Houmen's step-wife

Chapter 383 Hitting the Wall (2)
After all, he still underestimated his feelings for her, not to mention that he missed her so strongly.

He thought of her tenderness, her squeamishness, her occasional domineering, her jealousy towards him, the way she laughed heartily when he gave her a gift, her grievances, and her tears...

Every time he missed it, there was always a smile on his face that he couldn't detect, but when he came back from the memory, his heart was blank, empty, and at a loss.

He didn't want to, but he couldn't control it.

Although he often ignored her news on purpose, her news always inadvertently entered his ears, and he couldn't ignore her.

He knew that she was doing well, and His Majesty treated her very well, even for her sake, he did not enter the harem for a long time, and even more so for the ministers who angrily refuted her advice.

Your Majesty treats her much better than he did before.

He knew that she was happy.

However, at this moment, who knows the pain in his heart?

It's not that he hopes that she will have a bad life, it's not that he doesn't want to see her well, it's just that he is unwilling, sad, and regretful.

Unwilling for her to leave him like this, sad that he has completely lost her, and regretting that he did not cherish her well.

If he had always insisted on being nice to her back then, and would not have compromised with Mrs. Tai or the fetus in Aunt Wang's womb, then is she still in his arms, within his reach?
If time could turn back, he would definitely cherish her, make her never want to leave him, and never let her down again.

Unfortunately, now, what he said is useless.

She won't know all his concerns, misses, and worries about her, and even if she knows, she probably won't care.

Even so, he still couldn't let go of her, thinking about her self-abuse, maybe it will continue like this until one day, his heart hurts so numb, and he no longer has the strength to think about her, so he can let go of her completely.

Su Wan is sewing a small dress, or in other words, she is practicing with a piece of fabric.

If the baby wears the little clothes she made by herself in the future, it will be so warm, heart-warming and satisfying!
Thinking of this, Su Wan felt as if she had been injected with chicken blood, and she began to work harder on her needlework, which she didn't like very much.

Even though it was raining lightly outside and the room was a bit dark, she still asked people to light bright candles and sew stitch by stitch, leaving all the girls who wanted to persuade her helpless.

hiss--

Su Wan suddenly gasped, and accidentally pricked her index finger.

Seeing this, Han Ju at the side immediately stepped forward to treat her wound, and said to Su Wan, "Madam, please stop doing these needlework. Look, you hurt your hand again, right?"

Luzhu also said: "That's right, madam, you just listen to us! You have seen your hands have been pricked several times. Moreover, if you hurt your eyes, you will have no time to regret it."

Others also discouraged.

Su Wan heard the words, a little dumbfounded, and said: "Okay, okay, I understand, I just don't do it."

As soon as he finished speaking, the needlework basket in his hand was taken away by the girl from a distance.

Su Wan was left speechless.

In fact, Su Wan also wanted to find something for herself to do.

It's not easy for Su Wan to get pregnant, and it's not easy to keep a baby.

Most importantly, she still showed signs of threatened miscarriage and had been taking tocolytics. The imperial doctor told her to lie down more and move less.

Emperor Xiande and all the girls and women were so nervous that they were offered as fragile porcelain. They were not allowed to do this, and they were not allowed to do that, and they were not even allowed to take two extra steps. Time can only lie down.

She wanted to read books before, but she was afraid that reading would hurt her mind, so she wouldn't even let her touch them, so Su Wan wanted to do some sewing to pass the time, but she was confiscated again.

Su Wan could only sigh helplessly.

Since she had nothing to do, Su Wan chatted with a few girls.

Except for Shan Cha and Han Ju, Su Wan really never asked them about their family situation.

Plum blossom, orchid, bamboo, and Yunqingyunbi were all given to Mrs. Chu along with the family.But Mo Lan's situation is a bit different, she was not born to her parents, but to her adoptive parents, but she has always been very filial to her adoptive parents, her temper is the best among them, she is very helpful and popular.

Moreover, Mo Lan is also good at massage, she is very accurate in identifying acupoints, and her skills are good. Su Wan also likes her very much. Knowing that she is interested in medicine, she even borrowed medical books for her to read. Not only that, Mo Lan often goes to Fang's mother for medical advice. , until later, not much to go.

Fang's mother also praised Mo Lan's good understanding in front of Su Wan more than once. If she wasn't for the wife, she really wanted to ask Mo Lan to be her apprentice.

At the beginning, she had asked Mo Lan if she would like to be Fang's mother's apprentice, but Mo Lan refused, saying that her job was to be the wife's maid, and medical skills were just a hobby, and she would not put the cart before the horse.

Su Wan really admired this girl at that time.

However, now, she has a little opinion of Mo Lan.

After Su Wan let the others go down, she only kept Mo Lan and Shan Cha, and asked Mo Lan directly: "Mo Lan, don't you have a good relationship with Fang's mother? She is locked up, why don't you beg for her?" What about pleading?"

Mo Lan immediately knelt down when she heard the words, and said sincerely and fearfully: "Madam, I swear that the relationship between this servant and Mother Fang is indeed good, but it is far inferior to the loyalty of this servant to Madam. Besides, that Mother Fang intends to murder Madam Fang. , the crime is so heinous that it is not too much to die a hundred times, how could the servant plead for her? Madam, you have to trust the servant!"

After finishing speaking, he kowtowed his head.

Seeing this, Su Wan couldn't help smiling and said: "Don't be nervous, I just asked casually, and didn't say anything."

Despite what Su Wan said, Mo Lan knelt down on the ground and did not dare to get up. She shook her head slightly and said, "Ma'am, if this servant knew that Mother Fang had such vicious thoughts towards Madam, this servant would definitely not have asked her for advice. It’s normal for Madam to suspect Numaid for being close to Fang’s mother, this is her own fault, but I can swear on the spot that I really didn’t betray Madam, let alone collude with Fang’s mother, Madam please be careful.”

It's good that Su Wan didn't listen to her explanation, but when she heard these words, she frowned instead.

She was just a little confused before and wanted to ask, but she didn't expect Mo Lan to react so strongly, it really made her suspicious.

"You keep saying that Mother Fang murdered me, do you know how she murdered me?" Su Wan asked, outsiders don't know what's going on, doesn't she know?
(End of this chapter)