Flowers all the way

Chapter 16 When You Cross Bad Waters
Suomei's photo album has already attracted a lot of attention in the local industry before it was finished shooting. Yan Xuhui, who took the photo, has become famous in recent years. He is known as the most cutting-edge fashion photographer in China. The model he invited won a competition award last year and signed a contract. Joined a well-known brokerage company in Beijing. Although she has not entered the ranks of supermodels, her potential is obvious.

Yan Xuhui was in the limelight and had a lot of contracts in hand, so he started taking photos of fitting clothes and makeup for the models the next day.He asked Xin Chen to participate in the whole process, basically doing post-processing while filming. Xin Chen didn't have much to do now, so of course he agreed.

In the residential area where she lives, there are still neighbors passing news in twos and threes, but the excitement at the beginning is no longer there.The dormitories on the easternmost side, because they belong to the small-area public property owned by the housing management office, have particularly bad living conditions. As soon as the news of the demolition spread, the tenant compensation process there was started at an astonishing speed, and it went very smoothly. Many people immediately chose to take the money to move away, watching the moving company's vehicles keep coming in and out, and other residents with their own property rights were disturbed.

However, the demolition company was very determined and did not respond to the gossip revealed by the big-character posters posted in this area. Instead, it immediately sent a team of migrant workers in, and began to use purely manual methods to demolish the buildings located in residential areas. The abandoned warehouse of a bankrupt unit in the siege and the several dormitories that have been moved out one after another were filled with dust for a while, and the sound of clanging and rumbling was endless from morning to night.

This kind of psychological warfare is naturally quite effective, and the residents clamoring to protect their own rights and interests have their own plans.

Xin Chen goes out every day at noon and returns home at night, and does not participate in the discussions of the neighbors, nor does he inquire about anything. He just waits for the official release of the next demolition policy.

One day, Xin Di went to the scene to watch the shooting after work. After dinner at night, David Fan drove the two sisters home. When they arrived at the street where Xin Chen lived, he saw that the roadside was full of demolition debris and a row of stalls appeared. Sewage was flowing, and a large number of migrant workers were gathering to drink and have a midnight snack. There was also a simple open-air karaoke next to it. It was so lively. Xin Di was surprised, "The demolition has already begun. How can people live here? Chenzi, you can move to my side."

David Fan also said: "Xin Chen, I think you'd better move out first, the law and order here will definitely not be very good now."

Xin Chen said with a smile: "I still have to deal with the things at home, we will wait and see." She said goodbye to them and walked in alone.

Xin Di knew that Xin Chen didn't want to disturb others easily, especially since her mother had always been somewhat prejudiced against her, and she avoided it as much as she could. She would only come when her father asked her to come for dinner.After going back, Xin Di called her father to exaggerate the chaos at the demolition site. Xin Kaiming was really anxious, and immediately called Xin Chen, telling her to move to Xin Di's place immediately.

Xin Chen smiled and said, "Uncle, it's not that serious, everyone lives well."

"You are a single girl, you have to be a little defensive, you can't compare with other people who live there with a big family, especially your recent work and you always come home late, in case something happens, how can I explain to your father , do you want uncle to pick you up every night?"

"No, no, no." Xin Chen had no choice but to admit defeat, "I'll take care of things tomorrow, and I'll go live with Dizi right away."

Xin Chen is a man of action. Now that he agreed to his uncle, he put down his phone and started to think about how to deal with the things at home. Everything else is easy to deal with, but those flowers really worry her. Even if it is an annual herb, it is still in late summer and is growing vigorously. , must be reluctant to leave it alone, not to mention that there are many perennial herbaceous flowers and woody plants.After much deliberation, she posted on the outdoor forums where she often mixes up, and posted the names of the flowers she planted with photos taken in her spare time, and then posted the main points of daily maintenance, stating that because of moving, she is willing to transfer them to flower lovers for free, please Netizens follow the post and make an appointment to pick it up.

After posting the post, she turned on the computer speakers, turned up the volume, played her favorite songs, and then went into the bedroom to start cleaning. She first packed the outdoor equipment and clothes, and planned to send them to her father in Kunming by courier the next day.Most of her clothes were casual and sports style, so it was easy to clean up. Soon the closet was emptied, and a dark red Oxford cloth bag in the corner caught her eye.

At this time, the song played on the speaker is Bridge Over Troubled Water by Simon&Garfunkel. The song was heard in the bedroom. Xin Chen sat down by the closet, put the bag on his lap, and listened quietly to the warm song with a bit of sadness reverberating in the room. .

When you feel small and tired,
When your tears are in your eyes, I will be by your side to wipe your tears.

When days are sad, friends leave the team,

When you cross the bad water,

I'll be like a bridge so you'll have nothing to fear,
When you cross the bad water, I want to turn into a bridge so that you have nothing to fear.

When you're out on the street, the sun's down,
When pain rises on all sides and darkness falls,

I will hold you up and keep your heart from breaking.

When you cross the bad water, I will become a bridge, so that you have nothing to fear,
When you cross the bad water, I will become a bridge, so that you have nothing to fear.

The future is shining with silver light, rushing forward.

Days and dreams have merged brightly,

You want friends, and I'm coming right after.

When you cross the bad water, I will become a bridge and let you sleep peacefully at night,
When you cross the bad water, I will turn into a bridge and let you sleep peacefully.

This is Li Ao's translation of the lyrics that Xin Chen found on the Internet, which has a little more meaning than the usual literal translation.She was moved by the song from the first time she heard it, and has collected several cover versions, including interpretations by Elvis Presley, Teresa Teng, Whitney Houston and the Pope's choir, but in comparison, the favorite is still not for Originally sang an early version that he liked. It is said that after recording this song, the two broke up and went solo. Refuse to give Garfunkel a harmony voice, and it is this soft and tender style that Xin Chen never tires of listening to.

Her fingers touched the chess inside through the bag, and she had rubbed each chess piece repeatedly, and was familiar with the shape and texture of each of them, including the small gap on one of the black bishops.

After Lu Fei left, Xin Chen got her admission letter. She took the exam in a sluggish state, and her grades were predictably mediocre. She entered a newly opened graphic design major in an unknown university.She found the city he went to on the map in the geography book, and slowly slid her fingers across the place where she lived, crossing the continent and the ocean little by little, and stopped at the place name that had no meaning to her before.

How can such a vast and boundless distance be surpassed?

Xin Chen couldn't give himself an answer, so he could only close the book and decide not to think about this question any more.

After school started, Xinchen moved to school, and was unwilling to go home on weekends. When the local temperature suddenly dropped in late autumn, she was shivering with cold, so she had to come back to pick up her clothes.Opening the door that had been locked for nearly two months and looking at the deserted and dusty room, a voice suddenly echoed in her ears.

"You are a girl, is it a lot of trouble to tidy up the room?"

That's what Lu Fei said to her with responsibility when he entered her house for the first time. She didn't take it seriously, but she did start tidying up later and formed a habit. There was a gentle and satisfied expression in the eyes of the boy who was obsessed with cleanliness.

Yet he left after all.

Xin Chen went to the bedroom to pick up the clothes, saw the chess bag at a glance, took it out, went back to the living room to arrange it, and moved it casually. In a sudden rage, she suddenly overturned the chessboard in front of her, and the chess pieces fell all over the floor. .But when a person lost his temper, he had to clean up the mess by himself. After a long time, she went to pick them up one by one, and found that one of the black elephants had lost a corner.

Caressing this small dent, she cried out the tears she had suppressed for a long time.It wasn't the first time that he wailed childishly, but it might be the last time.She cried until she curled up on the sofa and fell asleep, sinking into a deep nightmare.She was once again trapped in the dark corridor, knocking and bumping, stepping into the air from time to time, bumping into unknown hard objects, unable to see the floor clearly, and unable to find her home up and down. The dream, but unable to get rid of it, when she finally woke up, she was already sweating profusely and almost collapsed.

She tried her best to get up, poured herself a glass of water to drink, and told herself, you can't do this again, and you won't walk out with both hands in the future, so you can only rely on yourself.

No one is a bridge, and you must cross the bad water yourself to find a night's sleep.Xin Chen began to adapt to life without Lu Fei, it should be said that he adapted well.

It's just that in the daze of struggling from the nightmare, and in the lonely moments when she couldn't help but look for warmth in the memories, she had opened this bag countless times and set up the chess pieces to play against herself.

Finally, it was time to help her. She became calmer and calmer. She could enter and leave her home calmly, face memories calmly, wait for the nightmare to dissipate calmly, and let another boy hold her hand calmly.

Even without him, life still goes on.

The phone rang, and Xin Chen thanked the voice for bringing him out of the momentary trance.She put down her bag and jumped up, went out to answer the phone, it was Yueqing who called, he was going back to the United States in two days, and today he went to meet his old classmates, he said with a smile: "Do you want me to help you move tomorrow?"

"Did you see the post too? Of course, I need your help with physical work. I don't know if anyone will come to claim the flowers I planted tomorrow."

"Didn't you read the reply? Hurry up and check it out, it's so lively."

Xin Chen sat in front of the computer and refreshed the posts he had posted. He was taken aback. First, only a few netizens commented on the beauty of the flowers, or helped them out, and then there was an ID named Road who posted a post, claiming to accept all the plants grown by Albizia Julibrissin. And make sure to plant them all well.Then there were jokes from acquainted netizens, including Bruce naturally. Some people stomped their feet and beat their chests and said that they were a step late; Admirers put on vests and listed possible candidates for betting.Xin Chen couldn't laugh or cry, and then looked at Road's registration time, it was only a few minutes after she posted the post.

"Hey, you're listening to Scarborough Fair, such an old song."

"Yes." The speaker is still playing Scarborough Fair, which was sung by Simon & Garfunkel in the early days, and it is also a song she likes very much. The perfect chorus is like the sound of nature, with the power to make people calm. Xin Chen hummed along with the singing: " Are you going to Scarborough Fair? Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme, Remember me to one who lives there, Tell him to make me a cambric shirt" Then laugh, "Coriander, sage, rosemary and thyme, maybe One day in the future, I will have a garden, and I will definitely plant all these flowers."

Lin Yueqing smiled, "There will be such a day. Hey, don't tell me you can't guess who Road is."

Xin Chen also laughed, "It's good that someone accepts the flower, it doesn't matter who it is, I won't guess."

Putting down her phone, she leaned back in her chair, looked around the house, and thought, that's true, it doesn't matter who it is.

The next day, Lin Le came to help Xin Chen clean up early in the morning, packed all the books and materials she was going to keep, and the bookshelf was empty.Xin Chen called the people downstairs who bought old electrical appliances and furniture, negotiated a price, and began to ask them to dismantle the air conditioner, electric water heater, and remove the washing machine, refrigerator, bookshelf, workbench, and wardrobe.

She turned around and called several acquainted neighbors downstairs, and told them that she was going to move out, and she didn't want a lot of daily necessities, and asked them to just take what they needed.She has always lived here. Many of these old neighbors are acquaintances and colleagues of her grandparents and father. They almost watched her grow up. They have always had a good relationship. Electric kettles, microwave ovens, desk lamps, chairs, duvets, air-conditioning quilts, blankets, electric blankets and other things were taken downstairs by them.

Lin Yueqing neatly cleaned up the connecting cables on the desktop, packed her desktop computer, scanner, and printer, and pointed to a dark red Oxford cloth bag in the corner, "What's in it, are you going to pack it or give it away?" people?"

Lu Fei appeared at the door, he was slightly surprised by the people coming and going and the chaos in the room, he stopped and stood at the entrance.

He also saw the bag at a glance, and was stunned for a moment. Of course he remembered that he brought it here. He once taught Xin Chen how to play chess in this room. He was about to speak when Xin Chen casually said: "Lv Master, this bag contains chess, take it back and let your grandson play it."

Master Lu agreed, picked up the bag and a few other daily necessities and walked out from Lu Fei.

At this time, the courier company's receiving personnel also came over, walked in from Lu Fei, took the cardboard box she was going to send to her father in Kunming, and asked her to fill in the address.The workers who disassembled the air conditioner removed both the indoor and outdoor units of the air conditioner, carried them through them, and placed them in the corridor.

Xin Chen turned around and faced Lu Fei. He didn't know what to say for a moment. Across the turmoil of people coming and going, Lu Fei looked at Xin Chen with no expression on his face. After a while, he said, "I'm sorry, I'll wait Come up later."

He hurriedly turned and went out the door, Lin Yueqing looked at Xin Chen puzzled, "You two have the same strange expressions."

"Really?" Xin Chen smiled slightly, then lowered his head and concentrated on filling out the express form, paying the express fee, and then the person who bought the second-hand electrical appliances settled with her, and finally they all left. Lu Fei reappeared at the door, and his glance became empty. , The unrecognizable room looks calm.

"I called migrant workers to come up. Apart from flowers, what else do I need to move? I drove a pickup truck here today."

"I guessed right, the road is indeed you. The pickup is just right, and I think Hehuan doesn't have much furniture to take away."

Xin Chen took a few steps back and sat on the imperial concubine's couch, "This kind of furniture is the only comfortable thing in my room that has been praised by the flute. I plan to give it to her. I don't want anything else."

Lin Yueqing smiled and said, "Do you have the pleasure of dissipating your wealth?"

Xin Chen laughed, "Absolutely, it's great to come and go naked without any worries."

"If you like this concubine's couch, I'll give it to you. Chenzi won't mind."

Lu Fei smiled slightly, "No, it's good to put it here, and it matches the sofa well."

Xin Di had no choice but to admit that after Lu Fei delivered Xin Chen's things, he looked so silent, and he didn't seem to be coveting the imperial concubine's couch.She was really helpless, took out the red wine she brought back from France, and poured him half a glass.

Lu Fei laughed, "You take me for an alcoholic, Xiaodi."

"I've never seen you get drunk before. The problem with you is that you are too self-controlled. Drink, anyway, I don't know how to comfort people. This is the only trick." Xin Di also poured himself a small glass of wine, "I I'm going to New York next week, and Chenzi will live with me from now on, but judging by how thoroughly she handles her belongings, she will probably leave when she gets the money, and you can do it yourself if you can keep her."

Lu Fei looked at the red wine in the glass, but changed the topic: "I will call my friend in New York later and ask him to pick you up at the airport."

Xin Di thought, a former fiancée hadn't left yet, so it was really impossible for him to do anything, so he could only sigh secretly, "No need, AKEN will go there too, he is very familiar with that place."

Lu Fei still drinks in moderation. After drinking half a glass, he leans back on the sofa, stretches his long legs lazily, half-closes his eyes, unbuttons the top button of his beige shirt, and hastily rolled up his sleeves. It is completely different. Yu Xindi's usual clean and meticulous appearance in clothes and clothes is a bit decadent, and the gloomy look on his handsome face makes him look even more solemn.

If it weren't for seeing how sad he is, Xin Di would have suggested to him that he might as well try a more casual dressing style in the future.

Lu Fei's mobile phone on the coffee table flickered silently, but he didn't respond, and seemed to be asleep.Seeing that he looked tired, Xin Di planned to let him sleep for a while. She picked up the phone that was blinking endlessly and was about to turn it off, but found that the name on the caller ID on the screen was "Ruo Li", so she hesitated for a while.She thought, this girl is staying in a strange city after all, and the only person she knows here is her ex-fiancé. It seems a little unreasonable for Lu Fei not to answer her calls.She quickly pushed Lu Fei, and Lu Fei opened his eyes, "What's the matter, Xiaodi?"

"Answer the phone."

Lu Fei took the phone to look at it, and then answered: "Hello, Ruo Li."

Not knowing what was said there, Lu Fei said softly, "Okay, wait a moment, I'll be right over." He stood up, "Xiao Di, I'm leaving first."

"Hey, I don't want to be mean, but you have already broken up, and you are still here at any time. Do you want her to misunderstand and have room for redemption?"

Lu Fei looked gloomy and shook his head, "She ran to the bar to drink, she seemed a little too drunk, I have to go pick her up."

"Wait a minute, I'll go with you." Xin Di got a little angry and stood up, "What is she going to do? What's the point of procrastinating?"

Lu Fei smiled wryly, "Xiao Di, why do you bother to wade into this muddy water?"

Xin Di ignored him and went downstairs with him to call a taxi.

This bar called Blue Sky is opened by foreigners. It is located in the financial district and is quite famous among the local foreigners. The confused Ji Ruoli was talking to a muscular foreign man in a black T-shirt. The man's hand had already been placed on her shoulder, and she was obviously powerless to dodge it.

Lu Fei walked over, photographed the man, said a few words in English in a deep voice, and the man immediately got up and walked away.Ji Ruoli looked at Xin Di and laughed, "It's so funny, I think I just called Lu Fei to come over. Didn't you clear yourself up and have nothing to do with him? Why are you so close?"

Xin Di thought, no matter how ladylike and restrained she is usually, once she drank too much, she would be a little bit direct, but she didn't care, and said with a smile: "We happened to be chatting together just now, come and see if we can help."

"You are probably afraid that I will use alcohol to pretend to be crazy and pester him." Ji Ruoli stood up with his hands on the table, and squinted at her, "Let me tell you, Miss Xin, I really used alcohol to seduce him before. , haha, he wasn't fooled, I guess if I do this trick now, I probably won't end up with anything."

Lu Fei frowned, and reached out to support her, "Ruoli, let's go, I'll take you back to the hotel."

But Ji Ruoli pushed his hand away, the movement was quite violent, his body habitually leaned to one side, staggered a bit, Xin Di who was standing here had no choice but to help her stand still, Ji Ruoli giggled, and leaned against her On the body, whispered: "Hey, you don't love Lu Fei too, do you? Then you are worse than me. He loves your cousin, you know?"

Xin Di laughed, and pushed her away a little to avoid her mouth full of alcohol, "Well, now I know, you told me a lot of amazing news, I admit it."

Ji Ruoli was about to speak, but covered his mouth, frowning, and hurried to the bathroom.Xin Di looked at Lu Fei, and had no choice but to follow her resignedly. After walking a few steps, she saw Yan Xuhui, David Fan and two girls sitting on the other table. On his shoulder, he was whispering something in his ear, and that gesture was of course considered intimacy.Yan Xuhui saw Xin Di first, and waved to her to say hello. She glanced at her and didn't bother to pay attention, and went straight into the bathroom, only to see Ji Ruoli vomit into the toilet, and then go to the washstand to rinse her mouth. Paper towels passed.

Ji Ruoli covered her face with a tissue, and burst into tears. Xin Di looked at the sky depressedly, but couldn't think of anything to comfort her, and could only wait for her to control herself slowly, and her crying gradually subsided became a sob.

Xin Di paused for a long time before saying: "Miss Ji, let me tell you again, I have never had a crush on Lu Fei. But just now I saw a man sitting outside. He said a few days ago that he wanted to marry me. Together, right now I'm kissing a hot girl in cool clothes, how about I cry with you for a while."

Ji Ruoli turned back in astonishment, looked at her with tears in her eyes, Xin Di spread her hands, "Well, I'm sorry, I'm exaggerating, I can't cry, I didn't intend to cry for him at all. I've never been able to comfort people, You probably don't need such poor comfort from me."

"Are you proving to me that I'm stupid enough and you're smart enough?"

"What can this prove? It probably only proves that I don't take this too seriously. I seem to have told you last time that I don't think love is the most important thing in life. If a man can't even let me Happy, then I don’t see why I need to spend time for him. It’s not because Lu Fei is my friend and Xin Chen is my cousin, so I just speak for them. I really think it’s really okay for you to procrastinate like this significance."

"I know, I'm embarrassing myself and others."

Xin Di shrugged, "It's okay to make Lu Fei feel embarrassed, he deserves it more or less, but have you ever thought that sooner or later, his guilt towards you will even be exhausted."

Ji Ruoli looked at her blankly, then turned to look at herself in the mirror, after a long time she said: "I have loved him for five years, but I am not willing to let it go, I want to see how far he will persist. "

"You probably have a good family background, so it doesn't matter if you quit your job, but it's really unfair to yourself to use your good time to witness this kind of thing."

Ji Ruoli smiled wryly at the mirror, "Yeah, after vomiting, I also feel a little worthless."

"Let's go, let's go out, you go back to the hotel early to rest."

The two walked out of the bathroom, only to find that David Fan was circling outside like an ant on a hot pot. Seeing Xin Di coming out, he rushed up to meet her and grabbed her, "Xin Di, don't cry, I promise..."

Xin Di shook off his hand angrily, "I'm crying, David Fan."

David Fan didn't see Xin Di just now, and after hearing Yan Xuhui's schadenfreude, he hurriedly pushed away Shen Xiaona who was talking to him, hurried to the bathroom, heard the faint crying inside, and was dumbfounded, wandering outside Thinking about how to explain, but looking at Xin Di again, his eyes were shining, and his face was as usual, there was no trace of crying, so he could only say awkwardly: "Old Yan said he was tired and wanted to relax, I just came with him, He can testify that I have nothing to do with that girl, she has always been a little crazy."

Xin Di waved her hands like chasing flies, walked out with Ji Ruoli on her arm, met Lu Fei, and went out to get in the car. Lu Fei sent Ji Ruoli back to the hotel first, and then took her home.

Xin Di went home and saw that Xin Chen had gone back first, and David Fan was sitting on the sofa waiting for her. Xin Chen winked at her and went into the study.

David Fan decided to put down his figure, "Xin Di, listen to my explanation. It's too noisy in the bar, and her family also owns a clothing company. Ask me about the photo album."

Xin Di covered her mouth and yawned, "No need to explain, I know, you are pure, it is said that there are men and women lying on the bed covered with quilts and just chatting, let alone talking in a bar. Let's talk about it another day, I'm sleepy .”

David Fan could only leave in dismay, with nothing to do, she felt that she was wronged enough, and she had let go of her status like never before, but she still played it lightly, if she was not pretending to be indifferent, she probably didn't care about this matter at all, let alone herself—— He couldn't help feeling frustrated when he thought about it.

In the afternoon of the next day, Xin Di went to the shooting site of April Garden to see the progress. Yan Xuhui immediately said, "Xin Di, check out my blog. I wrote a certificate of innocence to Lao Dai at his request."

Davidfan was so embarrassed that he didn't know what to say. He was worrying about it the night before, but the ignorant Yan Xuhui called again: "Old Dai, run to explain it. Does it work?" Laughing maniacally, "Don't worry, don't worry, I'll help you prove your innocence and guarantee that Xin Di will believe you."

When David Fan saw his so-called proof, he could only blame himself for being careless in making friends, and greeted this guy who was afraid of chaos countless times in his heart.Xin Di knew that he couldn't write anything good, so she curled her lips and said with a smile: "You just take a photo of him wearing chastity underwear and put it on the blog, it will definitely attract more attention than a bad certificate."

All the people around laughed out loud.

After Xin Di returned to the office, she continued to work. When she was about to leave work, she was curious for a while, so she decided to check Yan Xuhui's blog.

Yan Xuhui has always kept his camera in hand, and likes to record his life with pictures and texts. He started a blog very early, but in Xin Di's opinion, the greatest value of his blog is that he sometimes posts photos of fashion shows that ordinary people can't see. and samples from fashion shoots.However, the exclamation and comments made by this person from time to time dilute her viewing pleasure, and although she agrees with his level of taking pictures, she has never rated his writing skills very highly, and has no interest in the running accounts recorded in blogs, so she didn't care at all. Favorite address.Fortunately, he is now a moderate celebrity in the fashion industry, and he can be found immediately after searching.

The interface of his blog is done in a low-key and simple tone, but the friendship links are a row of deafening beauties in the capital's fashion circle, which makes people dazzled at first glance.The diary hanging on the first page was written in the early hours of this morning. At the beginning, it is a photo taken outside the Blue Sky Bar. The picture is completely out of proportion and has a hilarious caption: How to prove a man's innocence and chastity.

She looked at it, and saw that Yan Xuhui wrote quite sarcastically. On the surface, he seemed to be whitewashing for David Fan, saying that the beautiful woman was passionate, but he was calm, but in fact he said half-mockingly and half-sarcastically that he "wet before going down the river." Shoes, without eating mutton, they already smell bad", and then sighed, "It is really difficult for a man to prove the innocence of another man, probably women are wary of the tacit connivance between men, especially in Sandy's view, My reputation can't be said to be good, and it's useless to say it sincerely, so Lao Dai, you can ask for blessings."

Xin Di couldn't help laughing. She didn't take last night's incident seriously, but she did think that it seemed unnecessary to continue with David Fan. After she has invested in her feelings, she will inevitably have to face such situations in the future. She has no interest in being jealous.

She was about to turn off the computer and go out, when suddenly she thought of Xin Chen's strange evasive attitude when she mentioned Xin Chen went to Beijing to find a job a few days ago. recorded.

As she rummaged forward, she secretly scolded Yan Xuhui, a talkative and narcissist, for keeping his blog updated so frequently.She finally patiently found the late March three years ago, she could see for a while, picked up the phone and called Lu Fei: "Lu Fei, where are you?"

Lu Fei is sorting out documents in the company. He has handed in his resignation report, but has not yet made a formal handover. He is still working in Haotian's office building. "I'm in the office. What's the matter, Xiaodi?"

Xin Di hesitated, and decided to tell him: "You turn on the computer, and I will send you the address of Yan Xuhui's blog, so you can take a good look."

Lu Fei quickly turned on the computer, clicked on the link sent by Xin Di, and the displayed date was exactly three years ago in late March. Sure enough, there were several diaries related to Xin Chen in the ten days before and after.I saw the title of the first article: Dear Xiaochen is here.

"My dear ex-girlfriend Xiaochen came to Beijing. Of course she didn't admit that I was his ex-boyfriend (a big grinning emoji). As soon as I bragged during the meal, she calmly said to my buddies, let's go Let him talk nonsense, anyway, there are too many lice and it doesn't itch, and I don't worry about having one or two more ex-boyfriends. This child is as straightforward as before, and he will hit wherever it hurts."

The following is a photo taken indoors. It can be seen that the room is not spacious. Seven or eight men and women are crowded around the table to eat. Of course there is Xin Chen in it. She is wearing a light pink turtleneck sweater and her hair is tied behind her head. In the steaming heat, her smile was bright and moving.

A diary after a few days wrote: "Xiaochen's interview went well, and she will go to work next Monday. Celebrating that another person is going to float in Beijing, the heart of the great capital and the motherland. We are all here. But this silly child said she didn't want to The reason for being a graphic model is that this industry is a job of youth, and she has experienced enough vicissitudes. Looking at her who is not childish, but still young and beautiful, I can only sigh, this statement makes me feel so embarrassing."

Below are a few snapped photos. Xin Chen came out of the office building wearing a small black suit jacket. His beautiful face was thoughtful, and he was not excited about finding a job; I don't want the other party to take pictures.

Look at the next blog post. It was written the next day, at the end of March. The title is: Goodbye, Xiaochen.

"Today is the weekend, but there is still work to do. I went out with Xiaochen in the morning. She looked very happy and asked me the bus route. It happened that the places we were going to were all near the National Exhibition. She said that she would go to see a Friend, find a house and settle down. No matter how much I tease you, this little girl won't say what kind of friend she is. Whatever, I'm happy for her. Even if the reason she stays in Beijing is not because of me, I hope she From then on, I was as happy as before. Thinking of this, the wind and sand in the sky are not so annoying. She underestimated the weather in Beijing and didn’t bring much clothes. Seeing how funny she borrowed my coat to wear, I helped her take a photo. Then go to work.

"When I came back in the afternoon, Xiaochen came back first. She didn't have a key, and she sat in a daze in front of the door. I sat down with her and asked her if she found any friends. She smiled so badly, I wanted to comfort her, but she suddenly said she was leaving, and started to pack her luggage without any room for discussion. No matter what I asked, she didn't make a sound. I know I can't ask anything, okay, Beauty always has the perverse privilege, especially her.

"I sent her to the train station. She didn't say anything all the way, but I looked at the window on her side and I knew she was in tears. I don't know who made her cry. I hate the friend she went to see. As usual, the weather in Beijing is terrible. I have to go to Fashion Week tomorrow, so I can't help myself. It's good for Xiaochen to go back to her hometown, at least her life there is more leisurely. I hope she can live happily.

"When I came back from the West Railway Station and looked at these two photos, I suddenly felt sad. When I took pictures of her for the first time, she was a carefree child. Let me express my feelings in other people's words: every teenager will When you grow old, whose youth can be immortal."

Ji Ruoli came over and knocked on the door of his open office, but Lu Fei focused all his attention on the two photos below and didn't notice her at all.

In one photo, Xin Chen was wearing a dark olive-colored men's hunting jacket, a black baseball cap on his head, a large outdoor sunglasses on the bridge of his nose, and a unique camouflage-patterned outdoor headscarf wrapped around his nose and mouth. The lower part of the clothes is completely covered, and the background is a diffuse wind and sand. This is exactly what street girls wear when they have to go out in the weather of sandstorms in Beijing.The sky was gloomy, and she looked thin and lonely when facing the camera, with a sense of desolation.

The other photo is the entrance of the West Railway Station. Under the lights, Xinchen is surrounded by bustling people. She is wearing a thin sports coat, no hat and sunglasses, and the camouflage turban is loosely pulled down. On her neck, she was carrying a small bag in her hand, and she was turning around and waving, her expression could not be seen clearly in the dim light.

Lu Fei clenched his left hand tightly into a fist and was completely stunned.Ji Ruoli walked in, "Lu Fei, my sister's secretary said that she will come out soon after the meeting, have you finished?" Lu Fei didn't respond at all.

Ji Ruoli turned around in doubt, and saw the two photos at a glance. She couldn't believe it and took a closer look, then turned her head and met Lu Fei's gaze.

They also determined that they and she had stood face to face, very close, and even greeted her.

Lu Fei returned to Beijing for work at the end of February of that year. Lu Shi gave him a well-decorated house in a good location to live in, but it was empty and unfurnished.Lu Fei just took over the job and was very busy, so he had to live in a hotel near the office building, planning to buy daily necessities and move in when he had time.

Ji Ruoli offered to help him with the purchases, and said with a smile: "I submitted a few resumes and am waiting for the job announcement. I am free now. Women are naturally interested in buying these things to decorate the house. I promise to take your taste into consideration and absolutely not It's going to be dusty."

Lu Fei couldn't help but handed her the key and a credit card at the same time, asking her to swipe the card to pay the fee directly.

At the end of March, there was no spring in Beijing, but sandstorms hit the sky, the sky turned khaki, and the air was full of fine dust, which made it difficult to breathe.Ji Ruoli is from the south, so she can't adapt to this harsh climate at all. She caught a cold, but she still went back and forth to various home cities to carefully select and compare. The process filled her with joy.

Lu Fei still has work to do on weekends, and when he drove over at noon, Ji Ruoli had already arrived, coughing, and ordering the workers to hang the curtains, all the furniture in the three-bedroom room had been placed in an orderly manner, even The bedding is all ready, and the color scheme is harmonious and low-key, which is in line with his taste.Sending the workers away, Lu Fei said thank you, but she just smiled and said, "It's great for letting me have a good time." She was playing with a crystal decoration, and suddenly looked back at Lu Fei, "Now your house is full Put my mark on it, let's see how you bring other girls back in the future."

This is not the first time she made a hint, but Lu Fei didn't react at all, and just looked out of the window in a daze, "At this time, the city I used to live in is already full of spring."

Ji Ruoli's heart skipped a beat, he seldom talked about the place where he lived, she ran into his college classmate Ding Xiaoqing because of work, and when she came back to mention it, he only briefly mentioned it.

"It seems that it's time for the famous cherry blossoms in your alma mater to bloom. I don't know how it is different from Washington. I really want to visit your school."

Lu Fei was silent for a long time, Ji Ruoli remembered the gossip that Ding Xiaoqing revealed to her that day with a smile, her heart beat faster, and was about to speak, Lu Fei smiled, "It's getting late, let's go, go to eat."

The two went downstairs and were about to walk to a restaurant not far away. Ji Ruoli pointed to a woman standing not far from his car, and said a little puzzled: "That girl seems to be waiting for someone. Here she is, poor, such a big wind and sand."

Lu Fei just glanced at it indifferently, and saw that the girl was wearing an empty men's long coat with the sleeves rolled up a bit, a pair of big outdoor sunglasses, and a camouflage turban on her face, motionless and straight Standing, completely ignoring the surrounding wind and sand, a thin layer of dust has already fallen on the baseball cap and clothes.

He was distracted, still immersed in his own memories.Now it is indeed the time when the cherry blossoms of his alma mater are in bloom. Did the petals that fluttered down in his dreams countless times still fall on the girl's hair and shoulders?Who belonged to the hands that brushed off the petals for her at this moment?
He also went to Kyoto, Japan on a business trip in the spring of a certain year. At that time, the cherry blossoms would only bloom every other week. The receptionist lamented that the timing was unlucky, but he didn't feel regretful at all.Without a familiar figure under the flower, even if it is in its prime, it is meaningless to him.

Ji Ruoli walked past the girl, he couldn't bear it, hesitated for a moment, stopped and turned around and said softly: "Miss, the wind and sand are too strong, stand outside for too long, be careful your body can't take it."

She turned her head to face her, paused for a while, and said in a hoarse voice, "Thank you, I'm waiting for someone."

"You can call him."

She was silent for a while, and said, "No need, I probably won't be able to wait for him anymore, I'll just stand there for a while and leave."

With such a strange answer, Ji Ruoli had no choice but to say nothing, and he and Lu Fei continued to walk towards the restaurant while saying: "Go to the supermarket over there later, fill up your refrigerator, and I will show you tonight. My food is pretty good."

"Don't be so troublesome."

"While your credit card is still with me, I will spend as much as I want." Ji Ruoli smiled, walked a long way, but turned back to look at the girl who was still standing there motionless, "Lu Fei, if there is a girl Waiting for you like this, won't you be moved?"

Lu Fei was stunned, and a crisp voice suddenly echoed in his ears: "I don't wait for anyone, I don't want to see you again." He looked at the wind and sand flying in front of him with a sense of loss, and Ji Ruoli's eyes fell on that lacklustre. She immediately regretted it.She couldn't resist trying to test him, but she couldn't get the answer she wanted. Obviously, what he was thinking of was not herself who had been waiting for his response all this time, so she could only change the topic hastily.

After they finished eating, Lu Fei asked Ji Ruoli to wait in the restaurant. He came to pick up the car, but saw that weird girl leaning over the front of his car, writing something with her fingers on his windshield covered in yellow sand. , he stopped not far from her, "Miss, is there anything I can do for you?"

Her fingers stopped, and standing at his angle, she could vaguely see what seemed to be a string of Arabic numerals, and the strokes of Chinese characters were about to be written below. She straightened up, "Sorry, I'm just scribbling." Her voice was hoarse, and she hurried past him.

They actually met face to face like this three years ago, and then passed each other.

Lu Fei tried his best to recall the scene of that day, but his memory had long been blurred on an ordinary day, as if separated by sand and dust, that figure was far less clear than the photo in front of him.

He looked at Yan Xuhui's blog again: Every teenager will grow old, and whose youth can be immortal.Then, that young girl aged quietly on that day, her innocence, her loveliness, her unhesitating love... was lost in the wind and sand of time.

And he couldn't even reach out to stay.

His decisions are forever slow, and he can't even blame unpredictable fate.From childhood to adulthood, he chose his own path, arranged his own life, and decided what compromise and persistence he would do. However, he never insisted on Xinchen.

Ji Ruoli looked at Lu Fei, hesitated before saying, "So, she went to look for you, but she saw us together."

Lu Fei gritted his teeth and didn't speak. Of course, before he returned to China, he sent an email to Xin Di, telling him the address of his residence, "My sister has prepared the house and the car. I plan to rent here. The transportation to the office is okay." It’s convenient.” When Xin Di replied to the email, she sighed, “It seems to be quite close to the National Exhibition, and I can stop by to see you when I go to Beijing to see the clothing exhibition.” Well, Xin Chen at least saw this email.

In the past, he often contacted Xin Di and reported his whereabouts. He also had a little hope that Xin Di would mention himself to Xin Chen, so the two of them could be regarded as having an indirect connection.However, when he returned to Beijing, the distance between him and Xin Chen was only 1000 kilometers. On the one hand, the work he had just taken over was busy and complicated;

But Xin Chen was still braver than him. She came to Beijing and came to him on her own initiative.Realizing this, Lu Fei only felt his heart beat faster.

Her face and her voice lingered in his dreams countless times, but he actually faced her, heard her speak, but didn't recognize her.To make matters worse, he was in and out with a girl, walking past her and past her.

Seeing that Lu Fei was so silent that he lost his mind, Ji Ruoli suddenly became furious, and said sharply: "What is this? Are you blaming me for my appearance at an inappropriate time, which disturbed your long-lost reunion? She can definitely appear Calling you, what on earth is she trying to do when she comes and leaves without making a sound like that? It's disgusting, everyone can save some trouble, but I'll be sad for a few days at worst, and then just leave the scene automatically. There is no need for more years of ambiguous love affairs, engagements, and then cancellation of engagements."

Why?Lu Fei also asked in his heart.Did this always proud girl misunderstand when she saw him with someone else?But she has always been frank and direct, and there is no need to leave without saying a word.Could it be that she still remembered what she said when they parted, so she hated herself for coming to the door and seeing this scene.

"The two of you are really a good match. You both completely ignore other people's feelings and regard other people's fate as the background of your great love. Are you playing drama life?" Ji Ruoli couldn't control himself at all, and said angrily , "You two can just play, why do you want to drag me?"

"It's not fair to her to say that. It's just me who pulls you. I'm sorry. It has nothing to do with her."

He looked at her, his voice calm, and he seemed to be telling a dry truth without revealing any emotion.Of course, she is no stranger to such a calm Lufei. From the first meeting, he has been calm and self-reliant, never revealing his emotional fluctuations easily, and she is attracted by his slightly aloof and alienated attitude , a little bit in love and unable to extricate themselves.

She actually once thought that she was close enough to him to break through his indifference. Realizing this, her heart sank like a lead weight, "You are mocking me, Lu Fei, I never thought you would be mean sometimes .You know as well as I do that I have worked hard for several years to get you to pull me, so I hate her even more. What qualifications does she have to pretend to be great like this? "

"You don't know her well. She never bothers to pretend to be anything, I think." Lu Fei's voice was bitter and low, "She's just completely disappointed in me."

Lu Shi appeared at the door of the office, looking at the two people with strange expressions, she was a little surprised, she asked Ji Ruoli and Lu Fei to have dinner together at night, "I just finished the meeting, let's go."

Lu Fei stood up, "I'm sorry, sister, please accompany Ruo Li to dinner, I have something to do, so let's go first." He took the key, without looking at anyone, and strode out of the office.

Ji Ruoli sat down on his seat, looking straight at the computer with the screen saver pattern on it, Lu Shi sighed, walked over and patted her on the shoulder, "Ruoli, I'm going to Shenzhen for a meeting, and my mother told me to come over , let me persuade you to communicate well and not to break up casually. I also promised her that I plan to invite you to dinner today and have a serious talk, but now I suddenly feel that it will be unfair to you to delay."

Ji Ruoli's eyes were sour, "How can there be fairness in love?"

"It's true, we always give up our persistence for someone." Lu Shi was also a little melancholy, "However, it's better not to give up on yourself."

"Sister, do you miss your first love so much?"

Lu Shi was startled, remembering that he had recalled his first love with a little girl, and that girl's insistence without hesitation made her question her life a little for a long time.

But now she can only smile wryly and shake her head, "First love is just a vague shadow in my heart, but everyone probably unconsciously regards a certain relationship as more important, it doesn't necessarily have to be first love, maybe it's because of a period of time, A memory has a special meaning, maybe because you have paid enough, but you don't have the effort and opportunity to give that much later."

"Yes, he sanctified his memory. In comparison, everything else is insignificant and can be given up. Even if we are together, we still have very happy days."

Of course, they also had very pleasant memories, and Lu Fei's smiling and gentle expression appeared in front of her eyes. The joy was not false, but now that I think about it, it is very ironic, and all the happiness seems to be overshadowed.She suddenly discovered that there were actually many clues, but she had deliberately ignored them.Love makes people so blind, she can only think bitterly, she has never had a choice, if she is given a chance, she does not know whether she is willing to remain blind forever, or accept the reality soberly.

"You are a girl who is easy to get along with, Ruo Li, and you care enough for him. I have no doubt that he will be happy with you. But people are greedy. The more you give, the more you want. More and more. What you think now may be to marry him. Sooner or later, you will find that what you get is not complete, it will be unbalanced, and you will resent why the marriage is only maintained by your efforts. Listen to your sister ,forget it."

"Everyone persuaded me to forget it. If I don't count, what can I do? It seems that there is only one way left to cry to my uncle and aunt, but with his current determination, I really want to do that. Don't talk about turning back, we probably all There is no room for meeting again." Ji Ruoli reached out to touch the mouse, watched the screen saver pattern on the display screen spread out, and the photo reappeared in front of his eyes, he paused for a while before saying, "I'm tired of it too, sister, originally I still I want to fight for it, but looking at it now, it seems that there is no need to bother with it, and I hope he will not regret it or be disappointed."

(End of this chapter)