Abandoned woman's glory

Chapter 208 That day, why did you do this?
"Then tell me, what should we do if we let your child go and you don't need Xi?"

A voice suddenly rang in my ears, and as soon as I looked up, I saw Nangong Yu slowly walking in from the door with his hands behind his back.His face was dark, although he was not angry, but when he looked at Nangong, there was a light of reproach in his eyes.

When Nangong heard his voice, he didn't turn his head, but took a heavy breath.

It seemed that Shui Xunyou was very responsible, and immediately notified him.

I slowly stood up, walked to Nangong Yu and looked at him. At this moment, my eyes were almost red, and there was a deep hatred in my heart. Even when I was in the most painful and sad time, I never felt any hatred. I mean, I want to skin and dismantle the person in front of me, even—chop into meat sauce!I believe he also understands, so the corners of his mouth are slightly raised, showing a little contemptuous smile.

Everything is still under his control. To him, I am as insignificant as an ant.

Therefore, my hatred is nothing at all.

"Aren't I still in your hands?"

I looked at him, with a sneer of indifference and irony: "I'm still here, and I can do whatever you want. The Ministry of Punishment has many kinds of criminal laws, and there is always one that makes me speak, just like the one you used on him." , I keep it as long as the hook is taken out, I will be obedient."

Nangong Yu raised his eyebrows.

Although this sentence sounds like he is angry, he is indeed weighing it. The silver hook pierces the bone, and the kind of painful torture is beyond anyone's imagination. If it is not supported by the strongest will, even an iron man can bear it. Can't come down, and the man in the water prison has injuries all over his body...

Thinking of the pain he endured, my heart trembled a little.

His debt had already been paid off in the fire in Shangyang City, so now, who owes whom?
I was silent, but heard a sound of gnashing of teeth behind me.

Nangong Yu immediately sneered: "Do you think I will believe you?"

"..."

"You know that Mizhen doesn't want to touch you. You always know that, so you dare to do anything in front of him. Xuanyuan Xingsi, you know this better than him, right?"

Yes, although Nangong lied to me so badly, even though he brought so much misfortune to me, until now, until just now, he still forbids anyone to hurt me.

The confrontation between me and him, in the final analysis, I don’t know whether I am fighting against the other party or my own destiny.

I bit my lower lip: "Then what do you want?"

Nangong Yu glanced at Nangong behind me, then looked at me coldly, with a cold smile on the corner of his mouth: "Actually, I am not afraid of you playing tricks, even if you really refuse to use the seal, after a month, the old man You can still become emperor and use the seal, but you don’t want to give others an opportunity, it’s not easy for your man to conquer this country, and you don’t want to use all your energy on internal friction, let others take advantage of it.”

My heart sank: "What do you mean?"

He sneered coldly: "It is true that there are still some ministers in the court who refuse to surrender, and they are all old fellows who should follow him into the Eastern Tomb. If you don't use the seal, on the day you enter the palace, the old man will use the blood of these loyal ministers to open the way! "

"you--!"

I was furious in my heart, my eyes widened and I was almost angry, but I still restrained myself vigorously, not to rush forward.

This despicable villain, those courtiers were all left to Shaoyu by Chu Feng back then, and many of them were the pillars of talent that Shaoyu and I promoted later. They are all loyal people who are dedicated to serving the country. Usurping power and seizing the throne, if you can't take power peacefully, you must kill these people in front of me!

And this group of people hold the military and political power in their hands. Once the killing ring is launched in the imperial city, the city will be full of turmoil, and the foundation of the country will be shaken. In the melee of the four countries in the Central Plains in recent years, the white tiger was wiped out. My homeland is full of vitality Injury, if there is another civil strife in Qinglong Kingdom, who will take advantage of it, we are very clear in our hearts.

He is threatening me with these!
I bit my lower lip desperately, almost biting the skin, and tasted the bitter taste of blood on the tip of my tongue. After a long stalemate, I finally said slowly: "Okay!"

"..."

"I promise you."

There was a gloomy and smug smile in Nangong Yu's eyes.

"However," I looked into his eyes and said, "You have to let him and my child go first, and I will personally hand over the Yongjia Seal on the day I ascend the palace!"

Nangong behind him never spoke again. At this moment, I felt that his breathing was heavy, and those originally clear eyes looked at my back, burning like fire.

Nangong Yu looked at us and smiled faintly: "Okay."

When the door of the water prison opened, there was a long and dry sound, echoing in the humid air.

The man standing in the middle of the water slowly raised his head, a pair of bloodshot eyes were exposed in his loose hair, he looked paler than before, as if he couldn't even breathe, only hanging in mid-air His fingertips trembled slightly.

"you……"

I got into the water, walked towards him with difficulty step by step, and finally walked in front of him.

"How did you come?"

His voice was even hoarse than before, and he was almost speechless, and there was an indescribable desolation in his voice.

I looked at him and said softly: "I have two things, I want to come to you."

"what?"

Although I have been thinking about it for a long time, when I really wanted to speak, my throat still seemed to be blocked. I choked up for a long time, and finally said with difficulty: "That night, you--did you--"

Before I could finish my sentence, his eyes widened.

Like a person who has been in the dark for a long time, suddenly saw a glimmer of light, as if he had been redeemed, he stared at me, breathing heavily, but I was a little speechless, biting lower lip.

"Tell me, at that time, why did you do that?"

My voice was hoarse when I said it. It was a night that I dare not recall at all. Even today, knowing a lot about our past, that night is still the deepest fear in my heart. Even if I just mentioned it, All felt trembling all over.

"Sorry……"

"You, that night, did you... have any difficulties?"

His eyes dimmed for a moment behind the mask, and then he lowered his head slowly: "There is no difficulty in this world, only hurt and not hurt. It's me——, I don't want to make excuses."

I smiled miserably, tears welling up in my eyes.

He is always like this, he alone decides everything that has happened, and even if he did something wrong, he simply puts a dead end on it, making it impossible for people to suffer any more.

"it is good."

I nodded, and seemed to be relieved in my heart. I turned around and waved my hand towards the dark prison door, and heard a clanging sound. He was slightly startled, and the iron chain hanging on it had been untied.

Perhaps it was because he had been soaked in the cold water prison for too long, his lower body had lost his intuition. As soon as the iron chain was removed, he immediately fell down like a puppet that had lost its traction. I hurriedly reached out to catch him.

"Are you OK?"

As if all the bones in his body had been torn off, he leaned weakly on my shoulder, looking at me with panicked eyes: "Xingsi, I..."

At such a close distance, I felt that although the strong body in my arms was cold with water vapor, it was faintly hot like coal fire. Even his breath was hot, so I reached out and touched his forehead.

"You have a fever! Are you all right?"

I called him loudly, but his eyes became more and more lax, and finally he slowly lowered his head and passed out.

Thinking of the suffering he suffered here these days, my heart felt sore, and I walked out slowly with his body on my shoulders, and saw a pair of familiar eyes looking at us sadly in the dark place, with flickering eyes I don't know how many emotions are hidden inside.

I turned around and walked away with the man in my arms without looking back.

When he woke up again, it was already a day later.

I listened to his uneasy murmur in the dream, even when he was unconscious, he seemed to be entangled in pain, but he opened his eyes and looked at me, still a little unbelievable, hesitating for a long time before softly asking: "Xingsi?"

"feel better now?"

I wanted to reach out and touch his forehead, only to realize that my hand had been held by him all day, and it was a little numb, but when he found out, he immediately let go of his hand: "I'm sorry."

I withdrew my hand and rubbed my numb fingertips, while he looked around, his whole body immediately seemed to be stiff.

Of course, he is no stranger to this place, the same sleeping couch as in the past, those fluttering curtains, the exquisite carvings on the roof, everything seems to be the reflection of the past, reflected today, even through that layer of mask, I I also know that his face is pale.

That night was the cruelest memory for me, but I don't know what kind of memories of that night he carried in his heart.

In silence, he gritted his teeth and tried hard to prop himself up and sit up.

Tortures like the silver hook piercing the bone can almost destroy a healthy person. Seeing his weakness, I finally couldn't help but reach out to help him, but he shyly avoided it.

"No, no need."

That cautious look, as if I felt that I was covered in filth and could not be touched by others, I felt sore in my heart, and lightly rolled my eyes away.

As soon as he sat up, he heard a babbling sound coming from his ear. He turned his head and saw that it was Mu Feng who was lying beside him, laughing and looking at us with wide eyes, as if he saw something happy.

He also seemed to be taken aback for a moment, and turned to look at me: "Why, the child is here?"

I nodded.

"Nangong and the others—"

It seems that he, like me, has not forgotten the current situation. When the family can not be reunited, I coughed twice and said in a low voice: "This is the second thing I want to find you."

"You said."

"Do you still have the strength?"

He frowned slightly, as if he could feel something, and looked at me with burning eyes: "What do you want me to do?"

I took a deep breath: "I want you to take the child and get out of here."

……

Yanfu Hall fell into silence for a while, the breeze blew in from the window, bringing bursts of coolness, and the tulle fluttered like clouds and smoke that blocked thousands of mountains and rivers in front of the two of them. Seeing his hoarse voice, he said slowly: "Nangong, what did he do to you?"

My face froze slightly, and I turned my head to avoid his gaze.

His breath suddenly sank: "You tell me!"

"There is nothing to say." I said lightly: "You said that the person Chu Feng loves the most in his life is me. No matter how I choose, he will not blame me. Now, I am the one who chooses, and I have nothing to do with others. relation."

I couldn't hear his breathing, but I could feel his frail body trembling, as if all the bones in his body were about to be broken. After a long time, I said dryly, "Really?"

"If you have the strength now, I want you to take my child and leave here immediately."

"……how about you?"

"I want to stay."

There was another unspeakable silence, then he raised his head and looked into my eyes, and said slowly: "You want me to leave you here alone?"

"..."

"You want me to leave you alone to face all this?"

I smiled sarcastically, and looked into his eyes: "Which time did you face it with me?"

His expression froze slightly and he was speechless, but I looked aggressively into his eyes and said word by word: "Leave as soon as you say, come as you say, which time, you didn't do it alone Make a decision, do what you want, make a decision as you want, have you considered the people around you? Have you considered it?"

He looked at me, speechless, but I seemed to have opened a gap in my heart, so many words came out uncontrollably at this moment——

"You are all like this. You know the truth, but you refuse to tell it; you are misunderstood, and you refuse to tell it, and you are alone in a desperate situation, and you don't want to tell it. You have never considered how painful the people you arrange are!"

My voice was getting louder and louder, echoing in the empty Yanfu Hall, there was a kind of shocking feeling, he couldn't say a word, he just looked at me, but his eyes seemed so helpless, after a long time , then gently said: "Xingsi..."

Before he could finish speaking, Mu Feng on the side seemed to feel something, and suddenly burst into tears.

As soon as the child cried, the unnamed karmic fire in my chest seemed to be extinguished all of a sudden. I suddenly felt that there was nothing in my body, except for the little last hope. Looking at the man in front of me, I frowned slightly. There was an indescribable oldness between the brows, and the head was lowered, as if the whole figure was about to be crushed, and there was a long silence.

"sorry."

"sorry."

The apology that sounded at the same time made both of them stunned. I looked into his panicked eyes, but there was more sadness in my heart, as if I was about to burst into tears.

In fact, I know that it is not his fault alone that we have come to this day with him.

I and he, and they, are basically the same kind of people.

Therefore, it is destined to hurt each other like this.

I leaned lightly on his shoulder, choked for a long time, and said in a low voice, "I'm so tired, I don't want to guess again, I don't have the strength anymore, I can't hold it anymore."

"Xingsi..."

"You take the child with you, if you think you still owe me, just settle this matter. If——I owe you," I slowly raised my head, looked into his eyes, and gently approached him In his ear: "Then you come back to me."

His eyes froze, and suddenly he seemed to realize something, and looked at me with wide eyes.

I looked into his eyes, burning.

It seems that he and I looked at each other closely for the first time after death and rebirth, without saying a word or making any movements, but I believe that at this moment he has fully understood, As for the man standing in the dark depths outside the door, his breath was always echoing and circling in my ears, like a nightmare that would never wake up.

Of course, just as if.

It was a sunny day to send him off.

I stood on the tower, watching that figure getting farther and farther away, riding the lightning-fast Zhao Yebai, it soon became smaller and smaller in my field of vision, and finally became a star between heaven and earth. fine dust.

And I also know that in this piece of land, really, I am the only one left.

When leaning on the wall and looking into the distance, I felt a familiar breath coming up behind me, Nangong, he hasn't appeared in front of me these days, but I know he is everywhere, even our smallest movements , could not escape his eyes.

At this time, he walked slowly behind me and looked into the distance, but his handsome face under the sun showed no expression at all.

"You actually gave him Zhao Yebai."

"so what?"

"Are you afraid we'll stop him halfway?"

I said lightly: "I am confident that I can see through many people in this world, but I can't see through your surname Nangong." I turned around and looked into his eyes with cold eyes: "I can't even see through you. How cruel."

There seemed to be a crack in his calm face.

Suddenly, as soon as he reached out and grabbed my wrist, he pulled me and walked down the city tower. When he reached the gate of the city, he heard a sound of a healthy horse neighing. When he looked up, a tall dark horse was being led over.

I was stunned.

Yuhuacong...?
This was once brought into the palace by Nangong Yu as a gift to Ling Shaoyang. It was also once in the racecourse. Guan Guan and I rode these two horses at high speed. When we saw this horse, many things from the past seemed to come to our eyes one by one. , I walked over slowly, reaching out to stroke its dark mane.

Nangong came up behind me.

"If one day I promise you to leave, I will give you this horse."

……

"You can ride it and stay away from me."

……

His voice was a little dry, as if the blade was scraping on a stone, and it was difficult to speak every word.

I smiled lightly and looked back at him: "If you don't agree, I can't go anywhere?"

As soon as the words fell, I felt the world spinning in front of me. When I came back to my senses, I had already been hugged by him on the back of the horse.

"what are you doing?"

I'm a little weak, maybe I've been touched too many times these days, letting him hug me so tightly doesn't seem to arouse my tension, it's just a little stiff, and he unceremoniously circled my thin body with one arm Holding my waist, holding the rein with one hand, with a light shake, Yu Huacong has already run forward quickly.

The defenders of the city didn't stop us at all, and just let us out of the city. The entire imperial city seemed to be named Nangong.

Realizing this, my fingertips also felt a little colder, and I felt a gust of cold wind blowing in front of me, that powerful big hand immediately hugged me tightly, and the place where the skin touched was continuously ironed and dyed.

"Is it still cold?"

"Where are you taking me?"

He didn't speak, but continued galloping on horseback, bumping along the way, the imperial city was gradually left behind, and after passing a somewhat barren mountain road, the surrounding scenery gradually became familiar.

Before we knew it, we had been running on the horse for half a day. When the sun was shining brightly and the hottest temperature of the day was shining, we came to the coldest place. The towering peaks in front of us went straight into the sky, and the smoke was transpiring. , I could faintly hear the sharp chirping of night owls in the mountains, making the originally silent environment even quieter.

Dongshan, the imperial mausoleum.

I didn't expect that he would bring me to the imperial mausoleum.

Getting off the horse and looking at the towering Dongshan Mountain in the distance like a dragon, a tiger, and a tiger, I choked up for a while, and Nangong followed me, and the familiar breath blew in my ears bit by bit. , everything is the same as before.

In the silence, I heard him say softly: "Do you still remember what I asked you here?"

……

"If one day we inevitably confront each other and hurt each other, will you blame me?"

His words seemed to be ringing clearly in his ears, everything seemed to have happened yesterday.

And me, how did I answer?
If one day, you want to hurt me, I will definitely not be the one who hurts the most...

Feeling that his aura was a bit disordered, I slowly turned my head and met his drooping pupils. Compared with the clear pupils like ink painting, now he is much more deep and dignified, as if he could get out from there at any time. See pain in the eyes.

Indeed, he hurts more than me.

But—what else?

"Nangong..." I pondered for a long time, and finally said, "Let yourself go."

"..."

"All along, you are not hurting me, but making things difficult for yourself. You want me, but you can't get rid of your family. You are almost driving yourself to a dead end."

His face became paler and paler, as if he was about to freeze due to the cold breath here.

"Then tell me, what should I do?"

"You have two paths, one is to be like uncle, no matter how many people you kill or hurt, you must get what you want; there is another path," I took a deep breath and looked at him: "Take the uncle now." Let me go, ride this jade horse to Dadukou, and then go down the south of the Yangtze River, go and think, marry me, and spend the rest of my life quietly with me."

His face froze for a moment.

I still looked up at him, and even took a step closer to his slightly trembling body.

But he never moved again.

I smiled lightly: "You can't do it."

"..."

"I've said it a long time ago, you can't want everything. If you want this country, I will leave you sooner or later. No matter who I go with or where I go, it's not your business."

After saying this, I turned around silently, and was about to reach out to grab Yuhua Cong's rein, but he grabbed my wrist, but this time he didn't use any force, just stubbornly pulled, and slowly walked in front of me , reached out and hugged me tightly.

"Xingsi..."

He whispered in my ear: "If you really want to leave, I will let you go."

His embrace was warmer than ever before, but I clearly felt cold in such a warm embrace.

A strange murderous intent surged around me.

When we returned to the imperial city, the setting sun was slanting.

The bright red sun shines on the Yanfu Hall for a long time, and the multicolored glazed tiles reflect the colorful light, while the same sun shines on the white marble steps, but it looks like blood is sprinkled all over the ground.

But when he got closer, he realized that it was real blood!

I opened my eyes wide in astonishment, watching the blood flow down the stone steps little by little, staining the satin shoes on my feet red, and several corpses being dragged away by the guards, I was furious for a while surging.

As soon as I saw Nangong Yu standing on it, I rushed up desperately: "You promised me, you won't do anything!"

He gave me a cold look: "I didn't."

"You didn't? Then who are these people, why are you killing people here?!"

He sneered: "Empress Dowager Yongjia, if it weren't for your gift, I wouldn't be able to wield swords in the imperial city."

"what?"

I was taken aback, unable to react at all, only to see him turn around and leave a sentence: "These people are here to assassinate you."

He said while directing people: "Go and find them immediately, these assassins still slip through the net, we can't let them continue to make trouble in the imperial city!"

"Yes."

I didn't respond for a while, and stood there stupidly. After a while, I realized what he just said-these people came to assassinate me?
Why, you want to assassinate me?

I turned my head in bewilderment, but saw Nangong standing behind me, watching from afar with a cold expression.

The light of the setting sun dimmed little by little, and the dark red blood was washed away by people, but the strong smell of blood seemed to permeate the tip of the nose all the time. There was no such person in this empty hall, no more My child, it became more and more unbearable. I curled up on the couch until late at night, and couldn't fall asleep.

Faintly, there seemed to be some noises outside, and the guards holding torches kept passing by outside, as if they heard that they were still looking for something.

By the way, Nangong Yu once said during the day that there was another assassin who slipped through the net.

I know that I have offended many people, but none of them would really send assassins to assassinate me. If these people want to move, it will be a war in the Central Plains. Why send assassins to assassinate?
Thinking of this, I couldn't fall asleep even more, I put on my clothes and opened the door and went out.

The night was as cold as water, and I walked slowly in the courtyard alone.

As soon as I walked into the yard, I felt that there seemed to be some shadow shaking behind the big water tank in the corner. When I remembered what Nangong Yu said, my heart immediately sank, and I looked at the dark corner vigilantly.

"Who, where?!"

(End of this chapter)