Merchant's daughter is not a concubine

Chapter 184 It's Not Love (4)
Empress Dowager Jingren was shocked, she had never seen his expression like this.

Cheng Yuhua's tears fell silently, why did this happen...

Song Zhuo had already stood up, holding Ning Qing with one hand, but Ning Qing was unwilling to leave, so he simply picked her up and walked out of Qingyuan Palace quickly
He didn't let her go until he reached a palace where no one was there.

Ning Qing remained silent, staring blankly into the distance.

Song Zhuo felt great pain in his heart, hugged her, and said in a hoarse voice: "Qingqing, let's not quarrel, okay? Let's go back to the way we were before, okay?"

"Okay." Ning Qing smiled coldly: "You are retiring, and your medium is marrying me to come in."

"Qingqing!" Song Zhuo was angry.

"No, right? I can't deserve you, right? The only one worthy of you is Princess Yuhua?" Ning Qing looked up at him, tears streaming down her face.

"I came from a humble background, and I am not as capable as she is! Without her stunning poem crown, without her stunning sword, I am not as good as her in everything. I am not worthy of being your wife! Since I am not worthy, I am not worthy! I have Self-knowledge, I’m just a lowly businesswoman, so I’ll just marry a poor scholar, isn’t that okay? There are so many high-status people vying to be your concubine, and I’m not even worthy of being your concubine! Why do you even bother to come? Lift me up? You never...have never looked down on me!"

Song Zhuo turned her head away in pain: "I didn't look down on you...I just...you love me, is name really so important?"

"Since it's not important, why don't you give it to me?" Ning Qing sneered: "Since it's not important, then let Princess Yuhua be your concubine! No way, right? Why should I look down on something you value! You Is this trying to trick me into being a fool?"

Song Zhuo was speechless, and after a moment of silence, he said: "Even if you are a concubine, I will not let you suffer any grievances."

"I'm not wronged, so who will take this grievance? Princess Yuhua?" Ning Qing chuckled: "Did Princess Yuhua kill your whole family or dig your ancestral grave? He has a dignified main room, why should he?" Being angry with a concubine of yours? Why are you being bullied by a concubine of yours! Why do you treat your regular wife like this for a mistress and a concubine! If you are like this...why bother to marry her! You married her, but raped her She might as well not marry."

"Ning Qing!" What Ning Qing said to kill his family and dig his ancestral grave was so disrespectful, Song Zhuo was angry, but the following words made him shocked and smiled bitterly: "Are you complaining about her?"

"Yeah. She did something wrong, no. She just wants to get what she deserves."

"Yuhua... is not a vicious person, so can't you get along well?"

"No." Ning Qing said as a matter of course: "Because I am jealous. Let alone being a concubine, even if I am a regular wife, my husband is not allowed to have a concubine."

"How could you do that!" Song Zhuo couldn't understand.

"Did your heart ache when you saw Fang Xiufeng and I got married? Were you angry? Did you hate?"

As Ning Qing said, he pulled out the hairpin on his head and stabbed at his hand suddenly. Song Zhuo was terrified and quickly blocked it. The hairpin stabbed his hand, dripping with blood.

Ning Qing looked up at him coldly: "Does it hurt?"

Song Zhuo didn't answer.

"You men have the pain, we women also have it. How much pain you have, we have the pain. When you see your men hugging three wives and four concubines, it's like watching your wife steal someone with your own eyes. But you still smiled and said yes. It’s ridiculous that you still want to mislead us with three obedience and four virtues. Since you know that we women will be jealous, why do you stab us like this? You still pretend not to see it.”

Ning Qing's remark simply subverted Song Zhuo's worldview. He couldn't accept it, but he felt ridiculously reasonable.Jiu Jiucai said: "The distance has been like this for thousands of years. The man dominates the outside, and the woman dominates the inside. Women live dependent on men, so naturally they must obey."

"That's right." Ning Qing smiled: "Then you find some women who are attached to you. I, Ning Qing, will starve to death without you?"

Song Zhuo choked, and looked at her coldly: "You are very rebellious."

"I've always been like this, you know." Ning Qing met his compelling gaze without fear.

Song Zhuo clenched his fists tightly, laughing out loud as if laughing at himself.He knew, always knew!

Under her obedient and soft appearance, there is such a restless and unfettered heart hidden.

Just because he knew that, he did not hesitate to imprison her and break her wings, trying to deceive her and himself, as long as he didn't pierce the last layer of window paper, he could go on like this forever.

She yearns for freedom and freedom, but because she loves him, she can endure his confinement. Even if she stays at home every day, as long as he comes to eat with her, as long as he touches her head, hugs her, and kisses her, You won't feel bored, it's all because you love him.

But he took advantage of her love and turned it into a sharp sword, stabbing hard into her heart.

Song Zhuo closed his eyes in pain and powerlessness: "You love me..."

"Yes." Ning Qing smiled sadly: "But since love is so painful, I just don't love it."

Turning around to leave, Song Zhuo felt a great pain in his heart. He grabbed her tightly and hugged her tightly, begging in a low voice, "Qingqing, don't do this... I love you too."

He is not stupid, after so many things, he knows that he is not just a concubine's doting on her, or simply liking her, he loves her.

"You love me, so you let me be inferior? Look at me and look at your wife's face? Look at me without even a wedding, and a shabby pink sedan chair? Look at me without even a formal wedding dress." Can't even put it on? Seeing my future child call someone else's mother, seeing my child become a bastard? Bastard... huh...you are so willing!" At the end, her voice was full of hatred.

Bastard... Song Zhuo's heart was bloody as if it had been torn apart.He himself is a concubine, and he himself looks down on concubine very much. In his mind, concubine is almost like a half servant. He has never taken his concubine brother and concubine sister seriously.

"Your Highness, I think you made a mistake." Ning Qing's voice was emotionless: "What you have for me is not love, but lust!"

After that, she broke away from him, turned around and left.

(End of this chapter)