Sir, I will not marry!

Chapter 81 Shen Ling Yexin Chapter [-]

Is Jiang Xiaonuan's father a murderer?

Does Jiang Xiaonuan know?

She said she was an orphan, but what about her mother?died?Or abandon her and go?
With Jiang Xiaonuan's father surfaced, Jiang Xiaonuan's background became more and more confusing.

Shen Lingye couldn't help but think of Jiang Xiaonuan's negativity after the dinner that day, and her hysterical outburst in his bathroom bathtub.

How much does she know about her life experience?Just, to what extent do you know?
Shen Lingye is a man, dignity and self-esteem play an important role in a man's heart that women will never understand.

Regarding the accident more than 20 years ago, Jiang Xiaonuan's mother was a participant, but Shen Lingye was unable to ask Jiang Xiaonuan directly.Not now, nor ever.Because in that accident, he was the weakest party, he was bullied, despised, and tortured.

Shen Lingye didn't want anyone to know about such an experience.

The whole morning, Shen Lingye was in the study.There was a pile of documents to be processed on his desk, but what was going on in his mind was what Shi Yuan had just said to him.

He picked up the photo frame on the table, looked at the young self and the woman in the photo, and fell into a kind of silence.

Shen Lingye began to analyze her emotions precisely and methodically, like doing a math problem.

He hated Jiang Xiaonuan's mother, there was no doubt about it.That woman's sharp and ferocious laughter will still appear in Shen Lingye's nightmares to this day.

But what about Jiang Xiaonuan?

Obviously he should hate her continuously, shouldn't he?
However, Shen Lingye could easily find that the initial hatred for Jiang Xiaonuan because of that woman gradually disappeared after a month of contact with Jiang Xiaonuan.

He began to be unable to ignore the hurt expression on Jiang Xiaonuan's face, and the thought of torturing her was also becoming less and less. He even hoped to see her smile at him.

why?

After a series of subjective emotional outbursts, slowly return to rationality?Think it's not her fault?

Shen Lingye was confused.

At eleven noon, Shen Lingye walked out of the study.

Walking around the apartment, he found Jiang Xiaonuan on the balcony.

She is drying clothes.

The sun shone heavily on her freshly washed hair, emitting a faint golden light.

Jiang Xiaonuan was squinting, facing the sun, standing on tiptoe, hanging one of his shirts on top of his head.

The faint smell of laundry detergent permeated the air, permeated little by little, and floated into Shen Lingye's nasal cavity.

Shen Lingye folded her arms and leaned against the glass door frame of the balcony, quietly feeling the strange and strange emotions in her heart.

That's... the smell of home.Warm and quiet, soft and light.

Besides this?
Deeper in his heart, Shen Lingye sensed another emotion.

Hard, cold, numb.

Thus, the doubts that had plagued Shen Lingye all morning seemed to finally have an answer.

No matter what changes in his attitude and behavior because of Jiang Xiaonuan, even if he has such and such emotions in his heart because of her.

However, emotions are just emotions after all, it is a passing cloud after all.

On the contrary, compared with emotions, some things are deeply ingrained and cannot be easily erased.

For example, hate.

Shen Lingye found that he couldn't convince his heart to really get close to her and hug her—that stemmed from the deep-rooted hatred in his heart for more than 20 years.

Jiang Xiaonuan is that woman's daughter.

This is something that Shen Lingye will never forgive - even if it is not Jiang Xiaonuan's fault.

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Author's Note: Love and hatred are not contradictory.The beginning of love is all kinds of wonderful emotions. Although emotions are fleeting, once emotions accumulate to a certain level, love can be precipitated.And true love can definitely counteract hatred.Shen Lingye's psychological state at this stage is very complicated. Of course, he still doesn't understand that his various emotions towards Jiang Xiaonuan at the moment represent love.

(End of this chapter)