night enchanting

Chapter 89
The heavy snow outside the door was still flying, and the snow on the ground was covered layer by layer, as if it would never end, trying to submerge everything in the world.

The cold wind passed through the window, raising her blood-condensed hair and hitting her face with pain.There was a thick smell of blood in the air, filling her nose and mouth.

Jin Ling didn't know what she was going to do, so he hurriedly stretched out his hand to pull her, but he missed nothing. The body nailed to the ground was throbbing violently, so painful that he couldn't help it several times and almost passed out. A meager gasp remained.

She walked slowly towards Cen Xinyan's direction with heavy steps.

Her misty eyes stared fixedly at her lofty mother, her heart filled with sorrow.Her trembling lips were dark red, stained with Jin Ling's blood.

"Why? Why is it that you are the one who pushes me into desperation every time? Why?" Her trembling voice was filled with too many complicated emotions. It was resentment, hatred, pain, sadness...every one Why, it seemed that she had exhausted all her feelings for her mother.

Her mother bestowed on her, pampered her for seven years and complained for ten years.When misfortune strikes, all the happiness and joy in the past serve as a cruel contrast.

Cen Xinyan's heart trembled fiercely, and the previously flamboyant smile froze on his lips, unable to bring out any more happiness.Her face gradually turned pale, and the button of the mechanism under her hand could not be turned even a little bit.She looked at those eyes full of resentment in shock, and opened her mouth unconsciously, as if she couldn't believe it, or couldn't accept the fact she realized for a while.

An aura of despair filled the silent hall, and everyone seemed to be infected, forgetting that they were still hovering on the verge of fear of imminent death just a moment ago.

The sound of Rumo's slow footsteps echoed above the spacious hall, and the pain that had been suppressed in my heart all year round, followed by the questioning with sadness and resentment, gushed out from my heart, instantly attacking every root in my body nerve.All the memories about my mother swarmed in like a tide, and everything in the past was played back in my mind one by one.

"The ruthless hand on the top of Langya Mountain, the sharp sword on Duanxin Cliff, and the deadly steel needles all over the ground today, as well as the countless conspiracies and schemes, made the only few around me who really treated me sincerely." My people, dead, wounded. Once, twice, three times... I don't remember how many times this is. Do you really want me to die so much? Is my life, Is it perfect if it is destined to end in your hands?"

Every time she said a word, Cen Xinyan's face turned whiter, and finally turned pale, comparable to the cold snow outside the door.She looked at the blood-clothed woman who was full of sorrow, her eyes were so desolate, her tone was so sad, her tear finally slipped out of her eye socket, rolled down, and dried up all over her face. In the blood color, there was an unusually clear white mark.That tear hurt Cen Xinyan's eyes, those memories that she forcibly buried, but appeared in her dreams every night, suddenly flashed.

Ten years ago, when she lost her sense of revenge and brutally pushed her off the cliff, she couldn't believe her eyes.

On the Cliff of Broken Heart, she stabbed her sword into the body of the woman in black, her eyes full of sorrow and sadness under the silver mask, and the tear that fell on the sword in her hand was like an eternal ice thorn , deeply implanted in her heart.She regretted and couldn't sleep day and night, complaining why she couldn't recognize her daughter, but all this now proved that she has been repeating the same mistakes all the time!
Time and time again, she kept hurting her dearest flesh and blood!

She should have recognized her earlier, when she accused Jin Han of being unworthy of being a father, when she asked her how it felt to kill her own child...why, she didn't think of it?Was it just because of her manly attire at the time?No, it's her own fault. She is focused on revenge, only thinking about how to make Jin Han suffer, but she ignores the inexplicable familiarity with her daughter every time.

Ru Mo's footsteps stopped under Majesty Dan, she looked up at her mother, her eyes were filled with tears, her expression was sad and desolate.She thought of the ten years of torture brought to her by life and death Gu, the extreme pain that Nangong Ye endured to detoxify the poison, Weilan's extremely humiliating death, the uncertain life and death of her brother and Can Ge... and many other things. Pain, it seems that everyone around her has been hurt by her mother.

"If it were someone else, I wouldn't be in such pain... But, it's you every time, why is it you every time... You used to be the person I love the most, but you have become the only unfortunate person in my life. Maker. You...how cruel!"

Cen Xinyan tightly covered her mouth with her hands, but she still let out a slight sob. Her thin shoulders trembled violently, large tears fell from her eyes, her eyes were full of grief and regret.The heart fluctuated violently, and all the pain that was usually suppressed came to my heart in an instant, and it was unbearable for a while, and I couldn't breathe, so I coughed violently.

Jin Han had never seen Cen Xinyan who was so full of despair and regret at this moment. All these years, in front of him, she only had feigned happiness and deep-seated hatred, and never had so many strong and complicated emotions.He couldn't help frowning, and looked at Rumo suspiciously, wondering what was the origin of this young woman in front of him, so easily affecting her emotions?Seeing her swaying and unable to stand still, he hurried over to help her, but she slammed him away.

Cen Xinyan looked at him in disgust, his eyes of hatred seemed to kill him.With an excited voice, she shouted to him tremblingly: "Go away, go away. Jin Han, it's all your fault, you are the one who caused all the misfortunes in my life...and me, me, me..." She again It caused Yan'er's misfortune, but she was so heartbroken that she couldn't express it.

"Yan'er, Yan'er...I'm sorry, mother is sorry for you..." She kept repeating this sentence incoherently. She wanted to get close to her daughter, to hold her hand, to touch her face, to help her. She wiped away the tears and blood on her face, just like she did in the past, when she occasionally cried, she held her in her arms and coaxed her tenderly...

However, today is different from the past, and now she can't do anything.She didn't dare to approach her, she was afraid that her bloody hands would dirty the pure and beautiful daughter in her memory.

That familiar call that had been away for ten years made Ru Mo's heart tremble uncontrollably.Not wanting to face her eyes full of pain, she turned her face away, looked at the flying snow outside the window, took a deep breath, and said coldly: "Mother?? You don't deserve this title! Since ten years ago, you From the moment you pushed me off the cliff with your own hands, my beautiful and kind mother has already disappeared in this world. And you... In my eyes, you are just the Queen of the Kingdom of Jin who did everything for revenge. In order to achieve your goal of revenge The purpose is to regard me as a pawn in the game, and cause me to lose the friends I regard as relatives. For your revenge, my father’s whereabouts are unknown, and the life and death of my brother and friends are uncertain... I really don’t know, you want What exactly do you want?"

Her words were like fistfuls of ice blades sharper than the life-threatening steel needles. One knife after another saw Cen Xinyan's heart in pain, making her feel so painful that she was about to suffocate.

Cen Xinyan leaned on the back of the chair, barely supporting his trembling body, the tears in his eyes rolled down more and more violently.Her eyes gradually became confused in the pain, and she kept muttering: "What do I want? I don't know, what do I want? In my life, there is nothing but hatred and regret. What else can I want? This world owes me too much, and I, the most sorry, are you brother and sister... You are right, I am really not worthy of being a mother. You, don't forgive me ..."

"Of course I won't forgive you! Hehe, how could I forgive you?!" Rumo smiled desolately, she brought so much pain to her, she owed her so many lives, how could she forgive?

Although Cen Xinyan always knew that she would not forgive her as a mother, at this moment, hearing her say "I will not forgive" was still a deep blow to her.The ever-increasing pain gradually turned into despair.

She laughed miserably twice, her internal organs seemed to be tangled together, a violent cough followed, and bright red blood slowly flowed out from the corner of her mouth, making her already pale face even more bleak.

That's fine, that's fine too.She suddenly felt tired, very tired, and didn't want to continue entanglement, no matter whether it was hatred, resentment, pain or regret, that's it, it's over.

She curled the corner of her mouth, and there was light in her eyes, which was a kind of imagining of destruction, as well as the desire and yearning for death.

She took out a golden token engraved with the pattern of a fire phoenix from her bosom, and threw it towards Rumo, and Rumo's natural reaction was to reach out to catch it.

Cen Xin said: "Yan'er, your father is locked in the secret room in the basement north of the bedroom where I live, you go and take him away now."

Ru Mo was stunned for a moment, seeing her hand resting on the mechanism button again, she was startled, didn't she let Jin Ling go?What kind of hatred does she have with the Emperor of Jin?
Cen Xinyan turned to look at Jin Han, said with a smile, "Jin Han, what you owe me, let's settle it together today."

Jin Han finally understood that this woman was Xinyan's daughter.Nine years ago, not long after Xinyan came to him, because of her weakness, she caught a cold and became seriously ill. At that time, she had a high fever and was in a daze. She kept crying and crying, repeatedly telling One thing, that is, she killed her own daughter with her own hands.

He glanced at Jin Ling who was lying on the ground unable to move, he had already sent someone to fetch the imperial physician, the two steel needles were nailed too deep, he didn't dare to move him rashly, so he had to let him lie on the cold ground first.

Is this fate?He loved Xinyan, his son, and fell in love with Xinyan's daughter, but sadly, Xinyan's daughter also didn't love his son.

Jin Han looked at Cen Xinyan's smile that seemed to be about to be relieved, and extreme anxiety spread in his heart.He clearly realized that she wasn't trying to scare him, this time, she was serious.He no longer had the previous panic, but said in a very helpless and sad tone: "Xin Yan, the person you hate is me, why let so many innocent people be buried with him?"

innocent? !Cen Xinyan suddenly laughed loudly, the laughter was full of desolation and sadness, his body trembled from laughing, and when he stopped, his eyes were full of hatred.She stared firmly at Jin Han's eyes, the corners of her lips were still curled up in a sneering arc, she opened her mouth slowly, biting her words heavily, and said, "Are you worthy of telling me the word 'innocent'? Ha... this is really true. It's ridiculous! If you talk about innocence, who is as good as my parents and family members? And I, how can I not be innocent? When you did such cruel things for your own selfish desires, why didn't you say that they are all innocent people ?”

Jin Han felt a pain in his heart, his brows were furrowed, and there was hidden remorse tangled between his brows.She finally spoke up.For so many years, no one has ever mentioned that matter. He didn't dare to mention it, and she didn't want to mention it either. She was just crazily retaliating, but he silently endured it willingly.

Jin Han's gaze was stained with a touch of sadness. He looked at her beautiful face, and his gentle voice was vaguely unwilling, "Xinyan, you said I was cruel, do you think you are not cruel? Over the years, I have always wanted I don’t understand why you didn’t choose me back then? As the emperor of a country, I am so powerful, and I have repeatedly surrendered my status to please you. What is it that I am not as good as a general in a feudal country? You say, Your husband can only have you as a wife, so I put dozens of concubines in the harem into the cold palace, arranged for dismissal, and only left Concubine Su Gui, who had just given birth to a prince, and also imprisoned her in Ziqiong Palace, and no longer favored her But I never imagined that when I was waiting for you to enter the palace with anticipation, you would disobey the imperial decree for another man, disregarding the life and death of your parents and clansmen, and run away from home. Other countries? Do you think I am neither hurt nor hated?"

"So you designed to lure me back to the country, and imprisoned me in your bedroom, trying to force me to submit?" She asked coldly.

"But in the end, I'm still not willing to hurt you!"

"That's because I died to prove my will, so I have to keep my innocence." Cen Xinyan pressed his violently heaving chest with one hand, stared at his slightly dodging eyes with hatred, and couldn't help panting and trembling because of the emotion, "You don't want to hurt me?" Me? Haha, you actually said, you don’t want to hurt me?! Who is that, let me sit on the beheading bench, and forced me to witness the 130-eight members of my Cen clan die tragically because I refused to be your queen? And who... ordered someone to pile up the flesh and blood of my parents, who had been cut off by a knife, in front of me? Jin Han, what could be more cruel than this kind of injury? And I, have What's wrong? I just don't love you, I just don't want to leave my husband, and I don't want to abandon my child, should I suffer this kind of genocide? "

She questioned each word word by word, leaving Jin Han speechless. He opened his mouth but said nothing.

It wasn't until this moment that the surrounding ministers knew that the empress did not look like the emperor's beloved woman, but the real Cen Xinyan!No wonder these years, the empress designed to exterminate the royal family, except for the concubine, just to avenge the annihilation of the family.

Ru Mo was stunned by the sudden truth, unable to recover for a long time.She looked at her mother's angry face with mixed grief and indignation in shock, and the pain in her heart became tighter and tighter.It turned out that it was so!All these years, she has been thinking, what kind of blow can make her become so cruel and ruthless?The tribe was wiped out, and the parents were left late?This kind of pain, she would feel unbearable just thinking about it.At this moment, she was suddenly at a loss. How could she still hate such a mother who suffered genocide for her husband and children, and could bear to blame her for being cruel?

The tears in Cen Xinyan's eyes couldn't stop rolling down, like beads with a broken thread.Those hates, those pains have long been engraved in my heart, and after many years, when I mention them again, it seems to be experienced again. "Jin Han, I hate you, I hate you, I hate you... It was you who turned me into the executioner who killed my parents and people, and because of the pain you brought me, I collapsed to the point of losing my mind, Hurt my most beloved daughter... I, ten years of resentment, ten years of regret, I am sorry to my parents, I am ashamed to see my children, all the misfortunes in my life are caused by you alone..."

(End of this chapter)