Warm Secret Love: Chasing Love for Ninety Days

Chapter 160 Reflection and Confession (3)

Why have I never thought about it for my parents?
They have worked so hard to support me for so many years not to watch me die.

I am really too selfish!

How can a selfish person like me have the right to be loved and forgiven by others?

All of this is what I asked for, it's all my own sins, and it's all my own fault.

Therefore, all the consequences can only be borne by myself.

All the pain I'm going through now, I've inflicted on others.

I deserve it, I deserve it!
Therefore, at the end of my life, I can no longer be so selfish and willful. I must try my best to atone for my past selfishness and willfulness, I must try my best to appease my parents' hurt hearts, and I must be a well-behaved and sensible child.

Never again, never again, never again, anyone around me will be hurt and painful because of my selfishness, my willfulness, and my departure.

"Mom, I will eat well in the future, and I will take good care of my body. I won't worry you and dad anymore. I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." Lifting up my face that was already full of tears, I looked at my mother who was also full of tears. Swear it.

"En. Good, good..." Xu felt my sincerity. Although my mother was still crying, there was a faint smile on her face, and she looked at the faint smile on her cheeks that hadn't smiled for a long time. It turns out that as long as I want, I can still bring laughter to others.

Thinking of this, I can't help but feel that my whole heart is full of excitement.

Under this excitement, I crawled out of my mother's arms, climbed to the front of the dishes that my mother had just brought, picked up the chopsticks, and put the vegetables in my mouth.

"Mom, I will eat hard and sleep well, and I will definitely take good care of my body..." While weeping, chewing, and talking, it can be said that my current situation must be so bad that it cannot be worse, but watching Seeing the joy and smile on the mother's face opposite, I think everything is worth it.

only……

"Ouch..." Just after taking a bite of food, my stomach began to toss up and down. I couldn't bear the wave after wave of devastating colic in my stomach. I covered my stomach with my hands and knelt down. He vomited out of breath on the ground.

Mom, it's not that I don't want to eat anymore, it's my body, my stomach, that has started to refuse to eat...

Mom, how much I want you to smile more, how I wish I could try your handicrafts more, and taste the meals you specially cooked for me...

But, I really have no chance, really no...

Mom, if I leave, I hope you and Dad won't be sad, because I asked for it all, and it's all my own fault.

I am now just paying the consequences for all the mistakes I have made.

So I have no regrets and no complaints.

In fact, having figured it all out, I am now feeling happier and more relaxed than ever.

It's just, Hana, my favorite, favorite, favorite, the Hana I love all my life, I still can't get your love and forgiveness after all.

But it doesn't matter, as long as you have loved me, as long as you have me in your life, I am already very satisfied, very satisfied...

Now I am not greedy at all, I don’t blame others at all, I don’t regret at all, I don’t regret having you in my life at all, I don’t regret at all, on the eleventh day seven years ago, I received you I don’t regret it at all, because of a text message, I fell in love with you without hesitation...

But, now, I have to say goodbye to you, to you, to all of you who I love the most...

Goodbye, my dearest...

My eyes slowly closed, the world in front of me gradually blurred and darkened, until finally, everything disappeared before my eyes, including the face of my favorite Hana...

(End of this chapter)