Flowers all the way
Chapter 9 The past is only time
Chapter 9 The past is only time
It’s not surprising that Xindi would come here. She lives nearby, and the owner of this bar, Afeng, is her good friend. In her own words, this is the safest place for her to “drink a little wine and go crazy.” , Not only can you sign the bill at a discount, but if you get drunk, Afeng will also promise to send her home.
But Lu Fei is someone Xin Chen didn't expect to meet tonight and didn't want to meet.
Xin Di blinked at Xin Chen, and Xin Chen nodded to greet them. Bruce smiled and said, "Are you friends? Do you want to sit together?"
"It's my cousin and her friend, no need."
"I seem to have seen that person somewhere." Bruce was a little puzzled, but he thought, this man is graceful, with a gentle temperament and restrained brilliance, so outstanding, there is no reason to see him but he forgot in a blink of an eye, just shook his head with a smile.
Xin Di and Lu Fei sat on the other side, and Lu Fei glanced over again, his expression was different from his usual calm, and the meaning was a bit unclear.But Xin Chen didn't want to talk about him, "What did you just say, by the way, on foot. If possible, I would go on a self-guided trip to Europe. The place I would like to go is Prague, and I bought a book specially. It's called "Starting Self-Guided Travel in the Czech Republic", and it looks very interesting. Austria, let's talk about it."
"Then it's okay for me to prepare for the Czech Republic when I go back. Let's make an appointment. Can we take next summer vacation? Don't leave me alone."
"You still have to travel with me. The last time was bad enough. I broke your collarbone. Both of you almost lost your life."
"Didn't you come back from a dead end? Acacia, that is the most precious experience in my life, and I will cherish it forever." Bruce once again made an affectionate expression.
"I can't stand you, stop playing. My cousin is over there. She will ask me to explain later, but I can't tell."
"It's easy to explain. Tell her the truth. I am your loyal admirer. I have spent a few unforgettable days and nights with you. I have lived and died together. After that, I will confess my love to you about once every other month, sometimes Wong Kar Wai style, sometimes Stephen Chow style, sometimes classical affectionate, sometimes postmodern wild, but you never buy my account."
Xin Chen smiled helplessly, "Bruce, it's very dangerous for you to make psychological hints like this. Be careful to change from joking to half-truth, and then you can't figure out the truth."
Bruce stared at her, the cluster of candlelight on the table reflected in his eyes, flickering, "Maybe what I said is true, not a joke."
Xin Chen jokingly put up a finger, making a warning gesture, "I will be good to my friends, Bruce, but I am cruel to those who love me, don't fall in love with me."
Lu Fei didn't expect that when Xindi came to relax, he would meet Xinchen and a beautiful boy sitting together intimately, especially this boy was not a stranger to him.He seemed to have never seen Xin Chen with such bright makeup. Under the dim and flickering candlelight, she smiled beautifully, strangely and ethereally.
Over there, Xin Chen and Bruce sat for a while, drank the wine in front of them, got up to pay the bill, nodded and said hello to them, and left.
Lu Fei was uninterested and didn't speak, just drank the wine in a dull mood.
"Is this how men are jealous?"
Xin Di is probably the only friend who can talk and laugh with Lu Fei. Lu Fei doesn't mind her teasing, so he just smiled wryly, "There are some things you don't know, Xiao Di."
"Yeah, I don't know too many things. Sometimes I think, is my life completely out of touch with everyone else?" Xin Di raised her head and drank a big gulp of beer, "When I was in middle school, sit next to me I didn’t know anything about the girl who was in love with the boy sitting behind me. Later, the class teacher and her old man got angry and asked them to write a self-criticism. I didn’t know this romance that happened under my nose. I’m in college, the person in love Don't pay attention to being low-key and mysterious, my senior sister has been unrequitedly in love with the school girl for several years, it is said that passers-by know her good intentions, but I only found out after chatting with her."
The school grass is naturally David Fan. Xin Di’s senior sister is currently doing men’s clothing design in Fujian, and she has developed well. Xin Di used to go on business trips, and most of them would meet with her to exchange design experience and talk about interesting things in the industry. That time I heard the senior sister Talking about their childhood thoughts through drinking, the two still laughed at each other.The senior sister has let go of the past, and she simply thinks that with a talent like the senior sister, "what's so good about unrequited love for a peacock that spreads its wings".
"It doesn't make much sense to know these things, does it?"
"It's boring, life is too ordinary, these things are interesting little embellishments."
"After all, it's someone else's life, and it doesn't have much to do with me."
"But my own life is the same. Last year at a class reunion, a boy who went to Hong Kong to settle down suddenly confessed to me. He has always liked me and gestured to me many times, but I didn't respond. The students around him even booed and said They all saw it."
Xin Di was a little annoyed at the mention of this matter, not sure whether it was to the boy who was too reserved or to himself who was too slow.She didn't feel sorry for missing the possible development with that boy who didn't leave any impression, but she really felt that her life was too blank except for study and work.
Lu Fei put another bottle of beer in front of her, "Why do you suddenly think of so many irrelevant things?"
"I'm reflecting on whether I'm naturally insensitive to feelings. Even my mother can see what happened between you and Chenzi, but I'm completely at a loss."
Lu Fei smiled, "What did Auntie see?"
Xin Di didn't want to repeat the harsh words her mother said, so she just shrugged her shoulders, "In short, I'm a late bloomer and I feel cold, so there's no way out."
"That's not true, but Auntie has always protected you very well." Lu Fei thought silently in his heart, unlike Xin Chen, who had no protection and was exposed to a world that was too realistic for a child too early.
"Yeah, she protected me..." Xin Di originally wanted to say "a 28-year-old holy virgin", but she finally retracted in time, thinking that this is also my mother's words, it is unfair, in front of that guy David Fan It's shameful enough to be frank, could it be that being a virgin makes you lose your mind?She could only sigh, "Protection has become an emotional idiot."
"How are you an idiot, you are so bright." Lu Fei smiled.
Xin Di waved his hand, "Pull it down, this doesn't sound like consolation or sarcasm. But there is one thing I have to ask you. You are acting very strange when you come back this time. You have been studying and working abroad for almost four years. I have been working in Beijing for three years. I know that I am not good at arithmetic. It has been seven years. This is not a short period of time. You have almost never contacted Chenzi during the period. You would not think that she would like it because she was sixteen or seventeen. If you don’t want to, why don’t you just play cold kiln and wait for you silently? You also know that there are always many people who pursue her.”
Lu Fei and Xin Di have known each other since kindergarten, and she is also the friend he has kept in touch with the longest. He didn't want to hide anything from her, but he didn't know where to start, and he paused for a while before saying: "It's not you As you think, Xiaodi, I have never been so arrogant, and I have no right to ask Xiaochen for anything."
"Do you want to pursue Tatsuko?"
"If she still gives me a chance."
"I have to say, you really missed the best time. You can't help it when you are abroad, but when you returned to China three years ago, you should have stayed and told her directly. Why did you hear that she went to Xi'an for a trip? I didn’t want to wait too long, so I immediately changed my ticket and returned to Beijing in advance, and I haven’t come back for three years? I used to send emails and call me from time to time to tell me where I was, but I haven’t contacted me very much in the past three years.”
"Something happened, Xiaodi." After a long time, he continued, "Besides, I just learned something I should have known a long time ago."
Of course Xin Di was curious, but she knew that he didn't want to go into details, and she didn't want to ask, she didn't like such a heavy atmosphere, "I can't stand you, you act like you suddenly fell in love."
"I've been stuck in it for a long time, and I've been stuck in it all the time, but I don't even know it."
Lu Fei's voice was deep, and accompanied by the low jazz music in the room, Xin Di only felt a subtle turmoil in her heart. She asked casually, and she didn't expect that Lu Fei, who never confessed his thoughts easily, would explain anything, but he didn't expect him to be like this today Straightforward.
Xin Di looked at the corner where Xin Chen was sitting just now, it was empty.She sighed again, picked up the beer bottle, gulped it down, then put down the bottle, raised her head to the ceiling and smiled, "Lu Fei, it turns out that when you also wanted to be infatuated, you were not always so cautious as if you were born and matured. I'm not mistaken, my Chenzi was indeed invincible in Girls' Generation."
Lu Fei had long been used to her weird and different angle of seeing things, so he only smiled wryly.Fascinated?This word is really accurate for him, facing such a sunny smile, such soft lips, such brave eyes without fear and hesitation, he is indeed contrary to reason, confused and lost.
"But Chenzi has changed a lot." Xin Di said softly, still looking at the ceiling.
Who can change it?Even in her eyes, David Fan, who has been playing around in the world, still sighs that "no one can stay young and frivolous all the way".And she herself accepted the rules of the workplace unknowingly, learned to compromise, and did the same thing every quarter. While trying her best to advocate her own design, she also integrated the opinions of the entire design department to revise the final draft. This repeated process is like a seesaw. The same back and forth abrasion, has already unconsciously changed her.
But facing Xin Chen, seeing that her once-vigorous and self-willed cousin has become calm, generous, refined and decent, Xin Di only felt puzzled. Find that kind of unrestrained and unrestrained in your own design.
However, Xin Chen's change came unconsciously, at least there was no major event, no dramatic change like turning white overnight.Xin Di's father only thought that the change in his niece, which he had always favored, was "the girl has grown up and become more sensible". Even Li Xin, who had always disliked Xin Chen, reluctantly nodded in agreement with this statement.
Xin Di once again felt powerless about her memory and observation of feelings.
"Chenzi doesn't care much about anything now, he's not as sharp as before, and he can even be called tolerant."
Lu Fei had seen that casual smile during the day, "Is her work going well these few years?"
"Fortunately, when she graduated from university, my father arranged for her a job as a typist in a public institution on his own initiative, saying that there was a chance to transfer to a formal establishment. She went to the class for less than a month, and followed My dad said she didn't want to do it."
Thinking of the past, Xin Di laughed. Her parents were very upset about it, but she could understand that Xin Chen, who worked as a typist in a dispirited unit, would probably only be able to stay for three days at most if it were her, "she said She was self-willed this time only, and then went to Xi'an for half a month, then found a job by herself after returning, and then started to take on graphic design and image processing work at home, and she has done very well, and her income is also good."
Xin Di was startled suddenly, she realized for the first time that since then, Xin Chen really has no willfulness, and later even agreed to go on a blind date according to her father's arrangement, which surprised her.
When mentioning that "trip to Xi'an", Lu Fei was silent, and what Xin Chen said during the day came to his mind.
"My life is not your responsibility."
"I never made myself anyone's responsibility after that."
When speaking, Xin Chen didn't look at him, his voice and expression were exhausted and helpless.
But in Girls' Generation, Xin Chen was not like this. At that time, she looked straight into his eyes with stubbornness, and said word by word clearly: "I will not care about being anyone's responsibility."
What she said, she really did.Maybe he forced her to do it, is this what he wanted?From the first time she kissed his lips, everything changed in a fleeting time, everything changed, and everything was changed.
After the summer night when Xin Chen kissed Lu Fei for the first time, she never asked him if she was his girlfriend, maybe in her view, this was not a question at all.
Lu Fei never directly admitted that Xin Chen was his girlfriend. A 4-year age gap is not a big deal, but for a 19-year-old sophomore boy, having a 15-year-old girlfriend who is still in high school is still a psychological obstacle.
Especially Lu Fei has always been rigorous and rational, and he came home with that sweet but superficial kiss. He lost sleep, his eyes opened and closed, and there was only that beautiful and smiling face.
He even looked up information on the Internet, flipped through psychology books, sat in on psychology professors' lectures, and read Nabokov's famous novel "Lolita" to check whether he was a pedophile.Don't talk about this kind of worry to his parents, even to his close sister Lu Shi who is 8 years old, or his close friend Xin Di, who is about the same age and has always been, he can't confide in it.
Lu is not resting or on vacation, as long as there is nothing to do, he will call Xinchen.If Xin Kaiyu is not at home, he will come to accompany her.When they were together, he mostly helped her with her homework, and at most watched a movie with her.Xin Chen has grown up, but he is still a child after all, he has no desire for lust, and is only satisfied with a stable and safe hug once in a while; while Lu Fei is restrained, he said to himself, she is almost 16 years old, He can wait for her to grow up, and the process of growing up with her is also very beautiful.
He did restrain his words and deeds according to the standard of having a girlfriend, and chose to ignore any girl's advances and not respond.
Ding Xiaoqing, a girl from the same department who has always been in love with Lu Fei, finally couldn't hold back her thoughts and confessed to him directly. He said politely, "I'm sorry, I don't want to think about this right now."
"But this doesn't conflict with your studies at all. It just gives us a chance to deepen our understanding and see if there is any possibility of development."
He could only say: "I already have a girl I like."
Ding Xiaoqing didn't believe this pretext, so she lowered her face, "Lu Fei, you can refuse me directly, and you don't have to prevaricate with someone who doesn't exist. We have been classmates for more than a year, and we have never seen you date any girl."
"I won't make a fiction about this matter. She doesn't study in this school, but she does exist." His expression and voice maintained his usual calmness, so Ding Xiaoqing had no choice but to give up.
Of course she exists, and she has such a strong sense of existence. Thinking of her is like a wind blowing without knowing the direction, making my heart wrinkled like a pool of spring water, with such subtle and soft fluctuations.Lu Fei thought.
Lu Fei never told Xin Chen about other girls' gestures to him, and Xin Chen didn't even realize that such a situation might happen.
She would say from time to time: "Zheng Yitao passed me a note again, and I was almost caught by the teacher. It's really annoying." This Zheng Yitao is the [-]-meter champion, and he has been persevering to her.
"The day before yesterday, a boy stopped me at the school gate and asked me to go to the movies. It was ridiculous. I didn't even know him."
She didn't mean to show off at all, she just reported the little things in her life to Lu Fei.
Or with a straight face, he said: "Ms. Wu criticized me for not talking too much with my male classmates, causing them to be inattentive. Is it my fault? They are obviously the ones who came to strike up a conversation with me."
Lu Fei didn't think those little boys were a threat, and he also agreed that the teacher was unfair to her, but he could only say: "You concentrate on your studies, and the teacher sees your efforts, so naturally he won't think that you have used your mind elsewhere."
Xin Chen laughed, "No, I don't like studying, and I don't want to use this method to prove my innocence."
It is true that Xin Chen has never put all his attention on his studies. He is satisfied with his homework and his grades. This makes Lu Fei, who is quite inclined towards perfection, a headache. There are quite a lot of fallacies, most of which come from her father who doesn't know what to do and who doesn't know what to do.
Seeing her tilting her head to read comic books or movie pictorials, her slender legs wrapped in jeans hanging on the armrest of the wicker chair, her slippers thrown aside, and her feet dangling in thick wool socks printed with cartoon patterns, there is absolutely no shape but She looked so innocent and lazy, he thought, well, she has a reason, not all happiness comes from the norms he has already accepted.
He quietly came to this city in early spring. The university Lu Fei studied at has one of the most beautiful campuses in China. Every spring, cherry blossoms are in full bloom. Xin Chen proposed to see the cherry blossoms. I hesitated a bit.Is it wise to hold the hand of a beautiful girl who has just turned 16 and go around when your school is busiest?I don't know what my classmates think.
As a result, he called Xin Di and asked her to come over and meet on the morning of the weekend.
Xin Di regarded this invitation as a spring outing plus an inter-school friendship, and called seven or eight male and female students to come together. The students from the Fashion Design Department of the Academy of Fine Arts dressed up in all kinds of strange ways, and they walked in groups, which were very eye-catching. I can't laugh or cry.
Xin Chen who jumped off the bus a little later was not surprised. She was actually a child, and she didn’t have the idea of dominating anyone or having to be alone. She was happy to see how lively the crowd was, and she was quite fond of their weird costumes. accept.And they naturally took good care of this beautiful and lively little sister, and immediately some male classmates came up to ask questions.
Instead, Lu Fei fell behind. He was a little ashamed of his own thoughts, but also a little regretful.
As the warm breeze blows, the petals of cherry blossoms covering the top of the tree like pink mist flutter down one after another, reminding Lu Fei of the summer when she first met Xin Chen, when she hugged the trunk of the chrysanthemum tree and shook it to make a rain of flowers.He couldn't help thinking that if it was just him and her at this moment, how great it would be if he could reach out and brush the petals off the black hair.
It was Xin Di who brushed off the petals for Xin Chen.
Of course, it can’t be just him and her. The cherry blossom season has made this school a local public tourist attraction. The school has even started selling tickets at several gates in the past few days, in the name of limiting the number of tourists and protecting the public. The school's resources and teaching order have aroused a lot of discussion. The local newspaper even set up a special discussion section to interview the citizens' opinions on this move, but none of this can stop everyone's enthusiasm for viewing the flowers.
The cherry blossom road in the school is crowded with tourists, tourists posing for pictures everywhere, Xin Di and her classmates who study art are a little bit uninterested, Lu Fei is about to take them to other places in the school, when they run into the same Ding Xiaoqing and several other classmates who came to enjoy the flowers.
Xin Chen was persuaded by Xin Di's classmate to take a photo while Ding Xiaoqing thought that Xin Di, who was joking with Lu Fei familiarly, was his mysterious girlfriend, and was a little disappointed.Because their intimacy is obvious, she has never seen Lu Fei smiling at others like this; at the same time, she has hope, the Xin Di in front of her is small and has a baby face, which is cute at best, and in her opinion, it does not suit her. Lufei, who is equally outstanding in appearance and innards.
Ding Xiaoqing greeted them generously, and at the same time looked at Xin Di with deep meaning, "Lu Fei has already mentioned you to us, we all want to meet you."
Before Xin Di could speak, her classmates started booing: "Xin Di, that's amazing, you are already famous outside of school, and you said that the award you just won is not important."
Xin Chen first asked curiously: "What award did you win, Dizi, tell me quickly."
The classmate next to him told Xin Chen that it was a local design competition named after a company. Although it was only an unconventional competition in the nature of advertising sponsorship, it was amazing to win an award just in his sophomore year.
Lu Fei looked at Xin Di with a smile, his eyes were full of praise, and Xin Di's expectations for himself were far more than that, without any conceit, he just smiled and said: "Come on, don't exaggerate, how can you be such a braggart?" , those who didn’t know thought I had already gone to the International Fashion Week for a press conference.”
Xin Di's tone was confident and high-spirited, with a frightening attitude, Ding Xiaoqing was speechless for a moment.
Lu Fei knew that Ding Xiaoqing had misunderstood, but he thought, that's fine, he didn't intend to explain, and then he took a group of people to have a good tour of the large-scale campus covering several thousand acres, and then took them to the campus After dinner in the restaurant, they were sent away, and finally only he and Xin Chen were left.
He sent Xin Chen home, and the two got into a taxi. He asked Xin Chen, "Are you happy?"
Xin Chen nodded heavily. He stared at this childish and happy face, feeling a little guilty, "I will definitely play with you next time."
But she was surprised, "You've been with me for a long time, how can you spend more time with me?" Then thoughtfully, "Your school is really big and beautiful. The library and complex look very impressive."
He took advantage of the situation to induce her: "Then you should work hard and try to get into this school, so we can be together more."
She laughed out loud, "Even if I pass the exam, you will graduate."
"I can choose this school to study in graduate school." His older sister Lu Shi went abroad to study after graduating from university. He knew that his parents were going to send him to study abroad, so there was no problem with his grades.But he thought that it would be okay to go abroad after finishing his graduate studies, and he could even take Xin Chen out with him. Thinking of this prospect, he smiled.
Xin Chen likes the smiling and gentle expression of this proud and calm boy, and likes his dark and deep eyes looking at her so intently, which makes her feel at ease and indulged.In contrast, the indifference to study seems to be overcome, she nodded, "Okay, I will try."
The drive home was not too short, she leaned against him and quickly fell asleep.He tried his best to sit upright so that she could lean more comfortably. The wind blew through the half-opened car window, and her hair fluttered, brushing his face and heart gently.
At this moment, sitting in this bar with a low space, dim lights, and low-pitched jazz music, Lu Fei felt a strong sense of time passing for the first time.
Nine years have passed since then.The childhood playmate who drank with himself has now become a well-known fashion designer, and he has been studying and working all the way, and he has lived a [-]-to-[-] elite life that he thinks he has a clear goal; The girl also has a solid and legitimate career.
Perhaps everyone has finally embarked on the correct and orderly track, but the girl who brought the first touch in life has become a stranger.
Lu Fei shook the glass, and under the light, he saw the golden amber whiskey on ice hanging on the wall of the glass and then slowly sliding down. He raised his head and took a sip, the slightly viscous wine slipped into his throat, and it was actually a bit bitter.
After leaving the Forever bar, Xin Chen and Bruce bought a carton of canned beer, walked to the riverside, sat down on the stone steps still covered with the heat of the daytime sun, drank beer and continued to chat endlessly.The river is open across the front, the wind is blowing head-on, not as muggy as other places.
"I still like the river beach in the past, but it's good now. The traces of artificial planning are too heavy, and there is no natural flavor." Bruce looked critically at the river beach park in front of him, "I think this city is becoming unrecognizable soon. Out."
"Has there been any changes? Maybe it's because you've been away for too long." Apart from working at home, Xin Chen went to the suburbs for hiking in the mountains, or traveling. Instead, he didn't feel much about the changes in the city. However, the place where he lived was facing demolition. The biggest change is right around the corner.
"It's not that long. The last time I came back was three years ago. I only stayed here for one day, and then went to Shenzhen to attend my little uncle's wedding, and then set off for Qinling."
Mentioning that experience, Xin Chen shook his head amusedly, "Your family actually let you go for a hike, you are very enlightened."
"I persuaded my dad not to let him tell my mom, but I also promised him that I will be careful in the future."
Bruce was living in the same hospital with her at the time, knowing that she was determined not to disclose her family's phone number, and no one visited her until she was discharged from the hospital. When she occasionally heard her call, he would always smile and say, "Yes, I'm still playing in Xi'an. I’ll be back in the next day, and everything is fine.” After she was discharged from the hospital, she bought her own ticket and took the train home, presumably the family affairs were not going well, so she didn’t want to talk about this topic again, “Hehuan, I’m going to stay here for half a month. Is there any arrangement for the local vertical mountain? I want to participate too."
"On Saturday, I arranged to go to a mountain with an altitude of 700 meters in the outer suburbs. You can follow the thread and sign up."
"I haven't tried climbing a mountain at this temperature, let's see if I can stand the test."
"It's a summer resort area over there. The climate is cooler, but it depends on the weather. Alas, it seems to be raining." Xin Chen is familiar with the weather in this city. Visible tumbling clouds of extreme pressure.
"It's raining." Bruce said excitedly, "I remember it was like ten years ago, the rain in that summer vacation, the sky was dark, and I never saw the rainstorm in the same way wherever I went. There is water all over the place, and it is said that you can swim in the deep places, and my sister and I sneaked out to have a water fight with people, and the water splashed high when the car drove past, it was so enjoyable."
When mentioning the torrential rainstorm ten years ago, which was said to occur once in a hundred years in this city, Xin Chen was taken aback, of course she had an impression.
"I was almost 13 years old that year, you should be 15 years old?" Bruce turned to her enthusiastically, "If you were also playing with water in the street, maybe we met then."
"That day——" Xin Chen held a beer can and looked at the river in the distance. According to her personality at that time, she should have rushed to the street to play in the water and had a great time, but she shook her head, "That day I Stay home honestly, I have a cold."
Bruce smiled, "Then don't tell me, you didn't come to the river to watch the rising flood. The place where we are sitting now was completely submerged at the time. Walking on the riverside road, you can see the ships on the river, as if Higher than the embankment, it seems to be suspended in front of you. You see, we may have met before."
The water level rose violently that year, and this big riverside city became the center of national news attention, and it was even more impossible for the local citizens not to care.Of course, Xin Chen also came to see, and the person holding her hand was Lu Fei.
Xin Chen drank the beer in his hand, and threw the empty can into the cardboard box, "I drank a lot today, forget it, let's go home, I don't want to get caught in the rain again and catch a cold."
There was already dull thunder on the road, Xin Chen got out of the taxi, Bruce poked his head out, smiled and said loudly: "If you are afraid of thunder, chat with me online."
Xin Chen smiled, "Just like I haven't been a little girl for a long time, I haven't been afraid of thunder for a long time, good night."
As the taxi drove away, a flash of lightning flashed by. Xin Chen stood there, looking up at the sky motionless, until there was another loud noise, like thunder roaring overhead, and then she quickly walked into the dark corridor.
The door of the black Audi Q7 parked not far away opened, and Lu Fei came out. After sending Xindi home, he drove the car here, and sat in the car listening to the CD silently.He looked up at the window on the fifth floor, and finally when the light came on, he knew that Xin Chen had arrived home.
Another burst of thunder passed by, he thought, although she answered the boy loudly just now that she "hasn't been afraid of thunder for a long time", but after the lightning passed, her body froze and she stood where she was, which was actually the same as what she told him before. There was no difference in the reaction, "I would plug my ears with a quilt, but I couldn't help trembling like a demon and waited for the next burst of thunder."
However, after she clearly stated during the day that it was no longer his responsibility, he could no longer find any reason to care about her like that rainy night ten years ago.
Ten years ago, the torrential rainstorm in this city also started at such a late night with lightning and thunder. Lu Fei's mother and sister went to Shanghai for vacation, and his father was in Beijing on a business trip, so he was alone at home.He was sound asleep when the phone ringing woke him up.
Xin Chen's soft voice came from the microphone: "Lu Fei, can you chat with me?"
He looked at the time in a daze, "It's midnight now, Xiaochen, can't you sleep?"
"I..." Xin Chen was a little embarrassed to say it, obviously felt that it was not justifiable to wake him up like this, but another burst of thunder passed by, and she couldn't stop her voice from trembling, "There is a power outage, I'm afraid, please talk to me. "
Lu Fei suddenly became fully awake. He knew that Xin Chen's father was away again, and she was alone at home these days, "I'll come right over, wait for me."
Lu Fei changed his clothes and went out with an umbrella. The rain had already started to rain outside. The umbrella was deformed by the strong wind and could not withstand the rain at all. He finally stopped a taxi. The driver murmured: "This rain is terrible." Really evil, no, I have to collect the car and go home after sending you off."
There were no pedestrians on the road at all, the sky was constantly thundering and lightning, the rain was getting heavier and heavier, and it seemed to be pouring down. The wipers swung back and forth rapidly, and it was still a vast expanse.After getting out of the car and walking a short distance, Lu Fei was almost drenched even with an umbrella. He hurried up to the fifth floor where Xin Chen lived. As soon as he rang the doorbell, Xin Chen opened the door, apparently guarding the door all the time. side.She threw herself into his arms and hugged him tightly.Lu Fei threw down the umbrella, "Let go, Xiaochen, I'm completely soaked."
Xin Chen ignored him, just hugging his waist, and burst into tears at the same time.They have known each other for a year, and Xin Chen has always been cheerful and lively, even if he is a little tempered, it will be fine in a blink of an eye, and he has never cried so loudly.
Lu Fei couldn't understand such a childish way of crying, but he couldn't help feeling distressed. He just patiently patted her and coaxed her: "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, I will accompany you. Next time there is a thunderstorm, I will come to accompany you, okay?"
Xin Chen's wailing slowly turned into sobs in his arms. She understood that it was a bit too much for a 15-year-old girl to act like a baby, but she couldn't control herself at all.
Xin Chen has an almost morbid fear of such thunder.
Her grandfather died in the hospital due to illness, and then she shared a room with her elderly and frail grandmother.In the early spring of the next year, on a thunderstorm night, she woke up, reached out to touch her grandma, and fell asleep at ease, but she didn't sleep soundly and had vague dreams.In the early hours of the morning, she suddenly turned over and sat up, realizing that the body of her grandmother beside her was cold.At this time, the lightning illuminated the room brightly for a short time, grandma remained motionless, her eyes were closed tightly, and her face was distorted.She was silent for a moment, and then the thunder sounded, and she screamed in fright.
Xin Kaiyu was not at home that night. Xin Chen shook his hand to call his pager, and then called his uncle's house. Xin Kaiming rushed over first. He confirmed that his mother had passed away in his sleep, so he could only wrap himself tightly in the blanket and curl up in the The trembling niece on the sofa in the living room.
Later, Xin Chen insisted on changing rooms with her father, but in the same weather, her father had not returned, and she was alone at home, so she could only cover her ears with a quilt.She told Xin Kaiyu about her fear, and Xin Kaiyu photographed her apologetically, promising to go home as early as possible next time. Later, when there was a thunderstorm, he would indeed come back as soon as possible, but there was nothing he could do about it when he was on a business trip.
This night, after Xin Chen woke up with a start, she quickly got up and closed the window. The strong wind and rain rushed in, making her pajamas half wet.She crawled back to bed, completely out of sleep, trying to find something to distract her, but she turned on the light and took a magazine, but still couldn't read it, only to see her lonely figure cast on the wall by the light of the desk lamp, and the lightning flashed down However, the shadow magnified and swayed, and the sound of thunder came one after another, causing her to have countless associations of panic.Then there was a sudden power outage, and the room was plunged into darkness.
She finally couldn't take it anymore and called Lu Fei.And when he rushed over, his whole body was drenched, he hugged her tightly, and he was willing to unprincipled and unconditionally make her have an attack, how could she not burst into tears?
When she was tired from crying and calmed down, Lu Fei looked at her cartoon doll pajamas that were wet by his own clothes, a little embarrassed, the girl's figure was completely exposed in front of his eyes, he looked away, "Go change into pajamas, Xiaochen, Watch out for a cold."
Xin Chen went to change his clothes, and brought Xin Kaiyu's clothes to change for him.Lu Fei sat on the sofa, let her lie in his arms, and listened to her talking intermittently, and only then did he know the source of her fear.Looking at her slightly red and swollen eyes, he couldn't tell her that life, old age, sickness and death are common things, and there are no ghosts and gods in the world.Of course, only hugs are the most effective comfort for a child who has accumulated fears since the age of 12.
Moreover, she is willing to choose to cry in his arms.
The thunder outside was not so dense, but the rain was still heavy. Xin Chen fell asleep against his chest. He picked her up, put her on the bed, covered her with a towel, and then sat on the head of the bed. , but not sleepy at all.Touching her thick hair with pity, he thought, if possible, he hoped that when she was afraid in the future, all the arms she would think of would be his.
Now it seems that this seems like a luxury.
A drop of rain fell on Lu Fei's face, and then the rain fell heavily and quickly. The violent thunderstorm in the city's summer came again.
Xin Chen stood leaning against the balcony door with her arms folded and watched the heavy rain outside. She drank several kinds of wine today, and she felt a little drunk, her head was dizzy, but she didn't feel sleepy at all.Seeing such lightning, thunder, and storm, she couldn't help but remind her of the past.
She hurried home not because she was afraid of rain or thunder, but because she didn't want to share memories with Bruce. On nights like this, she would rather be alone.She knew that the violent storm ten years ago was destined to be different from others in her memory.She never shared her memories with others, and she didn't want others' memories to intrude on her.
The wind blew the flowers and plants on the balcony swaying, the heavy rain poured down, and the lightning drew a dazzling Z-shape in the far sky. After a brief flash, the thunder rumbled, and she stood upright, Hold your breath and wait for the thunder to subside, and you won't shrink back like before.
Of course, the girl who was so frightened by the lightning and thunder that she couldn't sleep, like the boy who came to accompany her in the torrential rain, has gone with time.Everyone has to grow up, and she is no exception. She has never completely overcome her fear of certain things, but she has already convinced herself to face these fears.
According to the city's news reports, the heavy rain on that night ten years ago broke a century-old record. The rain poured down almost violently, and lasted from one o'clock in the morning the day before to two o'clock in the afternoon the next day. Many power lines in the city were damaged. When the wind blows, the street is waterlogged from knee to waist. There are cars stalled and broken down in the stagnant water. People who go out in the morning have to walk through the water with umbrellas. Tricycles have become the most popular means of transportation. , The whole city fell into disorder.
In such a severe waterlogging disaster weather, what stubbornly remains in Xin Chen's memory is only a warm embrace.
Xin Chen was shivering alone on the bed in his semi-wet pajamas at night, and then threw himself into the wet Lu Fei's arms and cried loudly. When he woke up the next morning, he was breathing heavily, his head was a little heavy, and his voice was hoarse.Lu Fei touched her forehead, her body temperature was still normal, "Is there any cold medicine at home?"
Xin Chen shook his head, "It's okay, I seldom get sick, just sleep and I'll be fine."
"How about that, I'll go buy medicine for you."
Xinchen leaned on the window sill and looked down. It seemed like a water town. The drainage system in this old city was not perfect. In this kind of heavy rain, the waterlogging situation was worse than other places. There were urchins on the street who used big plastic basins as The boat was floating and playing, she was very happy to see it, and held Lu Fei, "Let's go and play too."
In such muddy water with garbage floating in it, Lu Fei had to do mental training to overcome his cleanliness habit even when he went out to buy medicine.
Lu Fei wore a pair of slippers, rolled up his trouser legs, and waded out of the water despite his discomfort. The streets were full of people dressed like him, and the surrounding shops were all flooded with water. There is also interest in talking and laughing.
He bought back the medicine, and bought a big bag of food by the way.Boss Xin Chen reluctantly drank the cold medicine he had prepared, and watched him frowning and washing his legs repeatedly in the bathroom, which was a bit funny, "People who are obsessed with cleanliness have to miss so many fun things."
"for example……"
Xin Chen pointed out with his chin, "It's so interesting to play in the water, how long does it take for this kind of rain to catch up?"
Lu Fei came out of the bathroom, his expression couldn't help but touched her hair, "What a child."
Along the way, he saw quite a few children playing in the rain, so he could only admit that there was indeed a generation gap with the child in front of him.He couldn't figure out how the 15-year-old Xin Chen had grown up, but still retained so much childishness.Looking at the stagnant water, he thought that the underground pipe network here might have to be remodeled, and his father was probably too busy with the city's drainage and waterlogging.
But this did not prevent him from pampering and pampering Xin Chen, coaxing her to drink medicine patiently, letting her turn up the TV loudly but not watching it, and letting her refuse to do homework with the excuse of a headache.Seeing that she hated instant noodles, he went to the kitchen for the first time to cook noodles for her, but Xin Chen laughed out loud at his gesture, and pushed him away to do it himself.
Looking at the delicate Xin Chen, she is actually very capable of living independently. She moved very nimbly. She set up a pan to fry eggs, and another pan to cook noodles. At the same time, she took out tomatoes from the refrigerator, washed and chopped them quickly, and added tomatoes and eggs together. Stir fry until fragrant and pour over the cooked noodles.It can be seen that she has done it very skillfully, and she must often pass herself off like this.After eating the noodles she cooked, Lu Fei sincerely praised the deliciousness.
The two stayed at home, Lu Fei taught her homework, played chess with her, sat with her on the balcony after the rain stopped, watched the pigeons fly under the leaden sky after the rain, and watched the people downstairs sitting and gathering after hearing the news. The tricycles came in and out, and everyone recovered from their initial complaints, talking and laughing happily, and no one seemed to think it was a disaster.
Of course, Lu Fei's father definitely didn't think so.Lu Fei talked to his father on the phone and learned that he hurried back from Beijing, arranged for the drainage of the urban area, transferred the trapped citizens, rushed to repair power lines, restored public transportation, and went to the first-line embankment where the flood situation is becoming more and more serious. There is no time to go home. .
Both Xin Kaiming and Xin Kaiyu called Xin Chen to ask her about her situation, and she reported truthfully: "The water has only receded a little, but it's still deep, um, it's okay, I know." "Yes, I have a cold, and I've already taken medicine. Okay, I won't go out, there is food at home."
The rain stopped for a few hours, then it started to fall again, but not as violently as the night before, and for a short time.It took two days for the waterlogging that besieged the residential building to recede completely. It was the first time that Xin Chen and Lu Fei faced each other day and night like this.
At night, Lu Fei lay beside Xin Chen, whispering to her, but in fact it was just her talking, and he listened with a smile until she fell asleep in a daze.Xin Chen felt his lips lightly pressed against her forehead, and she was content to suddenly have a warm and safe embrace in this house where she often lived alone, and the rainy night became no longer lonely.
Even after being separated from Lu Fei, Xin Chen still cherishes that time.
Since she was a child, Xin Chen was used to the combination and separation of her father and all kinds of women, and she was not sentimental about parting.A woman once came to the door, grabbed Xin Kaiyu's sleeve and wept, but he remained calm, unmoved, and said with a little helplessness: "I have made it clear, don't make an ugly scene and scare my daughter." ,Means nothing."
The woman could only leave in the end, Xin Kaiyu stroked her daughter's hair, "You're not angry with Dad, are you?"
Xin Chen shook his head, "If you change your mind as soon as she cries, I will be angry."
Xin Kaiyu smiled, looked into her eyes, and rarely said seriously: "Chenzi, remember, don't cry to boys casually in the future. At most, crying will only embarrass the other party and can't change anything. The person who really loves you will not easily provoke you. Cry, the person who made you cry probably doesn't care about your tears."
She also laughed, knowing that her father probably made many women cry.She thought, well, then don't cry, in the future she will try her best to be the one who left first, and she will definitely not try to persuade her to stay, let alone make an ugly gesture.
Of course that was just a childish idea, at least when Lu Fei left, she chose to stay where she was and watch his back slowly disappear.All she could do was hold her head stubbornly and did not cry.She told herself that it was just coming and going, walking around and staying, it was not a big deal, it would pass soon.
But the past is just time.
After Lu Fei left, Xin Chen had been pursued by many people. In her sophomore year, she finally accepted a date request from a boy who had always liked her.The two were walking on the campus in autumn, the sweet-scented osmanthus was in full bloom, the moonlight was as bright as water, and the air was filled with sweet fragrance.As his arms came up, she thought, all right.They hug, then kiss.
However, she found sadly, that was different.
She suddenly understood that when 19-year-old Lu Fei kissed her and hugged her, he was full of restraint and love.She won't be 15 years old, and there will no longer be a man who cares for her in such a gentle and self-contained way.
Breaking free from that embrace in a hurry, she walked away without explaining anything, and severed contact with the boy without giving any reason at all.
Of course, Xin Chen knew that this comparison was meaningless. Even if she and Lu Fei hadn't separated, they probably wouldn't have such a peaceful time in the future.Sooner or later, like other lovers, they will experience the anxious needs of the body and the heart at the same time, and the feeling of the desire to blend the soul and the body, and that pure moment will always become a memory.
Life goes on, seasons come and go, and she later finds a new boyfriend and convinces herself to start a new relationship.
The local summer climate is still notoriously hot and unbearable. At this time of year, it is often sunny and hot, and then turns to cloudy and hot. The air pressure is so low that people can't breathe. A thunderstorm hits the face cleanly, and it repeats itself every year.
It's just that there is no more thunderstorm like that summer night ten years ago, no more embrace like Lufei.She accepts this reality.
On such a rainy night, the thunder and lightning are still violent, and the strong wind is wrapped in the rain, but her memory is full of tender images.She remembered that grandma's face was no longer distorted as it was at the moment of her passing away, but was looking at her with love and affection, stroking her face with slightly rough hands with age spots, combing her hair and braiding her hair, half admiring and half melancholy: " Girls with such hard hair, don't be too stubborn, Xiaochen." She remembered that Lu Fei was holding her, listening to her meaningless whispers, smiling softly, and the kiss in the sleepy state was soft but burning hot on her face. her forehead, dispelling her fear.
The heavy rain knocked off the branches of the blooming jasmine and crabapple flowers on the balcony, and the small white and bright red flowers were exhausted in the soil of the flowerpots, and the leaves of the morning glory climbing up the vines around the anti-theft net railing swayed from side to side in the wind .Xin Chen wiped his wet face, not sure whether it was the rain splashed on it or the tears finally flowed out.
No flower can bloom forever, no rainstorm will never stop, so no memory should linger forever.It's time to draw a full stop.she said to herself.
(End of this chapter)
It’s not surprising that Xindi would come here. She lives nearby, and the owner of this bar, Afeng, is her good friend. In her own words, this is the safest place for her to “drink a little wine and go crazy.” , Not only can you sign the bill at a discount, but if you get drunk, Afeng will also promise to send her home.
But Lu Fei is someone Xin Chen didn't expect to meet tonight and didn't want to meet.
Xin Di blinked at Xin Chen, and Xin Chen nodded to greet them. Bruce smiled and said, "Are you friends? Do you want to sit together?"
"It's my cousin and her friend, no need."
"I seem to have seen that person somewhere." Bruce was a little puzzled, but he thought, this man is graceful, with a gentle temperament and restrained brilliance, so outstanding, there is no reason to see him but he forgot in a blink of an eye, just shook his head with a smile.
Xin Di and Lu Fei sat on the other side, and Lu Fei glanced over again, his expression was different from his usual calm, and the meaning was a bit unclear.But Xin Chen didn't want to talk about him, "What did you just say, by the way, on foot. If possible, I would go on a self-guided trip to Europe. The place I would like to go is Prague, and I bought a book specially. It's called "Starting Self-Guided Travel in the Czech Republic", and it looks very interesting. Austria, let's talk about it."
"Then it's okay for me to prepare for the Czech Republic when I go back. Let's make an appointment. Can we take next summer vacation? Don't leave me alone."
"You still have to travel with me. The last time was bad enough. I broke your collarbone. Both of you almost lost your life."
"Didn't you come back from a dead end? Acacia, that is the most precious experience in my life, and I will cherish it forever." Bruce once again made an affectionate expression.
"I can't stand you, stop playing. My cousin is over there. She will ask me to explain later, but I can't tell."
"It's easy to explain. Tell her the truth. I am your loyal admirer. I have spent a few unforgettable days and nights with you. I have lived and died together. After that, I will confess my love to you about once every other month, sometimes Wong Kar Wai style, sometimes Stephen Chow style, sometimes classical affectionate, sometimes postmodern wild, but you never buy my account."
Xin Chen smiled helplessly, "Bruce, it's very dangerous for you to make psychological hints like this. Be careful to change from joking to half-truth, and then you can't figure out the truth."
Bruce stared at her, the cluster of candlelight on the table reflected in his eyes, flickering, "Maybe what I said is true, not a joke."
Xin Chen jokingly put up a finger, making a warning gesture, "I will be good to my friends, Bruce, but I am cruel to those who love me, don't fall in love with me."
Lu Fei didn't expect that when Xindi came to relax, he would meet Xinchen and a beautiful boy sitting together intimately, especially this boy was not a stranger to him.He seemed to have never seen Xin Chen with such bright makeup. Under the dim and flickering candlelight, she smiled beautifully, strangely and ethereally.
Over there, Xin Chen and Bruce sat for a while, drank the wine in front of them, got up to pay the bill, nodded and said hello to them, and left.
Lu Fei was uninterested and didn't speak, just drank the wine in a dull mood.
"Is this how men are jealous?"
Xin Di is probably the only friend who can talk and laugh with Lu Fei. Lu Fei doesn't mind her teasing, so he just smiled wryly, "There are some things you don't know, Xiao Di."
"Yeah, I don't know too many things. Sometimes I think, is my life completely out of touch with everyone else?" Xin Di raised her head and drank a big gulp of beer, "When I was in middle school, sit next to me I didn’t know anything about the girl who was in love with the boy sitting behind me. Later, the class teacher and her old man got angry and asked them to write a self-criticism. I didn’t know this romance that happened under my nose. I’m in college, the person in love Don't pay attention to being low-key and mysterious, my senior sister has been unrequitedly in love with the school girl for several years, it is said that passers-by know her good intentions, but I only found out after chatting with her."
The school grass is naturally David Fan. Xin Di’s senior sister is currently doing men’s clothing design in Fujian, and she has developed well. Xin Di used to go on business trips, and most of them would meet with her to exchange design experience and talk about interesting things in the industry. That time I heard the senior sister Talking about their childhood thoughts through drinking, the two still laughed at each other.The senior sister has let go of the past, and she simply thinks that with a talent like the senior sister, "what's so good about unrequited love for a peacock that spreads its wings".
"It doesn't make much sense to know these things, does it?"
"It's boring, life is too ordinary, these things are interesting little embellishments."
"After all, it's someone else's life, and it doesn't have much to do with me."
"But my own life is the same. Last year at a class reunion, a boy who went to Hong Kong to settle down suddenly confessed to me. He has always liked me and gestured to me many times, but I didn't respond. The students around him even booed and said They all saw it."
Xin Di was a little annoyed at the mention of this matter, not sure whether it was to the boy who was too reserved or to himself who was too slow.She didn't feel sorry for missing the possible development with that boy who didn't leave any impression, but she really felt that her life was too blank except for study and work.
Lu Fei put another bottle of beer in front of her, "Why do you suddenly think of so many irrelevant things?"
"I'm reflecting on whether I'm naturally insensitive to feelings. Even my mother can see what happened between you and Chenzi, but I'm completely at a loss."
Lu Fei smiled, "What did Auntie see?"
Xin Di didn't want to repeat the harsh words her mother said, so she just shrugged her shoulders, "In short, I'm a late bloomer and I feel cold, so there's no way out."
"That's not true, but Auntie has always protected you very well." Lu Fei thought silently in his heart, unlike Xin Chen, who had no protection and was exposed to a world that was too realistic for a child too early.
"Yeah, she protected me..." Xin Di originally wanted to say "a 28-year-old holy virgin", but she finally retracted in time, thinking that this is also my mother's words, it is unfair, in front of that guy David Fan It's shameful enough to be frank, could it be that being a virgin makes you lose your mind?She could only sigh, "Protection has become an emotional idiot."
"How are you an idiot, you are so bright." Lu Fei smiled.
Xin Di waved his hand, "Pull it down, this doesn't sound like consolation or sarcasm. But there is one thing I have to ask you. You are acting very strange when you come back this time. You have been studying and working abroad for almost four years. I have been working in Beijing for three years. I know that I am not good at arithmetic. It has been seven years. This is not a short period of time. You have almost never contacted Chenzi during the period. You would not think that she would like it because she was sixteen or seventeen. If you don’t want to, why don’t you just play cold kiln and wait for you silently? You also know that there are always many people who pursue her.”
Lu Fei and Xin Di have known each other since kindergarten, and she is also the friend he has kept in touch with the longest. He didn't want to hide anything from her, but he didn't know where to start, and he paused for a while before saying: "It's not you As you think, Xiaodi, I have never been so arrogant, and I have no right to ask Xiaochen for anything."
"Do you want to pursue Tatsuko?"
"If she still gives me a chance."
"I have to say, you really missed the best time. You can't help it when you are abroad, but when you returned to China three years ago, you should have stayed and told her directly. Why did you hear that she went to Xi'an for a trip? I didn’t want to wait too long, so I immediately changed my ticket and returned to Beijing in advance, and I haven’t come back for three years? I used to send emails and call me from time to time to tell me where I was, but I haven’t contacted me very much in the past three years.”
"Something happened, Xiaodi." After a long time, he continued, "Besides, I just learned something I should have known a long time ago."
Of course Xin Di was curious, but she knew that he didn't want to go into details, and she didn't want to ask, she didn't like such a heavy atmosphere, "I can't stand you, you act like you suddenly fell in love."
"I've been stuck in it for a long time, and I've been stuck in it all the time, but I don't even know it."
Lu Fei's voice was deep, and accompanied by the low jazz music in the room, Xin Di only felt a subtle turmoil in her heart. She asked casually, and she didn't expect that Lu Fei, who never confessed his thoughts easily, would explain anything, but he didn't expect him to be like this today Straightforward.
Xin Di looked at the corner where Xin Chen was sitting just now, it was empty.She sighed again, picked up the beer bottle, gulped it down, then put down the bottle, raised her head to the ceiling and smiled, "Lu Fei, it turns out that when you also wanted to be infatuated, you were not always so cautious as if you were born and matured. I'm not mistaken, my Chenzi was indeed invincible in Girls' Generation."
Lu Fei had long been used to her weird and different angle of seeing things, so he only smiled wryly.Fascinated?This word is really accurate for him, facing such a sunny smile, such soft lips, such brave eyes without fear and hesitation, he is indeed contrary to reason, confused and lost.
"But Chenzi has changed a lot." Xin Di said softly, still looking at the ceiling.
Who can change it?Even in her eyes, David Fan, who has been playing around in the world, still sighs that "no one can stay young and frivolous all the way".And she herself accepted the rules of the workplace unknowingly, learned to compromise, and did the same thing every quarter. While trying her best to advocate her own design, she also integrated the opinions of the entire design department to revise the final draft. This repeated process is like a seesaw. The same back and forth abrasion, has already unconsciously changed her.
But facing Xin Chen, seeing that her once-vigorous and self-willed cousin has become calm, generous, refined and decent, Xin Di only felt puzzled. Find that kind of unrestrained and unrestrained in your own design.
However, Xin Chen's change came unconsciously, at least there was no major event, no dramatic change like turning white overnight.Xin Di's father only thought that the change in his niece, which he had always favored, was "the girl has grown up and become more sensible". Even Li Xin, who had always disliked Xin Chen, reluctantly nodded in agreement with this statement.
Xin Di once again felt powerless about her memory and observation of feelings.
"Chenzi doesn't care much about anything now, he's not as sharp as before, and he can even be called tolerant."
Lu Fei had seen that casual smile during the day, "Is her work going well these few years?"
"Fortunately, when she graduated from university, my father arranged for her a job as a typist in a public institution on his own initiative, saying that there was a chance to transfer to a formal establishment. She went to the class for less than a month, and followed My dad said she didn't want to do it."
Thinking of the past, Xin Di laughed. Her parents were very upset about it, but she could understand that Xin Chen, who worked as a typist in a dispirited unit, would probably only be able to stay for three days at most if it were her, "she said She was self-willed this time only, and then went to Xi'an for half a month, then found a job by herself after returning, and then started to take on graphic design and image processing work at home, and she has done very well, and her income is also good."
Xin Di was startled suddenly, she realized for the first time that since then, Xin Chen really has no willfulness, and later even agreed to go on a blind date according to her father's arrangement, which surprised her.
When mentioning that "trip to Xi'an", Lu Fei was silent, and what Xin Chen said during the day came to his mind.
"My life is not your responsibility."
"I never made myself anyone's responsibility after that."
When speaking, Xin Chen didn't look at him, his voice and expression were exhausted and helpless.
But in Girls' Generation, Xin Chen was not like this. At that time, she looked straight into his eyes with stubbornness, and said word by word clearly: "I will not care about being anyone's responsibility."
What she said, she really did.Maybe he forced her to do it, is this what he wanted?From the first time she kissed his lips, everything changed in a fleeting time, everything changed, and everything was changed.
After the summer night when Xin Chen kissed Lu Fei for the first time, she never asked him if she was his girlfriend, maybe in her view, this was not a question at all.
Lu Fei never directly admitted that Xin Chen was his girlfriend. A 4-year age gap is not a big deal, but for a 19-year-old sophomore boy, having a 15-year-old girlfriend who is still in high school is still a psychological obstacle.
Especially Lu Fei has always been rigorous and rational, and he came home with that sweet but superficial kiss. He lost sleep, his eyes opened and closed, and there was only that beautiful and smiling face.
He even looked up information on the Internet, flipped through psychology books, sat in on psychology professors' lectures, and read Nabokov's famous novel "Lolita" to check whether he was a pedophile.Don't talk about this kind of worry to his parents, even to his close sister Lu Shi who is 8 years old, or his close friend Xin Di, who is about the same age and has always been, he can't confide in it.
Lu is not resting or on vacation, as long as there is nothing to do, he will call Xinchen.If Xin Kaiyu is not at home, he will come to accompany her.When they were together, he mostly helped her with her homework, and at most watched a movie with her.Xin Chen has grown up, but he is still a child after all, he has no desire for lust, and is only satisfied with a stable and safe hug once in a while; while Lu Fei is restrained, he said to himself, she is almost 16 years old, He can wait for her to grow up, and the process of growing up with her is also very beautiful.
He did restrain his words and deeds according to the standard of having a girlfriend, and chose to ignore any girl's advances and not respond.
Ding Xiaoqing, a girl from the same department who has always been in love with Lu Fei, finally couldn't hold back her thoughts and confessed to him directly. He said politely, "I'm sorry, I don't want to think about this right now."
"But this doesn't conflict with your studies at all. It just gives us a chance to deepen our understanding and see if there is any possibility of development."
He could only say: "I already have a girl I like."
Ding Xiaoqing didn't believe this pretext, so she lowered her face, "Lu Fei, you can refuse me directly, and you don't have to prevaricate with someone who doesn't exist. We have been classmates for more than a year, and we have never seen you date any girl."
"I won't make a fiction about this matter. She doesn't study in this school, but she does exist." His expression and voice maintained his usual calmness, so Ding Xiaoqing had no choice but to give up.
Of course she exists, and she has such a strong sense of existence. Thinking of her is like a wind blowing without knowing the direction, making my heart wrinkled like a pool of spring water, with such subtle and soft fluctuations.Lu Fei thought.
Lu Fei never told Xin Chen about other girls' gestures to him, and Xin Chen didn't even realize that such a situation might happen.
She would say from time to time: "Zheng Yitao passed me a note again, and I was almost caught by the teacher. It's really annoying." This Zheng Yitao is the [-]-meter champion, and he has been persevering to her.
"The day before yesterday, a boy stopped me at the school gate and asked me to go to the movies. It was ridiculous. I didn't even know him."
She didn't mean to show off at all, she just reported the little things in her life to Lu Fei.
Or with a straight face, he said: "Ms. Wu criticized me for not talking too much with my male classmates, causing them to be inattentive. Is it my fault? They are obviously the ones who came to strike up a conversation with me."
Lu Fei didn't think those little boys were a threat, and he also agreed that the teacher was unfair to her, but he could only say: "You concentrate on your studies, and the teacher sees your efforts, so naturally he won't think that you have used your mind elsewhere."
Xin Chen laughed, "No, I don't like studying, and I don't want to use this method to prove my innocence."
It is true that Xin Chen has never put all his attention on his studies. He is satisfied with his homework and his grades. This makes Lu Fei, who is quite inclined towards perfection, a headache. There are quite a lot of fallacies, most of which come from her father who doesn't know what to do and who doesn't know what to do.
Seeing her tilting her head to read comic books or movie pictorials, her slender legs wrapped in jeans hanging on the armrest of the wicker chair, her slippers thrown aside, and her feet dangling in thick wool socks printed with cartoon patterns, there is absolutely no shape but She looked so innocent and lazy, he thought, well, she has a reason, not all happiness comes from the norms he has already accepted.
He quietly came to this city in early spring. The university Lu Fei studied at has one of the most beautiful campuses in China. Every spring, cherry blossoms are in full bloom. Xin Chen proposed to see the cherry blossoms. I hesitated a bit.Is it wise to hold the hand of a beautiful girl who has just turned 16 and go around when your school is busiest?I don't know what my classmates think.
As a result, he called Xin Di and asked her to come over and meet on the morning of the weekend.
Xin Di regarded this invitation as a spring outing plus an inter-school friendship, and called seven or eight male and female students to come together. The students from the Fashion Design Department of the Academy of Fine Arts dressed up in all kinds of strange ways, and they walked in groups, which were very eye-catching. I can't laugh or cry.
Xin Chen who jumped off the bus a little later was not surprised. She was actually a child, and she didn’t have the idea of dominating anyone or having to be alone. She was happy to see how lively the crowd was, and she was quite fond of their weird costumes. accept.And they naturally took good care of this beautiful and lively little sister, and immediately some male classmates came up to ask questions.
Instead, Lu Fei fell behind. He was a little ashamed of his own thoughts, but also a little regretful.
As the warm breeze blows, the petals of cherry blossoms covering the top of the tree like pink mist flutter down one after another, reminding Lu Fei of the summer when she first met Xin Chen, when she hugged the trunk of the chrysanthemum tree and shook it to make a rain of flowers.He couldn't help thinking that if it was just him and her at this moment, how great it would be if he could reach out and brush the petals off the black hair.
It was Xin Di who brushed off the petals for Xin Chen.
Of course, it can’t be just him and her. The cherry blossom season has made this school a local public tourist attraction. The school has even started selling tickets at several gates in the past few days, in the name of limiting the number of tourists and protecting the public. The school's resources and teaching order have aroused a lot of discussion. The local newspaper even set up a special discussion section to interview the citizens' opinions on this move, but none of this can stop everyone's enthusiasm for viewing the flowers.
The cherry blossom road in the school is crowded with tourists, tourists posing for pictures everywhere, Xin Di and her classmates who study art are a little bit uninterested, Lu Fei is about to take them to other places in the school, when they run into the same Ding Xiaoqing and several other classmates who came to enjoy the flowers.
Xin Chen was persuaded by Xin Di's classmate to take a photo while Ding Xiaoqing thought that Xin Di, who was joking with Lu Fei familiarly, was his mysterious girlfriend, and was a little disappointed.Because their intimacy is obvious, she has never seen Lu Fei smiling at others like this; at the same time, she has hope, the Xin Di in front of her is small and has a baby face, which is cute at best, and in her opinion, it does not suit her. Lufei, who is equally outstanding in appearance and innards.
Ding Xiaoqing greeted them generously, and at the same time looked at Xin Di with deep meaning, "Lu Fei has already mentioned you to us, we all want to meet you."
Before Xin Di could speak, her classmates started booing: "Xin Di, that's amazing, you are already famous outside of school, and you said that the award you just won is not important."
Xin Chen first asked curiously: "What award did you win, Dizi, tell me quickly."
The classmate next to him told Xin Chen that it was a local design competition named after a company. Although it was only an unconventional competition in the nature of advertising sponsorship, it was amazing to win an award just in his sophomore year.
Lu Fei looked at Xin Di with a smile, his eyes were full of praise, and Xin Di's expectations for himself were far more than that, without any conceit, he just smiled and said: "Come on, don't exaggerate, how can you be such a braggart?" , those who didn’t know thought I had already gone to the International Fashion Week for a press conference.”
Xin Di's tone was confident and high-spirited, with a frightening attitude, Ding Xiaoqing was speechless for a moment.
Lu Fei knew that Ding Xiaoqing had misunderstood, but he thought, that's fine, he didn't intend to explain, and then he took a group of people to have a good tour of the large-scale campus covering several thousand acres, and then took them to the campus After dinner in the restaurant, they were sent away, and finally only he and Xin Chen were left.
He sent Xin Chen home, and the two got into a taxi. He asked Xin Chen, "Are you happy?"
Xin Chen nodded heavily. He stared at this childish and happy face, feeling a little guilty, "I will definitely play with you next time."
But she was surprised, "You've been with me for a long time, how can you spend more time with me?" Then thoughtfully, "Your school is really big and beautiful. The library and complex look very impressive."
He took advantage of the situation to induce her: "Then you should work hard and try to get into this school, so we can be together more."
She laughed out loud, "Even if I pass the exam, you will graduate."
"I can choose this school to study in graduate school." His older sister Lu Shi went abroad to study after graduating from university. He knew that his parents were going to send him to study abroad, so there was no problem with his grades.But he thought that it would be okay to go abroad after finishing his graduate studies, and he could even take Xin Chen out with him. Thinking of this prospect, he smiled.
Xin Chen likes the smiling and gentle expression of this proud and calm boy, and likes his dark and deep eyes looking at her so intently, which makes her feel at ease and indulged.In contrast, the indifference to study seems to be overcome, she nodded, "Okay, I will try."
The drive home was not too short, she leaned against him and quickly fell asleep.He tried his best to sit upright so that she could lean more comfortably. The wind blew through the half-opened car window, and her hair fluttered, brushing his face and heart gently.
At this moment, sitting in this bar with a low space, dim lights, and low-pitched jazz music, Lu Fei felt a strong sense of time passing for the first time.
Nine years have passed since then.The childhood playmate who drank with himself has now become a well-known fashion designer, and he has been studying and working all the way, and he has lived a [-]-to-[-] elite life that he thinks he has a clear goal; The girl also has a solid and legitimate career.
Perhaps everyone has finally embarked on the correct and orderly track, but the girl who brought the first touch in life has become a stranger.
Lu Fei shook the glass, and under the light, he saw the golden amber whiskey on ice hanging on the wall of the glass and then slowly sliding down. He raised his head and took a sip, the slightly viscous wine slipped into his throat, and it was actually a bit bitter.
After leaving the Forever bar, Xin Chen and Bruce bought a carton of canned beer, walked to the riverside, sat down on the stone steps still covered with the heat of the daytime sun, drank beer and continued to chat endlessly.The river is open across the front, the wind is blowing head-on, not as muggy as other places.
"I still like the river beach in the past, but it's good now. The traces of artificial planning are too heavy, and there is no natural flavor." Bruce looked critically at the river beach park in front of him, "I think this city is becoming unrecognizable soon. Out."
"Has there been any changes? Maybe it's because you've been away for too long." Apart from working at home, Xin Chen went to the suburbs for hiking in the mountains, or traveling. Instead, he didn't feel much about the changes in the city. However, the place where he lived was facing demolition. The biggest change is right around the corner.
"It's not that long. The last time I came back was three years ago. I only stayed here for one day, and then went to Shenzhen to attend my little uncle's wedding, and then set off for Qinling."
Mentioning that experience, Xin Chen shook his head amusedly, "Your family actually let you go for a hike, you are very enlightened."
"I persuaded my dad not to let him tell my mom, but I also promised him that I will be careful in the future."
Bruce was living in the same hospital with her at the time, knowing that she was determined not to disclose her family's phone number, and no one visited her until she was discharged from the hospital. When she occasionally heard her call, he would always smile and say, "Yes, I'm still playing in Xi'an. I’ll be back in the next day, and everything is fine.” After she was discharged from the hospital, she bought her own ticket and took the train home, presumably the family affairs were not going well, so she didn’t want to talk about this topic again, “Hehuan, I’m going to stay here for half a month. Is there any arrangement for the local vertical mountain? I want to participate too."
"On Saturday, I arranged to go to a mountain with an altitude of 700 meters in the outer suburbs. You can follow the thread and sign up."
"I haven't tried climbing a mountain at this temperature, let's see if I can stand the test."
"It's a summer resort area over there. The climate is cooler, but it depends on the weather. Alas, it seems to be raining." Xin Chen is familiar with the weather in this city. Visible tumbling clouds of extreme pressure.
"It's raining." Bruce said excitedly, "I remember it was like ten years ago, the rain in that summer vacation, the sky was dark, and I never saw the rainstorm in the same way wherever I went. There is water all over the place, and it is said that you can swim in the deep places, and my sister and I sneaked out to have a water fight with people, and the water splashed high when the car drove past, it was so enjoyable."
When mentioning the torrential rainstorm ten years ago, which was said to occur once in a hundred years in this city, Xin Chen was taken aback, of course she had an impression.
"I was almost 13 years old that year, you should be 15 years old?" Bruce turned to her enthusiastically, "If you were also playing with water in the street, maybe we met then."
"That day——" Xin Chen held a beer can and looked at the river in the distance. According to her personality at that time, she should have rushed to the street to play in the water and had a great time, but she shook her head, "That day I Stay home honestly, I have a cold."
Bruce smiled, "Then don't tell me, you didn't come to the river to watch the rising flood. The place where we are sitting now was completely submerged at the time. Walking on the riverside road, you can see the ships on the river, as if Higher than the embankment, it seems to be suspended in front of you. You see, we may have met before."
The water level rose violently that year, and this big riverside city became the center of national news attention, and it was even more impossible for the local citizens not to care.Of course, Xin Chen also came to see, and the person holding her hand was Lu Fei.
Xin Chen drank the beer in his hand, and threw the empty can into the cardboard box, "I drank a lot today, forget it, let's go home, I don't want to get caught in the rain again and catch a cold."
There was already dull thunder on the road, Xin Chen got out of the taxi, Bruce poked his head out, smiled and said loudly: "If you are afraid of thunder, chat with me online."
Xin Chen smiled, "Just like I haven't been a little girl for a long time, I haven't been afraid of thunder for a long time, good night."
As the taxi drove away, a flash of lightning flashed by. Xin Chen stood there, looking up at the sky motionless, until there was another loud noise, like thunder roaring overhead, and then she quickly walked into the dark corridor.
The door of the black Audi Q7 parked not far away opened, and Lu Fei came out. After sending Xindi home, he drove the car here, and sat in the car listening to the CD silently.He looked up at the window on the fifth floor, and finally when the light came on, he knew that Xin Chen had arrived home.
Another burst of thunder passed by, he thought, although she answered the boy loudly just now that she "hasn't been afraid of thunder for a long time", but after the lightning passed, her body froze and she stood where she was, which was actually the same as what she told him before. There was no difference in the reaction, "I would plug my ears with a quilt, but I couldn't help trembling like a demon and waited for the next burst of thunder."
However, after she clearly stated during the day that it was no longer his responsibility, he could no longer find any reason to care about her like that rainy night ten years ago.
Ten years ago, the torrential rainstorm in this city also started at such a late night with lightning and thunder. Lu Fei's mother and sister went to Shanghai for vacation, and his father was in Beijing on a business trip, so he was alone at home.He was sound asleep when the phone ringing woke him up.
Xin Chen's soft voice came from the microphone: "Lu Fei, can you chat with me?"
He looked at the time in a daze, "It's midnight now, Xiaochen, can't you sleep?"
"I..." Xin Chen was a little embarrassed to say it, obviously felt that it was not justifiable to wake him up like this, but another burst of thunder passed by, and she couldn't stop her voice from trembling, "There is a power outage, I'm afraid, please talk to me. "
Lu Fei suddenly became fully awake. He knew that Xin Chen's father was away again, and she was alone at home these days, "I'll come right over, wait for me."
Lu Fei changed his clothes and went out with an umbrella. The rain had already started to rain outside. The umbrella was deformed by the strong wind and could not withstand the rain at all. He finally stopped a taxi. The driver murmured: "This rain is terrible." Really evil, no, I have to collect the car and go home after sending you off."
There were no pedestrians on the road at all, the sky was constantly thundering and lightning, the rain was getting heavier and heavier, and it seemed to be pouring down. The wipers swung back and forth rapidly, and it was still a vast expanse.After getting out of the car and walking a short distance, Lu Fei was almost drenched even with an umbrella. He hurried up to the fifth floor where Xin Chen lived. As soon as he rang the doorbell, Xin Chen opened the door, apparently guarding the door all the time. side.She threw herself into his arms and hugged him tightly.Lu Fei threw down the umbrella, "Let go, Xiaochen, I'm completely soaked."
Xin Chen ignored him, just hugging his waist, and burst into tears at the same time.They have known each other for a year, and Xin Chen has always been cheerful and lively, even if he is a little tempered, it will be fine in a blink of an eye, and he has never cried so loudly.
Lu Fei couldn't understand such a childish way of crying, but he couldn't help feeling distressed. He just patiently patted her and coaxed her: "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, I will accompany you. Next time there is a thunderstorm, I will come to accompany you, okay?"
Xin Chen's wailing slowly turned into sobs in his arms. She understood that it was a bit too much for a 15-year-old girl to act like a baby, but she couldn't control herself at all.
Xin Chen has an almost morbid fear of such thunder.
Her grandfather died in the hospital due to illness, and then she shared a room with her elderly and frail grandmother.In the early spring of the next year, on a thunderstorm night, she woke up, reached out to touch her grandma, and fell asleep at ease, but she didn't sleep soundly and had vague dreams.In the early hours of the morning, she suddenly turned over and sat up, realizing that the body of her grandmother beside her was cold.At this time, the lightning illuminated the room brightly for a short time, grandma remained motionless, her eyes were closed tightly, and her face was distorted.She was silent for a moment, and then the thunder sounded, and she screamed in fright.
Xin Kaiyu was not at home that night. Xin Chen shook his hand to call his pager, and then called his uncle's house. Xin Kaiming rushed over first. He confirmed that his mother had passed away in his sleep, so he could only wrap himself tightly in the blanket and curl up in the The trembling niece on the sofa in the living room.
Later, Xin Chen insisted on changing rooms with her father, but in the same weather, her father had not returned, and she was alone at home, so she could only cover her ears with a quilt.She told Xin Kaiyu about her fear, and Xin Kaiyu photographed her apologetically, promising to go home as early as possible next time. Later, when there was a thunderstorm, he would indeed come back as soon as possible, but there was nothing he could do about it when he was on a business trip.
This night, after Xin Chen woke up with a start, she quickly got up and closed the window. The strong wind and rain rushed in, making her pajamas half wet.She crawled back to bed, completely out of sleep, trying to find something to distract her, but she turned on the light and took a magazine, but still couldn't read it, only to see her lonely figure cast on the wall by the light of the desk lamp, and the lightning flashed down However, the shadow magnified and swayed, and the sound of thunder came one after another, causing her to have countless associations of panic.Then there was a sudden power outage, and the room was plunged into darkness.
She finally couldn't take it anymore and called Lu Fei.And when he rushed over, his whole body was drenched, he hugged her tightly, and he was willing to unprincipled and unconditionally make her have an attack, how could she not burst into tears?
When she was tired from crying and calmed down, Lu Fei looked at her cartoon doll pajamas that were wet by his own clothes, a little embarrassed, the girl's figure was completely exposed in front of his eyes, he looked away, "Go change into pajamas, Xiaochen, Watch out for a cold."
Xin Chen went to change his clothes, and brought Xin Kaiyu's clothes to change for him.Lu Fei sat on the sofa, let her lie in his arms, and listened to her talking intermittently, and only then did he know the source of her fear.Looking at her slightly red and swollen eyes, he couldn't tell her that life, old age, sickness and death are common things, and there are no ghosts and gods in the world.Of course, only hugs are the most effective comfort for a child who has accumulated fears since the age of 12.
Moreover, she is willing to choose to cry in his arms.
The thunder outside was not so dense, but the rain was still heavy. Xin Chen fell asleep against his chest. He picked her up, put her on the bed, covered her with a towel, and then sat on the head of the bed. , but not sleepy at all.Touching her thick hair with pity, he thought, if possible, he hoped that when she was afraid in the future, all the arms she would think of would be his.
Now it seems that this seems like a luxury.
A drop of rain fell on Lu Fei's face, and then the rain fell heavily and quickly. The violent thunderstorm in the city's summer came again.
Xin Chen stood leaning against the balcony door with her arms folded and watched the heavy rain outside. She drank several kinds of wine today, and she felt a little drunk, her head was dizzy, but she didn't feel sleepy at all.Seeing such lightning, thunder, and storm, she couldn't help but remind her of the past.
She hurried home not because she was afraid of rain or thunder, but because she didn't want to share memories with Bruce. On nights like this, she would rather be alone.She knew that the violent storm ten years ago was destined to be different from others in her memory.She never shared her memories with others, and she didn't want others' memories to intrude on her.
The wind blew the flowers and plants on the balcony swaying, the heavy rain poured down, and the lightning drew a dazzling Z-shape in the far sky. After a brief flash, the thunder rumbled, and she stood upright, Hold your breath and wait for the thunder to subside, and you won't shrink back like before.
Of course, the girl who was so frightened by the lightning and thunder that she couldn't sleep, like the boy who came to accompany her in the torrential rain, has gone with time.Everyone has to grow up, and she is no exception. She has never completely overcome her fear of certain things, but she has already convinced herself to face these fears.
According to the city's news reports, the heavy rain on that night ten years ago broke a century-old record. The rain poured down almost violently, and lasted from one o'clock in the morning the day before to two o'clock in the afternoon the next day. Many power lines in the city were damaged. When the wind blows, the street is waterlogged from knee to waist. There are cars stalled and broken down in the stagnant water. People who go out in the morning have to walk through the water with umbrellas. Tricycles have become the most popular means of transportation. , The whole city fell into disorder.
In such a severe waterlogging disaster weather, what stubbornly remains in Xin Chen's memory is only a warm embrace.
Xin Chen was shivering alone on the bed in his semi-wet pajamas at night, and then threw himself into the wet Lu Fei's arms and cried loudly. When he woke up the next morning, he was breathing heavily, his head was a little heavy, and his voice was hoarse.Lu Fei touched her forehead, her body temperature was still normal, "Is there any cold medicine at home?"
Xin Chen shook his head, "It's okay, I seldom get sick, just sleep and I'll be fine."
"How about that, I'll go buy medicine for you."
Xinchen leaned on the window sill and looked down. It seemed like a water town. The drainage system in this old city was not perfect. In this kind of heavy rain, the waterlogging situation was worse than other places. There were urchins on the street who used big plastic basins as The boat was floating and playing, she was very happy to see it, and held Lu Fei, "Let's go and play too."
In such muddy water with garbage floating in it, Lu Fei had to do mental training to overcome his cleanliness habit even when he went out to buy medicine.
Lu Fei wore a pair of slippers, rolled up his trouser legs, and waded out of the water despite his discomfort. The streets were full of people dressed like him, and the surrounding shops were all flooded with water. There is also interest in talking and laughing.
He bought back the medicine, and bought a big bag of food by the way.Boss Xin Chen reluctantly drank the cold medicine he had prepared, and watched him frowning and washing his legs repeatedly in the bathroom, which was a bit funny, "People who are obsessed with cleanliness have to miss so many fun things."
"for example……"
Xin Chen pointed out with his chin, "It's so interesting to play in the water, how long does it take for this kind of rain to catch up?"
Lu Fei came out of the bathroom, his expression couldn't help but touched her hair, "What a child."
Along the way, he saw quite a few children playing in the rain, so he could only admit that there was indeed a generation gap with the child in front of him.He couldn't figure out how the 15-year-old Xin Chen had grown up, but still retained so much childishness.Looking at the stagnant water, he thought that the underground pipe network here might have to be remodeled, and his father was probably too busy with the city's drainage and waterlogging.
But this did not prevent him from pampering and pampering Xin Chen, coaxing her to drink medicine patiently, letting her turn up the TV loudly but not watching it, and letting her refuse to do homework with the excuse of a headache.Seeing that she hated instant noodles, he went to the kitchen for the first time to cook noodles for her, but Xin Chen laughed out loud at his gesture, and pushed him away to do it himself.
Looking at the delicate Xin Chen, she is actually very capable of living independently. She moved very nimbly. She set up a pan to fry eggs, and another pan to cook noodles. At the same time, she took out tomatoes from the refrigerator, washed and chopped them quickly, and added tomatoes and eggs together. Stir fry until fragrant and pour over the cooked noodles.It can be seen that she has done it very skillfully, and she must often pass herself off like this.After eating the noodles she cooked, Lu Fei sincerely praised the deliciousness.
The two stayed at home, Lu Fei taught her homework, played chess with her, sat with her on the balcony after the rain stopped, watched the pigeons fly under the leaden sky after the rain, and watched the people downstairs sitting and gathering after hearing the news. The tricycles came in and out, and everyone recovered from their initial complaints, talking and laughing happily, and no one seemed to think it was a disaster.
Of course, Lu Fei's father definitely didn't think so.Lu Fei talked to his father on the phone and learned that he hurried back from Beijing, arranged for the drainage of the urban area, transferred the trapped citizens, rushed to repair power lines, restored public transportation, and went to the first-line embankment where the flood situation is becoming more and more serious. There is no time to go home. .
Both Xin Kaiming and Xin Kaiyu called Xin Chen to ask her about her situation, and she reported truthfully: "The water has only receded a little, but it's still deep, um, it's okay, I know." "Yes, I have a cold, and I've already taken medicine. Okay, I won't go out, there is food at home."
The rain stopped for a few hours, then it started to fall again, but not as violently as the night before, and for a short time.It took two days for the waterlogging that besieged the residential building to recede completely. It was the first time that Xin Chen and Lu Fei faced each other day and night like this.
At night, Lu Fei lay beside Xin Chen, whispering to her, but in fact it was just her talking, and he listened with a smile until she fell asleep in a daze.Xin Chen felt his lips lightly pressed against her forehead, and she was content to suddenly have a warm and safe embrace in this house where she often lived alone, and the rainy night became no longer lonely.
Even after being separated from Lu Fei, Xin Chen still cherishes that time.
Since she was a child, Xin Chen was used to the combination and separation of her father and all kinds of women, and she was not sentimental about parting.A woman once came to the door, grabbed Xin Kaiyu's sleeve and wept, but he remained calm, unmoved, and said with a little helplessness: "I have made it clear, don't make an ugly scene and scare my daughter." ,Means nothing."
The woman could only leave in the end, Xin Kaiyu stroked her daughter's hair, "You're not angry with Dad, are you?"
Xin Chen shook his head, "If you change your mind as soon as she cries, I will be angry."
Xin Kaiyu smiled, looked into her eyes, and rarely said seriously: "Chenzi, remember, don't cry to boys casually in the future. At most, crying will only embarrass the other party and can't change anything. The person who really loves you will not easily provoke you. Cry, the person who made you cry probably doesn't care about your tears."
She also laughed, knowing that her father probably made many women cry.She thought, well, then don't cry, in the future she will try her best to be the one who left first, and she will definitely not try to persuade her to stay, let alone make an ugly gesture.
Of course that was just a childish idea, at least when Lu Fei left, she chose to stay where she was and watch his back slowly disappear.All she could do was hold her head stubbornly and did not cry.She told herself that it was just coming and going, walking around and staying, it was not a big deal, it would pass soon.
But the past is just time.
After Lu Fei left, Xin Chen had been pursued by many people. In her sophomore year, she finally accepted a date request from a boy who had always liked her.The two were walking on the campus in autumn, the sweet-scented osmanthus was in full bloom, the moonlight was as bright as water, and the air was filled with sweet fragrance.As his arms came up, she thought, all right.They hug, then kiss.
However, she found sadly, that was different.
She suddenly understood that when 19-year-old Lu Fei kissed her and hugged her, he was full of restraint and love.She won't be 15 years old, and there will no longer be a man who cares for her in such a gentle and self-contained way.
Breaking free from that embrace in a hurry, she walked away without explaining anything, and severed contact with the boy without giving any reason at all.
Of course, Xin Chen knew that this comparison was meaningless. Even if she and Lu Fei hadn't separated, they probably wouldn't have such a peaceful time in the future.Sooner or later, like other lovers, they will experience the anxious needs of the body and the heart at the same time, and the feeling of the desire to blend the soul and the body, and that pure moment will always become a memory.
Life goes on, seasons come and go, and she later finds a new boyfriend and convinces herself to start a new relationship.
The local summer climate is still notoriously hot and unbearable. At this time of year, it is often sunny and hot, and then turns to cloudy and hot. The air pressure is so low that people can't breathe. A thunderstorm hits the face cleanly, and it repeats itself every year.
It's just that there is no more thunderstorm like that summer night ten years ago, no more embrace like Lufei.She accepts this reality.
On such a rainy night, the thunder and lightning are still violent, and the strong wind is wrapped in the rain, but her memory is full of tender images.She remembered that grandma's face was no longer distorted as it was at the moment of her passing away, but was looking at her with love and affection, stroking her face with slightly rough hands with age spots, combing her hair and braiding her hair, half admiring and half melancholy: " Girls with such hard hair, don't be too stubborn, Xiaochen." She remembered that Lu Fei was holding her, listening to her meaningless whispers, smiling softly, and the kiss in the sleepy state was soft but burning hot on her face. her forehead, dispelling her fear.
The heavy rain knocked off the branches of the blooming jasmine and crabapple flowers on the balcony, and the small white and bright red flowers were exhausted in the soil of the flowerpots, and the leaves of the morning glory climbing up the vines around the anti-theft net railing swayed from side to side in the wind .Xin Chen wiped his wet face, not sure whether it was the rain splashed on it or the tears finally flowed out.
No flower can bloom forever, no rainstorm will never stop, so no memory should linger forever.It's time to draw a full stop.she said to herself.
(End of this chapter)
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