Because of the pain, it is called marriage

Chapter 3 Needle Point Against Wheat Grass (3)
Not long after the meal, Yang Xuewu got up to say goodbye. Xuexin's mother quickly took out the gifts brought by Yang Xuewu from the corner and stuffed them back into his hands. Come on, he raised his head and said lightly: "Auntie, think about it too much. It's normal for friends to bring some small gifts to dinner. I'm a junior, so you don't have to be polite! Chinese people pay attention to reciprocity!" Xuexin's mother understood Yes, what he meant was that he ate a meal at their house, and it was even if he gave some gifts.There was also a hint of alienation in the words, reassuring them that he had no intentions of their daughter.Xuexin's mother was a little annoyed, she said in a nasty way: "Your rural conditions are not very good, what are you doing with this money..."

"No matter how poor the countryside is, the proper etiquette must be taught!" Yang Xuewu said in a neither humble nor overbearing way, and then he left.He didn't let Qi Xuexin send him off, and left on his own, but his despairing eyes made Qi Xuexin feel that he would never stay by her side again.Qi Xuexin watched the meal coldly from beginning to end, but she saw everything in her eyes, she knew that her mother disliked Yang Xuewu's family background.

Sure enough, after Yang Xuewu left, her mother said to her sternly: "This person is not suitable for you, you should break the relationship with me immediately! Look at the sweater and socks he is wearing, what are they all about?"

Xuexin's father shook his head dissatisfied: "You, you put everything on your face! Anyway, the visitor is a guest, so you can't disregard your daughter's face!"

Xuexin's mother said sharply: "Face-saving? Is it important to have a daughter's lifelong happiness? Are you going to push your daughter into the fire pit?"

Xuexin's father muttered, "I agreed without saying anything! But what should be paid attention to on the scene is still to be paid attention to. This person is not suitable for Xuexin."

Qi Xuexin suddenly felt as if a thorn had passed through her heart. She looked at her parents coldly and said, "Have you guys finished talking? After you finish talking, go to sleep."

Xuexin's mother was stunned: "You mean, you still want to be with him?"

Qi Xuexin told them clearly word by word: "It's not with someone else, we are going to get married!"

Xuexin's mother only felt a bang in her ear, and was speechless for a long time.Qi Xuexin twisted her body, ran into her room and closed the door forcefully, ignoring her mother's wailing and father's scolding.That night, Qi Xuexin woke up from the nightmare, stretched out her hand and groped in the darkness, trying to find the pair of Yang Xuewu's eyes that were open in the darkness in despair in the dream.She lowered her hands gently.The look in Yang Xuewu's eyes before he left was lingering in her mind, and the despair in his eyes always cut her heart like a knife.She was afraid of them, and Yang Xuewu didn't hide them today because he had already given up on her?

Like Qi Xuexin, Yang Xuewu was full of pain in his heart. He remembered that he had just arrived in a bustling big city, standing in the crowds, looking up at the tall buildings and buildings, and his heart was full of confusion and loss.Since then, he has realized his insignificance, wondering if he can find his place in this city.In school, he was often ridiculed by his classmates in the city as a countryman, and those experiences created his low self-esteem and aloof character.In the dead of night, when the other classmates had already fallen asleep, he was the only one reading under the covers with a flashlight.Other students always have hearty meals in their lunch boxes, but because he is poor, there are always steamed buns and pickles in his lunch box.These are nothing, he did not give up on himself because of this, but studied harder.Now, he is finally able to gain a foothold in this city and has a job, but in the eyes of others, he is still so out of place.

The meal at Qi Xuexin's house made him feel that he was trampled to the bottom by Xuexin's mother, stuck in the mud, and filthy.To be honest, he really wanted to give up this love, and reality did not allow him to have this love.Thinking about myself, I have to send more than half of that meager salary home every month, and there are two younger siblings waiting to use the money. After his father died, he had to shoulder the burden of the family as a matter of course.His younger siblings are ten years younger than him, how many years will he have to carry it!Xuexin's mother was right, such a beautiful girl deserves better, he can't drag her down.But although love comes and goes without a trace, when she really entangles you and never relaxes for a moment, you can no longer escape from her sacred palm.Yang Xuewu fell into eternal lovesickness.

In the tempering of this lovesickness, he should have been invincible, but he didn't understand why every night, there would always be some images of clues about her eroding his strength.He is so fragile, how much he wishes he could feel nothing and no longer miss him.

Suddenly one day, Qi Xuexin, whom I hadn’t seen for a long time, was wearing a yellow windbreaker and standing against the wall in front of his [-]-square-meter house. Yang Xuewu, who had just got off work, started to get wet the moment he saw her. Didn't see her anymore.The long night, the torment of sleeplessness, he has already regarded it as a kind of unknown sweetness, a kind of happiness that can only be enjoyed alone.But at this moment, she was really standing in front of him, within reach.

Qi Xuexin smiled at him with her white teeth showing, her smile was so clean and pure, it was as if it was out of this world.She raised the household registration booklet in Yang's hand and asked him, "Are you free? Let's go to the Civil Affairs Bureau!"

He foolishly asked, "What are you going to the Civil Affairs Bureau for?"

She scolded, "Get a marriage certificate!"

After receiving the marriage certificate, on the way back, Yang Xuewu took her by the hand and swaggered past on the street.At this moment, the smile on his face was extremely proud.

Qi Xuexin completely broke with her family, to be precise, her parents completely broke with her.She just came to Yang Xuewu's single dormitory empty-handed, looking at the window covered with newspapers, Qi Xuexin told herself secretly: This is her home, and in the future she will be with this man who loves herself and herself deeply Spend a lifetime together.

No blessing from anyone, no wedding, no flowers and rings.She heard Yang Xuewu call her mother-in-law to ask: "Mom, what about the money I give you every month? Didn't you say to save it for my wedding? Now that Xuexin has come, she is with my family for me. You didn't even bring out a change of clothes after falling out, so you can help us, even if you add a quilt to our bed..." Qi Xuexin didn't know what the mother-in-law said on the phone, anyway, the mother-in-law was married after they got married. It took two months to bring a half-new quilt, which was extremely thin.I remember when my mother-in-law came here for the first time, she held her hand, looked at her from left to right, squinted her eyes, and praised her: "This girl is good-looking, with thick eyebrows and big eyes, and looks like a prosperous husband!"

Qi Xuexin smiled and said, "Auntie, I'll make you a cup of tea."

The mother-in-law put her face away at that time: "Are you still called Auntie?"

Xuexin said awkwardly: "I...haven't gotten used to it yet."

Yang Xuewu protected her and said, "Mom, don't worry about it. You can call Xuexin whatever you like. Just wait until she gets used to it."

The mother-in-law laughed twice: "I heard from my martial arts school that you are a teacher? This teacher is different, the voice is so sweet! Oh, by the way, girl, since you are married to our family, It's not that you don't know the conditions of my family, you can't imitate your parents' snobbish eyes..."

"Mom, what are you talking about!" Yang Xuewu interrupted her impatiently.

The mother-in-law glared and said, "Don't interrupt, kid! My daughter, my family's martial arts learning is a dragon among people, and you know that. Otherwise, you wouldn't do anything. Don't hesitate to fall out with your parents and marry my family." Learning martial arts. Although my family's martial arts education is poor, he is still a doctor and has a bright future! He is an authentic undergraduate student. You... I heard that you studied a teacher training college? Oh, my family's martial arts education did not wrong you Ah, speaking of it, you still made money! Also, my old man died when he was studying martial arts and went to college. There are two younger siblings who are studying under the martial arts. Before you got married, you relied on Xuewu’s salary is used to support his studies. Now that you are married, Xuewu’s salary will have to be used for his younger siblings to study. If you can subsidize some of your salary to his younger siblings, you can just subsidize some of your salary. We are all family members..."

Yang Xuewu was really annoyed, he raised his voice and blushed and said, "Mom, what are you talking about! If you keep talking nonsense, go back and don't come here again!"

When the mother-in-law heard this, she was stunned and remained silent for a while.

Xuexin hurriedly persuaded: "A...Mom, don't worry, you will still be given as much as you were given before learning martial arts, and you won't lose a point just because you marry me."

The mother-in-law didn't feel happy at all when she heard this, and murmured: "Then you, girl, can't post a little after marrying into our family?"

……

That night, Yang Xuewu was on the night shift. After her mother-in-law left, Qi Xuexin sat alone under the lamp in a daze. She suddenly remembered her father yelling at her furiously: "Think about it, that man is so good that even your parents can't accept it." Is he? He's so nice that you can give up your parents who gave birth to you and raised you?" Qi Xuexin suddenly felt empty in her heart.

Suddenly, the door opened, and Yang Xuewu stood at the door with the key in his hand, looked at her surprised and smiled, and said: "I forced to change shifts with my colleagues, and come back to accompany you at night. I'm afraid you won't be able to sleep alone. "

Qi Xuexin looked at Yang Xuewu quietly, his sharp-edged face was somewhat rigid, and his dark eyes were like deep swirls, drawing her gaze into it. The white shirt, black suit, no matter how you looked at it, it was unrecognizable. Not tired.In an instant, her empty heart was filled again, and she secretly told herself: This is the man I chose!I will never regret it!
Qi Xuexin lay in Yang Xuewu's arms, and suddenly said: "Xuewu, from now on your salary will be given to your mother. Doesn't your unit have some bonuses? Adding my salary, we can save enough. Your mother is not easy. , we can help as much as we can.”

In the darkness, Yang Xuewu remained silent for a long time, when Qi Xuexin thought he was asleep, he suddenly got up and knelt beside her: "Xuexin, how can I marry a wife like this! I, Yang Xuewu Never let you down! I want to treat you well for the rest of my life!" His gentle and firm voice melted the slightest melancholy in her heart, and she felt that she would never regret her choice.

Feelings are always like this, even if they know that they will be smashed to pieces, they are still desperate.

Those times were blissful, anyone who has experienced first love knows that sour feeling, short but beautiful, like pure white snow, like roses in our hands... This is exactly the artistic conception of first love.It is also like a poem or a painting, when it is completed, the soul is filled with tranquility and peace.What's more, Qi Xuexin was both his first love and his last love, at least that's what Yang Xuewu thought at the time.Apart from his wife, he would never look at another woman again!Therefore, whenever he thought of that experience, Yang Xuewu said in his heart: the emotion is so good, it is a kind of enjoyment like a breeze blowing on the face after feeling it; wealth.Even after many years, Yang Xuewu recalled that there would never be another woman who could give him that feeling.

But for Qi Xuexin, marriage gave her too much, Yang Xuewu's mother was terribly difficult, if Yang Xuewu hadn't protected her, she doubted that she would have eaten her up.After a year of marriage, she was not pregnant, and faced with her mother-in-law's cynicism, she was anxious.Yang Xuewu took her for an examination, and it turned out that a fibroid had grown in her uterus, which was as big as a child's head.The hospital advised her to remove her uterus.Qi Xuexin felt that the sky was falling, and what the doctor said hit her too hard.When she thought that she would never be able to bear a child for Yang Xuewu after removing her uterus, her heart twisted.On the contrary, Yang Xuewu, like a person who is fine, comforted her and said: "Xuexin, it's nothing! As long as you are well, we will adopt one in the future if we don't have a child, and it will reduce the burden on the country." The mother-in-law knew the news. When she was in bed, she yelled at the doctor in front of her without any concealment: "Ah, what a big deal! Doctor, you cut off my wife's little house, isn't that making my son divorced!"

The doctor said: "Considering that the fibroids are too large, hysterectomy is the safest way. I have already made it clear to your son and daughter-in-law about the risks of conservative treatment. You can't take your daughter-in-law for a life that doesn't exist yet. Besides, if you really want a child, you can adopt one in the future."

The mother-in-law yelled excitedly: "How can it be done? Helping others raise children is so smart."

The doctor gave her a blank look and didn't bother to talk to the old lady.

Xuexin looked at her husband who was haggard for her but tried his best to hide his smile and took good care of her, and then looked at her mother-in-law who was thin but aggressive. Xuexin resolutely said to the doctor: "I want conservative treatment, even if I lose my life. , that’s also my fault.”

Yang Xuewu looked at her in shock and distress, and said: "I never agree! I never agree to watch you risk your own life. Xuexin, we live our own lives, don't care about other people's opinions. I If Yang Xuewu dislikes you, let me go out and be crushed to death by a car."

When the mother-in-law heard this, she stepped on the stool angrily, clapped her hands on her thighs, and screamed: "The family is unlucky! I knew that beautiful women are not good enough, and I am also troubled." Son……"

"Mom, not only can you not help us a little bit, but you are still saying some unspeakable things here. Hurry up and go back to me, my family will never need you in the future, you go, you go!" Yang Xuewu roared angrily. Mother pushed and shoved.

This time it was terrible, I saw my mother-in-law fell back straight at that time, rolling and crying: "Look, what kind of son do I raise! I married a wife and forgot my mother! When he was three years old I was sick and dying, and I was not willing to throw him away, and even begged behind his back to raise him..."

Xuexin felt as uncomfortable as a hedgehog, which made her unable to breathe.

(End of this chapter)