If you can love like this

Chapter 9

But he rushed over and hugged me horizontally, "Enter the bridal chamber and then die." As he walked towards the bedroom, I hooked his neck and pulled his ears, "Why are you so shameless..."

"Shamelessness is a virtue."

"..."

In the next few days, we were like glue, Geng Mochi drove me around the city, and even took me to Xiangbei on the sixth day of the Lunar New Year.But I dare not go home. My parents are honest people who keep their own place. They will never accept the fact that I was fooling around with other men within four months of my widow. I'd better not provoke the second elder.So I could only carefully take Geng Mochi, who was fooling around with me, to visit the places of interest in the small town. Although I was extremely reluctant to go to the South Lake where my lover was buried, Geng Mochi insisted on going.

Because the weather is very cold, there are few tourists by the South Lake.This lake is a tributary of Dongting Lake. It gently surrounds the small town, with green mountains and green waters in the distance, and weeds and flowers nearby. The scenery is quite beautiful, and it is a good place for locals to relax on weekends.I have liked this lake since I was a child. At that time, there was a tradition of dragon boat races every year on the Dragon Boat Festival. The innocent era of wearing floral skirts in the scorching sun and walking through the sea of ​​people by the lake is long gone.Qi Shujie also grew up by the lake, and he has a special affection for this lake. He always took me for a walk by the lake when he was alive.As for why he chose to end his life with Yesha in this lake, it has become a mystery that will never be known, and he took this mystery into the grave.

And Geng Mochi didn't say a word when he faced this calm but infinitely sad lake, he just smoked one cigarette after another.I sat on the lounge chair by the lake and looked at his back covered in smoke, and suddenly I felt lost again. Subconsciously, I still wanted to see him clearly, but could I see him clearly?Will he let me see clearly?
We drove away from Xiangbei that day, without talking all the way.But at night, Geng Mochi was very loving to me, kissing my face and lips over and over again, whispering in whispers, reluctant to go to sleep, holding my hand and refusing to let go.

Half asleep and half awake, I heard him say in my ear: "Kaoer, don't leave me, I don't want to be alone..." At that time, he closed his eyes, and he didn't know whether he was talking in a dream or the truth.I fell on his chest and burst into tears.

Early the next morning, my mother called and asked me if I brought a man to Xiangbei.At that time, I was manicuring Geng Mochi's nails, and I replied calmly: "How can such a thing happen, I have been in Xingcheng all the time, and I have never left for a moment."

"Then why did I receive calls from a few acquaintances, saying that you were with a man who drove a carriage yesterday and went to Nanhu..."

I almost laughed out loud, what kind of carriage?That's a BMW, okay?
"No, I must have read it wrong. I'm really in Xingcheng. Why don't I go to Xiangbei if I have nothing to do?" I opened my eyes and said nonsense.

"It's possible for one person to get it wrong, but how come several of them get it wrong?" My mother trembled angrily on the phone, "You are really outrageous, you are fooling around with other men only a few months after Shujie's death , and brought people here to show off!"

"Did I tell you that? You don't believe me until I tell you?" I yelled pretending to be aggrieved, and carefully trimmed Geng Mochi's nails with nail scissors.His hands are really beautiful, slender yet masculine, a pair of natural artist's hands.Geng Mochi looked at me and smiled ambiguously, and put his other repaired hand into my shirt.

"Don't lie to me. Your dad and I are both so old. If you want us to live a few more years, you should live a life of integrity and don't ruin your reputation. In the future..." Mom was still talking on the phone To persuade.

But I opened my mouth and dared not speak, Geng Mochi had hugged me and bit my ears, I heard my mother shouting on the phone: "Did you hear what I said? Why didn't you make a sound?"

"Mom, I had a bad stomach last night. I...now I want...I'll call you later." After saying that, I hung up the phone, straddled Geng Mochi's lap and talked to him frantically kissed together.

"You are such an unfilial girl!" Geng Mochi blamed, but he hurriedly unbuttoned my sweater.

"I can't help it. Since ancient times, loyalty and filial piety have been difficult." I put my arms around his neck and giggled.

The Spring Festival is over soon, I have to go to work on the eighth day, and Geng Mochi takes me back to my residence on Shaoshan Road on the seventh day.He was driving the car very intently, and he was unusually silent. I felt that he had something to say.Sure enough, while waiting for a traffic light, he suddenly said: "You can move in and live with me, anyway, we are all alone, and no one will care if we do anything wrong."

I immediately understood what he meant, he wanted to live with me!This is the second time he has made such a request, the first time he was joking, what about this time? "This... doesn't seem very good," I said hesitantly, "You know that I value my reputation very much. If my reputation is too bad, how can I find someone in the future?"

"How can you find someone if you don't spoil your reputation?" His serious look was really disgusting, and he glanced at me, "Don't worry, I'm a man who can make do with it, and I don't mind if your reputation gets worse."

"..."

See, this guy has a bad tongue, and I seldom get the upper hand in an argument with him.But I think his proposal is very constructive. Since neither of them is a good thing, if we can come together, it will be beneficial to the harmonious, stable and long-term development of society. This kind of self-sacrifice and fearless spirit is definitely the benchmark of traditional morality in the new era. , So I packed my things as soon as I got home that day, and called Milan by the way, asking her to use food to change places in the future.

Milan howled on the phone in an extremely sad tone, "Kaoer, you abandoned me!"

"How about you fill in the room for me?"

Before I finished speaking, Geng Mochi grabbed my ear, "Give me a try!" Milan heard it on the phone and said loudly: "Kaoer, tell him that we love each other more than Jin Jian Deeper than the sea, no one can separate us, we wish to be lovebirds in the sky, and twigs in the ground..." Geng Mochi let go of my ears, and picked up the phone calmly, "Miss, how about , will you fill in the room for me?"

"Geng Mochi!" I rushed over to bite him.

While clamping me down, he said into the phone: "I'm sorry for taking my love with a knife, can I treat you to dinner another day?"

"Okay, okay!" Milan, a spineless person, turned on the phone in less than a minute, and the receiver was right next to me. I heard her say in an extremely nasty voice, "Mr. Geng, your voice Listen carefully, I appreciate your courage, and I am very relieved to hand Kao'er to you. If you don't come to take care of her, no one will take care of her..."

Damn girl, if she was in front of me right now, I would definitely strangle her to death.

Unexpectedly, two days later, Milan came to see her off in person. I knew her mother-in-law background, but actually wanted to see Geng Mochi, whether it was a white horse or a dinosaur (she didn't know Geng Mochi's identity at the time).Obviously, Geng Mochi's restrained and elegant atmosphere gave her a good impression.When I got in the car, she gave me a small gift, which was very delicately packaged, "Take it, it's a small thing, congratulations on starting again."

I really can't stand her prudishness, and the alarm bell rang immediately. Usually, this damn girl is not so polite. Every month, she can't make it through, so she eats food everywhere. Not only does she not thank you, but she also says that she will destroy the food for me. lest I waste it.Holding her gift now, I feel like I have a bomb, and my heart is in a panic.

"I wish you happiness, you are a good match, I told Yingzhi about it, she was also very happy, and said that I would like you to come to her house for dinner some other day." Milan said with a smile, that smile was far more than prudish, it was too serious, It made me even more furious.

"Thank Yingzhi for me." I will not thank Milan, this girl is too weird, who knows what gift she wrapped for me.And if I have a serious relationship with her, I feel insecure in this world, because this girl is too good at playing tricks.

After Milan left, I unpacked it and took a look. Fortunately, it was a DVD, the Oscar-winning film "Braveheart".I immediately understood the meaning of this gift. As expected of my best friend for many years, I deeply understand my heart.

I think so, at this moment I am subverting the world with a brave heart. I originally wanted to say that I want to pursue my own life, but this is too polite, because since I was a child, my pursuit has been to subvert the world.

Later, Milan confessed to me truthfully that she originally planned to give sexy lingerie, and she had already bought all of them. It was the style that wearing it was like not wearing it, but after thinking about it for a long time, she felt that it would be cultured to give a DVD. To put it bluntly, she was afraid of Geng Mochi. Thought she was a female hooligan.Milan said hypocritically on the phone: "I am so pure, how can I let him have a bad impression of me?"

I have to admit that Milan's face can definitely paste the city wall.Later, I told Geng Mochi about this, and he laughed, "Actually, I think it's more cultured to give underwear." You rascal!
It was my birthday soon, and Geng Mochi actually borrowed the inspiration from Milan and gave me a set of underwear, which is the style that is better than nothing. He bought it specially when he was on a business trip in Hong Kong. The brand is called "Victoria's Secret". Not cheap.I gritted my teeth and asked him how he gave me this thing, and he said, "It looks like I'm educated."

I threw my underwear into the closet without saying a word. He looked at me and shook his head, "Look at you, you are just uneducated."

I:"……"

Of course, this is all for later. On the day of moving, Geng Mochi was very grand, and when he arrived at the apartment downstairs, he insisted on hugging me up.He carried me all the way to the door before putting it down, unlocked it, and led me in.

The windows in the house are bright and clean, and the room is filled with warm sunlight, which sprinkles on the milky white carpet, making it warm and cozy.In particular, my favorite white roses were specially placed on the coffee table. The pure white petals poured out their intoxicating fragrance under the dazzling sunlight.

"Are you trying to make me fall in love with you?" I didn't know whether it was happiness or sadness, my mind was dizzy.White roses are my favorite flower, I wonder how he knows that?
"Will you fall in love with me?" He kissed my forehead lightly and looked into my eyes, "But I've already fallen in love with you, what should I do? There's nothing I can do..."

Just this sentence, I burst into tears.

Geng Mochi stretched out his arms to wrap around me, and rested his chin on my forehead, "Silly girl, I actually knew you were in love with me a long time ago, so that's great, we all came through that disaster, we There is no need for nonsense such as vows of eternal love, life is too impermanent, take good care of what is in front of you, only you and me in front of you are the most real, at this moment, the most real!"

He put extra emphasis on the word "authentic", because I mentioned that I wanted to be authentic when I was in Shanghai?
I choked up on his chest and was truly moved by him, but what I said was not touching at all, I felt that I had watched so many Korean dramas for nothing, "Don't you think you are narcissistic? ?”

"Look at you, you are so unromantic." Geng Mochi stroked my shoulder, his warm breath was intoxicating, "Can't you say something that touches me? You, the biggest problem is that you never tell lies ..."

I giggled, which was an indirect acknowledgment that he was narcissistic.This narcissistic guy!

I hugged his waist, stared at the Steinway grand piano in the corner of the living room, and decided to imitate those girls in Korean dramas, "Play me a tune, okay?"

"Okay." He twitched instinctively, obviously unable to bear my tone, and said tremblingly, "But don't talk to me in this tone from now on, I...I can't stand it."

I laughed, and he laughed too. He led me to the piano, sat down on the piano bench, looked at me, his eyes were so gentle that they could melt into water, "Now, you are my most honored audience." He took a deep breath, opened the piano cover, and a series of beautiful notes flew out from his fingertips.

It was just a prelude, and I recognized Carpenter's "Yesterday Reappeared". I was so nervous that I couldn't speak, a piercing pain pierced my chest and my back... It seemed like a world away, months I had a strange feeling when I heard this song in a certain restaurant before, but at that time, Qi Shujie fell into the bottom of the lake with Ye Sha on his back. Deny, this tragedy was originally arranged by the heavens, the man in front of me is the fate that I cannot escape in this life, so it is!
"What's wrong with you?" Geng Mochi noticed the strange expression on my face.

"No...it's nothing." I quickly lowered my head to hide the tears that almost welled up in my eyes.At this moment when I bowed my head, I suddenly decided to accept this man sincerely. Since it was destined, I thought I couldn't escape, but I still begged, "Can you... change the song, Please..."

Geng Mochi glanced at me, didn't say anything, jumped between his fingers, and immediately changed the tune. It was the theme song of LOVE composed by him and his ex-wife. It's a wonderful song, played by a genius. I don't think there are words to describe my throbbing at the moment and meet.Although there is never a shortage of tragedies in this world, but love is love, who knows what will happen in the future?As he said, what we should grasp is now.

Before we finished playing a piece, we got entangled together, from the living room to the bedroom. "Do you regret it?" He asked after the passion, touching my face.I buried my face in his arms without making a sound.

He sat up halfway, stroked my hair, put the loose strands behind my ears, kissed my forehead, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't ask this question. From now on, we don't want to Get to the bottom of each other's hearts, we are together when we are together, we need, we want, we are equally lonely, we are in the same sympathy..."

When he said this, it was like tearjerking, and my teardrops gushed out again.

At this time, we who have experienced the same catastrophe hug each other tightly. At that moment, nothing is important. The vast sea of ​​people, the cold world, the living and the dead, no one knows my heart, no one knows what I want What I want, maybe this man doesn’t know, but he can give me what I want, and there is something in him that makes me die, that’s enough, I don’t want to think about whether this relationship will become another relationship. After a catastrophe, will Geng Mochi become another Qi Shujie...

(End of this chapter)