Daughter of General

Chapter 137 Despicable Human Nature

Shen Yulan knew exactly where the problem was.But it was precisely because she was so clear that she felt that...she herself was despicable, hateful, and even detestable.

However, in the face of many difficulties, she really didn't have the courage to say a word of persistence.If she said she would persevere, she believed that Chang Yu would do her best to persevere, even desperately.

But, she just couldn't do it.

Therefore, after careful consideration, she felt that it was best to give up.Giving up now, even if it will be sad, but it will not be extremely painful.And, only in this way, maybe it is the best for everyone.Whether it's the Chang family, the Shen family, or anyone else.

Instead of waiting until it collapses halfway through, it is better to give up now, at least everyone can still have good memories.

Once such thoughts popped up in her mind, they couldn't be erased completely, and gradually occupied her thoughts completely.

But if she really wants to give up everything indifferently and heartlessly, she also feels extremely sad.

Especially Chang Yu - what face would she have to face Chang Yu in the future?

Even, in order to make Chang Yu give up, she even said that.Chang Yu must be very sad, right?

Recalling Chang Yu's expression at that time, Shen Yulan only felt uncomfortable again.

If it wasn't for Mrs. Chang who disrupted the situation.Presumably she and Chang Yu will get married, have children, and live a happy, peaceful and happy life, right?For that kind of life, she went from being peaceful at the beginning to expecting more and more, and caring more and more.But just when she was full of expectations, everything was disrupted.

But she, when faced with Chang Yu's insistence, gave up easily.

Not to mention Chang Yu, even she herself felt disgusted.

Shen Yulan raised her palm, which was slender and fair, with ten fingers like spring onions.But……

After a crisp "pop", Shen Yulan felt a burning pain on her cheek.But she didn't cry out, instead she said coldly: "Shen Yulan, you deserve it!"

Yes, she deserves it.She didn't even have the face to cry in front of others.Because the road is her own choice.Giving up is also her own choice.Who can blame?In fact, she was the one who was sorry for Chang Yu.

Compared with Chang Yu's pain, what is this about her?
But Shen Yulan herself didn't care, but the two girls rushed over, one hurriedly pressed Shen Yulan's hand, and the other hurriedly looked at Shen Yulan's face: "Missy, what are you doing?"

Shen Yulan's eyes were red and swollen at this time, and there was a red palm mark on her face.It can be seen that when she swung her palm and hit it just now, she really didn't save effort at all.But then again, she really felt that she should fight.She slapped herself for Chang Yu.

Because maybe in the beginning - she didn't think about Chang Yu.Chang Yu's dedication and her response are not directly proportional at all.From the very beginning, she owed Chang Yu a debt.And now, she regards him as an affordable man.Not only that, she also chose to give up without hesitation when facing the unbreakable suffering.

Not to mention others, but she herself couldn't help but despise and despise herself.

Huoxiang held Shen Yulan's hand firmly, and couldn't help crying: "Even if the eldest lady is sad, she shouldn't treat herself like this. It's not your fault. It's your fault, and it's the people of the Chang family—" —”

"No, blame myself." Shen Yulan shook her head and smiled wryly, "I want to give up myself."

Huoxiang looked strange: "How can I blame you, miss? Besides, if you don't give up, don't you really—" Is it possible to be an ordinary wife for Chang Yu?This is naturally impossible.

"Let's not talk about that, miss, go back and get the medicine. I will warn the people in the mansion not to talk nonsense about today's matter." Lian Xin said softly, and then helped Shen Yulan get up.What is not allowed to talk nonsense is not only Chang Yu's visit to propose marriage, but also Shen Yulan's gaffe today.

Shen Yulan touched her cheek, her voice was a little hoarse: "I lost my temper." It's not just a loss of control, but a very loss of control.If it gets out, others will probably think she is crazy.Then, it is estimated that she will not be able to marry.

Speaking of getting married... Shen Yulan naturally thought of Chang Yu again, and couldn't help but smiled wryly again.

Avoiding people all the way and walking back slowly, Shen Yulan kept her head down and said nothing, her gloomy appearance looked very worrying.

However, under such circumstances, it is difficult for anyone to speak out to persuade them.

Back in the yard, Shen Yulan didn't notice the cautious and slightly complaining looks of the maids because she had things in her heart.However, no one mentioned the matter of today's engagement, as if nothing had happened.

Even Shen Junzhi didn't come over.

On the contrary, after Jin He came back, she watched Shen Yulan hesitate to speak, but in the end she didn't say anything to persuade her, but said softly: "The Chang family has all gone back. Uncle said, take a good rest these few days , other things, he will figure it out."

Shen Yulan responded as if nothing had happened, as if she had forgotten about that meeting.

Jin He knew that Shen Yulan was pretending to be calm, but he really couldn't say any words of comfort.In the end, I could only think in my heart: Maybe it would be better for Shen Yulan to be quiet for a while?
Therefore, Jin He didn't do anything, and went back to his room worried.

However, Shen Yulan's pretending to be nothing didn't last long - after all, this matter is really not something that can be forgotten casually.Doing nothing makes it easier to dwell on those negative emotions.Then self-loathing.

And the result of self-loathing is - only more and more self-loathing.It's like a vicious cycle.

In the end, Shen Yulan simply stopped acting nonchalantly, lying on the bed and doing nothing, and did not allow anyone to disturb her.

Mother Lin came in during dinner time, but she didn't mention the engagement, she just said, "The second young lady just came over and said that she got something good and wanted to share it with the young lady, but I thought that the young lady was not feeling well, So I pushed it away. Second Miss looks a bit disappointed."

"It's okay." Shen Yulan shook her head: "She just wants to see my jokes."

Seeing Shen Yulan's indifferent look, Mother Lin sighed slightly: "Missy made the right choice today." Anything can be done naturally.

"Mother Li also thinks what I did is right?" Shen Yulan was slightly stunned, and then said with a wry smile: "Mom doesn't think that people like me are annoying? Look, how selfish am I? For myself , with no regard for other people's feelings. I don't even want to wrong myself—"

"Who is not like this?" Mother Lin sighed, and suddenly stretched out her hand to hold Shen Yulan in her arms: "Missy's choice is the right one. Not to mention her status or anything. Just tell the truth You are willing to wrong yourself for him, but can you really live freely and happily? The back house is not a place to worry about. There are too many disputes, and they men will not feel happy. After a long time, no matter how deep the relationship is They are all obliterated. Rather than long-term pain, it is better to have short-term pain. You are still young, so what can't be overcome?"

Shen Yulan leaned on Mama Lin's shoulder and remained silent for a while.But the already dry eyes gradually became moist again.

She knew that what Lin's mother said was right.But... Even if you understand it in your heart, you may not be able to see it.No matter what, the guilt she felt towards Chang Yu couldn't be dissipated from the bottom of her heart.That kind of apology, that kind of self-consciously humble mood, is not so easy to dissipate.

"You are still young. In a few years, you will understand that this is the best way. It is wrong to ignore it for your own sake. After all, no one is a saint, and everyone lives in the secular world. How can you not care about anything?" Mother Lin continued to persuade.The tone was sympathetic: "It's just that Mrs. Chang San's methods were too drastic and made things happen like this. If not, everyone would have a bit of room to buffer, and it wouldn't be so embarrassing."

"I'm sorry for Chang Yu." Shen Yulan choked up and said.

"What's there to be sorry for? You didn't make up your mind at first. It was their Chang family who had a problem. Who is to blame? Yes, Master Chang Yu is very pitiful. His background was like that, but he met such a A mother-in-law." Mother Lin continued to sigh, but then she said in a firm tone: "But Miss, have you ever thought that if you really marry, then she will be your mother-in-law. Master Chang Yu is already unlucky, why should you date again? on yourself?"

Shen Yulan looked at Mama Lin in astonishment, not understanding why Mama Lin suddenly became like this.

Mother Lin smiled: "Miss, people are selfish. There is nothing wrong with that. I am also selfish. Compared to Master Chang Yu, I only care about whether Missy is doing well. Why, I think I am too cold Thin?"

Shen Yulan shook her head, "No, I understand." Because she is also a cold person.She is also selfish.

In the next few days, Shen Yulan finally cheered up gradually - there were too many things to do, and when she got busy, she didn't have time to think about emotional matters.

I don't know if she knows that she needs to do something to numb herself, so she has been very busy with business matters during this time.

It was precisely because of this that when she found out about the stroke of the old imperial doctor, it was already more than ten days later.During this period, she never met Chang Yu, not even anyone from the Chang family.As for the news - even more unwilling to ask anything.

And this news was specially told by Shen Yushan to Shen Yulan.

And until the news, Shen Yulan was also taken aback—the old doctor Chang had a stroke? !
"Is it serious?" I asked subconsciously.

Shen Yushan covered her lips and smiled: "I don't know about that. After all, sister, you are the one who is close to the Chang family. Why don't you just go and see for yourself?" There was a malicious gleam in her eyes.

Shen Yulan lowered her head—go and see for herself?Are you going to Chang's house?
(End of this chapter)