Because of the pain, it is called marriage

Chapter 23: Let's Divorce (3)
Yang Xuewu couldn't say a word, his whole body was trembling.Finally, he stomped hard on the cigarette butts on the ground, and waved his hands as if he had made up his mind: "Forget it, I agree to the divorce! I, Yang Xuewu, am not begging you, I am here to save this marriage for my daughter and this family." It's just marriage, don't rub your nose on your face!"

Xuexin raised her lips and smiled lightly: "On Saturday, let's go to the Civil Affairs Bureau to complete the formalities!" After speaking, she took out a pen from her bag and handed it to Yang Xuewu, who gritted his teeth , leaned on the table and signed the divorce agreement.Xuexin put away the divorce agreement, stood up, curled her lips and smiled mockingly: "I ordered tea today, I'll pay for it! Goodbye!" After walking a few steps, she paused after thinking about it, and turned around and said, "At home I've already packed all your clothes for you, come and pick them up anytime you want!" Xue Xin stubbornly walked out of the teahouse with her head held high, and behind her came the sound of glass breaking and Yang Xuewu's roar of injury.

The afternoon sun was shining brightly, Xuexin wiped off the tears and walked home straight...

On the day of the divorce, Yang Xuewu brought He Yun with a big belly in his car.Yang Xuewu is a very sensitive person, but Xuexin has sealed his self-esteem to nothing. He was pushed into a desperate situation by her, and he was eager to find a chance to regain some self-esteem, so today he brought He Yun to up.He wanted to show her, Qi Xuexin, that Yang Xuewu had a woman who loved him, and this woman was younger than her, Qi Xuexin!Undoubtedly, the moment Xuexin saw He Yun, her heart was stabbed severely. She stood there with a pale face and stared blankly for a long time, unable to move, her eyes full of disbelief. Said: "You, very good!" After finishing speaking, he walked towards the hall of the Civil Affairs Bureau without looking back.He Yun sneaked a glance at Yang Xuewu, and saw that his face was livid, so she took his arm gently and walked towards the office window without saying a word.Yang Xuewu watched Xuexin sign the name with a blank face, and even subconsciously reached out his hand when he hesitated to sign, eager to take away the pens that helped her achieve her wish, so as to quickly end their marriage, Yang Xuewu was stabbed again. After signing his name vigorously, he raised his hand in a beautiful arc and threw the pen into the trash can beside him.

Xuexin turned a blind eye, everything was inevitable, the kite string was broken, no matter how she tried to catch it, it was all in vain, did she need to be sad?Having said that, when they finished the divorce procedures and stood in the Civil Affairs Bureau watching Yang Xuewu, who was indifferent like a stranger, took He Yun's hand and got into the car and drove away, her eyes were still full of tears. What a mockery, this is the man she insisted on choosing despite her parents.

When I got home, there was a peeled apple on the table, and a note next to it, with my daughter's beautiful handwriting on it: Mom, eat an apple, congratulations on regaining your freedom and being single!I went to cram school, and I will bring you your favorite chestnut when I go home tonight.The signature is: I love your daughter the most.Xuexin looked at the note and smiled with relief. Fortunately, she still has a daughter.Thinking of her daughter, Xue Xin felt much better. At least her hard work these years was not completely in vain, and she could have a good daughter!Having said that, however, a sense of loss still fell on her.Yes, before today, a week ago, a month ago, two months ago, she was looking forward to the divorce, but after all, people are relatively vile animals, and when it really came, she felt at a loss as to what to do.

Xuexin held back her tears and ate the apples her daughter had peeled, then rubbed her temples. Feeling exhausted, she put the divorce certificate on the bedside and fell asleep.She doesn't want to think about many things anymore, and she doesn't have the ability to think about them.When I opened my eyes again, it was already dark and the room was dark.She turned on the bedside lamp and saw the family portrait on the wall: she and Yang Xuewu hugged their daughter, and the smiles of the three were condensed on the bedside.Now Xuexin can't remember how far away that smile is from her. She doesn't know how she and Yang Xuewu could be so idiots and laugh so wildly!Maybe it's because the marriage certificate is still there!Human nature may have remained unchanged for thousands of years, "It must be, correct its name!" With a name, it is natural for everyone to keep their jobs and maintain this name.Yuxiu made her suffer slowly, she originally thought that she could endure it until her temples were graying, until she was dying, and in the end she even forgot the pain!However, can a marriage really rely on this red book alone to sit back and relax?Can you stay until the flowers are blooming just by boiling it?She didn't know when she felt tired.Therefore, she also wanted to be liberated from this war without gunpowder—even if she was a deserter!After all, she, Qi Xuexin, was never a good soldier, and she didn't have to survive to the level of a general!As a deserter with no ambitions, she was free, although this freedom made her feel infinitely lonely and lost.

Just as Xuexin was struggling in a grotesque dream, the doorbell rang suddenly, and Xuexin jumped up in shock. Looking at the clock, it was already past 7 o'clock in the evening, and it was already dark outside.The doorbell rang stubbornly, which was particularly harsh in the empty home.Who is the one?Yang Jing has the key... Xuexin hurriedly got up and put on her clothes, opened the door and saw Yuxiu outside the door, looking devastated.Xue Xin quickly asked her to come in, Yuxiu changed her shoes, walked to the sofa in the living room and sat down without saying a word.Yuxiu had never looked for her at this time, Xuexin knew that something must have happened to her, so she couldn't ask directly, so she made a cup of hot tea and stuffed it into Yuxiu's hand, and Yuxiu took a few sips of the hot tea The body just warmed up, and the hand holding the teacup was still trembling slightly.When she raised her head, Xuexin saw her haggard face, swollen eyelids, and bloodshot eyes, and she couldn't help comforting her with worry, "What's wrong with you? How did you make yourself look like this?" in argument?"

Yuxiu burst into tears with a "wow": "That old bastard, he...he ran away with his old lover...he didn't want anything, so he just ran away. He left me a note saying Why is the child getting older, now that his grandson is in kindergarten, and his responsibilities have been fulfilled, he is going to live his own life..."

Xuexin was shocked: "Do you know where you went?"

Yuxiu blew her nose: "How would I know! At first I thought he was angry with me, but I didn't see anyone else for a few days, so I couldn't sit still and went to his old lover's place to ask, that's when I found out about him The old lover sold the house, and the two of them just ran out...he...he took away his ID card and salary card and so on..."

Xuexin was dumbfounded, she didn't know how to comfort Yuxiu, she was never good at comforting others, so she could only look at Yuxiu in a daze, crying about Lao Li's crimes with snot and tears, and the transparent liquid on her face was drop by drop It flows down, much like the rainwater that drips down between the leaves after a winter rain. This rainwater is sad and sad, and every drop seems to describe Yuxiu's most of her life. A state of being trapped.Until Yuxiu slapped her thigh vigorously and said: "Let that old man go away, he has given me most of his life, and now he is in his twilight years, I think what's the vixen's use for such an old man! He is leaving the house clean, and he will never go back to his hometown when he dies..." Xuexin shook her head as if awakened from a dream, Yuxiu looked at Xuexin's distraught look, wiped her tears and asked : "Xuexin, what's wrong with you? You don't believe that my old Li can do such a thing like abandoning his wife and son?"

Xue Xin forced a smile and said: "No! To be honest, I don't have much mood to comfort you now. I got divorced today, and the procedures have been completed."

Yuxiu looked at her suspiciously: "Are you really leaving? Sigh, why don't you listen to me? It's a waste of money for that little vixen." I am afraid that Yang Xuewu will be the second old Li in the future!Rather than being abandoned at your age, it's better to get out as soon as possible and get clean!

Yuxiu sat there again and complained about Lao Li's crimes for a while, and didn't get up until Yang Jing came back from the cram school to say goodbye: "Xuexin, I'm sorry to bother you so late. Apart from you, the pain in my heart is more serious. I really can't tell anyone else..."

Xue Xin smiled guiltily: "I didn't help much, I'm not good at comforting people."

"Oh, it's such a blessing to have a friend like you to listen to my complaints! I won't bother you anymore, I'll be leaving first." Yuxiu said goodbye.Seeing this, Yang Jing smiled sweetly and said, "Aunt Yuxiu, my mother doesn't have many friends, so come and chat with my mother when you have time."

Yuxiu looked at Yang Jing lovingly, and said: "This child is so cute! Yang Xuewu doesn't even want a child?" He winked at her to imply that she should not mention this matter in front of Yang Jing.Yang Jing pursed her lips and smiled: "Mom, it's nothing! My mother has returned to her happy single life. I'm too happy! From now on, I will be my mother's image designer. I must let my beautiful mother find a good boyfriend. Xuexin was caught off guard by her daughter's answer, she blushed for a moment, and at the same time she finally let go of the big rock hanging in her heart, and she smiled reproachfully: "This child! You're talking nonsense! Yuxiu, I Take you to a taxi."

After seeing Yuxiu off and returning home, her daughter had already washed and was leaning against the bedside to read a book.Xue Xin walked over to sit next to her daughter gently, reached out and stroked her daughter's hair: "Xiao Jing, you have grown up, and your mother is also old."

Yang Jing's eyes turned red: "Mom, you're not old at all!"

"Good girl, don't be sad. It's your mother who is sorry for you." Xuexin sighed.It was she who insisted on a divorce, making her daughter a child of a single-parent family.

Yang Jing said bitterly: "No, Dad is sorry for us!" Xuexin was taken aback, she saw a trace of hatred in her daughter's eyes, the divorce was between her and Yang Xuewu, she didn't want her daughter to be like herself To hate Yang Xuewu, that is the father who gave birth to her and raised her, besides, Yang Xuewu really loves Yang Jing very much.Thinking of this, Xue Xin said seriously: "Xiao Jing, this is a matter between me and your father! Your father and I have different personalities and cannot continue to live, and I proposed the divorce first. Don't blame you Dad! Your father, who gave birth to you and raised you, has always loved you so much, he is worthy of you! From now on, he will still be your father. "

Yang Jing was noncommittal.After a long time, seeing her mother's worried appearance, Yang Jing pursed her lips and smiled: "Mom, don't worry! I am more open-minded than you think. Marriage is a matter between the two of you. You can do whatever you think is good. I can understand! Don't worry!" After finishing speaking, she flung herself into Xue Xin's arms coquettishly and rubbed her for a long time, until Xue Xin urged her again and again before returning to bed and turning off the light to sleep.

Back in the bedroom, lying alone on the big bed, Xuexin's heart was ups and downs. She recalled the details of her relationship with Yang Xuewu from love to marriage. Those sacrifices are so ridiculous to recall now, it is really absurd.Today's astonishing and puzzling ending was beyond her imagination. How did she and Yang Xuewu get to where they are today?After thinking for a long time, I didn't even have a clue.However, from Yuxiu, she realized that the divorce between herself and Yang Xuewu was inevitable, unless she wanted to become the second Yuxiu.Yuxiu fought a lifelong marriage defense battle, and Lao Li tormented each other bitterly, and Lao Li did not divorce in the past not because he was so reluctant to give up on Yuxiu and how much affection he had left, but because he entered the wrong marriage. The city, but unable to break out of the city, because the price of breaking the city is too high, so he had to fight hard with Yuxiu for the rest of his life.But now, Lao Li feels that his youth and talent have been exhausted, and his only child has grown up. There is nothing worth guarding in this empty city, so he simply abandons it!It was the first time for Xue Xin to think so seriously, she could endure Yang Xuewu for so long, could it be that she had already lost her feelings for him?For those who don't love, she didn't have so many requirements and expectations in the first place, so she can naturally be tolerant until now, but now looking back, does this tolerance mean that she doesn't care?
Alas, for that relationship that year and that month, they also had vows of eternal love, and vowed to stick to it.Reluctantly, time flies, and the once persevering, I do not know when, became the guards, trapped in the cage, regardless of the warden's obstruction, finally rushed out of the cage that was trying to stifle freedom.

Body, mind, should be free!Xue Xin closed her eyes in the dark, she slept soundly that night.

(End of this chapter)