Houmen's step-wife

Chapter 646 Fanwai will never miss her again (1)
Su Wan became the wife of the state of Chu and was bestowed with a golden seal and a mansion.

When he heard the news, the last trace of luck in his heart was broken. At this moment, he knew that he had no chance to reunite with Su Wan.

During the time when Su Wan entered the palace to treat the Empress Dowager, he had already heard some rumors. Later, the Madam Tai entered the palace to visit the concubine Xian, and her performance after returning was enough to explain everything. However, he had been I can't believe it.

In his heart, no matter what Su Wan's status was, she was his woman. How could she serve the emperor?
There must be something wrong.

He didn't believe that the emperor would not know Su Wan's real identity.

In this capital city, what can be hidden from the emperor's eyes and ears?
Although Su Wan is beautiful, the ladies in the palace are not bad, and there are many who are prettier than her. Why does the emperor risk the world's displeasure by pampering a married woman?

Therefore, even though he felt very angry, even painful and embarrassing after hearing the news, he still tried his best to convince himself, suppressed his desire to go to the palace to find the emperor's theory, and told himself that all this was just It's just a rumor, even if Su Wan is angry with him, she won't betray him.

The most important thing is that he can't joke about the future of the Hou Mansion with his own future.

Once he couldn't bear it anymore and went into the palace to question the emperor, Su Wan's identity would be confirmed immediately.

At that time, everyone will know that Changwuhou's mansion has deceived the people of the world, Changwuhou's wife is not dead at all, and a crime of deceiving the emperor is minor.

Therefore, no matter how much pain he felt in his heart, he had to endure it, and even actively defend Su Wan's current identity.He couldn't let others know that Su Wan was his wife. During that time, he was suffering every moment.

He regretted it a long time ago, but what's the use of it?Everything is his own fault, no wonder others.

For the next few days, he lived in a daze, as if he didn't care about anything.

In the past, he cared about his heirs, but when the decree came that Su Wan was named first-rank Mrs. Chu, Aunt Wang gave birth prematurely, and when the imperial doctor said that the child was likely to die, he remained silent.

At this time, his heart was not about the pain of losing his child, but he suddenly felt that he was very ridiculous, even pathetic.

The reason why he compromised with Mrs. Tai and sent Su Wan away to the point where she can no longer recover today, other than not wanting to disobey Mrs. Tai, the biggest reason was because of the child in Aunt Wang's womb? ?
He didn't believe that Su Wan deliberately attacked Aunt Wang. The reason why he sent her away was because he was afraid that if Su Wan stayed in the Hou's mansion, there would be trouble again.

Mrs. Tai is already extremely dissatisfied with her now, if he continues to protect her, Mrs. Tai will only be more dissatisfied with her, and maybe she will attack Su Wan. Sending her away is also to protect her and let her avoid the limelight.

It is undeniable that he was wary of Su Wan at the time, worried that she would attack Aunt Wang, and it would be difficult to keep the child. This was something he absolutely did not want to see.

After Aunt Wang gave birth to the child, he would bring Su Wan back again. During the period, he persuaded Mrs. Tai and said a few good words for her. Maybe Mrs. Tai didn't have such a big opinion of her, so everyone is happy. ?

If he knew at that time that the price of sending Su Wan away was to lose her forever, then he would never have done so anyway.

Unfortunately, he didn't know it at the time.

Now, the heir he saved with great difficulty actually died young, which made him feel extremely ironic——

Paid a painful price, but in the end it was nothing.If Su Wan hears this news, she will probably feel very relieved!
Aunt Wang's child died after all, but there was no fluctuation in his heart, but a faint feeling of relief.

If this child grows up, he really doesn't know how to face him.

He was afraid that he could not help but anger him.

If it wasn't for him, how could he lose his wife.

The child died, and Aunt Wang should also be punished.

But she didn't know how to be interesting, so she even slandered Su Wan, saying that Su Wan killed her child, and insulting Su Wan for being promiscuous and disobedient, which made him even more angry.

Su Wan has become an eternal pain in his heart, as long as he touches it, he will bleed.

Aunt Wang's words undoubtedly stabbed him in the heart, and he locked Aunt Wang away.

Who made her have so many troubles back then, relying on her pregnancy to force Su Wan away!

He has been watching the emperor vent his anger on Su Wan, punishing those who bullied her one by one, now, it is his turn to do something for her.

This will make him feel better.

Even Mrs. Tai was angered by him.

Now, he only has a superficial mother-child relationship with Mrs. Tai, he will not cut short her food and drink, he will completely raise her up, but he wants him to obey her in the future and continue to be a dutiful son by her side, That is absolutely impossible.

Apart from regret and guilt towards Su Wan, it's not that he doesn't hate Su Wan.

Sometimes, when thinking of Su Wan, my heart hurts badly, and it is inevitable that I feel some resentment towards her.

Resent why she can't be like other women, be loyal to herself; resent why she is so unfeeling, refuse to give herself the slightest chance to repent, resent her for abandoning herself, and so on.

For him, for a heartless person like Su Wan, it's best to forget her, but he just can't forget her.The more you hate her, the more you will remember her in your heart.Masochistically thinking about her kindness and her unfeelingness, and finally defending her and venting her anger for her.

He thought that he would never be able to get rid of her influence on him in his life, and he put all his feelings on her.

Later, because of his friendship with the British government, he married Su Qingxue.

In fact, for him, marrying anyone is the same, anyway, he has already lost the person he cares about the most.

After Su Qingxue came in, the Hou Mansion was turned upside down, as long as she didn't violate his taboo, he didn't bother to bother.

(End of this chapter)