The dust settles

Chapter 41

42. About the future
Throughout the winter, I was more and more immersed in the sadness of losing my uncle, crying in the face of the wind and feeling sad.

My parents continued to write me letters full of complaints, and people who didn't know the details read it and thought it was a foolish son who abandoned me in that old fortress-style official village.Not that he forced me out of the house.

I don't want to bother with him.

I lay on the bed, looking at the sky outside the window, thinking of my uncle again, tears streaming down my cheeks.Suddenly, I saw my uncle.He told me that he followed a big river, and his soul went to the vast sea. When the moon is bright, he can go wherever he wants.I asked him if he had wings like airplanes.The answer is that the soul can go anywhere without wings.He told me not to be so sad.He said that since the Maggie family, no one is as happy as him.From that day on, the sadness disappeared from my heart.

When the beautiful summer comes, when I think of my uncle again, I no longer feel sad in my heart, but just imagine what the ocean looks like.Tana wants a baby, and we've been working so hard for that.

When I was first with me, she swallowed so many pink Indian pills for fear of conceiving a foolish son.Now, she started to worry about not being able to conceive my son again.Our bed scene was completely ruined because of this.She is always pestering me.The more unwilling I am, the more she wants to pester me.Every time I do that thing, her eager and terrified face makes me feel uninterested.But she still haunts me like a snake.She doesn't love me any more than before, at best, she just realizes more that I'm not such a stupid fool.She just wants to carry my flesh and blood in her stomach.Her pussy was parched from the burning, rough and dry, like an ascetic's cave, not a place to be happy anymore.No one wants to go to a place with scorching flames.Today, she invited me to the wild again.In order to arouse my interest, she gave me a belly dance where Gululu rolled her eyes.She threw her clothes all over the grass.I did it.But it was too dry inside, and I withdrew before the rain of life spewed out.I told her that the scorching and those Indian pills had burned her down.

She cried and picked up one piece of clothing and put it on indiscriminately.

It is endearing for a beautiful woman to be disheveled and weeping.Although my crotch was still hot, I still held her face and said: "Tana, it's not your fault, it's me, I can't do it, you can go and find another boy to try, okay?"

The loose hair hid her face, but I still saw a gleam in her eye.

She sat there for a while, then said quietly: "Fool, don't you feel sad?"

I touched my chest, and it really didn't feel like when she was sleeping with my brother.I whistled, and the two horses came running up.We're on our way.I've heard people say that sleeping with a woman who doesn't have a wet genitals can kill your lifespan.I don't know if it's true, but I know I've made her tired.On the horse, I said to Tanor, "What do you want a son for? Look at my father and mother. They wish they had no children."

"It's just that they're old and dying, and they're afraid that someone will take away the chieftain's seat before the last day comes," Tana said.

For a certain distance, we didn't speak, only heard the sound of horseshoes.Later, Tanuo asked me again if my heart ached when I said that.

I said, it didn't feel like when she slept with my brother.

Tana wept sadly.She cried for a long time.Her whispering voice was thin, and in this voice, the horse walked slowly.A large swarm of bees and dragonflies followed us.Probably, Tana's cries were too similar to their own kind.

When we walked into the town, the little creatures behind us dispersed and flew back to the flowers on the grassland.

Yes, people call the market a town now.The town has only one street.In winter, there are only some adobe houses.In summer, a lot of tents are connected at both ends.The street becomes longer.Usually, the streets are always dusty.Not so today.Several moderate rains a few days ago made the yellow mud on the street as smooth as a mirror, with some bowl-shaped horseshoe marks clearly printed on it.Everyone on the street bowed to me.Tana said: "Fool, you don't love me anymore."

She said it like she was always in love with me, not me, and that's what women are, don't expect them not to turn things upside down as needed.

I looked at the bowl-shaped horseshoe marks on the street and said, "Don't you want a son? I can't give you a son. I can't give you a fool's son. Look, what I said is not I thought, this is a man. But I am a fool after all, so I said again: "People say that working with women who are not wet down there will shorten your life. "

Tana looked at me, tears seeping out of her eyes again, wet her long black eyelashes.She whipped the saddled horse and ran home.Right now, my heart aches."

Tana wouldn't let me in, I knocked on the door for a long time before she made a sound; told me to find another place to sleep.Both the housekeeper and Sangji Dolma said that if you keep coaxing her, she will open the door.But I didn't coax her anymore, and told Sangye Dolma to arrange another room for me.We are not a poor family, and we don't have extra rooms and bedding.The room was quickly furnished.I went in and everything was new, the silverware, the carpet, the bed, the silks on the bed, the incense burner, the pictures were all shining.Seeing that I was at a loss, Sangji Drolma lit a strong Indian incense.The familiar scent overwhelmed the unfamiliar smell of the brand-new thing, but I was still a little overwhelmed.Sangji Dolma sighed and said, "Young master is still the same as before!"

Why should I be different?
Dolma said that I slept alone in an unfamiliar environment and would not know where I was when I woke up in the morning. She wanted to find a girl for me.I do not agree.She asked me what to do when I woke up in the morning and no one answered my questions.I told her to go away.She said: "This is a very critical time, young master, don't be stupid again."

I said I just don't want women.

She whispered: "God, I don't know what that woman who is as beautiful as a fairy has done to our young master."

She called the housekeeper and Mr. Huang.We made a compromise, no women, and just got two boys to sleep on the rug and be at your beck and call.In the evening, Mr. Huang stroked his beard and smiled. The butler threatened the two servants, saying that if the young master was unhappy, he would kill them, as if he was treating the two naive children.In fact, they are already adults.I don't know how old they are any more than I know how old I am now.But we all grow up.Hearing the steward's reprimand, Solang Zelang laughed, but Eryi asked: "I am the executioner, why do you want my life?"

The butler also smiled and said, "Why don't I do it myself?"

Solan Zelang said: "This is not the rule of the Maiqi family."

The butler said, "Isn't there still an old Eryi?"

The two boys always pretended to be indifferent to others in front of me, but at night, the two of them first refused to sleep, saying that they would not sleep until I was asleep.Later, their necks could no longer support their heads.In the end, it was I who woke up.Listening to the thunderous snoring of the two servants, I worried that when I woke up tomorrow morning, I would be troubled by the old problems again. I didn't know who I was, and I didn't know where I was.The two servants lay on the ground without taking off their clothes, and I lay on the bed without taking off my clothes.In the morning, when I woke up, two people stood neatly in front of me and said loudly, "Master, ask us your question!"

But I know who I am, and I know where I am.Big disappointment to both guys.

At night, I dreamed of my father Maiqi Toast.

After lunch, I went back to my room to sleep.As soon as I fell asleep, I heard the sound of stairs going up and down. I said to myself, maybe the person in my dream came.When the voices died down, the door opened with a bang.My eyes lit up, and then the room went dark again.The toast's broad body was stuffed in the door, completely blocking the light.Sure enough, the person I dreamed of came.I said, "Father, get out of the door, or my days will turn into nights."

He then smiled.From his laughter, it could be heard that phlegm that could not be coughed up was stuck in his throat.He walked towards me, and it was obvious from his gait that he had grown too much flesh, and if this continued, he would soon be unable to move freely.

He couldn't walk fast, Mrs. Toast rushed ahead of him, bowed down in front of the bed, and pressed her lips to my forehead.My woman, her bottom was dry, and so was my mother's very moist lips.Big drops of her tears fell on my face.She said, "I miss your grandma."

My eyes were a little wet too.

"Are you happy that your parents are here with you?" she asked.

I jumped up from the bed and hugged the emaciated old woman tightly in my arms.The old chieftain pulled us away and said, "Son, I'm here to spend the summer at Maiqi's summer palace.

The chieftain called the place I have been running for many years his Xiaguan.The crowd below were excited, they thought that the old chieftain was going to force me to go to another place again.Solan Zelang clamored to kill the old guy for me.Tana also said that if her husband couldn't stay here, she had to go back to her mother.

Toast was very happy to see that his arrival was like throwing a large stone into a calm lake.

He said to me: "You are my son, you are the future of Toast Maiqi." In other words, he officially recognized me as the heir of Toast Maiqi.

When the servants heard this, they became calm again.

I have nothing to do as heir.Then go to the street to drink.

The shop owner told me that his younger brother had fled to Han and joined the Han army.His younger brother wrote in, saying that he was about to set off to fight the red Han people.During their wandering life for many years, their brothers have been to many places of Han people and places of other ethnic groups.The shopkeeper claimed that their brothers are proficient in at least three languages ​​and roughly six or seven languages.I said, "It's a pity."

"Sometimes I think, if you weren't from the Maiqi family, our brothers would all work under you. My brother doesn't know if he can come back. He doesn't really want revenge. He just wants to kill people openly. That's why he went to serve as a soldier. "The shopkeeper said, "Now, it's my turn to kill Maiqi Toast."

I told him that Maiqi Toast is here.

"Okay, let me kill him. It's over." When he said this, a sad look appeared on his face. "

I asked him why he was so sad.

He said: "If I kill your father, you will kill me, isn't it all right?"

"What if I don't kill you?"

"Then I'm going to kill you, because then you will be Chieftain Maiqi."

The shop asked me to bring the toast to the shop for a drink.

"So anxious to think it through?"

"I want to take a closer look at the enemy who killed my father first."

But I knew he had it all figured out.

A few days later, the chieftain and his two wives had admired Eryi's photography skills enough, and I took him to the town to watch Suolang Zelang lead people to collect taxes, and to see people using a piece of paper in the silver bank run by Mr. Huang. receive the silver.Then, I walked into the hotel.The owner put a bowl of very dark wine in front of the toast. I know the wine in his store is not of this color.I just dropped a dead fly in that bowl of wine.In this way, it is only natural for the toast to ask the shopkeeper to change a bowl of wine.When changing the wine, I spilled the bowl on the owner's feet, and the wine burned his boots.

Father drank and left first.

The shop owner covered his feet burned by the poisoned wine and moaned, "Master, are you afraid that I will poison your father and kill you?"

"I'm afraid I'm going to kill you right away. If that's the case, you don't even have a son, who will avenge you? You should marry a wife quickly and give birth to someone who will avenge you."

He smiled and said, "Then it's not one and one hundred. I want one and one. I said that one and one is all." He asked me, "Do you know how much our brothers have suffered because of our father's mistakes? So, I won't live The son has come to eat what we have suffered."

I began to feel sorry for him.

When I left, he said behind my back: "The young master is forcing me to kill you behind your father."

Without looking back, I thought, the poor man was just talking.Back then, if his brother hadn't been helped by the purple dress with the ghost, he wouldn't have killed my brother.When the killers of the past took revenge, they wouldn't think as much as he did.If it is said that the people of the world have changed over the years, this is a strong proof.

At night, when I was about to fall asleep, my father came in and said that his son saved his life today.

He said that at dawn tomorrow, he would send someone to kill the man and set the hotel on fire, although there was nothing to burn inside.I explained some reasons to the chieftain, explaining that it is unnecessary to do so.

The chieftain thought for a while and said, "It's like you can take my chieftain seat but not take it?"

I thought about it, and there is really nothing that can stop me from getting the seat of Toast Maiqi, but I really have no intention of forcing him to step down.

Father said, "Your brother would do that."

But my brother had already been killed.I don't want to tell you that he didn't really give the seat to him at the time, I just said: "I am your other son, he is a mother, and I am another mother."

The father said: "Well, according to you, I won't kill that person, this place is your territory anyway."

I said, "This is the summer palace of your Chieftain Maggie. If you don't want me here, I'll go to another place."

My father suddenly became emotional and grabbed my arm tightly: "Son, do you know what I am doing here? I know I won't live long. Come back with me as soon as autumn comes. Once I die, you will be It's McGee toast."

I wanted to say something, but he covered my mouth and said, "Don't tell me you don't want to be toast, and don't tell me you're an idiot." Tana was in her house when my father was talking to me singing.The singing sounded far away under the night sky.My father listened for a while, and suddenly asked me: "What do you want to do after becoming a chieftain?"

I used my brain to think and think, but I couldn't figure out what to do as a toast.A blank look appeared on my face.Yes, in the past I just wanted to be a chieftain, but I never thought about what to do as a chieftain.I seriously thought about what to get from being toast.silver?woman?Vast land?Numerous servants?These I had without much effort.that power?Yes, power.I am not powerless.Besides, getting power is nothing more than getting more silver, women; more land and more servants.That said, being toast doesn't mean much to me.Oddly enough, I still want to be toast.I thought, there must be some benefits of being a toast that I don't know, otherwise, why would I want to be so?

The father said: "The advantage is what you know. The rest is that you can't sleep at night, and even your own son has to be careful."

"I'm not afraid of that." I said.

"Why aren't you afraid?"

"Because I won't have a son."

"No son? How do you know you will have no son?"

I wanted to tell her that Tana's bottom was fucked and there would be no more sons, but instead I heard myself say, "Because your son is the last chieftain." My father was taken aback.

I repeated it again: "It won't be long before the toast will be gone!"

Then I said a lot more, but I can't remember it myself.In our place, there are often gods without idols who suddenly possess people and prophesy about the future.This deity is the god of prophecy.This kind of god is made by people who are regarded as rebels in life, people like Boisi, the scribe, whose souls have no refuge after death and become gods of prophecy.I don't know if I'm talking, or if there's a god like that attached to me.

Chief Maiqi knelt down in front of me, and he said, "Which god is the prophecy?"

I said, "There are no gods, just your son's thoughts."

My father got up from the ground, and I patted his knees, as if they were covered with dust.Although the room was clean, a servant had carefully cleaned it with a whisk made of white oxtail early in the morning, and I still patted the non-existent dust on his knees for him.The idiot's move was very useful, and a smile appeared on the chieftain's face, which was annoyed at being teased.He sighed and said, "I'm not sure if you're a fool, but I'm sure what you just said was stupid."

I did see the ending clearly, and the chieftains who were vying for supremacy disappeared in a flash.The chieftain's official village fell apart, and mushroom-shaped smoke and dust rose.After the dust that rose into the sky cleared away, there was nothing left on the earth.

Chieftain Maiqi said that what his son said was stupid.In fact, he still believed my words in his heart, but he refused to admit it.

He also told me that Living Buddha Jiga made a divination for him, saying that his end would be in this winter.I said: "Ask the old living Buddha to make another divination. Anyway, the chieftains will be gone. If you die later, you will not be handed over."

My father asked me very seriously: "How long do you think?"

I said, "Ten years or so."

My father sighed and said, "If it's three to five years, maybe I can survive, but ten years is too long." I thought, maybe three to five years.But no matter how long it took, I suddenly felt the end that day, not seeing it, but feeling it.I feel that not only will there be no Maiqi toasts in the future, but all toasts will disappear.

Before the chieftain, there were many chiefs in this land. After the chieftain, they all disappeared.So what happened after the toast, I didn't see it.I saw a large cloud of dust rising from the toppling of the chieftain's official village. After the dust settled, there was nothing left.Yes, there is nothing left.I didn't see a single bird or beast track in the dust.The ground is covered with a layer of dust like a layer of fluffy silk.Looking around at everyone around me, they were all head down doing their own thing.Only my Han master and the tongueless clerk looked at the sky in a daze, thinking about things that had nothing to do with the current situation, thinking about the future.I tell them how I feel.

The clerk said that everything will disappear one day.In his eyes, there is my dazed face and the clouds floating in the sky.

(End of this chapter)