I loved you so deeply

Chapter 6 First Acquaintance (1)
He looked at the girl standing by the table with a pair of introverted and deep eyes, with a calm expression, and the two of them met their eyes. He stretched out his hand to her across the table and shook it politely: "Hello, Pang Zheng."

Gu Jin opened her eyes angrily, and she could see that Pang Zheng was really happy, smiling so much that even the shallow lines in the corners of her eyes could be clearly seen.

Gu Jin felt that she was being teased by him, snapped Pang Zheng's hand away, and wanted to turn around and leave, but he kept holding her arm.Gu Jin gave up completely, anyway, in front of him, her sense of existence with that little face was almost zero: "What do you really want?"

Pang Zheng pursed his lips, and suddenly took off his gloves, gently rubbed the corner of Gu Jin's forehead with his warm fingertips, and pressed down meaningfully.

Gu Jin suddenly realized that it was the place that was scratched before. After such a long time, a layer of scab fell off, revealing the newly grown skin, and only a very shallow mark remained.

"What I said that day was not what you understood."

Gu Jin was at a loss for words, and suddenly became dull, she didn't expect him to bring up this matter again.Pang Zheng withdrew his hand lightly, took her hand very naturally, and put it in his coat pocket.

Gu Jin's hand was small and thin, and it felt soft in the palm of his hand.

"Chen Zhanbei didn't call me because he wanted to sue me. He was afraid that you would suffer, and he couldn't get involved."

Pang Zheng didn't know why he suddenly explained this to her. He had always adhered to the principle of non-interference and non-interference with Gu Jin. As for whether she was good or bad, and the trivial things in her life, he didn't want to ask, nor did he want to Know.

But whenever he thinks of her in his spare time, Pang Zheng can't forget the way she stood arrogantly on the sofa talking to him, angrily, with forbearance and grievance.

"Gu Jin, it's still the same sentence, I don't care what you do outside, it doesn't matter if you kill and set fire, let alone whether you will embarrass me."

Yeah, it doesn't matter, he doesn't care about anything.When we first got married, apart from his familiar friends and relatives of the two families, there were very few people who knew that the two of them were together, so it didn't matter.If one day he really committed murder and set fire to him, it is estimated that the young master next to him would also wave his hands at the police and say, "I don't know this woman."

Gu Jin raised her eyelids, immersed in her own world, and hummed without emotion.

Pang Zheng stretched out his hand to break her face, and stared at her inquiringly: "I mean, what I'm angry about is the way you solve the problem. What are you thinking about in such a mess?"

As if being seen through, Gu Jin felt guilty, and said stiffly: "I didn't think about anything, and I didn't think there was anything wrong with my solution. I was the one who was beaten, not you. Why don't you feel angry..." It's okay if you don't feel bad , and made sarcastic remarks.Of course, Gu Jin didn't dare to say the second half of the sentence.

Good guy, Pang Zheng was so annoyed by her logic: "I have nothing to do with you, it doesn't matter if you beat me up, right? When we got married, we agreed not to interfere with each other. , but it doesn’t mean that I have no responsibility to you. I don’t expect you to be smart outside, but at least you have to learn to protect yourself.”

He added: "There are many ways to solve a problem, but you always choose the most reckless and stupid one."

Pang Zheng is six years older than Gu Jin. Every time the two of them talk about some technical issues, he always behaves like this. He doesn't argue with her, but he doesn't allow her to refute. In the past few years, Bai Fan has taught her at the height of her age.

Gu Jin wanted to defend himself: "But everyone thinks differently, you can't use your thinking to judge me, besides..."

"Shut up." Pang Zheng threatened her, and her hand, which was in his coat pocket, was clenched even tighter by him as if warning, "Just listen to me if I tell you, why are there so many nonsense."

Gu Jin was dragged by him to walk out of the community. He took a long step, and Gu Jin was always half a beat behind him.Following behind Pang Zheng, where he couldn't see, Gu Jin suddenly smiled secretly.That kind of smile is satisfying and can make the haze of these days go away.

Pang Zheng's car was parked at the gate of the University of Finance and Economics. Gu Jin was very familiar with the vicinity. It was cold, so Gu Jin took him to take a shortcut from a small road inside his alma mater.

The two were chatting on the road, and Pang Zheng asked her, "Is this where you studied for four years in college?"

"Yes." Gu Jin nodded, "At first I wanted to apply for engineering, but I missed the exam by three points, so I was taken away by the University of Finance and Economics."

She pointed to several buildings in the school familiarly and introduced to him: "This is the School of Business Administration, and the other is where graduate students and the Department of Finance are taught. The school pays special attention to them. They are air-conditioned in summer and heated in winter. When it comes to us, You have to bring your own electric fan and hot water bottle for class."

When mentioning college life, Gu Jin was very excited.Pang Zheng couldn't bear to disappoint, so he continued to ask: "Then do you usually eat in the cafeteria? Or go home?"

He studied at university in Beijing. He didn't attend classes very seriously every day, and never lived on campus. He drove his own car to and from school. He went abroad to Australia within two years of studying. Quite interested.

Gu Jin shook her head: "I don't eat much in the cafeteria. I went there a few times during my freshman year, and then I ordered takeaway. I secretly got a rice cooker in the dormitory, and occasionally had a dental feast with my roommate. Every weekend or when there are not many classes Go home and help my mother wash clothes and do some work."

Holding hands, the two passed through several gray buildings that looked a bit dilapidated, and passed by trees that blocked the view.Gu Jin popularized knowledge for him: "This is a dormitory, one for men and one for women. I was afraid that the buildings would be too close together in summer, so I blocked the windows with trees. Here, the building on the left is the third apartment where I live. .”

At around [-] o'clock in the evening, the students were resting in the dormitory, and the lights were brightly lit. Occasionally, a couple who came back from eating outside were standing downstairs in the apartment and saying goodbye.Gu Jin led Pang Zheng around a corner, and happened to meet a couple who were so close to each other.

Gu Jin glanced at it, her face was hot, she quickly lowered her head and dragged Pang Zheng to walk faster.

Pang Zheng followed slowly: "Why are you walking so fast?" He pulled Gu Jin back, and then glanced back at the young couple gossipingly, "I haven't seen the world, you didn't follow me when you were in college. Has anyone ever been in love?"

Gu Jin was speechless, she walked so fast that she didn't want to disturb others, okay?They all came here in their early twenties, and they know how embarrassing it is to be seen at this time.She rolled her eyes: "Which of us has never seen the world? I don't want to be a light bulb like you."

Pang Zheng grasped the point of the question, and asked her again: "Have you never kissed anyone like this before?"

Without squinting, Gu Jin said simply, "No, I never fell in love when I was in college."

She spoke very fast, as if deliberately hiding her embarrassment and guilt.A girl who entered the university campus and studied for four years, the best time of which was missing the item of love, it always feels a bit awkward to say it.Strolling hand in hand with lovers on campus, eating together, texting and complaining about the teacher in the classroom, and kissing together downstairs in the apartment, these ordinary trivial and warm little things, for Gu Jin, only had expectations in the past, After going to college, those expectations gradually turned into a regret in my heart.

Pang Zheng looked disbelieving, seeing her embarrassment: "Isn't Fu Anchang?"

"He was three years older than me, and he was almost graduating when I entered school."

When Gu Jin said this, her cheeks were slightly red, and her tone was very stiff.

There were several snowfalls in winter, and a thin layer of ice formed on the road. It was not thick, but it was very slippery to walk on. Gu Jin kept staring at the road under her feet carefully, and stopped talking.Pang Zheng followed her and walked silently for a few seconds, feeling bad in his heart, and tripped Gu Jin with his foot behind without any trace.

Gu Jin was wearing boots, the soles of his feet slipped, he staggered, and subconsciously grabbed Pang Zheng.

Pang Zheng clenched her hand in the coat pocket and lifted her with his arm.

Because his left hand was in his pocket and his right hand was supported by him, the position of the two became facing each other, Gu Jin was still in shock, her eyes were wide open.

Pang Zheng's hand was still firmly on her arm, and he had no intention of leaving.The two stood under the streetlight behind the apartment building, and few people passed by around. He asked her without thinking: "Is it a pity?"

He stared at her very closely, Gu Jin felt a little uncomfortable, and swallowed: "What?"

Gu Jin thought he was talking about himself and Fu Anchang, and didn't know how to answer the conversation.Pang Zheng didn't explain, instead he licked the corner of his mouth and smiled, tilted his head, and glanced pointedly at the kissing couple in the woods behind him.Gu Jin understood, what he said was very regrettable, not referring to Fu Anchang.

"What floor do you live on?"

He changed his thinking mode too quickly, and Gu Jin was a little slow, and it took him a long time to say: "The third floor." After speaking, he pointed to the lighted window above his head cutely: "That's it."

Pang Zheng looked up and was facing the grove.He conceived the scene in his mind: Gu Jin in his student days, after dinner, lying on the window sill bored, leisurely looking at the separated couple downstairs, his eyes were flat.

He suddenly wanted to try what it felt like.

Pang Zheng exhaled a faint white cold mist, and because Gu Jin raised his head to point him to the window, he opened his lips slightly, and he bowed his head and kissed it.

A kiss that caught people off guard, with a cool feeling, got into Gu Jin's mouth.

He kissed very badly, with one hand on the back of her neck, forcing her not to lower her head, in order to keep her from making a sound, he pried her teeth open, and his lips pressed against each other, soft, strange, cold, and A little palpitation.

Gu Jin's mind went blank.

In her memory, she has never had such a deep lip-to-mouth communication with Pang Zheng. At most, it was just a fleeting or comforting hug from him, which felt like coaxing a puppy.

He kissed earnestly, seemed to be obsessed with this feeling, with his eyes half downcast.Gu Jin was so nervous that she forgot to close her eyes. She clenched her hands into fists and put them behind his back. The feeling on her lips was suddenly magnified infinitely.

That feeling was different from the superficial kiss he gave her at the wedding. This time, it was deep, without so many people watching, less acting, and more tenderness.

Gu Jin slowly closed her eyes, tentatively, and carefully licked along his lips, in exchange for a stronger response from him.

Under the dim streetlights of the school, at the corner of the old gray apartment building, two or three people passed by behind them. When they saw them, they looked at each other and smiled, and hurried away silently.Gu Jin was half embraced by Pang Zheng, like the most common loving couple on campus.

After a long while, Pang Zheng let her go, looked at her two lips that were rosy and plump from the kiss by the streetlight, and smiled imperceptibly.

The kissing skills are jerky, but I really didn't lie.

He grabbed her hand that was red from the cold, put it into the coat pocket again, and walked forward with his usual expression, striding forward, as if he had experienced a very normal thing.

"go home."

Gu Jin followed behind him with a flushed face, with a joyful smile on her lips.

Picking up the car at the school gate and going home, Pang Zheng unexpectedly didn't go out again, and he didn't even ring his cell phone.Gu Jin also took a shower and changed clothes, lying on the floor of the living room, playing flying chess in boredom.

There are two pots of flowers on the balcony that need to be replaced with soil. Pang Zheng is not at home these days, and the two pots of flowers are about to dry out as expected.She wanted to buy this flower at the beginning, but she didn't grow it after buying it, so she threw it on the balcony to bask in the sun every day, in the name of carrying out photosynthesis to cultivate oxygen.When the weather was cold, Pang Zheng changed the soil and took them to the small balcony in the north. There was a glass cover outside, like a small greenhouse.

Gu Jin lay lazily on the ground, watching Pang Zheng busy up and down, she began to play tricks: "Pang Zheng, remember to fertilize! Don't use the green bag, it's out of season, use the pink bag .

"Then you wipe the table under the flower pot. Yesterday when I went to see it, there was a layer of dust on it. I didn't get up early, so I forgot about it.

"Pang Zheng, put your dirty clothes in the laundry basket after changing, don't throw them around! It got mixed up with my pajamas last time! I washed them twice!"

She chattered non-stop and didn't exert any effort. When she got tired of flying chess, she turned over and read magazines on the carpet.Pang Zheng didn't move for a long time, and when Gu Jin was about to fall asleep, he came in from the outside with his hands covered in dirt, and when he opened the door, he felt cold all over his body.

Gu Jin removed the magazine, revealing two eyes: "You're so dirty!"

"It seems like this is all your job?"

Gu Jin flicked through the magazine, imitating his example and said lazily: "Those who are able should work harder."

Pang Zheng raised his hands. He wanted to go to the bathroom to take a shower. He went in and thought about it, washed his hands clean, and came out again.Gu Jin still kept the posture just now, wearing a fluffy rabbit pajamas.She took off her makeup, her skin was clear, and she had a clean and comfortable smell all over her body.

Pang Zheng wanted to tease her, so he bent down, deliberately getting very close to her face.Gu Jin opened his eyes and looked at him: "What are you doing?"

"Downstairs in the dormitory tonight, what are you thinking about with your eyes closed?" He deliberately elongated his tone, slowly moved his head closer, grabbed Gu Jin's arm with both hands and raised it above his head, and put one hand into her waist ,"Won't……"

The two got closer and closer, Pang Zheng lowered his head, looking at her lips that didn't smell of any makeup, his Adam's apple rolled up and down unconsciously.He couldn't tell the smell of Gu Jin's body, it wasn't the smell of perfume, but he was most familiar with it, every time he got closer to her, he could smell it, it was the smell of shampoo mixed with the faint scent of her body.

At this moment, Gu Jin was so nervous that her body tensed up, her round eyes were open, she looked like a lamb waiting to be slaughtered.She thought, even if Pang Zheng really wanted to do something at this time, she would not refuse.

The atmosphere suddenly became ambiguous, he grabbed her two arms with one hand and raised them above his head, half pressing on Gu Jin's body.His eyes were so dark that Gu Jin could clearly see herself in his pupils.he has outside air

The cold breath, and the faint smell of tobacco.

The two looked at each other for more than ten seconds, and Gu Jin suddenly remembered what Gu's mother asked him about the child today.

She was so nervous that she swallowed a mouthful of saliva.

"I really think so..." Pang Zheng smiled sullenly, pulling away the distance between himself and Gu Jin.

"Fart, I'm afraid you'll hit me!"

Pang Zheng frowned: "Don't swear!"

"Didn't swear! It doesn't count!" Gu Jin stood up and almost knocked Pang Zheng's chin. She accused Pang Zheng, "The perfume on your body is too strong, it makes people's eyes hurt. Say, go Where have you fooled around?"

Pang Zheng was pushed down by her, and carelessly put one hand on the ground, nonchalantly: "How do you know it's someone else's, not yours?"

Gu Jin pinched her waist, twitched the corners of her mouth and sneered, very proudly: "Because once you smell it, you won't be as expensive as me." She lowered her head and leaned over to sniff at his collar, like a kitten, "You still take it?" kiss."

She was declarative, and Pang Zheng didn't answer, still looking at her nonchalantly.

Gu Jin stared at him for a while, probably feeling that this was boring, so she patted her ass and went back to the room.

The door of her bedroom was slightly locked, and through a door, the expressions of everyone inside and outside the door changed.

Gu Jin pressed against the door panel tightly, then slowly closed her eyes with a slight trembling.Just a wall away from him, Gu Jin's strong psychological defense tonight completely collapsed, she almost, almost compromised with the side government.

She can ignore his whereabouts for many days, she can ignore where he is staying today and tomorrow, and who is by his side, but she can't stand him being kind to her.That kind of kindness will give Gu Jin the illusion that he loves her, even if it is his protection out of responsibility and teasing out of his stubborn mentality.

In her obsession with Pang Zheng for hundreds of days and nights, Gu Jin always thought that loving him was only her business.

In the huge living room, Pang Zheng was still in the same posture that was pushed away by Gu Jin before, he slowly lowered the corners of his mouth, and after a while he smiled softly again, that smile was ironic, self-deprecating, and helpless.

He was testing Gu Jin in this way, he was betting on her reaction, she didn't hide, she didn't even resist, this was what Pang Zheng was most afraid of.

(End of this chapter)