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1312 Chapter 1315 Accept yourself
Seeing Bai Lu's rare serious expression, Su Li knew in his heart that it must be a very important matter, so he calmed down, closed the doors and windows, and said to Bai Lu, "What is it that is so serious?"

Bai Lu took a deep breath and said, "Ma'am, I don't want to hide my experience from Brother Yuan Yu's parents anymore..."

"What!?" Su Li gasped, and grabbed Bai Lu's hand, "Silly girl, if Yuan Yu's parents find out about this kind of thing, they will look down on you for the rest of their lives, or regret the marriage! You and Xiao Yuan The housekeeper finally got to where he is today, the two love each other, know each other, if something goes wrong..."

"Ma'am, I understand all these reasons." Bai Lu's face turned pale, but her expression was calm, as if she had thought about it for a long time before she made a decision: "If I don't tell the truth to the second elder, maybe I can get married with Brother Yuan Yu and lie to the second elder For the rest of my life. But during this period, I will always be in the fear of being discovered and the guilt of cheating my parents-in-law. I'm afraid my in-laws will find out about me."

"There are so many villagers in Haizi Village, and there are not a few people who know that Li Ergou is causing trouble. Today, Sun Xiaomei came to tease me, and tomorrow there will be Wang Xiaomei, Zhao Xiaomei... I will always be anxious, afraid that someone will show up. The rumors made my parents-in-law jealous. To tell you the truth, before this serious illness, I lived a life like this. I hid the wound for fear that others would know it. Sometimes when I was walking in the village, I could see not far Everywhere people are talking, I will suspect that they are talking about me, wondering if they know about me..."

"In the future, I will follow my wife and I will not go back to Haizi Village, but I will be afraid that my in-laws will find out about me. I can't imagine how they will treat me if they find out about my past after I get married. child..."

"At that time, my parents-in-law knew everything... Whoever it was, would be furious, thinking that I planned everything carefully from the beginning, and would definitely hate me to the bone, and it would also implicate the child I will have with Brother Yuan Yu in the future... ..."

"I've had enough of this kind of worry and fear of suffering alone, and I don't want to live anymore!"

Bai Lu's eyes suddenly became firm and gentle, she gently held Su Li's hand, and said, "Ma'am, you said before that that incident was not my fault, and I shouldn't bear such a nightmare. I I have never done it, and I have never let myself go. But a while ago, Brother Yuan Yu kept explaining to me, and I gradually figured it out. Madam and Brother Yuan Yu are both right, I have nothing wrong, I am an innocent victim. Such suffering , should not be borne by innocent people, I should not imprison my heart, and make myself a cocoon. I should forgive myself and accept my past. I am such a white dew, no matter what I have experienced, what happened, my heart It won't become dirty and evil because of a Li Ergou."

"So, since I have let myself go and accepted myself, then that matter to me is just the hurt I have suffered, not my stain. I can't hide the past because of secular prejudice. But if I That matter, but deliberately using deception and concealment to deceive Yuan Yu's parents into agreeing to the marriage, that is my moral fault. They have the right to know what kind of woman their son is going to marry. "

(End of this chapter)