If you can love like this

Chapter 63

I stayed at the beach until very late before taking the tram home. When I got off the tram and reached the waterside of Lake Union, I was still reluctant to go back. A few mandarin ducks playing in the water caught my attention. I quickly took out the chocolate in my pocket and fed it they.Because I was playing at the beach just now, my feet got a lot of sand. I took off my shoes and sat on the stone slab by the lake to wash my feet. It was so comfortable. The cool lake water gently kissed my feet. I felt like a child. Playing in the water, those mandarin ducks were frightened, flapping their wings and swimming far away. I smiled and completely forgot the sadness when I played that song in the morning... But I don’t know if my eyes are blurred or what, I seem to see There was a man on a luxury houseboat docked by the water looking towards me. The figure seemed familiar. When I wanted to take a closer look, the figure disappeared in a flash. I was stunned by the lake for a long time without looking back. Come on.

I really miss him so much, as if this world exists to commemorate him, everything I see is his shadow, even the secluded lake water seems to reflect his face, fluctuating, hesitant to speak, reminding me that he really exists However, the afterglow of the setting sun sprinkled on the lake, shining with tiny waves, which is the true portrayal of our broken love.

I was suddenly depressed, and I was no longer in the mood to play in the water. I put on my shoes and went uphill listlessly, through the dense tree-lined roads, and returned to the white house where Qi Shuli and I lived. This name was called casually when I first moved. Because the exterior wall of the house is white, and the fence in the garden is also white, the name "White House" is very vivid and easy to pronounce.

I walked through the garden full of roses, and as soon as I entered the living room, Qi Shuli smiled at me from a distance, and walked over quickly to give me a hug and a kiss, which is what he must do when he meets and says goodbye.Maybe it's because he looks pleasing to the eye. I think he is actually quite handsome. He looks very refined and refined wearing a pair of glasses, especially in good shape. He doesn't have the belly that is typical of middle-aged men. It's very warm, and if you put on a suit, it's really personable, handsome and straight.

"Where did you go? Did you play in the lake again?" He had sharp eyes and saw the wet marks on the corner of my skirt.

"I'm going to feed the mandarin ducks."

"You've fed them, and you're still hungry, right?" Qi Shuli hugged me and walked towards the fireplace in the living room, "Where did I eat at noon, and I didn't come back for my birthday, so I waited in vain..."

"Oh, I went to the dock area with some classmates."

Qi Shuli smiled but didn't know whether he believed it or not, he led me to the sofa and sat down, put his arms around me and touched my head, "Why are you running around so hard, why don't you let me pick you up?"

"Take a walk and exercise. If you sit still all the time, you will become Mrs. Henry."

Mrs. Henry is our next-door neighbor, she is very fat, how fat, a single sofa can barely accommodate her big buttocks, every time we come to our house, we can only sit on the love seat.Their family is very fat, and her husband is also a big fat man with a belly big enough to hold triplets.This family lives closest to us. The garden is connected to the garden, and the balcony is next to the balcony. Standing on the balcony of the bedroom, we can chat with them. We often hold parties or go out on a yacht together, and we get along like a family.It was only half a month ago that they moved to Houston. His son got married there, and his wife had a baby. They wanted to take care of her daughter-in-law.

"Is their house always empty?" I asked Qi Shuli.

"Probably not, I heard that it will be rented out."

"Who can afford to rent such a big house?"

"Well, someone who can afford it will also be able to rent it." Qi Shuli peeled a grape and stuffed it into my mouth, "Why don't we buy it and make it into one piece?"

"Nervous, why do we need so many houses? The house we live in now is scary big."

I'm telling the truth, our house has four floors, and the bedrooms on the third floor alone have an area of ​​more than 100 square meters. It's really scary to live alone at night.Qi Shuli had other plans, he said insincerely, "Actually, it's not what you said, if there are more children in the house, no matter how big the house is..."

I knew what he meant, and he was hinting at me again.In the past two years since he came to the United States, he always wanted me to give birth to a child. He often said that raising a cat and a dog is not as good as raising a child. There will also be hope.I understand all these reasons, and I don't reject children. Although I am not married to him, it is not uncommon to have a baby out of wedlock in the United States, and having a child is a comfort to him or to me, especially him. There are more than a dozen people, and there are still no children under the knees, and no one will inherit the family business that has been created so hard. Thinking about it, the evening scene is indeed bleak.But it's very strange, I didn't take any measures, but I still haven't conceived a child, and Qi Shuli thought that I was doing tricks secretly, wanted to ask but didn't dare to ask, he was very worried.

In fact, I understand what he thinks in his heart. Although I have never made it clear that I want to marry him, once I have a child, I will be with him for the rest of my life. He wants me more than a child. Follow him for life.I don't know why he has no confidence in himself. He should know. Since I have come to the United States with him, is it possible to go back to the past?
"Today is your birthday, why don't you ask me what present I have prepared for you?" Qi Shuli changed the subject when he saw that I was silent.He is like this, very cautious, rarely mentioning the past, he knows that the wounds in my heart need to heal, and the process may be long, and it may even take a lifetime.

"what gift?"

"Go and uncover it yourself." Qi Shuli pointed to a big guy covered with flannel beside the fireplace, "This is your birthday present, you will definitely like it."

I guessed that the big guy was covered with flannelette and couldn't see its face, but the outline seemed very familiar. My heart beat wildly, and I opened it tremblingly, and a gorgeous black Steinway piano appeared in front of me. In front of him, the light hit the luminous lacquer surface, shining an incomparably noble and sacred light.

My eyes widened in disbelief, I didn't dare to approach, and I couldn't speak.

Qi Shuli hugged me from behind, and kissed me lightly on the cheek, "I know you like to play the piano, and I know you have been learning to play the piano, you can play it if you want, why do you carry me behind your back? As I said, as long as you are happy, I will can do anything for you."

I burst into tears.

"Why do you treat me so well, I don't deserve it." I sat on the sofa with tears in my eyes, not daring to look at the piano.

Qi Shuli sat down next to me and put his arms around my shoulders, "Only I know if it's worth it, so how can you know? You don't know my heart, just like I can't walk into your heart. Kaoer, In fact, I am already very satisfied. I am very happy to live with you every day. I am happy when I see your flushed face. I dare not ask for anything more, because I know that God is never very generous. If you gain too much, you will lose what you have. I have been fooled before, and I don’t want to repeat the same mistakes... Please believe that, as long as you are happy, I am willing to do anything for you, even if it is picking stars from the sky..."

I totally believed what he said, just as I couldn't lie to my feelings.I can lie to anyone, but I can't lie to my heart. I am deeply grateful to the man in front of me. After so many things, he is the only one who will never leave me.I can give him anything, I even want to have a child for him, but there is no way, I can't give him my love, even a little bit, my love doesn't belong to him, not even to me.That love has long been occupied by another man from another planet. No one in this world can take my love back from him. Just being sealed in the bottom of my heart by him, what can you do to him?

In this strange country, even though Qi Shuli has great abilities, he can't get back the love he wants, so he can only hide far away in Seattle, not afraid of the sky or the earth, but afraid of that man chasing him; I have no ability, and I can't even save my life, but I can easily have my love. Even if it is separated by thousands of mountains and rivers, it can make the owner of this love cry for him. Who can explain why?Nobody can explain it!The three of us are like three planets, Qi Shuli is next to me, revolving around me day and night, while the other man is far away from the galaxy, I can't help revolving around him, even if the three planets are revolving beyond the sky, There is no possibility of forming a straight line, just like the destiny that was fixed in the previous life, our trajectory is also fixed, we cannot change it, we can only rotate towards our own trajectory, love has no end, sorrow has no end...

"What are you thinking?" Qi Shuli interrupted my thoughts and asked with a smile.

"I was wondering how you knew that I secretly learned the piano."

This really puzzles me. I have been doing it very covertly. When did he find out?
Qi Shuli raised his eyebrows and laughed, "I knew it from the very beginning. I knew what American geography you said to study. How many acres of land in the United States has nothing to do with you. Will you learn it?"

Hey, Jiang is still old and spicy, how could I forget his high IQ?

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hide it from you."

"Needless to say I'm sorry, I don't care. You hid it from me because you were afraid that I would be sad. This proves that you have taken my feelings into account. It's too late for me to be happy." Qi Shuli laughed, looking really happy.During the meal, he said again: "I'm going to New York the day after tomorrow, it may take a few days, '9' well, there are commemorative activities every year, you know..."

I do know that he survived the incredible disaster more than ten years ago, but more than a dozen employees in his company failed to escape from that skyscraper, and several close friends were unfortunately killed. Every September On the 9th, he will attend the mourning event at the World Trade Center with the families of other victims. Last year, I proposed to go, but he refused, saying that I would not be able to bear the atmosphere.

"Then why are you going?" I asked him at the time.He sighed and said that there were things he could never forget, and the ghosts of those dead friends were looking forward to his annual visit.

So this time I didn't propose to go, I just asked him: "Then should I go to learn piano?"

"Learn, of course you have to learn. Since you like it, don't give up. Do things from the beginning to the end, but I am afraid that you will be tired after running around every day, so I want to find you a piano teacher to come to teach you. I have already Tell David, he will help you find a good teacher, and there will be news soon."

"Thank you!" I said sincerely.

He stretched out his hand and pinched my cheek, "Say thank you to me, little thing!"

Two days later, he left for New York, and I went to school to say goodbye to Mrs. Lauren and my classmates. Everyone surrounded me and hugged me tightly, reluctant to let me go.Foreigners are still very emotional.

"Oh, my dear, I really want to hear you tell the story of that Chinese musician again. We all like him very much. I really hope he is still alive in this world..." Mrs. Lauren burst into tears as she spoke. He is an optimistic and lively person. I don't know whether to cry for me or for that Chinese musician.

When I got home, Julia, the servant, told me that David had brought a man here and said he was my piano teacher.Julia is a fat black girl with curly hair, thick lips, and flexible hands and feet, but she has never seen the world and makes a fuss about everything. She told me in English with an exaggerated expression: "Oh, my God! The teacher who Mr. David introduced to Miss is so handsome, just like the Prince of East. (Oh, God, the teacher Mr. David introduced to Miss is so handsome, just like the Prince of East.) "

"Prince of East? (Prince of the East?)"

"Yes, Miss, very handsome. I've heard from David that he is called Steven, who is from France, but he has a face of East (Yes, Miss, very handsome, I heard David that he is called Steven , from France, but with an oriental face.)”

Julia was still chattering, I didn't bother to talk to her, I thought it was funny, foreigners would say Orientals look good to everyone they see.Once, Mrs. Henry next door said that she met a Chinese lady in a beauty salon. She described her as a fairy. Later, when I saw her at a party at her home, I almost laughed out loud. Apart from her skin care Well, she is slimmer than Mrs. Henry, and her appearance is really unflattering. At least such a wife can be picked up in any city in China. The aesthetics of foreigners is different from ours.

"Steven said he will come back again this afternoon. (Mr. Steven said he will come back again this afternoon.)"

I was very tired and wanted to go upstairs to sleep, but Julia reminded me that there was a guest coming in the afternoon, as if she was looking forward to this guest more than I did.

"Call me when he comes. (He called me when he came.)"

I waved to her and went upstairs.

I think I was really tired and fell asleep after a while, feeling like I was dreaming.I was flying in my dream, and kept flying, as if there was a force pulling me, white clouds flew by around me, through the mountains and across the ocean, and finally I landed by a quiet lake.I recognized that lake at a glance, the lake in Xinjiang is still full of green grass, the bottom of the lake is crystal clear, the fish swim freely, and there are waterfowls playing by the water.

A gust of wind blew, and suddenly there was a sound of a piano, ding ding dong dong, like the sound of heaven, I followed the sound of the piano, and saw a piano on the other side of the lake, and a man in white sat beside the piano and played it ecstatically.

I was pleasantly surprised, and walked towards him along the lake, getting closer, getting closer, his figure was in front of me, and the sound of the piano was exciting, but when I got closer, the man suddenly disappeared, but the sound of the piano was still there continue.I looked around nervously, but I still couldn't see the man, only the melodious sound of the piano continued to beat on the tip of my heart...

Dong dong, there was a knock on the door, and I woke up, unable to move. Only then did I realize that it was just a dream, "Miss Cathy" Julia shouted outside.

"What?" I wiped the sweat from my forehead, this dream made me sweat from exhaustion, as if I had really gone through a long journey.

"David has taken the piano teacher here and now is waiting downstairs. (David has taken the piano teacher here and now is waiting downstairs.)"

"Understood, I'll come."

I got up and got out of bed, and the sound of the piano suddenly sounded again. This time I knew it was not a dream, it was played by the "Prince of the East" downstairs!He is my teacher?God, why is the sound of the piano so familiar? "Farewell Song"?How could it be this song? !
Many fragments of memory flashed across his mind like lightning.I was so flustered that I rushed out of the bedroom without even changing my clothes, and ran from the third floor to the second floor. When I was about to run from the second floor to the first floor, I was stunned, and at a glance I saw sitting beside the piano in the living room downstairs. This "prince" is not the white clothes in the dream, but an orange sweater and beige pants, playing the piano with his back to me...

The sunlight outside the floor-to-ceiling windows slanted in and just shone on him, making him seem to be in the center of the light of the universe. The whole world was lit up. I was drawn by the light and couldn't look away. I just felt dazed for a moment.

David saw me and quickly got up to say hello: "Hello, Miss Cathy!"

(End of this chapter)