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Chapter 150 I Can't Remember
Xia Qi wiped Jun Jinyan's hands clean, took the fish that the proprietress had killed, paid the money, and continued walking forward while holding his hand.

Eyelids drooping, he stared at the hands they held.In the past, he might never have understood what it meant to be ashamed and what it meant to feel inferior.

But now he is understanding bit by bit.I want to be worthy of her, and I want her to be proud and proud of him.

If he was a normal person, should he have known this common sense? !

If he had never suffered from autism... After buying the dishes to be cooked at noon, Xia Qi called her mother and found out that her mother was still chatting at the neighbor's house.Because it was still early, I was not in a hurry to go back, and continued to hang out with Jun Jinyan.

When passing by the kindergarten she attended when she was a child, Xia Qi suddenly sighed: "Time flies so fast, in the blink of an eye, more than 20 years have passed."

"Huh?" Jun Jinyan looked down at Xia Qi.

She smiled and explained: "I mean we have known each other for 21 years." Speaking of which, he has been attached to her since the two of them met when they were six years old. Apart from my mother, the one I have spent the longest time with.

"By the way, do you still remember? When I saw you for the first time, I was playing with others in the sandpit in the small park!" Xia Qi recalled, and pulled Jun Jinyan to the sandpit. Before the pit: "At that time, you were standing next to the sandpit and kept looking at me,"

Xia Qi recalled the scene at that time.At that time, he had been looking at her lifelessly with beautiful but empty eyes, looking at her with horror, thinking that he was going to rush up to fight her.But who knows that until she finished playing with the sand and was about to go home, he didn't rush up to fight her, let alone say a word to her, but just followed her all the way home, even when she didn't let him follow , and grabbed her skirt tightly.

At that time, compared with now, his expression was even more pitiful.It was like a wooden man, he only answered when she asked a question.If she didn't ask anything, he could even squat beside her for a whole day without saying a word.

Xia Qi thought that Jun Jinyan would recall the first meeting with her when they were young, but unexpectedly he said indifferently: "I don't remember."

"Don't remember?" she asked in surprise.His memory has always been very good, and he can almost be described as a "monster".At the beginning, Xia Qi almost used Jun Jinyan as an encyclopedia dictionary. She didn't need to look through the books to find many questions, but just asked him, and she could get the answers.

"Yes, I don't remember." He turned his head away, avoiding her gaze.

Xia Qi didn't think much about it: "If you don't remember, don't remember. It was a long time ago. It seems that I used to play with a little boy in this small sandpit to pile sand, and I used branches I showed him pictures in the sandpit, but now, I also don’t remember his appearance.”

The only thing she remembered was that the boy was just like her, without a father, only a mother.Perhaps it was a sympathetic relationship, she remembered that she seemed to have said a lot with the other party.

He said that other children like to call him illegitimate son.

She said that there is nothing to be ashamed of being an illegitimate child, because she is also an illegitimate child, but because her mother loves her very much, she is not afraid at all.

She also drew pictures for the other party to see, but it's been too long, and now she can't remember what she drew at that time. She only remembers that she was talking while drawing, and then the other party seemed very He hesitated and said: "Can we be friends?" It seemed that he was afraid of being rejected by her.

How did she answer it?It seems to say: "We are already good friends" or something like that.

At that time, she thought that she could see the boy the next day, and she made an appointment with him. If anyone called him an illegitimate son again, she would help him beat him up.

But in the next few days, she was pestered by Jun Jinyan, and she couldn't come to this small bunker at all. When she was able to come here to play, she never saw the little boy again.

Xia Qi said to herself, squatted down, picked up a twig on the ground, and drew it in the sandpit as she did when she was a child, without paying attention, Jun Jinyan's face at the moment showed a kind of Unnaturally pale, the hands hanging down beside her were tightly clenched into fists.

His pitch-black eyes stared fixedly at the squatting figure in front of him.Once, when he was here, he saw her smile at another boy with his own eyes, the smile was so warm and brilliant.

It is precisely because of that smile that he, who never knew what "want" is, suddenly had a desire to "want".He wants her to smile at him like this, wants her to look at him firmly, wants her to play with him too, wants her to tell him that they are already good friends!

With so many wants, he couldn't bear to look away, he just stared at her without blinking, fearing that if he was not careful, she would disappear.

He followed her, and wherever she went, he would go there. When she wanted to drive him away, he only knew to hold on to her skirt tightly, and refused to leave a step no matter what.

At that time, he didn't understand why he had so many "wants" for her, but now, he finally knew, perhaps, that was the so-called love at first sight.

At the first glance, when he looked at her from afar and smiled, his world that had been closed all along was cracked because of her smile.

The gap got bigger and bigger until it pulled her into his world.

"It's been a long time since I've drawn or written on the sandpit. I'd like to ask you, do you want to play together?" Xia Qi asked enthusiastically.

"Stop drawing!" The cold voice suddenly sounded on the top of her head, and Jun Jinyan stared deeply at the garden that Xia Qi drew in the sandpit.

"Come on, didn't I bring you here to draw with me when you were young!" Before she noticed his strangeness, she lowered her head and continued to draw, while raising her hand, and raised her hand in his direction, saying hello Come here quickly.

"I said, don't draw any more!" He raised his voice suddenly, grabbed her arm, snatched the branch that was used as a paintbrush in her hand, and threw it aside viciously.

Xia Qi looked at Jun Jinyan in surprise: "What's wrong with you?" At this moment, he is like a violent lion, full of anxiety and impatience.It was completely different from his usual indifference.

His lips trembled, and the hand holding her arm let go, but then he held it tighter: "It's nothing."

But his face at the moment is obviously ugly as hell! "It's really nothing?" She obviously didn't believe it.

"Yeah." He pursed his lips, and suddenly said: "There's nothing to stay here, I'm hungry, let's go back." After finishing speaking, he pulled her away from the sandpit involuntarily.

(End of this chapter)