Big business guy wants to chase me

Chapter 317 The self-esteem that does not want to be underestimated

"Yeah." To him, I just feel full of apology, and even feel ashamed to face him!

If time owed him anything, then it was a clean Shu Ran.

Now, she is no longer clean, not only her body, but also her heart... is lost on Xi Jincheng.

With her body and mind lost, what qualifications does she have to face his fiery gaze calmly?
This is a kind of self-esteem, the self-esteem that is never willing to let go in front of others, and the self-esteem that does not want to be underestimated, was completely destroyed by that accident!
"During the period before I returned to China, I imagined thousands of scenes of our encounters. I imagined that you were still the same as before, like to laugh, cry, and talk loudly... I even imagined that you would see me and be so happy ..."

"Yuanxiang..." Shu Ran hesitantly interrupted him, frowning, not wanting to hear him mention the sunny memories of the past.

It made her feel ashamed, that kind of deep guilt devoured her last remaining courage to face him, struggling helplessly on the verge of escaping.

"I've imagined countless reasons to see you again, but unfortunately, I didn't guess any of them in the end!" Regardless of her stop, Lin Yuanxiang shook his head and smiled wryly, with loss and pain all over his face.

It wasn't a coincidence that I went to the bar to meet her that night.

He knew everything about her from Yin Fenghua, he knew the reason why she proposed to break up with him in the first place, and he also knew that his fault was so outrageous...

The separation in the past few years was not her fault, but his confusion, his slowness, and his carelessness!It caused her to work so hard alone for so many years, and it caused her to bear such deep resentment from him...

What's even more unforgivable is that he tried so hard to find a second Shu Ran, and started new relationships again and again...

While he was having fun with other women, she was suffering the misery of life here!All this made him wish he could slap himself two... two hundred... two thousand... slaps!

However, when he confessed, repented, and regretted, what made him even more heartbroken was that she already belonged to her!

"Sorry……"

"Ran Ran, don't tell me you're sorry, you didn't say sorry to me!" He looked at her deeply, "I'm the one who said sorry, Fenghua has already told me everything about you, it's my fault! If I hadn't been too impulsive and unwise back then, if I could have calmly analyzed... If I had stayed, maybe..." Maybe it wouldn't be the situation now!

"Yuanxiang, actually, you don't have to blame yourself, it's not your fault!" Shu Ran smiled wryly, he was still as good as before, always blamed himself for everything, never willing to blame her, never willing Blame her, even if she is the one who is really wrong!

She deliberately wanted to hide it from him, and she didn't want him to know, because she didn't want him to ruin his great future because of her!

Didn't he understand what she was thinking at that time?
Now that she is the one who empathized first, why can he still look at her with such affectionate eyes?

How embarrassing is this for her!

"How can I not blame myself? I lost you! I will never find another Shu Ran, you know? If I can insist on staying with you and solving those problems together, we will also It wouldn't be..." His voice stopped suddenly, and in the hidden words, there was a trembling end sound in the eye sockets behind the lens, which was faintly shining.

"Yuanxiang, let the past go! You will definitely find a good girl...a good girl who is ten or a hundred times better than Shu Ran. She must be worthy of your love, worthy of your love, worthy of your love." Go spoil her, but that girl is definitely not me!" She is no longer the Shu Ran she used to be, and she is no longer the pure and noble princess who cannot be tarnished in his eyes!
"Impossible... In this world, there is only one Shu Ran, and you are the only Shu Ran!" It took him so many years to understand this truth!The price he paid was too huge, too heavy, and it was not even within the range he could bear...

"Yuan Xiang, in this world, there is not only one Shu Ran that you can love, you should forget the past..."

"I can't forget! You taught me, you taught me how to forget you!" He crossed the table excitedly, held her hand tightly, and almost spilled the coffee.

"Yuanxiang..." There is a kind of pain, which is piercing and can tear people's hearts apart. She seems to see it in his eyes!
His hand was still as wide as in memory, warm and powerful, wrapping her hand completely...

Just like the picture in memory, the calmness before is trembling today!

Because the steadfastness is gone, replaced by the lost emptiness!
Pulling back her hand vigorously, she picked up the coffee, and when she brought it to her lips, she paused: "When are you going back?" After speaking, she took a sip of the coffee. The black coffee in this shop turned out to be so mellow.

When I used to come here when I was in school, I would always order a cappuccino. Compared with myself at that time, it is like the sweetness of cappuccino and the bitterness of black coffee.

"When I come back this time, I don't plan to go abroad again." Lin Yuanxiang looked at her deeply, he dared not tell her that he came back to find the treasure he had missed.

"Oh." She pretended to be indifferent, and looked evasively at the pedestrians outside the window.

His eyes revealed too much information, these are no longer something she can bear...

"Ran Ran, don't you want to know why I came back?" Her indifference made his heart sink.

"Uncle must want you to come back and inherit his career! After all, you are his only son, and it's also his wish all along." The reason why she opposed them being together at the beginning was because of her family background.She cared about it, and refused to turn to the topic he wanted to talk about.

"Actually, you must know in your heart that I came back not because of my father." Lin Yuanxiang chuckled, frowned with a bitter smile, as smart as she was, how could he fail to see his intentions.

"There's nothing wrong with that, uncle is getting old..."

"Ran Ran, I can't find another Shu Ran!" He impatiently interrupted her evasion, and cut directly to the point.

He just wanted to let her know that his heart for her had not changed, even though he was ready to accept her rejection.

"You shouldn't stay in the past. Shu Ran is not the Shu Ran she used to be." She shook her head, looked him in the eyes very calmly, and expressed her firmness to him.

"In my eyes, you will always be Shu Ran!" Lin Yuanxiang was as firm as her, the only difference was his determination and her escape.

"That's because you've been away for too long." She can no longer be compared to the innocent little girl she used to be. This shady and shady identity made her almost breathless.

"So what if you leave for a long time? Time has not diluted my feelings for you, it just made me know more clearly what kind of place you have in my heart! I can't forget you at all. Even after so many years, I still I love you equally...no, I love you even more! Ranran..."

"But I don't love you anymore." Shu Ran raised her hand and said flatly.

(End of this chapter)