I loved you so deeply

Chapter 24 Heartbeat (4)
Pang Zheng's grandfather's physical examination was very crowded. Several experts and directors from the hospital were waiting at the door early in the morning. The nurse was pushing a wheelchair and holding a blanket. Zhan hummed twice in dissatisfaction.

"Hey, even the wheelchair is used. Why, my old man is useless?" The old man was wearing a gray hat and a thick navy-style cotton jacket. .He tapped the wheelchair with his cane, full of air, "Take it for me, I don't need this thing!"

Pang Zheng supported him, knowing that the old man wanted to be strong, he had spent half his life in heaven and earth, and when he was old, he had to use a wheelchair even for medical examinations, so he was inevitably upset.

He persuaded: "There are so many people in the hospital, it's not because you are afraid that your legs and feet will not be good. If you bump into them, they will not be able to explain it, so you will just let it go."

A nurse behind him helped the old man sit in a wheelchair and pushed him into the building. The attending physician in charge of the physical examination took the medical records and explained to Pang Zheng as he walked: "I have read the data from the Sanya Nursing Home. Some things are inaccurate and can’t be used, and I can’t judge whether the old man has postoperative complications in his brain, and the occasional aphasia and ignorance you mentioned don’t rule out the relationship between his age.”

The attending doctor and Pang Zheng have dealt with each other several times before, and they are considered acquainted: "It takes a day to do a comprehensive and systematic inspection. If you have something to do, go to it first. We will follow the old chief here, so don't worry about it."

Pang Zheng always cared about the old man's affairs: "Let's just follow along. He's getting older and his personality is becoming more and more unpredictable. He can't tell when he will lose his temper with you. I'm here, so he can feel at ease."

The attending doctor smiled considerately, and the two walked quickly to the medical examination center.

A series of blood tests, the old man was tortured enough.Pang Zheng stayed close to him the whole time, and always followed him. When taking off his shoes, he knelt down and carefully untied the old man's shoelaces. When he needed to take off his clothes and listen to his heart, he stood aside quietly with the old man's padded jacket. After the inspection was completed, I dressed my grandfather as soon as possible, for fear that he would catch a cold.

Pang Zheng is as obedient as the most filial and patient junior in an ordinary family, without the absurd and arrogant style of those rumored second-generation ancestors.

The director of Midway Hospital came to visit the old man, and praised Pangzheng when he saw this: "You have spent all your life in vain, and you have a good grandson. When you persuaded you to send him to the army, you didn't agree with anything. If you understand it, staying by your side is better than anything else when it comes in handy."

The old man was very happy when he heard that, he smiled, and looked at Pang Zheng with a little more pride in his eyes: "This kid can't do it, he is not born to fight, no better than yours."

Because there is a test that needs to be done by the orthopedic department with a special instrument, and that kind of instrument is only available in outpatient clinics, Pang Zheng went to arrange for the old man first.

Entering the outpatient hall, a woman came in front of me.

The woman was wearing an ankle-length aqua blue coat with her hair covered, and her voice was pleasantly surprised and soft: "Ah Zheng?"

When Pang Zheng heard the sound, he turned his head and paused.

Holding the film and some receipts in her hand, Bai Ziqing was looking at him closely, extremely surprised.She trotted for two steps and hurried to Pang Zheng: "Why are you here? Are you sick?"

People who haven't seen each other for a long time meet in such a sudden way, it is impossible to be caught off guard.

Pang Zheng looked at Bai Ziqing for a few seconds, her lightly curved eyebrows, almond eyes, and thin and high nose bridge, everything was the same as when she met her, and there has been no change in the past few years.

He looked away from her face lightly: "No, I'm here to accompany grandpa for a medical examination." Seeing the CT (X-ray image) and medical records in her hand, he asked, "Why are you here too? "

Bai Ziqing took the CT scan behind her back: "It's an old problem, let's have a re-examination."

Bai Ziqing is a professional dancer. The old problem she mentioned is the old disease that caused the ligament torn during the dance practice. When the season changes or it rains, the ankle will be swollen.

Pang Zheng nodded, not wanting to ask any more questions.The two stood facing each other like this, there was no more topics to talk about for a while, and the atmosphere was delicate and awkward.

After waiting for a few more seconds, Pang Zheng said first, "Is your father better?"

As soon as this was mentioned, Bai Ziqing's expression darkened, and she shook her head helplessly: "I'm already undergoing the second phase of treatment, and I've been using drugs to control it. I hope it will work. Speaking of which, I really want to thank you. If it weren't for your help to find a doctor, I'm afraid it won't last that long."

"Hands up."

Another long silence.

Pang Zheng turned his head to look out the window, and then looked back: "I'll go first."

"Ah Zheng!" Bai Ziqing called out to him, with a look of obvious loss on her face, "Do we have to do this?"

"Do you have to communicate like a stranger? Do you have to be so polite and unfamiliar? Do you feel good about torturing me like this? I know you hate me, and I know you can't let go of what happened back then. I told you, I There is a reason—" Bai Ziqing became more and more uncontrollable as she spoke, and the last few words were accompanied by a faint crying sound.

She stepped forward and grabbed Pang Zheng's arm, tears streaming down her face: "I have never betrayed you, Tan Yu and I are really not what you think, it's just that many things happened during that time, I really can't help it, I don’t know how to tell you. Ah Zheng, I’m back now, and I’ll never leave again. We…”

"Ziqing." Pang Zheng turned his back to her, straightened his back, and stopped her indifferently, "I'm married."

Bai Ziqing was stunned, and murmured, "So?"

"The woman your father forced you to marry because of your comradeship? Do you want to take care of her faithfully for the rest of your life? Pang Zheng, do you love her?" She took his hand and placed it on his chest stubbornly, "Do you dare to touch your heart and tell me you love her?"

Pang Zheng watched Bai Ziqing's red eyes, and slowly said, "Love."

Holding his hand suddenly lost strength: "Then what am I? What are the years I have been with you? Because I have been away for a while, you just got angry and married another woman. Is this fair to me? ? is it fair to yourself?"

"Leaving for a while?" Pang Zheng looked at Bai Ziqing with a look of compassion, "So that's how you define it."

During that year, his brother took his fiancée away and left him, besides an empty soul longing for stability and warmth, there was also a financial situation beyond his means and countless messes waiting for him to deal with.

He had given himself hope countless times in his heart, he thought she would come back, he thought there was room for him and her to make amends.

But what did time leave for him, as a mature man's intolerance of betrayal and refusal to admit defeat, as a proud man's unique mental cleanliness and his fiancée's distrust of him.

He believed that she had reasons, and he knew it, but he couldn't accept the reason.

Bai Ziqing cried so much that it reminded him of how many years ago when he went to the rehearsal room to watch her perform, she sprained her foot due to a mistake and was disqualified from being the lead dancer by the dance troupe. At that time, she was crying like this in his arms .

As time goes by, beautiful women change.

Even if nothing remains the same, the original youthful feelings will eventually be gone.

Pang Zheng sighed helplessly, and reached out to wipe the tears on her face.There are people coming and going in the hospital, and some people look sideways from time to time.

"Ziqing, don't waste your time on something meaningless."

Bai Ziqing stared at him stubbornly, then slowly lowered her head, and after she calmed down, she took a step back to distance herself from Pang Zheng.

"Okay, then let's be more mature." She took a deep breath, "Ah Zheng, I hope we can sit down and have a good talk if we have the chance. Pity."

Pang Zheng was noncommittal: "There is a chance."

It seemed that someone was calling her outside the gate on the first floor. Bai Ziqing took a look and hurriedly collected her emotions: "The manager of my dance company is still waiting for me outside, and I forgot to tell you when I came back. There are ten performances in total, every weekend at the concert hall, if you have time, you can bring your wife to watch."

"Wait." Pang Zheng called to stop her.

Bai Ziqing turned her head expectantly: "What?"

He considered for a few seconds: "Leon, are you still there?"

"Oh, you said it." Bai Ziqing smiled, "I stayed at home in Beijing, and now I am very healthy, but I am a little old and lazy."

Pang Zheng nodded calmly.

When he watched Bai Ziqing leave the gate of the hospital, a strong call suddenly came from behind him.

The old man next to him was pushed by the nurse and was watching him not far away.

Pang Zheng's heart tightened, and he walked quickly: "Why did you come out? Didn't you say that I will pick you up when it's done?"

The old man's eyesight was not good, he squinted his eyes and looked at the gate for a long time: "Who were you talking to just now?"

"A friend." Pang Zheng didn't want to talk more, took the wheelchair from the nurse, and pushed Grandpa inside, "You don't know him."

The old man got angry, picked up his crutches and beat Pang Zheng violently: "You are talking nonsense! Would I not know Bai Ziqing? I have talked with you for several years and sent photos home, can I not know?"

Pang Zheng wanted to hide but didn't dare to do so, so he was hit hard a few times, grinning his teeth in pain.

"Old man, tell me the truth, do you have any sequelae?" He grabbed Grandpa's crutches and snatched them into his own hands, "The nurse said that your memory is not very good over there, and you always forget things, I see you It's a pretty good memory."

The old man snorted twice in anger, his eyes sparkled: "I forget the other things, but I can't forget about your kid even if I lie in the coffin!"

"When you were three years old, your mother sent your mother to my house. On the first day, the house was turned upside down. Your grandma hugged you and coaxed you all night. It didn't work. When you were eight years old, you climbed the wall and hit the glass of others in primary school, and let the teacher I caught the present, I was in a meeting, and calling me to school would be an education. And you went to junior high school, and Song Fanghuai and the gang secretly went to the research institute to look at models in my name..." The old man got more and more The more I talked, the more I learned, the old man realized that he was off topic, "Don't give me a sloppy eye. I am old now and my memory is bad, but I am not confused. I can tell who is who. I asked You, why are you still in contact with that girl surnamed Bai? You are married and have a wife, do you know that?"

The old man has been upright all his life, and he hates the virtue of Pang Zheng the most: "Let me ask you, how is that girl Gu Jin? Is life not going well?"

Pang Zheng and the old man never lied, and they confessed generously: "Where did you go, I met her by accident, her father got cancer and was treated here, I helped find a doctor, it's that simple."

"Cancer." The old man sighed, "It's quite pitiful, but favors come and go. Can you guarantee that you will never contact her again?"

Pangzheng was silent.

"So, you have to keep yourself clean. Those who are already married, don't provoke those who are unhappy outside. Just now I saw that girl has a thin body. If you dare to be sorry, I will be the first to deal with you!"

"You are towards her."

When Gu Jin was mentioned, the old man just laughed: "I like it, why don't I like it, that girl has a straightforward temper, doesn't twitch, and treats you well, you two have been doing well recently?"

Thinking of Gu Jin's heartless face, Pang Zheng smiled unconsciously: "Okay. Very good."

(End of this chapter)