Xueba digs a hole and waits for you to jump

Chapter 337 188. Desire to turn gray in the next second
188.Desire to turn white in the next second
Tang Hongdou's words almost healed Guan Xu. Guan Xu matured early from being cautious. After experiencing being kidnapped when he was young, Guan Xu learned to hide his heart. Everything comes first, except for his family and growing up together. Guan Xu almost never smiled among his friends.

Guan Xu is so outstanding that he is dazzling. Logically speaking, the girls chasing him should be able to form a long line and circle around A for several laps. They only dared to look at them from a distance, few people dared to confess, even if there were one or two brave ones, they would definitely be frozen into ice cubes by Guan Xu.

So Guan Xu's nickname of cold-faced black-hearted ghost is not for nothing. Perhaps the reason why the young Guan Xu was attracted to that little girl at a glance was probably because of her smile.

People are like this, they always yearn for what they don't have, and think about what they lack. Guan Xu feels that he lives in the North Pole, and Tang Hongdou is the warm sun in his world that can withstand the severe cold.

The little girl with the shofar braid back then was the first stranger Guan Xu ever showed a smile, probably because of this, Guan Xu remembered that little girl for eight years.

I was really tired today. Tang Hongdou curled up in Guan Xu's arms and fell asleep after taking a shower and drying her hair. Guan Xu rarely suffers from insomnia, but today I couldn't fall asleep holding Tang Hongdou. I watched it over and over again. That little face has been seen countless times, and the more I look at it, the more sober I become, and the more I look at it, the more disturbed I become.

People in love are like this, even if the other person repeats "I love you" over and over again, they still feel uneasy and afraid of losing.

Guan Xu was really bored, so he helped Tang Hongdou cover up the quilt, and went to the balcony to smoke a cigarette by himself. When he opened the window, the cold night wind mixed with moisture wrapped Guan Xu in it.

The lighter failed several times, and finally Guan Xu had to turn his back to the vent to light the cigarette. Look, daughter-in-law, just a little distance away from you, my world is a biting cold wind.

It may not be terrible for people to live in a cold environment all the time. What is terrible is that people in the cold world get the warmth they dream of, and after experiencing that touching temperature, they continue to live alone in the cold environment.

It’s okay if you can’t get it, but losing it after getting it is definitely the most difficult thing.

Guan Xu didn't know how many cigarettes he had smoked, the ashtray on the balcony was full twice, Guan Xu is the kind of person who can control his emotions well, and he also cherishes his body, smoking so many cigarettes like this Never had it before.

The night wind was very cold, and Guan Xu felt that his whole body was frozen. He also knew that the best solution to this problem was to communicate with Tang Hongdou. Smoking for a few hours is helpful, but Guan Xu can't say it.

Guan Xu admits that he is somewhat machismo in some aspects, such as this kind of mood, he can't express it anyway, because Tang Hongdou is not wrong, Tang Hongdou loves him wholeheartedly, and he really feels it With Tang Hongdou's love, Guan Xu couldn't bear to use this uncertain future as an excuse to tie Tang Hongdou.

Many times no matter how much I have said, I will not leave you, we will be together forever, but the vows are not worth the reality, and at the moment when we can't go on, all the vows are as light as a feather.

But it is this kind of thing that is uncertain in the future, but it is really tormenting Guan Xu now. Tang Hongdou seems to have never grown up, and she is silly every day. It is true that her ability is getting stronger, but she But there was always a little girl living in his heart. Guan Xu wanted to protect this innocent little girl, but he was also afraid that one day the little girl in Tang Hongdou's heart would grow up and suddenly discover that she didn't love him. What should be done?
Is it to break the wings that she wants to break free, and to lock her firmly by his side?Or take out your bloody heart and tell her that the sky is high and the sea is wide and you can fly, as long as you are happy, it doesn't matter if I am here to mend the wound in my heart?
It's really not until that day, and Guan Xu doesn't know what choice he will make, but no matter which choice he chooses, it will be the death penalty for him, and he would rather die than live.

Guan Xu doesn't remember where he saw a sentence saying that the most regrettable love is to meet the right person at the wrong time. Guan Xu can suddenly understand this kind of helplessness, but if he doesn't make it to the end, no one knows what the time is. Wrong or right.

Guan Xu had many ambitions since he was a child, such as leaving his footprints in the most inaccessible places in the world, establishing a first-class electronic technology company in China, becoming a professional basketball player, buying a farm to grow a large field of mint, Yang's influence expanded from city A to the whole country...

In the past, Guan Xu felt that life was too short, and it would take too much time to realize these ambitions, but when Tang Hongdou entered his own world, Guan Xu suddenly longed for his hair to grow old in the next second, and leaned on the rocking chair while holding Tang Hongdou's hand , Talking about mountains, rivers, lakes, seas, grasslands and oceans, she occasionally coughed twice, and she occasionally called herself tremblingly "wife".

Guan Xu took a deep puff of his cigarette, and the originally blue-gray cigarette butt flashed red flames and quickly turned to ashes. Guan Xu really coughed twice, and couldn't help laughing at himself. He didn't expect that he would assume the future and be sentimental like this.

But I think the future is really the same as my assumption, with you by my side, I will live forever with you.

After smoking another cigarette, Guan Xu's mood did not improve. The nicotine did not take away the depression in his chest, but made his throat hurt badly. Guan Xu drank two sips of water, opened the bedroom door, and saw Tang Hongdou " Curled up on the bed "obediently", the quilt that was originally tightly covered was kicked like this by her for some reason.

Guan Xu climbed into bed, and sure enough, the originally hot blanket had turned cold. Unlike Tang Hongdou, Guan Xu's body warmed up within a few minutes after coming in from the balcony, but even if Tang Hongdou slept in a room with floor heating, as long as the blanket penetrated I can't sleep without warming my body.

Probably feeling the heat source, Tang Hongdou crawled into Guan Xu's arms, hugged Guan Xu's waist and slammed his mouth, sleeping soundly.

Guan Xu pinned Tang Hongdou's hair that covered Tang Hongdou's small face behind her ear, caressing her small face, with eyes full of treasure——

"Daughter-in-law, why can I love you so much... You must never fall in love with someone else... You must not..."

Guan Xu's voice was deep and hoarse in the silent night. After kissing Tang Hongdou's little face, Guan Xu finally fell asleep in a daze.

It's a pity that he didn't sleep well. He rarely dreamed, but he was full of fragmentary dreams, all related to Tang Hongdou.

Guan Xu woke up very late today, his whole mind was in chaos, but he was shocked when he found that the place around him was cold!
"young married woman!"

Almost without thinking, Guan Xu subconsciously rushed out of the bedroom and ran downstairs, wanting to check if Tang Hongdou's shoes were in the shoe cabinet.

"Guan Xu?"

Just after running downstairs, Guan Xu heaved a sigh of relief when he heard the voice from the kitchen. He went to the kitchen and saw Tang Hongdou wearing an apron, holding a spatula, frying bacon.

Guan Xu's heart warmed, he walked over to hug Tang Hongdou, buried his head on Tang Hongdou's shoulder, and he followed Tang Hongdou around in the kitchen as he walked up and down.

At first Tang Hongdou thought it was sweet, but after hugging Guan Xu for 10 minutes like this, he still couldn't hug her enough. With such a heavy lump leaning on him, it was very inconvenient to move the spatula or hold the bowl, and the candied poached eggs were not careful. It was punctured.

"Guan Xu, go and sit next to me, it's inconvenient for you to hug me like this."

But Guan Xu acted as if he didn't hear it, he still hugged Tang Hongdou and did not let go, but tightened his arms, "Daughter-in-law, why didn't you wake me up?"

"Seeing that you are sleeping soundly, if you have nothing to do, you can sleep for a while. Are you free to take me back to school after breakfast? There is a temporary meeting about the cultural month promotion. Just now Ruirui sent me a WeChat message saying of."

"Well, I'm free, I'll go with you, and then come back together."

There is no evening self-study today, and it feels more and more cold recently, Tang Hongdou did not refuse, nodded and turned around holding two plates, "Let's go, have breakfast."

Tang Hongdou just stepped on her legs when she saw that Guan Xu was wearing only one slipper, and the other foot was directly stepping on the cold floor tiles.

"Do you still have a shoe?"

Tang Hongdou frowned and asked Guan Xu, in order to facilitate cleaning, the kitchen floor was not paved, but floor tiles were laid. Although the floor heating was turned on in the house, it was still very cold to step on. Did Guan Xu not feel it after walking on it for so long?
Guan Xu looked down at his feet, and then remembered that he seemed to be too anxious to run downstairs just now, he must have fallen on the stairs, and when he woke up and found that she was not beside him, Guan Xu admitted that his mind was blank at that moment.

"You eat first, I'll wash my face and come right away."

Guan Xu took big strides, and he didn't know what he was in a hurry for. Tang Hongdou looked at Guan Xu's back and always felt something weird. Since yesterday afternoon, Guan Xu's whole body was not quite right, very abnormal, but it's a pity that Guan Xu And he didn't want to tell him anything, Tang Hongdou didn't know where to start, so he could only wait for Guan Xu to tell him when he wanted to.

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The student organizations in universities are like this. If you want to put something on your resume, you can get away with it by just fooling around. But if you want to train your ability, you have to play games, events, parties, sponsorships , Writing plans... You can still learn a lot by sitting down and doing these things.

After returning to school, Tang Hongdou went directly to the Youth League Committee's office, Guan Xu went back to the dormitory, 412 was a bit deserted, those who took the postgraduate entrance examination were busy going to the library, and those who were employed were busy looking for a job, only Qin Haoran, who had confirmed his postgraduate entrance examination, sat in the living room Looking at the book, the cover seems to be "The Kite Runner". Guan Xu just finished it last month.

"Why are you free to come back?"

Qin Haoran was obviously a little surprised to see Guan Xu, because in the whole dormitory, Guan Xu was definitely the busiest.

"Send Hongdou over for a meeting, your Youth League committee has so many things to do..."

It was still the same as before, even though it was winter there was still frozen beer in the refrigerator, Guan Xu took two cans, opened one himself, and handed Qin Haoran a can.

Qin Haoran was taken aback for a moment, but still took it.

Guan Xu took a sip of beer, "I heard that the LED board on the table fell off and almost hit the red beans?"

Qin Haoran's Adam's apple paused for a second before swallowing half a mouthful of cold beer, "Well, luckily I happened to be passing by, so I blocked her..."

"Thank you."

"It should be. I promised my mother and Hongdou's mother would take good care of her. If I hadn't been in A Datang Uncle, I wouldn't have worried that Hongdou would come to study."

"Hao Ran, can I ask you a question?"

"Just ask."

"About red beans... have you ever regretted it?"

Qin Haoran tightened his grip on the beer can, he didn't expect Guan Xu to ask himself such a question, but Qin Haoran didn't intend to hide it, and took a sip of wine, "It's not that I regretted it, but I'm regretting it, and I'm regretting it more and more."

"Qin Haoran, you're really fucking nothing!"

Guan Xu's scolding was not for himself, but for Tang Hongdou. Tang Hongdou had liked him for eight years, but he pretended to ignore him, but now he regretted it again. Guan Xu felt distressed for helping Tang Hongdou.

"Well, I think so too, so it's a good thing Hongdou isn't with me..."

Qin Haoran drank the beer in his hand first, stood up and took another can, "Another bottle?"

Guan Xu raised his head and drank the remaining beer, and reached out to take it, but Qin Haoran didn't let go, "Guan Xu...I won't snatch Tang Hongdou from you, she is with you...very happy." Qin Haoran said a little Don't say it, even though you don't want to admit it, it's a fact, "But you can't order me not to protect her..."

Guan Xu snatched the beer from Qin Haoran's hand vigorously, "Don't need to protect her, I will protect her well."

"But you didn't, did you?"

Thinking of the photo of Qin Haoran helping Tang Hongdou protect him, Guan Xu's pupils shrank violently, his fists couldn't help tightening, he pursed his lips, and said word by word, "Tang Hongdou is my woman, she can only be mine. .”

Qin Haoran smiled with his lips curled up. It was the kind of smile that Guan Xu thought was very sunny and warm. In fact, Qin Haoran knew this. Every time Tang Hongdou mentioned Guan Xu to him, the light in her eyes could not deceive others. Tang Hongdou also regarded herself as Guan Xu's woman, and no one could get in between them. The reason why she was so stubborn was that she hadn't found a reason to let go.

Guan Xu took a sip of beer, and the cold liquid flowed down his throat and passed through his esophagus, irritating his stomach and throbbing with pain. Guan Xu was about to say something when his phone rang——

"Brother Xu! There is a problem with our contract with BJ Zilai!"

(End of this chapter)