The most affectionate love: this life will never change

Chapter 12 Love can become crazy (1)
There are so many vigorous obsessions in life, cherishing the present is nothing more than staying together in a plain way.

But to put it bluntly, feelings are a thing, and if you are not crazy, you will not survive.

When Ruan Wei went back, she stopped by the store to pack up her things, and it happened to be afternoon when she got home.

Usually Yan Rui must be at school at this time, and she was also in a state of confusion, knowing that what happened last night was too embarrassing to explain, but fortunately he was not there.

As a result, when she opened the door, she found that Yan Rui was watching the computer in the living room, as if she had been waiting for her here.

Ruan Wei was stunned, said hello, and went to pour water, until she walked back to the living room, Yan Rui didn't ask her.

In this way, she was a little uncomfortable, so she said to him first: "My dog ​​is sick, and he wanted to take me back to have a look, but it was late..."

Yan Rui gave a "hmm" and looked up at her: "Ruan Wei, you don't need to explain to me, who am I? Who are you going to spend the night with? At best, I can just make a phone call and ask if you have your keys. It’s just not coming back.”

In fact, he didn't have any special tone when he said this, but Ruan Wei knew immediately that Yan Rui was unhappy.

The sad thing is that she has been heartless in accepting Yan Rui's favors, as if she didn't know his intentions, and she was afraid of hurting him in the end.

Ruan Wei bowed her head and said nothing, she put down her water glass and wanted to leave, Yan Rui sighed and said, "Come on, let me see."

She hesitated for a while and walked over. Yan Rui stretched out his hand to hold her, and the more he looked at her, the more he felt that something was wrong, and asked her: "The eyes are swollen... What's wrong with your face, who hit you?"

He finally couldn't hold back his breath, and seeing that she was silent, he asked again: "Ye Jingxuan?"

Ruan Wei shook her head, fearing that he might misunderstand, she quickly rubbed her head and said, "No."

"Who?"

She had no other excuses, thinking that after crying all night last night, her appearance today must be unsightly, she really couldn't explain it, so she could only say: "I just ran into another woman."

With just a few words, Yan Rui understood after thinking about it. He let go of her to get a wet towel, came back and held Ruan Wei to wipe her face bit by bit, then looked at her and asked, "I know he has someone else now." , you stay too? He forced you?"

Ruan Wei shook her head and held his hand to make him stop.Yan Rui just lowered her head, the two of them were so close, she didn't dare to speak for a moment.

Yan Rui followed this movement and hugged her, Ruan Wei's face was icy and cold with water, but his arms were so soft and warm, she had a lot of words in her heart, and finally calmed down.

"Actually, I know what happened to you in the past. It wasn't intentional... I happened to hear you go for treatment."

Ruan Wei thought about it, it didn't matter whether he knew or not, she slowly pushed him away and said, "I want to stay, Ye Jingxuan didn't force me."

Yan Rui let go of her, sat back and took off his glasses. His myopia is not serious, and he usually doesn't wear it at home, but now his eyes softened.Ruan Wei always unconsciously thinks about what Yan Rui will be like when he is in class, because such a man is excellent in everything, has a good temper, and does not look weird when cooking at home, so it always makes people wonder how he can hold back Those rebellious young men.

Ruan Wei asked herself several times when she couldn't bear it, Yan Rui was so gentle to her, why couldn't she bow her head to the world these three years?There is no past 20 years between her and Yan Rui, no southern province, no Fangyuan, and no so many past events in the old house. The relationship between them is clean, just a coincidence. After getting along for a long time, they will always be together. Living with him like this will definitely have another ending.

There are so many vigorous obsessions in life, cherishing the present is nothing more than staying together in a plain way.

But to put it bluntly, feelings are a thing, and if you are not crazy, you will not survive.

Yan Rui saw that Ruan Wei's face was fine, she got up to pack her things and went upstairs, she couldn't hold back before leaving, stopped and said to her: "Ruan Wei, women must respect themselves, and others will respect you. You What is this? Because you harmed Ye Jingxuan back then, so now you post back to compensate him?"

This sentence finally revealed Ruan Wei's true colors.

She was still holding the towel in her hand, and she tried her best to keep herself calm. The water dripped down from the towel. She knew that in her current situation, there was no other answer for her to go back to find Ye Jingxuan except to find the murderer.

Ruan Wei wanted to say something several times, but her voice was trembling.Yan Rui's words didn't show her any sympathy at all, what he said was the truth.

But she witnessed such a tragic scene three years ago, and she has endured so much until today. She refuses to let herself go or die. There is only one reason.

"You're right, but you don't understand. Up to now...my identity is fake, getting close to him is fake, and everything is fake from the beginning to the end! Just this one thing, I love Ye Jingxuan, only this thing it is true!"

Yan Rui didn't say anything, and the house was very quiet that day until night, and they had nothing to say to each other.

Ruan Wei found the necklace pendant and the comb in the room. She thought about leaving at that time, and insisted on going home to take them away.When she was a child, she was just a child of servants, no one cared for her, and when she received these two things, she hid them like treasures.

Now she still has the same problem, she has to keep her things by her side to feel at ease.

She was bored in the room and couldn't go out. At night, she put them next to the pillow to force herself to sleep. She couldn't sleep until midnight, and she was full of chaotic thoughts.

Ye Jingxuan's face, the scar on his forehead...the smell of tobacco on his body, when he hugged her, she knew she wanted him like crazy...

What her father said to her before he died, looking into her eyes.

All the pictures overlapped, tearing her desperately, no one would let go first.

Ruan Wei couldn't control it, she forced herself to take a deep breath, and kept pulling the rubber ring on her wrist. The thing bounced hot on her skin, but she gradually calmed down, and it turned out to be much better.

Everything was quiet except for the sound of the wind outside the window. She couldn't sleep and wanted to close the window when she suddenly heard movement in the living room outside.

Yan Rui had already gone to bed at this time, not to mention she lived downstairs, who would be outside in the middle of the night?

Ruan Wei's nerves tensed up, she subconsciously approached the door of the room, and groped on the table, but she had a tendency to self-harm in the past, and all the sharp objects in this room were taken away, she didn't find anything, instead she sank down Come.

She had thought about this day for a long time. If someone really broke in, it must be for revenge on her. As long as Yan Rui was not involved, she would be fine.

Ruan Wei took a deep breath and opened the door. The living room was dark. She followed the sound and walked forward, only to find that the kitchen light was on.

Yan Rui was afraid of waking her up, so he only went to the kitchen, and he was opening the refrigerator lightly.

When he saw her come out, he smiled and comforted her: "Okay, stop making trouble, you haven't eaten yet, I'll come down and make you a sandwich."

Ruan Wei couldn't speak, she froze in the living room, the whole room was pitch black, only the place where he was was lit.Yan Rui was also wearing pajamas, and was also awake in the middle of the night.

After thinking about it, he could still have countless ways to tease her, but in the last few words, he helped her find the steps, standing here for fear that she would be hungry or that she would not be able to sleep.

Just like in all the shots, the warm yellow light, the clean and cozy kitchen, she stood here watching, even the back of Yan Rui was still, and all the messy thoughts in her mind were suppressed at once, as if There is nothing in this world. After dawn, whoever loves who hates is someone else's trouble. All she has to do is sit down and eat well.

Yan Rui slowly cut the bread and was busy there alone. He heard no movement behind him, turned around to look at Ruan Wei in the shadow, and asked her, "What's wrong? Turn on the light."

Suddenly, she walked over to Yan Rui regardless, and hugged him from behind.

The movements of his hands stopped, and he clearly felt that the person behind him was trembling slightly, she was trying to endure something.He didn't speak, and after a while, he smiled and patted her hand and asked, "Did you have a nightmare?"

Ruan Wei's voice was behind him, telling him softly: "Yan Rui, I tried to like you, if one day I lose my memory, like in the TV series... I will definitely cling to you and never let go."

But she leaned against him quietly for a while, and then let go of her hand.

Ruan Wei was so at ease when she hugged him, she was stable in this world, she could rely on him, but her heart was so quiet that there was no disturbance at all, that hug was as simple as a mutual comfort.

And she just glanced at Ye Jingxuan, the whole person was no longer her own from beginning to end.

She has never been a good woman, she has been selfish and shaken, she always thought that Ye Jingxuan was gone, and even thought that if Yan Rui was still there in another ten or twenty years, and she couldn't make it through, it would be like everyone said Marry him like that.

But in this scene of life, no one knows the ending until the end. People have to trust their fate. If there is nothing, Ye Jingxuan will not let her go after all.

Yan Rui didn't look back from the beginning to the end, and didn't hold back anything. He packed the sandwich, handed it to her along the cooking table, and ate it slowly with her.

Both of them were tired at night, Yan Rui didn't want to say those meaningless words anymore.

He told her: "Ruan Wei, love is not an excuse, you have to face the facts, you have no future with him. Ye Jingxuan is from Jinglanhui, you know where that is." He handed her a tissue and watched her bow her head After picking it up, she pointed at the corners of her mouth and asked her to wipe it, and continued to talk to her slowly, "Your family matters are all in your heart. You were only 20 years old at the time. I know you are suffering. A girl dares to take the risk to do it." The informant is because of conscience, what about now?"

Ruan Wei was stuck in her throat. Vegetables and sausages were added to the sandwich, which tasted light, but she just couldn't swallow it. She forced herself to eat it all, and then went to find water to drink. Yan Rui saw that she had made two cups of milk tea and handed them over to the cup. Take her hand.

Yan Rui always said that she was too persistent, but in fact, why wasn't he himself?

The first time he knew about Ruan Wei's past events, he just heard about them.Someone asked him to do me a favor, to temporarily give this girl a place to stay in Mucheng. At that time, Yan Rui didn't care about her past, but it was just a matter of effort. He had just finished teaching a class of graduates, and it was his free vacation , originally wanted to go abroad to relax, but stayed because of the favor.

It’s like he’s watched too many rigorous documentaries, and accidentally changed the channel to see a tragedy that had nothing to do with him. The lovers on the screen parted and died, and even the ending could be guessed. live alone.

So in the beginning, even the people who asked Yan Rui for help were worried that she would seek death, so they specifically asked him to take care of her as much as possible to keep her alive.

But Ruan Wei's performance was unexpected. She insisted from the beginning to the end that she must live, even though the trauma in the past was too great, she never resisted treatment, and she worked hard to make herself better.

Ruan Wei just turned 23 when she came to Mucheng, and she has experienced everything.She has bad legs, is afraid of the sun, often sleeps poorly, and is haggard. It takes a while for her to look good. She is such a fragile woman, but she can grit her teeth and survive everything.

She faced Ye Jingxuan's death very strongly, which always made Yan Rui wonder where did she get the courage.

Later, he found that there was no need to look for an answer to this matter. Perhaps everything went well in the first half of his life and he had seen too many elegant roses, so he suddenly paid special attention to this wild rose.There is no reason to be obsessed with someone, and it is even more irrational to love someone, just like him now, knowing that Ruan Wei and Ye Jingxuan have a strong and unshakable past, he insists on giving it a try.

As long as she is willing to stay, he will give her another life.

So Yan Rui finally held her tightly and said, "Ruan Wei, I don't pity you, I really like you."

Ruan Wei nodded, and gently shook his hand back. She lowered her head while holding the milk tea, and said to him after a while: "But I have nothing more to give you."

In this life, her person, her heart, and all her delusions have been given to others, which is not fair.

Yan Rui also said that this is the only conscience left in her.

What else did he want to say, but Ruan Wei didn't let him speak again, so she went to the kitchen to clean up the used dishes, and finally saw that he was still standing there, and urged him to go to sleep again.

Nothing seemed to happen, the wind outside the window kept going all night, and everyone in the whole city was dreaming.

In the past, Ruan Wei was most afraid of dreaming about sad things. After meeting Yan Rui, she realized that she was not afraid of having nightmares, but that the dreams were too real.

Everyone has inexplicable thoughts, not only they can't sleep, but there are also people in Lanfang who are not at ease.

Early the next morning, the president sat alone in the side hall.

After thinking about it, Chen Yu still couldn't help it, and asked everyone to quit, and took the time to make a phone call.

At ten o'clock in the morning, neither early nor late, the person on the other end of the phone finally had time, and after answering the call in a few words, he knew what difficulties Chen Yu had encountered.

Chen Yu couldn't hold back his anger, and couldn't control it as soon as he said it: "Sir, Ye Jingxuan was ambitious and restless at the time, and his goal was Lanfang. It was Mr. who told him that he couldn't be suppressed, and it was easy to backfire, so I acquiesced in his coming. I also handed over the position of Hall Master to him, but now that his wings are hardened and he has more people in his hands, he doesn't pay attention to me at all!"

Chen Yu was still young, it was completely unexpected to take over Jing Lanhui back then, he was used to following others loosely in his life, if his brother hadn't died in an accident, he wouldn't have had the chance to make up his mind.

But no matter what, Jing Lanhui is now Chen Yu's head, and he can't swallow this breath.

The voice of the person on the other side of the phone was still as light as ever, and he knew that he was not in good health, but as soon as he spoke, Chen Yu immediately quieted down.

(End of this chapter)