dear archimedes

Chapter 82 Love Fantasy (12)
"There are very few people in the CIA who know your identity. We recently investigated these people, and the results are all right. But the trace investigation shows that Su Qi has accomplices, and we suspect that it is in the FBI. Therefore, we cannot control it for the time being. For your safety, I suggest You change your identity again." Annie said, "completely cut off contact with everyone you know, including me."

Zhen Xinxin was startled, holding the mug, her fingernails turned white.She didn't say a word, but her body language was very obvious: don't!
Annie: "With all due respect, you don't have a choice."

"No!" Zhen Ai rebounded emotionally.

In Annie's memory, Zhen Ai has always obeyed orders, and has never been so tough.She froze for a moment, stopped her momentum, and turned her head to look at the other end. Yan Su and Spencer, both tall and thin, were talking in a low voice.

Zhen Ai listened to her silence, raised her head and followed her gaze, her words were still habitually put her hands in her pockets, her side face was calm and at ease, there was a faint blood stain on the white shirt, but it looked so clean.

The two women looked at the man they loved, either tenderly or silently.

"Spencer is the youngest senator in New York State." The corners of Annie's lips curled up. "He is really great. God knows how much I love him...Because I love him, I love his family, so I hope his younger brother SA can be fine."

Zhen Ai is silent.

"Whether it's from the perspective of my sister or my husband's family reputation, I hope that SA can live a simple, safe and clean life like before."

Zhen Ai said softly, "He has always been clean."

Annie smiled: "Because of this, it is very distressing for such a pure child to be wronged and smeared, isn't it?"

Zhen Ai was startled, her face turned pale.

"He was lucky to be born in this evidence-based country with strong family support, so no matter what, he won't go to jail for something he didn't do, even if one day, those who framed him make him notorious .”

Zhen Aiqingli's face turned pale again, her voice didn't seem to be her own, it was very weak: "SA doesn't care."

"I believe he doesn't care; but I'm surprised that you don't care about the disaster and bad luck you will bring to him." Annie bluntly said, making Zhen Ai blush, "SA's family has countless scientists like him, and people like you Scientific researchers, and more politicians like Spencer. The family is huge, and everyone's reputation is closely related. SA really doesn't care about his own reputation, but he must feel guilty for other people in the family who live upright and work hard. "

Zhen Ai's face turned red and white, clutched the cup, her mind went blank, as if she had been thrown in a vast icy and snowy field, cold, confused, at a loss, with no direction.

Annie looked at Yan Su's white shirt and said, "Look, he's injured again."

Zhen Ai felt desolate in her heart, but she was not reconciled, and provoked almost venting: "When the current research is completed, I will terminate the cooperation with you, no matter what happens to me and him."

Annie didn't believe it, and said lightly: "But I don't think you will leave the mess left by your mother alone."

Zhen Ai was stymied, feeling greatly frustrated.

The rivalry and temper tantrum just now were actually unreasonable troubles. What Annie said was right. Now she really wants to become an unreasonable and willful girl, but she is not after all.

As if at this moment, her childhood docile personality finally prevailed, she was silent for a long time: "How can you guarantee my safety next time?"

"Ever since you ran to Columbia University to attend lectures, they have tracked your whereabouts. You should be clear that you are not an ordinary person, and you can't go where you want to go." Anne said, "I remember that before Irving, the former The agent just died, and you were conflicted. Say..."

"Live underground for the rest of your life?" Zhen Ai said for her expressionlessly.

At that time, she had been living in seclusion, and accidents would happen occasionally when she went to crowded places.After changing several agents, she blamed herself deeply and said that she would live in the underground laboratory forever and do research without protection.

At that time, she didn't think it was a difficult thing, and she was used to it.But out of mental health considerations, the higher authorities did not isolate her from the outside world.

On the way back in the limo car, Zhen Xinxin was cold, she had never been so desperate like this moment.

She knew that besides Owen, there were often other people secretly protecting her.Without the witness protection program, she would have been caught by Arthur in no time.Now he has been slow to do anything, but because he has his eyes on Yan Su.

Perhaps it was time to change identities again and disappear from this new world.

She buried her head in Yan Su's chest, refusing to raise her face to look at him, but just hugged him tightly, like a child hugging the only toy.

In the past, she felt that time stood still, doing endless experiments day after day, year after year, and being a small robot was fine.Locked in the laboratory, after many years, dying at his own job, he was happy.

A person lives without any contact with this world, and dies without any worries.It's fine, it suits her well.

But now she doesn't want to leave, in her life, there is only him as the only light, how can she be willing to give up.Just thinking about never seeing him again, her heart hurt like a knife.

She never knew what loneliness and loneliness are, but now it has changed, she loves him.

If I go back again, my heart can't go back.If she was alone, thinking about him every day, how could she survive such a long life?
But as Annie hinted, he brought her endless hope and happiness, while she brought him endless pain and disaster.

Emotional bumps appear, and reason is also confused.She suddenly felt that her life was really ignorant and presumptuous.A person like her is actually not suitable for Su Yan at all.He is so nice, but what about her?
From childhood to adulthood, her life circle was extremely simple.No one taught her right and wrong.She didn't know what the outside world was like, and once thought that what Arthur and the others did was natural and legitimate.

Sometimes I think too much and I don't even know.Is the justice and fairness defined by the outside world correct?It's just that everyone stands in their own position, unites people with the same position to form a group, and speaks in defense of their own organization.

Just like Su Qi, she has gone through two extremes.Is she right or wrong?

Zhen Ai couldn't figure it out.She doesn't know what is the definition of good and bad in her heart, and often there is no clear standard, she just does it as she pleases, and doesn't want to make her feel uncomfortable and guilty.

But now, she didn't do anything, but there was an inextricable pain and self-blame in her heart.I suddenly remembered that when I read the biography of Mandela when I was young, when the freedom fighter was imprisoned in Robben Island Prison, he said: Sometimes, some things are destined to disappear, no matter how hard you try, you can’t save it from disappearing. It’s futile in the end. .

In her heart, pessimism was spreading.

Seeing that she was in a bad mood, Yan Su pressed close to her forehead: "What's wrong?"

She was very confused, her eyes were empty: "SA, the mysterious person behind Su Qi is Bert, it must be Bert."

He was not surprised: "I roughly guessed it."

Zhen Ai's head hurts badly: "SA, I don't like the righteous people who protect me now, they always say things that make me hate myself and despise myself, it always makes my heart ache." She grabbed his arm, speaking incoherently,
"I know it's ridiculous to say these things, but I never felt that there was anything wrong with Bert's behavior before. He has always been the boy I grew up with. He was a family member because of his maintenance. Although I It shouldn't be said, but before I left the organization, I was never ashamed of what I did, and now, I feel ashamed every moment."

Yan Su's eyes dimmed, his arms slid down, and he hugged her trembling body tightly, trying to give her strength, but her confusion and fear came from the bottom of her heart, and even her voice trembled: "Since I escaped, I've been very nervous." Clearly, I am a bad person and a devil. I dare not look up in front of the CIA and them, and dare not look into their eyes. I hate them!"

Her eyes were teary, full of horror, and she spoke faster and faster, completely confused: "SA, what if I just escaped from one organization and entered another? No, I shouldn't have said that. They were right, I But I quarreled with them, and said angry words and refused to work again. How could I not make up for the sins committed by my mother? How could I..."

"Ai, don't say it." Seeing that she was almost out of control, he pressed his cheek against her lips, "I understand, don't say it."

His lips were pressed against her ear, and his heartbeat was disordered.She has always been quiet, but at this moment she is slightly flustered because of her confusion and wavering.

He knew that she was bullied; he didn't protect her well; she was restless and panicked; but there was nothing he could do.

Suddenly, a ridiculous idea popped into his mind, she felt that the outside world was not as good as a spa, and wanted to go back?
He froze suddenly, subconsciously tightened his arms, and pressed her slender body into his arms.The voice was soft: "Ai, what's the matter? Why are you confused, why don't you have confidence?" His voice is low and mellow, like a piano.

Zhen Ai was bound in his arms, feeling very sad.He can always give her warmth easily, and let her sense of grievance permeate, her voice choked up: "Why are you never confused, why are you always confident, how do you know that what you insist on right now is right?"

She actually wanted to ask, how do you know that the person you like now is your ideal lover?
But she dare not.Afraid to remind him.

Yan Su's hanging heart sank slowly. He was not in a hurry when he was suspected by Les before, but now he experienced the feeling of being a prisoner and then being released.She was bound too tightly by him, and her breathing was a little messy, but she didn't want to break away as usual, instead, a koala hugged his waist tightly like a twig.

He let her drill into his heart, and after half a second, he kissed her hair:

"Ai, I insist on the correctness in my heart, but I don't think it is absolute. Everyone has their own ruler in their hearts. When your thoughts collide with others, if you don't know how to guard your own heart, you will be shaken. I I don’t follow anyone, and I don’t attach myself to any force; maybe because of this, I’m always firm. But, that’s not what you want to ask, right?”

He let her go slightly, held her face in his palms, his palms were warm, his eyes were clear, and he looked straight into her heart: "Ai, please believe in my eyes, especially my eyes on women." He saw her again mind.

Zhen Ai was shocked calmly in her heart, with her small face in his palm, staring at him quietly.

He lowered his head slightly, pressing his forehead against hers: "Ai, I hope you can do what you want in the future.

If you feel that you actually like your current job, put aside the emotions, or guilt, or burdens you have imposed on it, and do it as a simple job.If you choose this path, I am willing to change my identity with you;
If you are tired of it, please put down all the baggage and follow me easily.No need for witness protection, I protect you.We traveled through Cuba and traveled the world.If you are afraid that someone will recognize me and hurt me, I don't mind ruining my current appearance. "

Zhen Xinxin was shocked, when did he make such an important decision on his own?
"why?"

"Because I love you." The first time he said love, he didn't feel confused at all.

In an instant, there was no need to ask many questions, he had already given the most reliable answers.

The first time she heard him say love, she was stunned and didn't respond.He didn't mind either, he took out a letter from the pocket of the windbreaker, and handed it to her: "There is almost no chance for you."

second letter?

Zhen Xin beat faster, and took it, a white envelope with red rose sealing paste printed on it.She immediately thought of the picture: the classical desk clock on the desk walked quietly, he sat with his head bowed at the desk and rustled his pen, his profile was peaceful and meaningful

Open it, the thick paper, the handsome and timeless handwriting, still with Chinese and English seals——

"Ai, I love you so much.

You have lived through the darkest pain and suffering and still believe in the best emotions, still pure and good, still true and dignified.

Some people say that although the world is full of suffering, suffering can always be overcome.I would like to look at this sentence from the macro perspective of all mankind. It is always true, because human suffering can always be overcome.But when these words are put on a person, it is a heart-wrenching strength and struggle.And from you, I can see that even though you are full of scars, you have overcome the pain and tribulations that befall you in silence time and time again.Never give in, never fall.

I always admire you for being like this.

I believe that there are always a group of people in this world who are walking alone for what is right in their hearts; occasionally confused, never regretting; occasionally tired, and never give up.It is because of this belief that every man who walks alone is never alone.Because we have the same goal, the same persistence.Like I'm always by your side and you're always by my side.

Ai, please don't be afraid, don't feel inferior.Emerson said that only by overcoming fear can one gain the most precious wealth in life.All the suffering you have endured in the past will eventually become the most important treasure. Ai, please believe that your life is not empty, but full of wealth.

I am always in awe of you.

Ai, we all believe that we insist on one thing not because it will be effective, but because we firmly believe that it is right to do so.

How difficult it is to do this.Who can persevere on such a lonely road?

But you, such a thin little girl, where did you come from such firm belief, such persistent perseverance, and you persisted more times in the experiments that failed and seemed to have no effect!

For you like this, I always have admiration.

Ai, I really like you.

Ai, I love you.

SAYAN."

Zhen Ai closed her eyes tenderly, tears of happiness slowly fell, as if she had been soaked in warm water, a feeling of warmth and tranquility penetrated into her limbs.

For a long time to come, whenever she thought of that letter, she would feel warmth in her bones.

Yan Su, once, I was so worried, so ashamed of myself, so ashamed of my past.But your liking, your approval, and your approval pulled me up from the dust.

I like you so much, I like myself when I'm with you.

So bright, so warm.

May this moment stay forever.

May I be with you forever.

Zhen Ai was lying on the edge of the bathing pool with half of her eyes slightly closed, the sound of running water gurgling beside her ears, she seemed to see the warmth of spring, the blue sky and the sea.

Yan Su took a shower, changed into clean white clothes and pants, and squatted in the pool to wash her hair.She lay lazily, almost fell asleep in such a leisurely state, and suddenly woke up, raising her eyes to stare at Yan Su.He rolled up his sleeves, revealing his white and thin arms.He supported her head with one hand, and gently rubbed her hair with the other.

White foam jumped between his fingertips and her hair, slippery and exuding a very faint fragrance.It's his shampoo, it smells very comfortable, not aggressive at all, it's elegant and distant, just like him.

His slender fingertips scratched her hair root and scalp, making it tingle and itchy to the bottom of her heart.Her consciousness was loose, and she inexplicably felt that they were like two animals who could not speak but could only express their love with body language.Sitting in the sun, put away the sharp claws, and use your fingers to comb each other's hair clumsily and intimately.

Many animals attract and distinguish lovers by smell, and now he has painted her head with his scent.She also used his soap to take a bath just now.Now, she smells like him from head to toe.Well, she's still in his den.

It was frivolous, but she wasn't shy about the thought.

Yan Su washed her carefully, and rinsed her with warm water. Guided by his fingers, the warm water flowed through her hair.

Zhen Ai closed her eyes and enjoyed it, like a lazy cat sleeping in the winter sun, her heart was infinitely relaxed and comfortable, she moved her body lazily.She twisted her shoulders and put her arms around his waist. Without knowing this movement, her long hair flicked over and wet his trouser legs.He didn't mind, carefully covered her ears, and slowly buffered the water.

"As far as I remember, Chace had curly brown hair," he said.

"Yeah." She closed her eyes, "His hair color is like my mother's, and his eyes are dark blue." Unlike either of her parents, she has dark eyes, and her hair is also black with a flaxen color. like grandma.

After washing, Yan Su put a big towel over her shoulders, helped her up, wrapped her head in another towel and rubbed gently.

(End of this chapter)