What do you want in life

Chapter 75
Xiaoying was the busiest person at the wedding banquet. Although the ceremony was simple, there were still many trivial matters to prepare, so she hardly sat down to eat properly.I had no choice but to throw Xiaozhi to Li Zhen and ask him to take good care of it.

Li Zhen and Xiaozhi happened to be sitting next to Liu Juan, and Liu Juan liked Xiaozhi very much when she saw him, and besides the two of them, there was no one else to talk to at this table, and Liu Juan was a chatterbox. Liu Juan felt quite bored because of Li Zhen's indifferent attitude.

Xiaozhi couldn't sit still soon, he didn't dare to speak directly to his father, but secretly begged Liu Juan, "Grandma, I want to go outside to play."

Liu Juan agreed without even thinking about it, and picked him up, then remembered that she had to say hello to Li Zhen, who was drinking heavily, "Xiao Li, I'll take Xiao Zhi out to get some air!"

Li Zhen smiled helplessly.

Xiaozhi has long been tired of riding a cart or being hugged, and stubbornly twisted from Liu Juan's arms and fell to the ground, "I want to go by myself!"

He was afraid that Liu Juan would not follow her, so as soon as he got out of her embrace, he immediately rushed forward like a small locomotive, bumping his head into the leg of the waiter who served the dishes, and the dishes immediately lost their balance, and the soup spilled all over the place. All of a sudden, Xiaozhi also tripped and fell on the carpet!
Liu Juan yelled in surprise, causing Li Zhen to turn his head. He caught a glimpse of Xiaozhi lying on the ground, and immediately put down his wine glass to rush over to hug him.But before he got up, Xiaoying hurried over from not far away in shock.Li Zhen's eyes cast on Xiaoying's face became colder and colder.

Xiao Zhi just slipped and fell, except for some soup stains on the sweater, there was nothing serious.Liu Juan was very sorry, and apologized repeatedly to Xiaoying. Naturally, Xiaoying didn't mean to blame her, but she was very dissatisfied when she glanced at Li Zhen-he didn't move in the end, but picked up the wine glass again, and took a sip slowly , as if what happened had nothing to do with him.

Liu Juan accompanied Xiaoying to the lounge to change Xiaozhi's clothes. Within a few minutes, Xiaoyu, who was toasting, didn't know what happened, so she hurried in to inquire.

"It's nothing, Xiaozhi accidentally fell down just now." Xiaoying explained to him, and couldn't help urging him to go out.

Xiaoyu rubbed Xiaozhi's head, and said angrily: "You bastard, you are naughty all day long, and you always make your mother worry! Go back later and sit next to your father, do you hear me?"

"Oh, Xiaoying!" Liu Juan couldn't hold back anymore, and asked at this moment, "What is Xiao Li like? I think he doesn't talk, he just drinks. He doesn't even care if the child falls down. , really!"

Xiaoying was not happy in her heart, so she could only forcefully explain to her aunt with a smile, "He is also like this usually, he doesn't like to talk much."

Liu Juan continued to mutter, "I've never seen such a father, it's your uncle, it's not like this for Xiaoyu! Is this child his own?"

"Mom—" Xiaoyu stopped her in embarrassment and annoyance, "You'd better go back to your seat, you have nothing to do here!"

Liu Juan curled her lips, feeling a little hurt by her son's attitude towards her, but she didn't say anything after all, and went out sullenly.

Xiaoyu sighed, looked at Xiaoying and said, "My mother is just like that, don't worry about it."

Xiaoying shook her head, feeling a little tired, "Li Zhen has been a little...let me talk to him tonight."

Li Zhen was so drunk at the banquet that he couldn't drive at all. It was Xiaoyu who sent someone to stop the taxi to send the family of three back home.

At home, Li Zhen vomited violently, and when Xiaoying cleaned up the dirt on the floor, he was found lying on the sofa and falling asleep.

Li Zhen slept soundly this time, and when he woke up, it was dark outside, and Xiaoying was bathing Xiaozhi in the bathroom.

He suppressed his headache, sat up, and looked at his watch. It was almost seven o'clock. He didn't expect to sleep for so long, but his sleep has not been very good recently.

Xiaoying came out of the bathroom carrying Xiaozhi with disheveled hair on her temples. Seeing him sitting silently, she was taken aback.

Li Zhen nodded, "Going to sleep?"

"Mom only allows me to play in the room." Xiaozhi pouted to complain to his father dissatisfied.

"It's warm in the room!" Xiaoying reprimanded softly. She was almost exhausted by being tormented by her son all afternoon.

After Xiaozhi was settled properly, Xiaoying came out of the room, took the opportunity to close the door, and asked Li Zhen, "Are you hungry? Just now Xiaoyu called to ask us to eat. I saw that you haven't woken up yet, so I asked Li Zhen." Pushed it off."

Li Zhen shook his head.

Xiaoying sat down on the small pier diagonally opposite him, with a serious expression, "Li Zhen, should we have a good talk?"

"...What are you talking about?" Li Zhen looked as if he hadn't woken up from his dream.

"Recently, is there something on your mind?"

Li Zhen regained his sanity, and his eyes cast on Xiaoying flickered unpredictably. He snorted softly, "What can I have on my mind?"

Xiaoying didn't want to continue playing riddles with him, so she said bluntly: "Since you came back from your hometown, you seem to have something hidden in your heart, and you have nothing to say to me, not only to me, but also to everyone around you..." Xiaoying There was a bit of grievance in his tone, "You are not even warm to Xiaozhi, I really don't know what you are..."

Li Zhen's expression changed several times, and gradually became stiff.

"Li Zhen, haven't we already talked about it? Since we want to live a good life, we can't show each other's face all day long. You are like this, I really don't know what to do... Well, even if you treat me Opinion, but you can't tell Xiaozhi..."

Li Zhen stood up suddenly, using too much force, he just felt dizzy for a while, he stretched out a hand to shake Xiaoying vigorously a few times, and almost ruthlessly stopped her, "Stop talking!"

Xiaoying was taken aback by his sudden blunt posture. Before she could react, Li Zhen had already turned her head and entered the study, and with a backhand, closed the door of the study.

Xiaoying sat on the pier, feeling depressed and wronged, with her eyes downcast, her nose was sore, but her mind was empty.

After a long time, she stood up and entered her and Xiaozhi's room without making a sound.

When Xiaozhi saw her, he immediately cheered, "Mom, come and play with me!"

Xiaoying cheered up and walked towards him. With her marriage up to now, only Xiaozhi is the only one who can give her some comfort. As long as she is with him, no matter how hard and tiring she is, she feels it is worth it. , and thus firmly believe that her choice all along is correct - she needs such motivation to cheer herself up.

It was very late at night, and Xiaozhi was already fast asleep. However, Xiaoying, who was lying next to him, was tossing and turning, feeling extremely heavy.

Perhaps, the so-called reunion after a broken mirror is often just a superficial phenomenon, and the person involved cannot take it too seriously, because the crack is always there, and it will never be healed without a trace.

What she didn't know was that in the study room across the wall, Li Zhen was also sleepless.

He was sitting in front of the desk. Apart from an ashtray full of cigarette butts, there was also a hospital test report on the desk. The title page was closed and not opened, but he had already read the contents many times.

Li Zhen smoked one cigarette after another, struggling to find a way for their marriage to move forward in his chaotic thoughts.

His heart was telling him that no matter what, it was time to end it.

After the wedding banquet in H City, according to Guo Jia's parents' wishes, the original team had to go to Guo Jia's hometown to do it all over again.It's just that Liu Juan was the only parent on Xiaoyu's side who could go - Han Zhengsheng took his whole family back after attending the wedding in H City. It was the biggest concession his wife had made for him to be able to come to the wedding to congratulate him.

Xiaoying didn't say anything else, and she definitely wanted to go there together, but Li Zhen shied away on the grounds that she was busy with work.His attitude was as expected by Xiaoying, and he didn't feel too disappointed. Of course, Xiaozhi was also taken away by her, so he was really worried to let Li Zhen take care of her at home.

Along the way, Guo Jia whispered to Xiaoying several times, worrying about Li Zhen's moody temper and Xiaoying's future situation. Apart from being helpless, Xiaoying also found it ironic. She and Li Zhen have been together for more than three years. The road to marriage, but let the newly married close friends worry about it.

She doesn't like to bother others too much, especially the matters between the husband and wife, and it doesn't help much to tell others, so she just covers up lightly.Guo Jia saw that he really had nothing to ask, so he shrugged his shoulders and gave up.

In the Guo family's wedding, these members of the Han family are completely relaxed, because there is an enthusiastic neighbor from a village to help, and Guo's mother is very capable, Xiaoying tried to intervene several times but was blocked back, she just needs to rest assured Just take good care of Xiaozhi.

The wedding banquet had been held for two days, and a bunch of relatives came to the Guo family, and the meal was quite lively. In comparison, the few members of the Han family looked pitiful. Apologize, "Do you think it's embarrassing to marry me?"

Guo Jia Zhile, "Your words are so funny. I'm marrying you, not because of face! Look how happy my parents are. Ever since my brother got married, the house hasn't been this lively for a long time! I don't know if you're blind Think about something!"

Xiaoyu laughed in relief. He was actually nervous about Guo Jia's feelings. He himself was not so sentimental at ordinary times, so he didn't say anything at the moment. He just turned around Guo Jia's body and kissed her gently on her lips.

This scene was unfortunately seen by Xiao Zhi who had sneaked up the stairs. He stood dumbfounded at the door of the room and murmured, "Uncle, Guo... Aunt..."

As soon as Guo Jia turned around, she immediately blushed!
I stayed at Guo's house for four consecutive days. On the morning of the fifth day, Liu Juan, who was not used to life in the country, insisted on going back. In addition, Guo Jia and Xiaoyu had to prepare for their honeymoon two days later, so she resigned from Guo Jia. The parents tried their best to persuade them to stay, and the group set off on the return journey.

Liu Juan bid farewell to her son and new daughter-in-law at the train station. When the words got to the point where she was emotional, her eyes turned red. She took Guo Jia's hand and solemnly said, "Xiaoyu will entrust you to take care of her from now on..."

Guo Jia had never encountered such a scene, he was embarrassed and touched for a moment, he agreed a few words clumsily, and under Xiaoyu's mediation, he finally got rid of his mother-in-law's sobs.

"It seems that Xiaoyu's mother is also very good! Why did she get divorced!" Guo Jia and Xiaoying stood in front of the pillar together and waited for the end of Xiaoyu's farewell to Liu Juan.

Xiaoying couldn't help laughing, and nodded, but she was glad in her heart that Guo Jia didn't have to spend time with her aunt day and night.

After a lot of effort, Xiaoyu finally put Liu Juan on the train bound for J City.

When I returned to Guo Jia and the others, I wiped my sweat and shook my head, "Why is my mother getting more and more wordy as she gets older! She's getting older, alas..."

"Did you say that about your own mother!" Guo Jia gave him a white look, "Remember to go back often in the future, it's not easy for her to live alone!"

"Guo Jia is right!" Xiaoying agreed with a smile, and suddenly heard the phone beeping in her bag, she was startled, and quickly took it out to answer it.

As she expected, the call was indeed from Li Zhen.

In the past few days at Guo's house, Xiaoying deliberately refrained from calling back. She didn't want to run into walls again and again, and she was really annoyed by Li Zhen's attitude.Deep in her heart, she still had a little expectation, hoping that Li Zhen would take the initiative to make a call to say hello.

Therefore, although his call came a bit late, Xiaoying still felt a little comforted.

Li Zhen's voice on the phone was much calmer, even gentle, "How long will you stay?"

As soon as Xiaoying's heart softened, she told the truth, "I took the car back today, and I will get home around eight o'clock in the evening!"

"Guo Jia and Xiaoyu came back with you?"

"Yes! They are going to Hainan the day after tomorrow!"

After pondering for a while, Li Zhen said: "Then let them come over for dinner together. I will go home earlier today, and I will prepare dinner."

Xiaoying couldn't believe her ears, "Huh? Oh...Okay, then I'll tell them."

When she was on the phone, Guo Jia kept looking at her face. Seeing her hang up the phone with joy on her face, she smiled and said, "It must be Li Zhen calling, right? What did he say, you So happy!"

Xiaoying was embarrassed by what she said, "He asked you all to go to dinner today, you must go!" When she bent down to pick up Xiaozhi, she felt a lot more relaxed.

Xiaoyu lit a cigarette, and said with a half-smile: "Of course we have to give brother-in-law face!"

Because the train was late, it was almost nine o'clock when we arrived in City H. Xiaozhi curled up in Xiaoyu's arms and fell asleep. Guo Jia also felt exhausted and just wanted to go home early to rest, so he said to Xiaoying: "You Husband invited us to dinner, or leave it until tomorrow, I just want to sleep now, I am not hungry at all, and the snacks on the train are full."

Xiaoying couldn't force it, so she had to take her son from Xiaoyu's arms, and the two stopped a taxi for their mother and son on the side of the street, and helped put the luggage into the trunk.

Seeing Xiaoying get into the car and the door was still closed, Xiaoyu bowed down and said apologetically, "Say hello to brother-in-law, we will definitely go tomorrow."

The car drove away, Guo Jia saw Xiaoyu's expression was uncertain, pushed him and asked, "What's wrong?"

Xiaoyu grinned, "I really want to go to their house to see what Li Zhen wants to do."

"What else can we do, why not treat us to a meal!" Guo Jia disagreed.

Xiaoyu shook his head, "I'm afraid it's not that simple."

"Then...how about we go there now?" Guo Jia also became nervous.

"Forget it!" Xiaoyu said with a smile: "Aren't you tired! Go back and rest quickly! Anyway, it's only one night, nothing big will happen!"

When they were about to get home, Xiaoying called Li Zhen and told him that Xiaoyu and Guo Jia would not be coming for dinner, and asked him to come downstairs to meet him. Li Zhen didn't complain, and responded one by one, still peacefully. tone.

I don't know why, but Xiaoying suddenly feels uneasy from the bottom of her heart, maybe because Li Zhen is too abnormal tonight.

Finally got home, opened the door, the house was tidied up, Xiaoying was changing shoes in the porch, while looking around in surprise, the dishes on the dining table were neatly arranged, and the bowls were turned upside down to prevent it from getting cold .

Li Zhen came in after carrying Xiaozhi who was still asleep, and asked Xiaoying beside her, "Will you wake him up or let him sleep?"

"Let him sleep, he ate a lot on the train."

Li Zhen carried Xiaozhi into the room, and when he came out, he saw Xiaoying standing in front of the dining table and asked him in surprise, "You haven't had dinner yet, have you?"

"I'm not hungry." Li Zhen smiled and said: "I wanted to wait for everyone to come to eat together, but since they didn't come, then... let's eat together."

"Okay." Xiaoying also smiled.

Li Zhen went to the kitchen to get the bowls and chopsticks, while Xiaoying helped to remove the bowls from the dishes.After waiting for a long time, the dishes were still cold. Xiaoying carefully looked at each dish, which was Li Zhen's specialty. When she was pregnant, Li Zhen often cooked it for her.

Gentle ripples rippled in Xiaoying's heart unconsciously.

"Drink some wine." When Li Zhen came out of the kitchen, he took a bottle of dry red and came out.

The atmosphere is very comfortable, the husband and wife have not eaten alone like this for a long time, but thinking about it carefully, the number of times they ate together alone before was very small - they even got married in a hurry without having a serious relationship, and after marriage Always around the kids.

Xiaoying felt a little apologetic inexplicably, glanced at Li Zhen who was sitting opposite her drinking silently, tried her best to smile and said, "It seems that we seldom eat together like we do now."

"Huh?" Li Zhen raised his eyebrows, came back to his senses, thought about it and said: "Yes! Very few."

There was a faint sense of inexplicable sadness hidden in his eyebrows, Xiaoying didn't quite understand what it was, only that he, like herself, felt a little regretful about the past.

"In the future, we can often go out to eat out or something, cough, I mean, just the two of us." Xiaoying didn't know why her throat was a little tight when she said these words, maybe there has been a long relationship between her and Li Zhen. What is lacking is the romantic atmosphere between lovers.

Li Zhen just smiled, neither saying good nor bad, he took a piece of fish fillet from a plate near his hand and handed it to Xiaoying's bowl, "This fried fish fillet is very tender, You especially liked it when you were pregnant."

Xiaoying stuffed the fish fillet into her mouth, savoring the long-lost taste carefully. The scene of the two people's harmony and intimacy when they first got married gradually flashed through her mind, and she felt a lot of emotion for a while.

She had been waiting for Li Zhen to speak, and she believed that it must not be a whim for him to carefully prepare this table of meals, because he has never been an impulsive person.

But until they were almost finished eating, Li Zhen didn't say a word about themselves, but just concentrated on drinking and eating, and occasionally talked about a few irrelevant news or interesting things to adjust the atmosphere that seemed too deserted.And tonight, Li Zhen drank very sparingly. He stopped after drinking only two small cups of a bottle of dry red wine. Xiaoying didn't like drinking too much, so she just poured a little to accompany him.

After drinking and eating, Xiaoying was responsible for cleaning the dishes. Li Zhen ran out of cigarettes and went downstairs to buy a pack of cigarettes.

Xiaoying washed the dishes by herself, thinking carefully about this seemingly ordinary but unusual dinner tonight, as if it contained a lot of meaning, but she couldn't figure out what Li Zhen meant.

However, in these years, how has she really understood Li Zhen?

When she put the bowl into the cupboard, Xiaoying couldn't help but burst out laughing. She was always used to overcomplicating things, but it was just Li Zhen who cooked dinner, but she kept thinking about it. What could be the matter?
After Xiaoying washed the dishes, Li Zhen had already bought cigarettes and came back, sitting in the study, not knowing what he was looking at.Seeing that it was getting late, Xiaoying went back to her room, took a few changes of clothes, and went to the bathroom to take a shower.

When she came out of the shower, Li Zhen was already sitting on the sofa with a serious expression on her face, "There is something I want to tell you."

Xiaoying was startled, so she had to go over and sit diagonally across from him, "What?"

Li Chen took out a thin document from the folder on the small glass table, and slowly handed it over, "This, you'd better take a look."

Xiaoying took it in confusion, and glanced at the cover of the document, it turned out to be "Paternity Test Report", a wave of uneasiness suddenly swept through her body.

"What, what does this mean?"

"Just open it and take a look." Li Zhen said in a deep tone.

Xiaoying controlled her nervousness and flipped through the pages one by one, her eyes hurriedly glanced at the content one by one. Her breathing gradually became disordered, and her face became paler and paler. When she caught a glimpse of the final conclusion, her heartbeat suddenly disappeared. The paper slipped from her hand in a muffled manner...

(End of this chapter)