She is lonely

Chapter 393 A Red Bean, Wants to Single Out This Universe 72
Since the beginning of spring, clusters of hibiscus in the courtyard of the mansion have been in full bloom, and clusters of small pale lavender bracts hang in clusters among the star-shaped fluffy fallen leaves on the style.

In the spring, Hexi's warm sun sprinkled densely, and the afterglow was reflected on Gu Cen who was standing among the flower clusters watering the flowers.Gu Cen stood very straight, her expression also looked very indifferent, those who didn't know it thought she was concentrating on some important event.

Bai Xin, who stood by the side, found that since Gu Cen came back from the barracks, Gu Cen had been silently watering the flowers in the courtyard, and occasionally sat down on the stone pier when he was tired, and stared quietly at the flower garden in front of him in a daze. , and do nothing else.

Bai Xin thought about it for a long time, and stepped forward to remind Gu Cen that it was cold outside, and asked Gu Cen to go back to the house to rest, but Gu Cen turned a deaf ear, still sitting on the stone pier with a shower in his arms, thinking about things.

She was thinking about what Jiang Lisong said to her.

When she asked Jiang Lisong that question, Jiang Lisong was silent for a long time, and then told her a story.

Jiang Lisong told her that his mother and concubine had no choice but to give birth to him back then. The mother and concubine were gentle and weak by nature, and they were not clever at all by those concubines in the palace, because when she was pregnant, she was almost killed several times by the palace People are stillborn.

The mother concubine even once thought about fulfilling those people's wishes and not wanting him as a child, because she was not sure whether Jiang Lisong would be able to protect him after she was born.What's more, whether the mother concubine herself will be in danger because of this child.

The mother and concubine had thought about all these possible dangers.

And the reason why he chose to give birth to him later was that Jiang Lisong learned from his concubine mother when she grew up. The concubine mother said that when she was pregnant with him for more than five months with trepidation, her thoughts were different from the beginning.

At that time, she didn't think about whether she could protect the child in the future, or whether the child would endanger her own safety.

She just felt that since a little life had already been conceived in her belly, since she had already given him life, then she would give birth.

Later, even when Jiang Lisong was born, the concubine mother never thought about how much love she would give to the child, because the concubine mother must first protect the safety of the child and herself, so from the beginning, the concubine mother only wanted to let herself and the child survive , but never thought about whether to love such a luxury.

Jiang Lisong said that he doesn't need a lot of love, because when he grows up, he will find that being able to survive in a deceitful environment is more important than anything else.

Jiang Lisong also told her that if she didn't want to give "love" to an unknown life inexplicably, and couldn't give it, then she wouldn't give it.

She can even give birth to the child and give it to others to raise, as long as she is willing.

Or, it's not impossible for her to keep her by her side, as long as the child is well fed and warm, if she doesn't want to give it, then she won't give it.

No one insists that she give birth to the child and be responsible for loving him. After all, Gu Cen himself is an incomplete person. She has no family and relatives. It's not fair to compare him to the little boy raised in a sweet jar.Because under certain special circumstances, loving this kind of thing is not reliable at all, only being alive is reliable.

(End of this chapter)