The most affectionate love: this life will never change

Chapter 34 Love can last forever (1)
She was so flustered that she didn't know what to do, she absolutely couldn't let Ye Jingxuan see this place, everything was only one step away, if she bulldozed this tomb, she could bury her own heart, and from then on she could leave everything in the first half of her life, Go away with peace of mind.

But just today, when she returned to Nan Province, she was like a fish caught in a net, unable to escape in one step.

After three years of absence, Ruan Wei finally returned to Nan Province.

It was already night when she got off the plane, and it was raining at the end of summer in Nanxing. When she walked out of the airport, she found that Nanxing was not as hot as she imagined.

Ruan Wei looked at the time, it was eight o'clock, and she couldn't do anything anywhere, so she took a taxi back to her adoptive father's house.

Her later adoptive father was called Zhao Siming. When Zhao Siming first brought Ruan Wei home, she was still young, but she didn't talk about something on her mind, and refused to go back to Ye's house.She pretended that she only knew her own name and didn't remember anything else.Uncle Zhao took her for an examination. The doctor naturally thought that the child was overly frightened and suggested not to force her to recall.Zhao Siming was soft-hearted, and finally rescued her at the scene of the crime, and couldn't bear to send her away again, so he gave her a new home like this.

Zhao Siming is an anti-narcotics policeman, a well-known high-risk occupation. He spends very little time at home, and he never got married in the end.After his sacrifice, Ruan Wei was the only one who took care of his funeral and finally left an old house.

On the road, Ruan Wei found that the development of the southern province has been getting better and better in the past few years. There are always various new economic zones in the coastal cities, and the buildings in the city center are getting taller. The urban area has not changed much, and there are still traces left by the old colonies. European-style spiers and small buildings abound.

She called Yan Rui first and told him that everything was safe. After she finished the formalities, she cleaned the house and took the plane back in three days.Ruan Wei refused to let Yan Rui accompany her back this time, and he didn't force it.

On the phone, Yan Rui remembered that her old home should be empty, and advised her to go to the hotel tonight and stop making troubles at night.Ruan Wei didn't want him to worry, so she agreed, hung up the phone and decided to go home directly.

Zhao Siming's house itself is an old building in the 60s, and it has been empty for many years, full of dust.Ruan Wei worked hard until midnight, and finally cleaned up the room she used to go to. She moved the garbage out and put it at the door temporarily, waiting for someone to collect it during the day.

In the end, Ruan Wei lay on the bed so exhausted that she couldn't fall asleep at all.

Outside the window is the camphor tree that Ruan Wei planted when she was 20 years old. There is a lot of rain and sunshine here in Nan Province, which is the most suitable for the growth of camphor. It has only been a few years, and it has already flourished.Now that the flowering period has just passed, the fragrance is still there, and it floats in through the window cracks one after another, and she can smell it when she calms down, just like in the past.

Ruan Wei lay on the bed and looked out. This tree, this window, this room... Even herself was soaked in the fragrance, and she couldn't walk out even a step.

At that time, the adoptive father was on a mission and gave her a small sapling before leaving. He said it was sent by a colleague, and he just left one and asked Ruan Wei to wait for him to come back. The father and daughter planted it downstairs together.Ruan Wei grew up in the garden when she was a child, so she planted the tree at home, hoping to surprise her adoptive father when he came back, but he never came back.

In order to obtain the key evidence of Jinglan's smuggling, the police tracked it to the sea, but was discovered by the Ye family. The two sides opened fire on the boat, and Zhao Siming died in that conflict.

Thinking about it now, many things are unavoidable opportunities, good or bad, each has its own cause and effect.

It is inevitable that people will be heartbroken when they return to their hometown.

Ruan Wei got up and went to the living room again, offering the portraits of the two relatives side by side. She burned incense and leaned on one side to watch the whole night. Later, when the day was about to dawn, she couldn't bear it anymore and leaned on the chair drowsily. Closing his eyes, his mind was so chaotic that it was all the words left by his biological father on his deathbed.

He didn't let her stay in Jinglanhui, and he didn't allow her to follow third brother.

At that time, she didn't understand anything, and she had no idea about those grown-up things like getting married, and only being a father was an order, but in the end it became a hurdle she couldn't get past.

Ruan Wei felt uncomfortable. She wanted to come back and talk to them a lot, but she didn't know how to say it. In the end, she fell asleep guarding the portrait, and was awakened by the knock on the door at almost noon.

She sat up suddenly, worried about something happening, went to the kitchen to get a knife, and slowly approached the cat's eye to look out, only to find that it was just a neighbor from the past.

"Grandma." Ruan Wei put away her things and opened the door, and went out to say hello.I haven't seen her for several years, and the mother-in-law next door is still alone, and her children are not around. Fortunately, the old man has good legs and feet, and she is also energetic.She was carrying something, Ruan Wei helped to pick it up, she seemed to have just returned from shopping.

Seeing that it was really Ruan Wei, Grandma was so happy, she grabbed her and started chatting.

"I just said something was wrong. There is no one living in Xiaozhao's house. Why is there garbage at the door? You are really back!" Grandma looked at her whole body and said that she is a big girl now, and suddenly asked, "By the way , aren’t you married? In those years, it was said that you married a very good family, oh... I remember another time, your man sent you back to pick up things, didn’t he? Good looks are good for you, but what about others? You have a child... Hurry up and show it to Grandma."

Ruan Wei was also stunned for a moment, and it took a long time to remember that Ye Jingxuan had indeed sent her back in the past. He was waiting downstairs at that time. There are all old houses here, and the neighbors are close. Everyone really left an impression. .

She shook her head, helped grandma back to the house opposite her, and said to her: "No, we separated, we are not married."

Grandma was surprised, she was about to go in to cook, and called Ruan Wei again.The old man is 70 years old. After all, he has gone through a lot of things, so when he talks about it, he is thinking of the older generation. He insists on telling Ruan Wei: "At first glance, it is a person with a good family background. Those who don't worry... are all from Nan Province. Bad habits! If you marry well, there are naturally many things. Don't worry, grandma's past experience tells you... Give your man a child as soon as possible, and he will know that you are still good, and it will be safe to marry. Don't care about how many little foxes outside, they will all fight for you. But you!"

Ruan Wei didn't know whether to laugh or cry, and chatted with her for a while, in order to comfort the old man's good intentions, she had no choice but to agree to everything, and finally sent her home before she escaped and rushed to the city to apply for a passport.

It is easy for a person to relax on the road, relax their spirits, and start thinking about the past.

Ruan Wei deliberately took a detour, not wanting to pass by the old house, and forced herself not to think about Ye Jingxuan. From the beginning to the end, she tried to pretend that she was really just a passerby going through the formalities.

In the first few hours when she got off the plane, she felt that she had done a good job, but when she went out today, even the neighbors next door were talking about him. Starting from Shangnan Province, this is a long-planned game.

Like a fish being swam across the deep sea, seeing a mirage on the shore and dim lights, it's a pity that she is the only one in the world, no matter how hard she struggles, there is no way out.

She gradually remembered how Ye Jingxuan drove in the past. She didn't have a long memory and always forgot to fasten her seat belt. Ye Jingxuan cared very much.

He always lowered his head to help her tie it himself, so that the distance between the two of them was too close, and he looked up to see her, so he had bad intentions, and he would deliberately take advantage of this situation to kiss her, watching Ruan Wei blushing and angry, pushing back and forth, like a dog Scratch him like an aggrieved cat.

Later, she was terrified, and finally had a long memory.Once she asked curiously, and Ye Jingxuan told him that his mother died in a car accident because she forgot to fasten her seat belt in the back seat and was thrown out when she braked suddenly, and she died on the spot.

Ruan Wei still remembers the tone of Ye Jingxuan's words at that time. It's been too long, and it's not sad for him to mention his mother again, but he is a little emotional.He caressed Ruan Wei's face, just waited for a red light, leaned on the steering wheel and said to her: "I have two women who must be protected in my life, she is gone, and you."

Those words are easy to say, but unfortunately time will eventually explain everything.

She knew that people's life may not always be as they wished, and after crying and shouting at the top of their lungs, life would sooner or later be as flat as water.Ruan Wei will not force herself to forget, she will keep everything Ye Jingxuan said in her heart.

Her legs are healed, but this life is long, and there will be times when she can't walk in the future. At least in this life, she has the evidence that he loved her.

She will live well for it.

The first day was not smooth. Ruan Wei changed her identity, and the certificates were given by the bureau later. She traveled to many places in order to go abroad. Many people in the Fangyuan incident have been transferred. Her identity It was kept strictly confidential, and I couldn't finish it in one day, so I had to go to another branch office to issue a certificate the next day.

In the end, everything was finally settled. Ruan Wei booked a flight back to Mucheng at [-]:[-]pm on the third day. After getting up, she went to eat first, looked around the city, called Yan Rui, and told him everything smoothly.

Yan Rui seemed a little noisy, he should be outside, he had already started vacation and would not go to school anymore, so Ruan Wei casually asked him what he was doing.

Yan Rui's voice has always been gentle, unhurried, just passing through the noise, and replied with a smile: "I'm chasing you, I'm afraid you won't follow me once you get home."

She was stunned for a moment, thinking that he was coming to find her in a hurry, so she quickly called him: "Yan Rui, I'll go back at night."

"I'm teasing you." He seemed to find her startled look very interesting, "Why don't you look aside? Maybe I'm across the road."

Ruan Wei was looking for a taxi all over the street, and the weather was hot with people coming and going, so she had no time to make trouble, so she had no choice but to rely on him for his intentions.Yan Rui laughed for a long time on the phone before saying: "Okay, I don't want to scare you anymore. I have a friend who is in the Netherlands, and I have already asked you the route. Soon there will be the famous flower festival there. This time I can just catch up with it. You can also go to the Spoorbuurt flower field in the north...the most beautiful tulip garden in the world."

He paused, then said, "Ruan Wei, if you like it there, we won't come back."

She had already gotten into the car, and she hadn't answered after hearing what he said, when the driver in front of her asked her where she was going, Ruan Wei didn't evade, and directly reported a place name: "Annan Cemetery."

There is the tomb that Ruan Wei privately built for Ye Jingxuan.

The person on the other end of the phone was silent, and Ruan Wei first said to him: "Before I leave, I still want to go over and have a look, at least level up Jingxuan's tomb first, it was just my own selfishness back then... He didn't know about it, Now others are fine, this is too unlucky."

Yan Rui seemed to find a quieter place immediately, and there were not so many voices coming and going around. He said to her, "Wait a minute, I will go with you."

Ruan Wei only thought that he was still joking: "I haven't been there in three years, so I'll take a look first and find someone to level it up, so as not to delay the evening flight."

Yan Rui said again in a very serious manner: "You tell me the specific way to Annan's side, and I will rush over to find you."

She knew that he was worried, but she didn't want to hesitate any more on this matter, so she calmed down and said to him: "Yan Rui, if I still keep his past tomb, it will be considered that I really went to Amsterdam with you. You can't go out, you let me solve it alone, soon...wait for me at home, okay?"

He didn't speak, but he seemed to be very insistent on this matter: "I didn't intend to stop you, but you may not be able to find a master to work today. I'll go find you. At worst, I will accompany you to change the ticket and come back a day later."

What he said were all reasonable things, but Ruan Wei knew that he had something in his heart.

She sighed and said: "Yan Rui, you also said that there is a possibility that we will not come back again. This is the last thing I do in Nan Province. I want to go by myself."

Yan Rui still couldn't learn to force her, and when he was about to hang up the phone, he stopped her again.

His voice was suddenly a little sad, and he sighed softly to Ruan Wei: "I always feel that I will regret it if I let you go alone today."

Sitting in the taxi, she suddenly saw that it was raining outside. The car had already driven out of the city at a very high speed. The raindrops fell obliquely at an angle, and soon her vision was blurred.

Ruan Wei tried her best to relax her tone, changed the subject and said to him with a smile: "By the way, put my cup in the luggage and take it away. I seem to have forgotten to put it in when I was packing up."

"Okay, do you have an umbrella?"

She looked out the window again, the rain seemed to be getting heavier and heavier, and the movement on the glass was not small, she said to him: "Take it, it always rains suddenly in Nan Province, I remember to bring an umbrella when I go out... Did you hear that?"

Yan Rui said "hmm": "I just saw the weather forecast in Nan Province, let's go, the road is slippery in rainy days, be careful yourself."

Ruan Wei agreed to hang up the phone, the windows soon became foggy, the driver turned on the air conditioner, gradually able to see the passing scenery clearly, the front of the car was straight, all the way to the dark road in the distance.

In the same rain, water soon began to accumulate on the ground. Yan Rui put away his mobile phone and just walked out of the airport.

It didn't take long for Ruan Wei to arrive at the cemetery. There was only a thunderstorm, and after a while, the rain became light again. She just happened to bring a black umbrella, and she started to fight and walked along the stone road.

Most of the cemeteries in Southern Province are built outside the city. Annan's place is backed by a whole forest, and the environment is quiet.It's even quieter on a rainy day.Ruan Wei looked up, it was raining continuously, it was daytime, but the sky was so heavy that it was breathless.

She was walking on a downhill road, surrounded by green pines and verdant cypresses. This is a place of eternal rest, and it always has the ability to stand still.The rain washes out a heavy atmosphere, revealing the shadow of many tombstones, each tombstone is an end point, so when people walk in, they can see solidified blue and gray colors as far as they can see, like an indifferent painting. Mudu has nothing to do with the hustle and bustle of the world.

People only know where their hearts are when they face life and death.

She missed Ye Jingxuan very much, thinking about every step she took.

Ruan Wei walked slowly along that road for a long time, as if it would never stop. From the beginning to the end, she wanted to walk into the memories.

Ruan Wei was very peaceful along the way. She left Nanxing after finishing repairing the tomb. She saw Ye Jingxuan shot with her own eyes, and never thought that he was still alive, so she never thought that she would come back to bulldoze the tomb.

In the past three years, she has experienced too many unexpected things and survived everything, but when she walked to Ye Jingxuan's grave, she was still so shocked that she couldn't stand.

His tomb...was completely opened.

The soil and tombstones are all turned aside. This place itself is a private empty tomb, and the scene is now in a mess.

Ruan Wei's first reaction was to step back, and quickly looked around. The sporadic rain was still falling, and all she could see was the cypresses.

She panicked, she didn't expect it to be like this, so she threw open the umbrella and forced herself to bend down to look into the cemetery, trying to find the things she buried back then.

Empty, nothing.

The soil on the ground was mixed with rainwater, and gradually became muddy. She tried to wipe the tombstone clean with her hands, but it became increasingly difficult to see clearly. Finally, she became anxious, turned around and ran outside, and wanted to ask the gardener for clarification, but suddenly Seeing a veranda for people to rest on the east side of the corridor, the wild vines covered the sky and the sun, almost completely covering it, with only a slight gap showing the figure between the leaves, but she still saw it.

Ruan Wei didn't care about the mud on her legs, and walked into the veranda step by step. There were so many possibilities, but in the end Ruan Wei tentatively called out a name: "Jingxuan?"

No one answered, but the shadow moved.

She was so flustered that she didn't know what to do, she absolutely couldn't let Ye Jingxuan see this place, everything was just one step away, if she bulldozed this tomb, she could bury her heart, and from then on, she could leave everything in the first half of her life and feel at ease go away.

But just today, when she returned to Nan Province, she was like a fish caught in a net, unable to escape in one step.

Ruan Wei finally walked into the corridor and found that the person was really Ye Jingxuan.He leaned against the pillar and turned half sideways, hunched over for some reason, and clenched his hands tightly.

A few steps away, Ruan Wei was already in tears. She called him, but Ye Jingxuan didn't respond.She ran over to hold his shoulders, but found that he had a headache so bad that he couldn't open his eyes, and his whole body was convulsed and unable to move.

Ruan Wei's heart ached, she hugged him tightly and tried to see what was wrong with him, but Ye Jingxuan couldn't help falling down in pain, Ruan Wei supported him, she didn't know what happened to him, and he refused to let him She asked, last time she saw something was wrong in the hospital, but...

She suddenly realized that Ye Jingxuan must be seriously ill, that's why she kept avoiding herself.

The more she thought about it, the more flustered she became, and she looked around him hastily. Ye Jingxuan had been sitting in this cemetery for an unknown how long, his clothes were all soaked through, his beard was obvious, and he was almost too dirty to look at. I've known him for 20 years, and it's the first time I've seen him so embarrassed.

He was in so much pain that he was about to go crazy. No one is a god, and people always have limits.

The environment was as quiet as death, and behind him was a dense layer of rain, which couldn't penetrate the vines, but the cool wind still made people feel cold from head to toe.

Ruan Wei held his face: "Jingxuan, I beg you, talk to me..."

She saw him clenching his teeth, not knowing what to do, holding his mobile phone to call an ambulance, but Ye Jingxuan raised his hand suddenly, as if he couldn't control his strength, he knocked over all the bags in her hand.

Ye Jingxuan reluctantly signaled her not to make a call, as if even a little voice could make him unbearable: "It will be fine in a while...it's okay."

Ruan Wei was too scared to provoke him, hugged his neck tightly and pressed his face to herself, comforting him with tears: "Okay, okay, I won't call anyone, don't be angry, third brother, you... have a headache? No? Let me see..."

Ye Jingxuan avoided her, stretched out his hand and squeezed her wrist tightly, exerting force little by little, as if this would make him feel better.Ruan Wei was in so much pain from being pinched by him, she could not speak, how much she hurt, Ye Jingxuan hurt ten times more than her, until he finally felt better, slowly loosened his fingers, and pressed his forehead tightly.

Ruan Wei was afraid that he would hurt herself, so she stopped his hand, Ye Jingxuan was caught by her, and finally calmed down.

(End of this chapter)