What do you want in life

Chapter 17 Young Love Is Like Fireworks Are Cold (11)
Under Shen Juncheng's guidance, Xiaoyu's skills improved greatly, and a dozen games lasted for half an hour.Xiaoying occasionally raised her eyes to look at the big clock in the living room, before she knew it, it was almost half past ten, and she jumped up, "Xiaoyu, hurry up and do your homework!"

"Let's play for a while!" Xiaoyu couldn't put it down for the new baby, and wanted to use delaying tactics.

"No! I have to leave at 11:30. Before I leave, you must finish your homework!" Xiaoying couldn't help but snatched the game console, her face tensed.

"Xiaoyu, how about I teach you a few more tricks after finishing your homework?" Shen Juncheng also helped Xiaoying seduce him.

"Okay, okay." Xiaoyu was outnumbered, so he got up lazily and walked into the room.

Xiaoying breathed a sigh of relief, and cast a grateful glance at Shen Juncheng, "Would you like to have dinner with us today?"

"Okay!" Shen Juncheng couldn't wish more, as long as he could sneak home on time after one o'clock, he was still sure of his mother's schedule.

"But we only have noodles for lunch at home." Xiaoying was a little embarrassed, "If you are not used to eating, we can go out to eat, oh, I treat you!"

"No, no!" Shen Juncheng quickly waved his hands, "Just noodles, I like noodles!"

Seeing that it was getting late, Xiaoying went to the kitchen to prepare, and Shen Juncheng stood by her side in the name of helping.

Xiaoying put the pot filled with clean water on the stove, found some tomatoes and eggs from the refrigerator, beat a few eggs first, and then turned on the faucet to clean the tomatoes.

She was busy doing things, Shen Juncheng didn't want to mess around with her anymore, besides, he liked to see her orderly and busy, she had already looked like a capable housewife.

"Do you have other business this afternoon? So you can't go to your grandma's house?" Xiaoying asked him.

Shen Juncheng's bright face was a little gloomy, "Not just this afternoon, maybe I won't be able to go there often in the future."

Xiaoying's heart trembled, "What's wrong?"

"My mother insisted that I take the TOEFL test, and told me to use the time of vacation to study hard at home. She may go back in the afternoon."

To Xiaoying, this news seemed like an indescribable omen. Although it was a bit vague, she could really feel its existence.

She forced a smile at him, "Then why do you still run out?"

Shen Juncheng glanced at her, and said in a low but crisp voice, "I want to see you."

Xiaoying turned her gaze to the side in a panic, her face immediately turned red again, but her heart felt as if she had swallowed a pot of honey, it was so sweet that it almost diluted the cloud that slowly spread over her heart just now.

"Even if I can't go to grandma's house, I will often come here to see you." Shen Juncheng whispered with a smile.

He loves to see her face blushing because of his teasing, which reminds him of Xu Zhimo's poem, "The most is the gentleness of bowing her head, like a water lotus that can't bear the cool breeze..."

Being able to see her shy and timid expression, even at the risk of being scolded by his mother when he found out, he would sneak out to see her.

Just after cutting the tomato, Xiaoyu yelled again, "Sister, you can't solve a problem!"

Xiaoying frowned, and hurriedly wiped her hands on the towel and was about to drive out, but was stopped by Shen Juncheng, "You are busy with your work, let me take a look."

Shen Juncheng's grades were much better than his own, and he was two grades higher. Naturally, Xiaoying had nothing to worry about, so she smiled and said, "I'm sorry to trouble you."

Shen Juncheng grinned at her and strode out.

When Xiaoying brought three steaming bowls of tomato and egg noodles to the dining room table in the living room, and ran to Xiaoyu's room to ask them to come out for dinner, she was surprised to find that the two were hooked up to the game console again.

"Have you finished your homework?"

"Of course!" Xiaoyu was confident, "The method taught by Brother Shen is much simpler than what you taught!"

Xiaoying was a little embarrassed, and muttered, "I'm not good at math!"

When Shen Juncheng saw her coming in, he immediately stood up, "The noodles are ready?"

"Yeah, let's go and eat." Looking at the time, Xiaoying was on fire again.

The three of them sat around the table, happily eating the delicious noodles. Shen Juncheng felt that this was the best noodle he had ever eaten.

Because of the tutoring just now, Xiaoyu admired Shen Juncheng even more, "Brother Shen, your grades are so good, why do you still have time to play games?"

Shen Juncheng said with a smile: "When it's time to read, concentrate on listening carefully, and think hard. Why is it necessary to be facing the book 24 hours a day?"

"That makes sense!" Xiaoyu shook his head, and tilted his head at Xiaoying triumphantly, "Did you hear that, you don't have to be buried in piles of books 24 hours a day to get good grades in the exam—you call it 'forcing the bull's head to eat grass'" !"

"Speak to your mother if you have the ability." Xiaoying also gave him a look.

Xiaoyu ignored her, and chatted with Shen Juncheng with a smile, "Brother Shen, what does it feel like to be admitted to university?"

Shen Juncheng raised his eyebrows, "I don't feel anything." This was almost a matter of course for him.

He turned his face to look at Xiaoying, smiled and said, "Maybe, I won't be able to tell you how I feel until your sister is in college."

Xiaoyu blinked quickly, and seeing two red clouds spread on his sister's face, he immediately understood the implication, and winked at Xiaoying.

Xiaoying lowered her head and muttered after a while, "My grades are very poor, so I may not be able to pass the exam."

Shen Juncheng smiled, "I didn't make you have to be admitted to H University, you can also be admitted to the junior college next to H University!"

"Brother Shen, my sister can do it." Xiaoyu interjected, "Maybe she won't listen to what other people say, but I guarantee that she will listen to what you say!"

He slapped his slab-like chest tight, and immediately ate a chestnut from Xiaoying on the back of his head!

"Brother Shen, what do you want to do after graduating from university?" Xiaoyu asked Shen Juncheng again.

"I hope to be able to engage in architectural design." Shen Juncheng's eyes flickered, "Even if I can't be a Chinese Gaudi, at least I have to complete a work that I am more satisfied with!"

However, the light of longing in his eyes didn't last long and then dimmed a lot, "But my parents will definitely not agree, maybe I will go into business in the future, and I will inherit my father's business!"

He smiled somewhat reluctantly, and the smile on Xiaoying's face gradually disappeared. Although the future is so far away that they don't need to think about it now, it exists after all and will come one day.

"What about you? Han Xiaoying, what do you want to do in the future?" Shen Juncheng turned to look at her and asked.

"Me?" Xiaoying was taken aback for a moment, she didn't have the lofty ambitions of Shen Juncheng.

When she was in a daze, Xiaoyu rushed to say: "I know what she wants to do in the future—be a good wife and mother!"

Xiaoying blushed and wanted to reach out to beat him, but Xiaoyu dodged it deftly.

"This ideal is very good!" The melancholy on Shen Juncheng's face was swept away, and he stared at Xiaoying with tenderness in his eyes, "I believe, you will definitely realize it!"

After a heavy rain, God suddenly let go of his tense breath, and there was a coolness between the sky and the earth, and even the air contained the fragrance of green grass and rain.

Sitting in the courtyard with Grandma Wu, Xiaoying read "A Dream of Red Mansions" to her in a slow voice.

She felt that Grandma Wu was sometimes very much like Mother Jia in the Dream of the Red Chamber, with a group of children who respected her as a guest of honor. The difference was that Grandma Wu could not enjoy the joy of having fun with her children all the time. Most of the time, she was alone. , accompanied by one or two unrelated outsiders, lived alone in this empty old house.

Today's Grandma Wu is quite silent. Ever since Xiaoying read to her, she has not said a word, she just sat in the wicker chair intact, staring at the front with blurred eyes.When Xiaoying asked her what, she always nodded indifferently.Sometimes, Xiaoying deliberately misread some places or paused for too long, and Grandma Wu could no longer point it out immediately as before.

Her condition was not optimistic, which made Xiaoying worried. Aunt Wang speculated that it might be because her children had a lively night together two days ago, which made her tired.

"It seems that one of them inadvertently mentioned Ah Fang, which irritated the old lady again. As a result, I haven't seen her well since then." Aunt Wang sighed.

"Don't let her sit all the time, help her up and move around more, if she is tired, let her have a good sleep." Aunt Wang told Xiaoying before leaving.

Remembering Aunt Wang's instructions, Xiaoying would help Grandma Wu get up and walk every half hour, but after walking a few steps, she insisted on sitting back.

Grandma Wu looked at a certain point in front of her in a bewildered manner. Judging by her state, it seemed that she was not listening to Xiaoying's reading at all, but just used the dialogue in the book as a background decoration.Without a good audience, Xiaoying gradually felt bored, lost her mind, and inevitably deserted.

She hadn't seen Shen Juncheng for three days - he had never been to Wu's house, nor had he visited Uncle Xiaoying's house any more.

The uneasiness in Xiaoying's heart was increasing day by day, and she made all kinds of guesses: Could it be that she went to some English cram school?Or is there too much homework to get away from?Or did his mother find him something else to do?

But obviously when he met Xiaoying for the last time, he had a good talk with Xiaoying, and he would definitely go to her the next day.

"My mother is going on a business trip tomorrow. If I can find an opportunity, I will go directly to my grandma's house." Before leaving that day, Shen Juncheng whispered to her with a smile, "In your house, your brother follows you like a shadow, how awkward!"

But since that day, he seems to have evaporated from the world, without a trace of news.

Even Xiaoyu sensed something was wrong, "It seems like I haven't seen Brother Shen for a few days! Do you want to call and ask?"

"I don't have his family's number." Xiaoying replied casually, feeling lost.

Shen Juncheng had indeed asked her to exchange the phone numbers of the two families, but Xiaoying was afraid of her aunt and refused to agree, so he had no choice but to give up.Now that I think about it, I feel a little regretful. I knew that I should ask for his number, so at least she can call him.

But when she thought of getting in touch with his family that was so strange to her, Xiaoying couldn't help but feel apprehensive. She found that she had always had a defensive mentality—she always forced herself to list Shen Juncheng as an individual Come to see, and try to ignore the family behind him.

Xiaoyu rolled her eyes a few times, and was about to say something when Xiaoying came to her senses, frowned and knocked on the table, "Stop thinking about it, do your homework quickly."

But when Xiaoying is alone, she can think wildly more than anyone else, just like this moment.

Could it be an accident?She was taken aback by her sudden thought, and quickly spat at herself a few times in her heart.

If something happened to Shen Juncheng, the news would definitely reach the Wu family, but Aunt Wang looked very normal these two days, she didn't look like something happened at all.

Because Shen Juncheng no longer came to the door, the relationship between Aunt Wang and Xiaoying seemed to be eased invisibly, and she returned to her previous amiable attitude, which made Xiaoying secretly heave a sigh of relief.

Sometimes, she feels that she is really tired of living and always cares about other people's feelings, but there is nothing she can do.

Her finger quietly moved to the last page of the book, and she stroked it slowly. In an instant, a small white paper was quickly covered by her on the opened page. Although her mouth was still speaking, her mind had long been Float to that page.

Those were sketches of two head portraits. Although there was a certain gap compared with real people, but just by looking at their demeanor and attire, it was easy to recognize that one was Xiaoying and the other was Shen Juncheng.

On the screen, Xiaoying was facing the front with a smile on her face, her thick eyelashes were long and curly, while Shen Juncheng turned her face sideways, pursing her mouth and kissing one side of Xiaoying's cheek.There are two names at the bottom, side by side, connected in series with a red heart in the middle.

This is the proud work that Shen Juncheng gave her when he met her on the last day.

Xiaoying blushed when she saw it at the time, as if she wanted to tear it off, Shen Juncheng hurriedly snatched it back, "It took me half a night to draw it, and you are so cruel!"

"It's not good for others to see!" Xiaoying muttered in a low voice.

"I didn't show it to others, I just left it as a souvenir for you." Shen Juncheng actually had a trace of melancholy on his face, "When school starts, we won't see each other for a while, hey—don't forget Kill me!"

Xiaoying was tainted by his melancholy, and suddenly felt that the future was bleak. Even if they make promises to each other now, no one can decide how long they can last.

Shen Juncheng was stubborn like an overbearing and unreasonable child, but he was not as sentimental as Xiaoying, so he quickly cheered up and insisted on her making a vow to himself.

In the end, Xiaoying couldn't resist him, so she did it. Seeing the smile on Shen Juncheng's face, her uneasy heart still warmed up a little. Even if the future really doesn't count, it's worth seeing his satisfied smile now .

Later, Xiaoying secretly hid that painting. When no one was around, she would take it out and look at it from time to time, her heart fluttering.

Shen Juncheng's painting skills are not very good, but it can be seen that he is dedicated enough. What's more, this kind of confession that seems childish in the eyes of adults has a very important expressive weight in the hearts of teenagers.

This is not only a record of their relationship, but also Shen Juncheng's promise to her. No matter how long this promise lasts, she will keep it well.

When her mind turned to Grandma Wu again, she was suddenly startled—she was stuffing a leaf that fell on her shoulder into her mouth!

"Grandma, you can't eat this!" Xiaoying hurriedly closed the book and rushed over to pull the leaf out of her mouth.

Grandma Wu didn't even look at her, she stared straight ahead in a daze, "Dry mouth."

"I'll get you a glass of water!" Xiaoying agreed, and looked around the area where Grandma Wu was sitting. After making sure that there was nothing she could grab and eat, she got up and went to the kitchen Go, I can't help but sigh secretly.

On the storage shelf in the kitchen there is an opened can of ebony powder, which was given by one of Grandma Wu’s children. Aunt Wang told Xiaoying that Grandma Wu likes this taste very much, but she can’t make it too strong, because ebony juice is very sweet. Grandma Wu has high blood sugar.

According to Aunt Wang's instructions, Xiaoying carefully scooped two small spoonfuls into the glass, rinsed it with boiled water that had been cooled in advance, and stirred it evenly. The sweet fragrance of ebony juice overflowed immediately.

When he came out with ebony juice, there was a slight clicking sound from the back door, and someone was opening the door with a key!
Xiaoying shook her body, and felt that the melancholy that had lasted for a long time was swept away, and even her eyes suddenly brightened a little. Without thinking about it, she put the cup down, and rushed towards the back door lightly, unlocking and opening the door impatiently , wanting to surprise Shen Juncheng.

As soon as the door opened, the smile on Xiaoying's lips was immediately covered by disappointment and surprise. She found that the person standing outside the door was not Shen Juncheng, but a middle-aged woman whom she had never met before.

The woman was about 40 years old, well-dressed, with good facial features, especially a pair of eyes, revealing a clear and sharp light, holding a bunch of keys in her hand, and staring at Xiaoying intently. There was also a hint of surprise in her eyes, but she soon understood it, and her eyes turned into focused scrutiny.

"You are?" Xiaoying always feels a little embarrassed when facing strangers. She has never seen the woman in front of Wu's house before, but she can vaguely see the shadow of Grandma Wu from the other's eyebrows and eyes. Immediately guessed some clues.

"You are Han Xiaoying?" The other party did not intend to introduce herself first, but directly revealed Xiaoying's identity. Her voice was a bit stiff and stiff, which did not match her exquisite appearance.

"I am." Xiaoying nodded, "You belong to Grandma Wu..." She was almost sure who she was, but couldn't find the right words to describe it.

"I am Shen Juncheng's mother." Wu Qiuyue didn't make her too embarrassed, and finally gave herself a brief definition, but instead of linking herself with Grandma Wu, she emphasized Shen Juncheng, which made Xiaoying neither Relieved and uneasy, she sensitively noticed that Wu Qiuyue's eyes were somewhat unfriendly.

"Hello, Auntie." Xiaoying forced a smile on her face, and quickly turned to the side to make way for her, "Please come in."

Wu Qiuyue walked in the door calmly, looked around, Xiaoying didn't know what she was looking for, maybe Shen Juncheng?
If it wasn't for her being sober-minded, she really wanted to ask Wu Qiuyue what Shen Juncheng was doing now.

Wu Qiuyue walked a few steps back and forth in the dimly lit room.She didn't like this old, lifeless house, and she didn't often think of coming back to see it.In her memory, this house has carried too much pain, and there are sad memories that she desperately wants to forget. She has not been alone here for many years, although every detail of this place makes her feel palpitations.

Today's Wu Qiuyue is already calling the shots in a certain area of ​​the city, but she is rarely willing to mention her family, whether it is the era when her once prominent father was still alive, or her brothers now sisters.

She always believes that her achievements are related to her vision and hard work, not from this Wu family.What she got from this family was nothing but pain—she still couldn’t forget the tragic scene when she and her family were kicked out of this house, and her father’s expression of eagerness to be relieved when he was dying.

Sometimes, she even wished she had been born into an ordinary family.Because the misfortune of a large family is often several times more than that of an ordinary family.

Behind her, a gentle but completely unfamiliar voice pulled her back from her contemplation to reality, "Auntie, Grandma Wu is in the yard."

There was a faint smile on Wu Qiuyue's lips, but it was extremely cold. She turned her face and looked at the pale, thin and bewildered man in front of her with the sharp eyes she usually used in business. girl.

Her gaze has a certain kind of extremely powerful penetrating power, and she can see through Xiaoying's beautiful appearance and reach her heart. After watching quietly for a few seconds, she saw her fear, humbleness and lack of self-confidence. She believed that if she looked at her twice more, maybe this girl would collapse on the spot, she was too weak and too lacking in vitality.

A slight disgust gradually surfaced in her heart, and Wu Qiuyue turned her eyes away from Xiaoying's face. As she expected, she didn't like her.

(End of this chapter)