for anything, and will not force me, but making her happy is my greatest happiness. If she is disappointed or When I was sad, I was even more disappointed and sad. From a very young age, I knew that the whole meaning of my life was to make my mother happy and fulfilled, and I always thought so and did so.”

"What about your own happiness?" I looked at him, unable to comprehend that a pianist would not like the piano. I always thought that a talented artist like him would regard the piano as his life.

"I said that I am rarely happy. In my concept, happiness is given by others, and it is also given to others."

I stared at him incomprehensibly.

"Why this expression, can't understand what I said?" He was a little dissatisfied with my slowness.

I foolishly asked: "Then if you were given another chance to choose, would you still choose the piano?"

He said firmly, "No!"

"why?"

"Do you still need to ask why? If there is no piano, my life will never be what it is now!" He looked out of the window, his eyes stayed on the vibrant leaves, and the fluttering leaves were in sharp contrast to his sadness In contrast, he murmured as if he was talking to himself, "Maybe I would be ordinary without the piano, without so much applause and glory, but I can live a peaceful and real life like ordinary people, even if I am poor. Life will be more flavorful than it is now!"

"Then why don't you choose another profession, even if you are not old now."

"Impossible, absolutely impossible. Since I can remember, I have never left the piano in my life, just like eating and sleeping. Playing the piano is one of my living habits. This habit has continued for 30 years. I have been shackled in the piano world for 30 years, and my whole life and soul have been integrated with the piano. I can't imagine what I would do without the piano..."

As he spoke, he stood up, paced up and down the room, and finally stood in front of the window.I couldn't see his expression, but I heard him sigh again, and said in a hoarse voice: "Why don't I want to change the air and the environment? It's not that I haven't worked hard. I learned from my stepfather many years ago." To do business, but I failed, and the cruel facts brought me back to the original place. I had to go back to the coffin of the piano and continue to be a desperate living dead! It’s really a coffin. I was born with this coffin Nailed together..."

I stared at him like I was listening to a madman's speech.

"It's this expression again, why are my words so difficult to understand?" He came over, sat next to me, and put his hands on my shoulders, "I didn't expect that I would be so pitiful, so you have to be nice to me, don't move Just like a lion baring its teeth and claws at me!"

I muttered: "I don't know who the lion is!"

"What did you say?"

"It's nothing, I'm just worried about how we can't settle the business between you and me." I was telling the truth, and after talking for a long time, I didn't get to the point at all.

"Isn't it easy to settle me down?" He approached me with an expression of ulterior motives.I pretended to be calm, and said pitifully: "Don't embarrass me. I have a job that is not easy. You should cooperate."

He frowned, and said impatiently: "You know, I don't accept interviews very much, especially your kind of live broadcast."

"You're a wrist. I haven't seen any scenes. You can handle it. I promise I won't make things difficult for you."

"What questions would you ask?"

"It's almost the same as what you just talked about. Your growth experience, your thoughts on piano performance, your views on today's popular music, etc. It's just a casual chat, including some things about this concert. You can also Talk, of course it would be better if you could talk about your personal life, it won't be hard."

"Personal life?"

"It's private life, such as relationships, marriage, etc."

"Don't talk about it!" He stood up suddenly, and turned his back to me again, "I can talk to you about anything, but you'd better not touch this issue, if you still want me to go to the radio station for an interview!"

"why?"

"No reason!" His face was very ugly.Just then, Aunt Yang knocked on the door and came in, smiling and saying that dinner is ready.I looked at the wall clock on the wall, it was twelve o'clock, time flies so fast!

"Okay, let's go eat!" He was relieved, and walked out of the room without looking at me.This man!
During the meal, neither of them spoke.I don't even want to say it, because looking at the table full of dishes, I have no appetite at all.I have to watch my stomach all the time. "Why don't you eat?" When he was about to finish eating, he found that the rice in my bowl hadn't moved.

"No appetite." I said lazily.

"Did you look at me without appetite?" He stared at my face, "you should eat something, your complexion is very bad!"

"It's okay, it's just a little upset stomach." I prevaricate.Before I finished speaking, my stomach was protesting, and I quickly covered my mouth, holding back the surging nausea.

"What's the matter with you, are you uncomfortable?" His eyebrows were furrowed together.

"Eat yours, it's okay if you say it's okay!"

"How can I eat with you like this?" He put down the bowl and chopsticks and stared at me.

I was stared at by him for a while, and hurriedly lowered my head and pretended to take a few mouthfuls of rice.Then he continued to pick up the bowl suspiciously, thought for a while, and suddenly said: "You are not pregnant, are you?"

"Where is it?" I replied reflexively, my heart beating wildly.Fortunately, he didn't continue to ask, otherwise I really don't know how to answer. "If I'm pregnant, what will you do?" I also asked him suddenly, and I regretted it as soon as I said it. Isn't it just looking for trouble?

He looked at me, his eyes swept across my face like a searchlight, "I will be responsible."

"How to be responsible?"

"Are you really pregnant?" He put down the bowl.

"I mean if."

"You are born, I will raise you!" He said very easily.

I snorted and said with a sneer, "If you want to give birth to me, you will give birth to me? What do you think I am?"

"Then let me tell you, if you are really pregnant, you have to give birth if you don't!" He became arrogant and unreasonable when he got angry, and said with a straight face, "I should have a child at my age, I need An heir, after my father passed away, I was the only one left in our Geng family, I can't bear the unprecedented crime!"

"Then why didn't your wife give birth to you?" I asked again at a very bad time.

This time I stabbed a hornet's nest, and this guy really had a fit. He punched all the dishes and chopsticks on the table and jumped up, and he jumped up too, and shouted to the kitchen: "Aunt Yang, you should clean up Annie's room upstairs right away." , Miss Bai is delirious, she must rest!"

He locked himself in the room all afternoon and I wandered upstairs and downstairs in the house alone. I opened the window, the sun was shining outside, the shade was everywhere, and the roses on the fence in the yard bloomed into a flower wall. The fragrance of flowers is overflowing.I decided to go out to get some air, and Aunt Yang reminded me when I went out, "Don't go far, the road is not easy to walk in the dark."

I hummed vaguely, walked out of the yard and walked straight to the back of the house.

Behind the house is a large bamboo grove, swaying and rustling with the wind, and there is a refreshing fragrance of bamboo leaves in the air.I walked aimlessly along a deep forest path. I felt very comfortable and relaxed. I stopped and walked along the way, picked a large bunch of wild flowers, and weaved garlands while walking.I put the wreath on my head, took a lot of photos feeling good about myself, and posted two on Weibo.The little girl in the office taught me to use Weibo. I don’t use it very often. Occasionally, when I feel interested, I post some text and pictures.

Before I knew it, the light in the forest was getting darker, so I thought about going home. If Geng Mochi wakes up from lunch break, people who can't see me will definitely lose their temper again. This guy is not so angry when he wakes up.

The bad thing is, I turned around twice and couldn't find the way I came here. There was no bamboo forest around, and there were dense woods and knee-high grass all around. The sound of unknown birds echoed in the forest, especially It seemed empty.I just panicked. For a person who would get lost in a supermarket, his sense of direction is like a cloud. Suddenly he was in a deep mountain forest, and the sky was getting darker. The visibility in the forest was already very low. I can't find my way home and I might spend the night in the woods.There are everything in this deep mountain and old forest. If a single woman spends the night in the forest, if she is not eaten by wild animals, she will be scared to death.

I forced myself to calm down and tried to contact Geng Mochi with my mobile phone, but found that the mobile phone had no signal.This is really miserable. I took my mobile phone and rammed like a headless chicken. I walked for a while and then turned back.I was exhausted, and I had been bitten by mosquitoes a lot, and it was itchy and painful. As I stumbled and walked, I felt as if I was farther away from the villa. At this time, it was completely dark in the forest.

"Mochi, Mochi..." I muttered Geng Mochi's name in my heart, and finally burst into tears.

There was a narrow ramp ahead, and I was sweating profusely climbing up the ramp. Suddenly, I heard crow-like cries behind me. I instinctively turned my head away. Unexpectedly, my heels slipped, and I rolled down screaming.At that moment, I felt that I was going to die, my head seemed to hit a tree trunk or something, my eyes went dark, and I didn't know anything.

I don't know how long I was in a coma. When I woke up, I found that the surroundings were pitch black. Through the treetops, I could see the night sky above my head. There were stars twinkling, and there were all kinds of strange sounds in the woods.I struggled to get up, but I couldn't move at all. As long as the exposed skin on my hands, feet and neck was extremely itchy, I knew it must be eaten by mosquitoes.

I fumbled and tried to find the mobile phone, but where is the mobile phone still there?I judged which ravine I should have fallen into. Fortunately, my head didn't hit a rock, otherwise Geng Mochi would have to collect my body tomorrow.

I didn't dare to cry loudly, for fear of attracting wild animals, so I could only whimper softly. Later, I didn't even have the strength to whimper, and my consciousness gradually became blurred. I felt drowsy, and I seemed to be falling asleep again.I reminded myself not to sleep, the temperature in the forest at night is very low, if I fall asleep, I may not be able to wake up.I forced myself to think, to cheer myself up.As time passed, I could vaguely see the moon above my head gradually moving from the left to the right. The moonlight made the light in the forest much brighter and gave me a little sense of security.

But I was still too sleepy, and in a daze, I seemed to hear footsteps and voices in the direction above my head.At first I thought it was a hallucination and didn't pay attention, but then I felt the voice became clearer and clearer. It seemed that I was on the mountain road I rolled down. I immediately pulled up my head and looked in the direction of the top of my head, and found that there seemed to be a flashlight shining on it. dangling.

"Kao'er, Kao'er—" I seemed to hear a familiar voice calling.

Tears welled up in my eyes, and I was still cursing in my heart, Geng Mochi, you finally came to collect my body!

I opened my mouth wide and wanted to shout "I'm here", but my hoarse throat was like a broken bellows, and I couldn't make a sound, so I had to respond with ah ah ah.Soon the higher-ups seemed to hear it, and the light of the flashlight swept down.

"Who's down there? Is it Kao'er?" This time I heard clearly, it was indeed Geng Mochi's voice, very excited.

I groaned and grunted twice.

(End of this chapter)