Sir, he is paranoid

Chapter 269 I Can Not Hug You
But at the moment she embraced his back, his body froze in an instant like in the bathroom, and the next moment, he suddenly pressed her down, making it impossible for her hands to hug her again he.

"Qiqi...don't...don't hug..." Jun Jinyan panted heavily, leaning on Xia Qi's body and struggling to speak.Her hug, even though he was extremely longing for it in his heart, but his body would have the most direct reaction at the moment of hugging.Every inch of skin, bones, blood in his body is repelling this hug.

Her wrist was so painful from his pressure, his breath was blowing on her face one after another, hot but cold.And his eyes were no longer empty and indifferent, but filled with struggle, pain, and a deep self-loathing.

Xia Qi had never seen this kind of complex gaze before.She once hoped that one day his eyes would no longer be so empty, as if they lacked the emotions that human beings should have.But when so many emotions really appeared in his eyes, she felt heartbroken, wishing that she had never seen such eyes from him.

"Jinyan, let me go, okay?" Xia Qi said softly, even though the strength of his fingers at this moment almost seemed to pinch her skin and penetrate deeply into her bones like.

"Qiqi, I..." He hesitated, fearing that if she let go, she would get angry and leave him far away.

She seemed to see through his thoughts, and said, "I... I won't walk away, and I won't... Hug you suddenly. I just feel a little uncomfortable when you pinch my wrist like this." She explained. , as if comforting a panicked little animal.

His breath slowly calmed down, and finally let go of her hand little by little.

Both hands were finally free, Xia Qi moved her wrist, and immediately felt another burst of pain.And Jun Jinyan obviously noticed it too.

Staring at the bruise on her wrist that he grabbed, he lowered his head and gently rubbed the bruise.

Xia Qi was still lying flat on the sofa with her back at the moment. From her perspective, she could only see Jun Jinyan's bowed head and feel the damp heat on her wrist.

"Okay, my hand is fine." Xia Qi said, holding Jun Jinyan's face again, so that his eyes were facing her face, "Are you really that afraid of me hugging you?" she asked seriously.

"I...don't know." He lowered his eyes slightly, trying to avoid her gaze.

"My hands are not those people's hands, are they?" She said softly.

He didn't say anything, didn't move, just quietly maintained the original posture, but his body was stiff, and that kind of memory kept rolling in his mind.

His eyes were tightly closed, as if he had returned to that unbearable night...

Obviously at that time, the lights were on, making it impossible for his body to hide in the shadows, but he felt so dark, as if his whole body had sunk into a bottomless abyss.

"You are very clean, not dirty at all." That soft voice, who is speaking?Such a familiar voice is deeply engraved in his mind, and it will pull him out of the darkness...

Jun Jinyan panted and opened his eyes suddenly...

Xia Qi looked up, only to see that Jun Jinyan's face was blushing, and his eyes were wet, as if water was about to leak out. His expression was a little panicked, a little helpless, and more of a kind of self Disgust, and... the desire buried deep in his eyes.

Xia Qi's mind moved, even if Jun Jinyan's body would repel him and he would loathe himself, but he would still yearn for her.It's like when he was a child, he always liked to hold her hand and nestle in her arms.

A person with autism, once there is someone he is willing to open his heart to, will be extremely eager for skin-to-skin contact in order to seek a sense of security.

She gently pulled his hand down and smiled at him, "Jinyan, I just want to prove that you are clean."

"Proof?" He was slightly taken aback.

"Well, prove, prove that you are cleaner than anyone else, and then, I want you to be happy..." she said.

"Qiqi..." he murmured.

Her warmth can take him away from the darkness.

Just like when he was six years old, when he saw her, it was as if he finally saw the light in the dark world, and finally understood what a warm existence is.

She... could bring him out of the darkness when he was six years old, and she must be able to make him no longer think of the darkness ten years ago...

There was his breath on her lips.

She smiled and said, "Look, it's not dirty."

Her smile dazzled his eyes, like the most dazzling sunshine, which could dispel all the darkness around him...

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The night is intoxicated, and the new moon is like a hook.

On the other side, Lu Xiaoxu was a little surprised by the development of the matter, which was completely different from what he thought.

As a bridesmaid, she didn't drink much alcohol today, so she is the one who is more sober between her and Jun Jinchen.

Therefore, Comrade Xiaoxu felt that after the show, she was fully capable of taking the bus or taking a taxi back to the dormitory by herself. Otherwise, if the Jun family had a spare driver, she could ask the driver to take her back. She promised to give her the address of her residence. Report clearly.

But Jun Jinchen insisted on personally sending Lu Xiaoxu back to the dormitory.Lu Xiaoxu looked at the man with flushed cheeks and drunken eyes, and quickly said, "No need, I can go back by myself."

The moment the words were spoken, Lu Xiaoxu suddenly felt many so-called "sharp swords of eyes" shooting towards her, and the origins were mostly female guests who hadn't left around, and many of them were still wearing clothes. It came in military uniform, and the bright stripes on the uniform almost blinded classmate Lu Xiaoxu's 5 eyesight.

"I'll see you off." Jun Jinchen insisted, and the short three words clearly expressed the meaning clearly.

Well, if a decent lieutenant general wants to send you a petty citizen, if you are sensible, you should snicker.Lu Xiaoxu pondered for a while, then nodded, agreeing.

Jun Jinchen drank, so naturally he wouldn't know the law and break the law by driving.The driver of Jun's family was driving in the front row, while Lu Xiaoxu and Jun Jinchen sat in the back row.

Lu Xiaoxu reported his address to the driver, and the driver started the car. Lu Xiaoxu looked at the time on his watch. It was only after 10 o'clock in the evening, not too late.

Turning her head, she found that Jun Jinchen was looking at her.Maybe it's because he drank a lot of wine, even his eyes are not as cold as usual, but more of a hazy drunkenness.

Lu Xiaoxu's heart skipped a beat suddenly, feeling like someone who is not attractive but is self-obsessed.Some people don't need to do anything, as long as they sit quietly and watch, they will attract the attention of others and make people dazzled.

"How much wine did you drink tonight?" Lu Xiaoxu quickly found a topic to talk about.

"I haven't calculated it, but it's more than usual." He replied.

"Do you usually drink a lot?" She continued to ask.

"Not often, I drink some occasionally when socializing, or when I'm bored alone." He said.

stuffy?It's a bit hard for her to imagine, does a person like him feel bored sometimes?In her opinion, he should be the kind of person who doesn't care whether he's bored or not, or in other words, doesn't feel bored at all, and only calmly decides what to do at this point in time.

However, just when Lu Xiaoxu was about to ask again, she saw Jun Jinchen's upper body turned towards her.Her low cry was still stuck in her throat, and his head was already resting on her shoulder...

(End of this chapter)