box of hearts

Chapter 224 Broken Marigold (12)
"There's nothing I don't want to say to you, I'm wondering where to start." After Cen Cen's silence, Qi She groped for her hand and pressed it to his heart, "You know, even though my mother is a middle palace Queen, but because I was born in the royal family of a foreign relative, I never got the trust and love of my father. My mother wanted to establish my crown prince as soon as possible, and often broke up with my father. Children don’t understand these political calculations. I just watch When my parents mentioned my name, they would talk coldly at each other, and then my mother would cry, and my father would walk away. I always thought that it was my fault that my parents did not get along. Before I was ten years old, my greatest wish was to hope Father can give me a hug, he has never hugged me before, but he often hugs my elder brother, teaches him to write by hand, and helps him on the horseback himself, when I approach, Father will turn his face away, Throw me to those eunuchs. From the moment I was sensible, I knew how to read words and expressions, and try to figure out people's hearts. All my efforts were just to win the favor of my father. I am probably the most hardworking Mongolian boy in the world. I went to the study at the age of five, and it was less than three years , from the Four Books and Five Classics to the Veritable Records of the Former Dynasty, I can memorize them wholeheartedly. My eldest brother is two years older than me, but he stutters even a book of songs. I don't want my father to like me more because of this, I I only hope that he can at least see me, and let me pull the sleeve of his dragon robe like a big brother, and bury my face in his stomach. It seems that as long as he is willing to hold me in his arms one day, I will never If you are guilty, the queen mother will show her joy again. I didn't wait for this day until the queen mother passed away."

Qi She paused for a moment, and let out a cold sneer from the bottom of his nose, "The man finally hugged me like a father, and it was the only time in my memory that he hugged me, and he sent me to Tatar as a hostage The day before, that hug was strong and warm, and it was so warm that I shivered all over. Not long after I arrived in Tatar, my father and emperor unilaterally tore up the peace agreement and sent troops to war. When I heard the battle report, it was at night, and I ran out to hide in the In the darkest and deepest grass nest, I heard the howling of wolves in the distance, and cried hard. I said to myself: "Qi She, you have no mother, and you will no longer have a father from now on. , you are your own child, you have to raise yourself.' Then I raised myself. Those years, sometimes it was like living in hell, but I really Hell, that's when I think of the hug my real dad gave me before sending me to hell."

Qi She's voice didn't have any special ups and downs, it was just calm and natural, as if it was still empty after the hurricane and darkness, "When the Wang family was still prosperous in the early years, Zhou Dun also asked me why I didn't want children. I told him , because I am afraid that my status will not be stable, and if I fall down, it will inevitably drag down my heirs. If I come to this world, I will be stabbed for nothing, so why bother? But I have never revealed my thoughts to anyone. I know that for a child, I know what it is to have a mother whose eyes are full of tears and a father who is always icy, and I know what it is to be born in the noblest golden baby, but to be the most humble outcast. I have risen from hell, God knows how much effort I have spent, but there are many children who have stayed in that hell all their lives. I have seen them grow up, and I can see through them at a glance. Now I shoulder the responsibility of the country and thousands of people. But in my opinion, there is still no responsibility, more important than bringing a life related to me into this world. I don't want to have a litter with different women like a cub, and then watch Watching the children of these women fight for their mothers and for their mothers, there is nothing else in life except victory and defeat, glory and disgrace, life or death. I ask myself, if I can't treat them wholeheartedly A woman who treats her children kindly, I don't want to be a father."

Qingtian's hand rested on Qi She's chest, and he could feel the strong heartbeat beneath it.She didn't admire this heart in vain. When so many immature children have turned into insensitive adults, and when one victim after another has become an accomplice to life one by one, she still has this heart. mercy.She smiled complacently, "I just want to give you a child with your appearance and your heart."

Qi She also laughed, and squeezed her hand tighter on her chest, "Since you mentioned it, I might as well tell you. When Concubine Shou was pregnant, I thought about it for a long time before deciding to keep the child, but If it was you who was pregnant, I'm sure, I don't have to think about anything, I would be crazy with joy."

Qingtian Man sighed: "After all, it's just a delusion. I will never get pregnant in my life."

After a while, Qi She murmured in her ear: "It's not sure, otherwise you can go back and ask Mu Yun to ask her to bring the sorceress in for you to have a look? If it's reliable, you might as well give it a try."

Qing Tian lowered his head with a smile, and buried his face in his chest, "When the moon is full, it will lose money, and when the water is full, it will overflow. I am already happy with you, and I have to ask for perfection. I am afraid that I don't know where the gains outweigh the losses. I only have some regrets." It is the way to cherish blessings. Besides, I am different from Mu Yun, she is a whole person, but the woman said that she was destined to have no children, and it would be fine to use magic to recite it for her, but I have been drinking for several years. This poisonous drug, my body has long been useless, so even though I envy Mu Yun, I just think about it. I just feel that if I can have your child, even if you leave me one day, the two of us will always be together together; in this child the blood is bound together, never to be parted."

"Okay, I just came up with such a silly idea." He caressed her, his hands were rough and his gestures were gentle, "Why should I leave you?"

"For some reason, I often recall the first half of my life recently, and I only feel that the fate is unpredictable." The sky light that leaked into the window lattice has already climbed up the edge of the bed, like the early blooming hair of an infatuated person; another sigh came from Qingtian's lips. Falling in the air, "Is Huaihua Hutong the same today as it used to be?"

This time, Qi She laughed out loud "hehe", "You are a fool, don't talk to me like a cliché, what kind of Huaihua Hutong and Lihua Hutong, since you came out, I haven't been in."

Qingtian laughed, and punched Qi She on the chest, "Who is going to trick you? You told me when you were drunk, that time you went out to a banquet at night, and the boss didn't take some of the current Hao's class. Huakui Yuxiang called to give you wine? You are so beautiful."

"I can tell you, if you are upright, you won't be afraid of the slanting shadow. As for the oiran, hey, it's okay if you don't mention it. When you were on the blooming list back then, those chief writers not only depended on the number of wines each person branded in each session, but also You have to really consider the skills of sensuality. Those who are on the list, not to mention you, just Xi Zhu and Bao Liu, all of them are beauties with outstanding talents and looks. They are pink and apricot. I have become the reincarnation of Mao Yanshou. I don't allow officialdom to buy and sell officials. I don't know when this abuse has entered the Fengyue field. As long as you have money to bribe, they will polish you into a unique national beauty. Even if you are Wang Qiang, you are also said to be a disheveled ghost. Putting aside the serious flower list, you come up with improper names such as "the first four kings", "the four middle kings", "the last four kings" "Four King Kong", any crooked melon and date, you can buy a King Kong Dangdang for only a few hundred dollars, the higher the ranking, the higher the price, and it will be like the yellow list and white list of the scientific research. It’s the same as a group worship, clean up a table of banquets, hire a group of blowers, set off a few strings of firecrackers, and make a plaque of King Kong by yourself, insert gold flowers and send it to the hall to hang. You think, it’s just like this that only money is about pulling out King Kong Can there be any real material? The Yuxiang you just mentioned is one of the top four King Kongs. The poor literati picked it up abruptly, not saying that she would not be able to welcome guests, but saying that she was a gentleman, not saying that she could not tune silk and tunes, but praising her for being a shy boudoir. Such a thing, from the beginning to the end You don’t even bother to look at her, you really can’t even keep up with your toes, if it’s not in the way of the scene, you really have to spit wine on the spot!”

"Don't worry about it, boast yourself so noble. That Yuxiang is in every possible way. After all, she is also a fourteen or fifteen-year-old girl. She is just young, and you are not greedy at your age?"

"What's so rare about a fourteen-year-old girl? There are two little girls like you, an old woman in her 30s." Qi Shezao smiled and put his hand into Qingtian's obscene clothes, sliding over her warm naked muscles, "In the year of a tiger and a wolf, you don't know how many taxes you pay every day? I just want to hang around outside. It's also 'a clever woman can't cook without rice'. I think you are in a hurry, thinking wildly all day long, wait, wait In a few months, when summer comes, let's go to Jingjizhuang, and I will accompany you to relax."

Jingjizhuang is Qi She's other garden in the countryside. In the past few years, every year when summer came, he moved Qingtian with him to spend the summer.The wind and the moon in the mountains are good for the day, whether it's drinking and watching flowers, or fishing and horses.Thinking of it, Qing Tian burst into a smile in his arms, "Then you wake me up early, and let's smell the lotus fragrance in the pond before the clear dew."

"You can talk after you get up."

"I'm going to go hunting and horseback riding."

"Happy as you are, you can do whatever you want. I listen to you under the bed, and you listen to me on the bed." Qi She smiled and stuck to Qingtian's ear, "Hey, my son saw a new look in a book a while ago, we two Try? Put your legs like this first..."

Qingtian laughed and spat all of a sudden, "You don't read so many political and historical books, but you only read these bastard books every day, but you don't feel ashamed. I won't come, hey, hey, don't make trouble, I'm still here today." There is an example, why don't you go quickly?"

(End of this chapter)