Wangfu little dumb wife

Chapter 378 I lost a mother (2 more)
Hearing this suddenly, all the expressions on Fanghua's face seemed to be frozen, and there was no response for a long time.

Wen Wan did not escape from the shocking eyes of her biological mother.

After asking, she felt relaxed physically and mentally.

While relaxing, there is also a hint of anticipation.

She couldn't treat her biological mother who had a face similar to hers as an insignificant person, and she also hoped that the other party would not ignore her and avoid herself.

The surroundings were silent for nearly a quarter of an hour, and Fanghua suddenly said, "Wanwan, do you know something?"

Wen Wan said calmly: "I lost a mother, her surname is Lu, from the capital, she gave birth to me 22 years ago in Xiahe Village, Pingjiang County, Ningzhou, and she disappeared before I grew up. Accidentally, I forgot what my biological mother looked like, and after more than ten years, I have been visiting her empty grave to pay homage to her. Later, by chance, I discovered that she was not dead, she was still alive, but she had established a new family with someone else. There is no me in that family. I want to know whether she didn’t like me as a daughter in the first place, or if she had to leave me because of her last resort. I also want to know if she would let me cry if we met one day mother."

A peaceful voice that comes from the heart.

Fanghua's heart tensed up and down, and some emotions could no longer be controlled, "Wanwan, it's not that mother doesn't want you, it's just that she couldn't take you away back then."

As she said that, she took a few steps forward, with endless regret in her red eye circles, "I blame my mother for making mistakes when she was young, making you a child who can't see the light. hold you."

Wen Wan didn't rush to ask the cause back then, but just looked at her, "If I don't take the initiative to mention it, are you going to never recognize me in this life?"

"No!" Fanghua couldn't help shaking her head, "It's not that Mother doesn't want to recognize you, it's that... she doesn't dare."

"Don't you dare?"

"I'm afraid that you can't accept that you have such a mother. I'm afraid that your mentality will collapse because of it. I'm afraid that it will disturb your originally peaceful life, so I have never dared to recognize you."

These words contain a lot of information.

A royal princess who gave birth to a child in the countryside and then returned to Beijing to recruit another son-in-law would give people the first impression of the word "absurd".

Although there are many absurd princesses recorded in historical materials, they were married for the second time, married for the third time, and even raised face heads.

But when this kind of thing happened to me, the feeling was completely different.

Knowing that she is the product of the princess's youthful absurdity, Wen Wan feels like being stabbed by a needle.

She spoke again, her voice suppressed as much as possible, "So, my existence is not allowed, right?"

Without waiting for the other party to speak, she said again: "Please explain, I want to know what kind of unacceptable existence I am."

Fanghua wanted to tell her that he never thought her existence was superfluous, but besides explaining, it would be futile to say anything else.

Regaining his emotions, Fanghua turned his eyes to look at the white water splashes brought up by the painted boat in the lake, and traced back the memories many years ago.

"This matter starts from your grandmother's generation. Before she entered the palace, she had a bamboo horse. It was Lu Feng, the fourth son of the Lu family, who is now the old Lord Lu. The Mei and Lu families are family friends, and they are well-matched. This marriage Even with the approval of the elders of both parties, they have reached the point where they want to talk about marriage.

When your grandmother was 17 years old, there was an audition by the late emperor. In order to avoid entering the palace, the two families discussed and put the wedding on the agenda. However, the night before the Lu family came to propose marriage, Lu Feng left Beijing suddenly without warning. No one knew. Where did he go.

The marriage was annulled, and your grandmother was forced to enter the palace and became the late emperor's woman. From then on, she blamed the man who ruined her life, and even in the following decades, no matter what the cost, she crazily took revenge on him.

With this layer of grievances first, the love between me and the second master of the Lu family, Lu Xingzhou, is not allowed.

After your grandmother found out, she ordered and warned me not to have any further contact with Lu Xingzhou.

I was young at the time, and Chunxin couldn't stop it after she opened her mouth. I couldn't hide my admiration for him. "

Fanghua was a little hard to say this in front of her daughter, but in order for her daughter to know the whole truth, she had to confess everything in detail.

"One year, Lu Feng's wife, who is now Mrs. Lu, hosted a banquet and invited many female family members. I took the opportunity to pretend to be a maidservant and went to Lu's house. Originally, I just wanted to see Lu Xingzhou, but because I was negligent, I was set up as a trap. I took the medicine. I don't remember what happened after that, I only know that when I woke up, the person lying next to me was Lu Xingzhou.

Knowing that it was not someone else but him who lost my virginity, the fear in my heart gradually dissipated, thinking that the uncooked rice has been cooked, even if your grandmother is not happy, she has to agree to my marriage with Lu Xingzhou.

But I didn't expect that the person who gave me the medicine moved faster than me. She went to meet the Queen Mother before me, and begged the Queen Mother to marry her and Lu Xingzhou. In order to separate us, the Queen Mother nodded without much thought. .

Just when the Su and Lu families were discussing their marriage, I found out that I was pregnant. After your grandmother found out, she refused to let me go out and kept me under house arrest in the palace. She only said that she was sick, and told me that Lu Xingzhou had already nodded. To marry Su Yi, let me stop thinking about him, she will find a way to let this child go away quietly without being noticed.

I didn't believe that Lu Xingzhou would betray me, so your grandmother let me go out to see them on the day of their wedding.

Sitting on a high place, I saw at a glance that he was wearing a wedding robe, riding on a tall horse, accepting the blessings of the people in the city to pick up the bride.

After returning to the palace, I was completely hopeless, and even thought about dying but still alive, but every morning sickness made me realize that I was about to become a mother. If I died, it would be equivalent to killing my own child with my own hands. It was the existence of that little thing that made me I am in awe of life.

In order to make it healthy, I stopped going on hunger strikes and being depressed all day long. I even promised your grandmother that she would go to a foreign village to raise a baby on the grounds of recuperation and give birth to the baby quietly.

But when I went there, I found out that your grandmother was determined to get rid of my child. She thought it was an unsightly species, and the royal family did not allow it to exist, let alone tarnish the face of the Tian family because of it.

I refused to conceive, and fled to Ningzhou after life and death. One time, I had abdominal pain because of eating the wrong food, and my head was sweating profusely.

It was he who sent me to the hospital in time, and the child was saved safely.

At that time, people were chasing and killing me everywhere outside. I was not familiar with Ningzhou, so I didn't dare to go out casually. In desperation, I followed him back to the village, but his mother thought the child in my womb was his.

Afterwards, Wen Guangping also told me that if there is really no place to go, let me stay, at least give birth to the child first.

As a pregnant woman with a big belly, where can I go, I have to stay in the name of his wife.

After full term, I gave birth to a daughter named Wanwan. I named her Lu at the time, but I couldn't let Lu Xingzhou go. I fantasized that he didn't marry Su Yi, and that he would come to me. Take me back, as long as he comes, no matter how much criticism he will bear in the future, I don't care.

However, I waited for a year, and when my Wanwan was one year old, he didn't show up.

I started to feel disheartened, it's not that I didn't think about leaving with my daughter, but I didn't want my daughter to ask me why she didn't have a father in the future, and I didn't want people to laugh at her as a child of unknown origin.

I tossed and turned for several nights, and finally compromised with reality. I no longer dreamed that he would come, and I no longer regarded myself as a princess. When Wanwan was one year old, I really became Wen Guangping's woman, and gave my daughter a nominal father. . "

Speaking of this, Fanghua's eye sockets became uncontrollably moist again, and those things should be mentioned once again.

"When Wanwan was three years old, I was forcibly kidnapped by the queen mother and returned to the capital, and I was to marry the son-in-law as the eldest princess.

It was only after I lifted the hijab on the wedding night that I realized that my son-in-law was none other than Lu Xingzhou, the man who had been separated from me for three years.

He told me that he didn't marry Su Yi back then, and the reason why he agreed to the Queen Mother was because the Queen Mother threatened me and the child in my womb, so he nodded his head out of necessity.

However, when the sedan chair arrived at the gate of the Su family, he regretted it. He took off his wedding robe and ran away. He won the battle and was dubbed the "God of War" by the army.

Your grandmother has a strong temper and can't tolerate sand in her eyes. She doesn't allow the Lu family to grow up and wants to take back the military power in Lu Xingzhou's hands, so she pushed me out as a bargaining chip.

The queen mother negotiated with him, as long as he is willing to give up the 30 military power, he will be able to find me immediately and take back the marriage from Beijing.

Lu Xingzhou didn't hesitate, and was willing to hand over the military power, and because of this, he and I fulfilled the relationship between husband and wife who was three years late. "

Taking a deep breath, Fanghua continued: "When I was listening to his story, I already had Wen Guangping's child in my womb.

When I learned the truth, I felt as if someone had ripped out a piece of my heart alive. Once I saw him, I suffered for a while, and in the end I simply avoided him, avoided him, and shut myself in the room all day long without seeing anyone.

Especially after giving birth to Yan Qing, I fell into a dead end of depression and couldn't get out, ignoring my husband's feelings, ignoring the training of my son, so that I finally drove my son to a dead end with my own hands, and ended up in exile for 30 years. "

(End of this chapter)