Daughter of General

Chapter 20 Can't Go Back
But at this time, no one has the time to take care of Shuangfu and Shuangxi.

Shen Yulan stretched out her hand to hold Jin He's, wiped away her tears, and then smiled: "It's okay, Sister He, don't go looking for your wife, let alone look for your father, who is busy with work recently, so there's no need to worry about this trivial matter." Go bother him. It's just a little thing."

"A small matter? Yulan, is this considered a small matter?" Jin He asked tremblingly, startled and angry: "Okay, it's fine if you don't say anything. When you get better, let's go back to the countryside! Why is this place so old?" Can you stay longer?"

Shen Yulan was stunned.She never thought that Jin He could say such a thing.She thought that Jin He said such harsh words just out of anger, and after recovering, it would definitely be the same.But……

When Jin He said this, he was completely serious.In other words, Jin He really wanted to go back to his hometown.

Shen Yulan finally shook her head slowly: "I can't go back." She and Jin He are just two little girls, and it is simply impossible not to be attached to anyone.Even if he went back to his hometown, how could he be safe and sound?I'm afraid that when the time comes, I will be eaten so that there are not even bones left.

So, there is no going back.They have no way out.

Jin He was startled, and then smiled weakly: "Yeah, I can't go back. It's just my imagination."

"Don't worry, it will be fine in the future. No one can bully us." Shen Yulan held Jin He's hand with an almost solemn expression: "This kind of thing will never happen again in the future."

Jin He nodded, then thought for a while, and finally came back to his senses.She pursed her lips and smiled bitterly: "Look at me, you're still sick, lie down quickly." Then she couldn't help but push Shen Yulan down and lie down.

When Shen Yulan saw Jinhe Heyang, she couldn't be sure if she had figured it out, but she couldn't take it anymore.He fell asleep in a daze.

However, before going to sleep, she still remembered to give a command: "No one is allowed to speak out about today's matter. If anyone wants to be that gossip, then there is no need to come back. I can't serve such a clumsy person. I don’t know if it will be sold in the future.”

When Shen Yulan woke up, the sun was almost setting in the west.After moving, I felt better, at least not as tired as in the morning.

Jin He was still watching by the side. Seeing that Shen Yulan was awake, he smiled and said, "Are you hungry? I made porridge for you to keep warm. There are also side dishes, all of which are sour and delicious."

"Give me a sip of water first." Shen Yulan only felt that her throat was very dry, so she hurriedly asked for water.

Zisu handed over the water nimbly, and fed Shen Yulan to drink.

Shen Yulan drank it all in one go, and then felt better, but felt hungry again.Then he smiled and asked Zisu to bring the rice.

Jin He watched from the side, but breathed a sigh of relief: "It's better. Otherwise, we'd be terrified. You've slept long enough."

"Is no one here this afternoon?" Shen Yulan asked with a smile after taking the handkerchief Jin He handed over and wiped his face.

Jin He shook his head: "Where is someone coming? In the afternoon, there was not even a shadow of a person. Let alone a person."

"Where's father? You haven't come back yet?" Shen Yulan thought, if Shen Junzhi knew that she was ill, he would come to see her no matter what?
Jin He still shook his head: "I haven't come back yet. If I knew, why would I come to see it?"

"Hmm." Shen Yulan handed back the handkerchief and responded lightly at the same time.Finally, he smiled and asked, "Has anyone ever gone out?"

Jin He thought for a while, then lowered his voice: "Shuangfu went out once, but the others—didn't go out. They are all in the yard. I asked them to make shoes and small clothes for you, and they are all busy."

"Well, that's how it should be." Shen Yulan narrowed her eyes and smiled.She had already told Jin He about this matter.Always pay attention to the movements of the girls.Only in this way can the available people be selected.Fortunately, none of the girls are disappointing.

After Huoxiang brought the porridge over, Shen Yulan asked all the waiters in the house to go out, leaving no one behind.This will also make it easier for her to talk to Jin He.Although it is far away, it is not completely inaudible.

"Although that pinellia is young, its needlework is pretty good. And the perilla ones are also good. The Huoxiang ones are worse." Jin He said again, pursing his lips and smiling: "But two needles are good. It’s enough. You don’t have to make clothes yourself, just make some small things, and you won’t be unable to make them.”

"What about yours?" Shen Yulan took the porridge handed over by Jin He, took a big bite, and then took the time to ask.

"It's not bad. After all, you have to be older, and you can't do things too badly. It's your duty to look at it." Jin He helped Shen Yulan pick up vegetables.He answered with a smile.

Shen Yulan nodded in satisfaction, and then felt a little complacent: "Naturally, I have been choosing these for a long time."

Seeing Shen Yulan like this, Jin He couldn't help smiling.But then the smile on his face sank again, "Are you really going to let this matter go like this?"

Shen Yulan pursed her lips, swallowed the food in her mouth, then nodded, and said with a calm expression: "Well, let's forget it like this. There is no need to alarm adults about the conflicts between children. Although my father will definitely not It will make me suffer, but there will be a long time in the future. Mrs. Guo is in charge of the family, so we can't offend her too much. Moreover, Mrs. Guo can also make decisions about our marriage in the future."

Moreover, she has seen Guo's cruelty before.It's really offending, and if Guo Shi is moved to kill, then the loss outweighs the gain.Compared with the annoying Shen Yushan, the superficially friendly Guo Shi is more worth guarding against.

Jin He sighed, and said in a distressed tone, "If my aunt was still here, this would definitely not be the case. Yulan, you have been wronged."

Shen Yulan's nose was a little sore, and she hurriedly laughed; "What's there to be wronged? Even if Mother is still here, it's hard to talk about this matter today—it can't make the house restless, right?"

Jin He didn't say anything more, but his eyes always had a sense of bewilderment and desolation.

"Don't be afraid, I'll be fine when I'm older. Whether it's suffering or being wronged, it's all temporary. Our better days are yet to come." Shen Yulan smiled and pulled Jin He's hand He shook his hand, and then said a word of comfort.

Jin He forced a smile.

Shen Yulan knew that Jin He's mood might be hopeless for a while.This is also impossible.

……

Shen Junzhi came back after it was dark.With the smell of alcohol all over, it was obvious that he had been drinking outside.

But he didn't look drunk.Speak clearly too.

Shen Junzhi carefully asked what doctor he had invited, and read the prescription, so he felt relieved, and said with a smile: "What do you want to eat, what do you want, just tell me, or send someone to tell your wife. Don't be afraid of trouble. "

"En." Shen Yulan responded, and then asked Shen Junzhi: "Father has been drinking? Would you like a bowl of hangover soup?"

Shen Junzhi shook his head: "I didn't drink much. Don't bother."

"Father has been so busy these days, isn't he tired?" Shen Yulan asked, trying to sit up.After lying down for a day, my bones were a little sore.

But Shen Junzhi held her down: "What is this for? The doctor said to take a good rest, so you can just lie down. There are no outsiders anyway. Besides, the most taboo when the wind is cold, the cold and the hot, turned around and made it worse." How is your condition?"

"En." Shen Yulan had no choice but to lie down again.After thinking about it, he said softly again: "When I was in a daze today, I dreamed about my mother."

Shen Jun was taken aback for a moment, and then forced a smile: "Oh? What did your mother do in the dream?"

"I dreamed that mother and father were together, and the three of us were sitting together talking. I don't remember what I said." Shen Yulan narrowed her eyes with a smile: "Mother is very happy."

Shen Junzhi's smile looked a little lonely: "It would be great if it was true." Shen Junzhi immediately came back to his senses, remembering what Shen Yulan called him just now, and was suddenly a little surprised - Shen Yulan called him dad for the first time.Dad is different from father.Father sounded respectful and distant, totally unlike the natural intimacy of calling him dad.Before, he felt that the relationship between Shen Yulan and him would never be like that between Shen Yushan and him.After all, the gap of so many years cannot be easily bridged.

At this moment, I suddenly heard Shen Yulan change his tone, screaming so naturally, it immediately stabbed the softest part of Shen Junzhi's heart.

"Father, do you think mother is looking at us now?" Shen Yulan looked at Shen Junzhi seriously: "If mother sees that father treats me so well, she must be very happy, right?"

Shen Junzhi was speechless.He was thinking a lot at this time, thinking of Wu Shi and those days with Wu Shi.Something else came to mind.

Gradually, Shen Junzhi's expression became more and more desolate.

Shen Yulan lowered her eyes, apologetic in her heart: "Father, what do you think of what my wife said yesterday?" Shen Junzhi's appearance made it impossible for her to hurt his heart so unscrupulously.So, she simply cut to the chase.

Shen Junzhi shook his head with a hoarse voice: "I don't think it's appropriate. What do you think?"

"Father, do you want to hear the truth or lies?" Shen Yulan didn't answer right away, but asked such a question instead.

Shen Jun was stunned, and replied almost subconsciously: "Of course it is the truth."

"Then I don't want to." Shen Yulan said it almost immediately, and her tone was firm, with a lingering taste: "I only have one mother. It doesn't matter whether she is the main wife or a concubine. , I only have one mother. No matter how good my wife is, she is not my mother. I can't think of her as my mother. "

After a pause, Shen Yulan's voice lowered: "Actually, to be honest, I have always hated father. If you didn't suddenly want us to enter the capital, mother would not... Although mother always mentioned father, but I've never seen my father, have I? Father was just a title to me at that time. As for what he looked like, I didn't even know... I even thought, if mother can come back to life, it doesn't matter if I don't want father. I Knowing that this is not filial, I shouldn't think so, but I did think so. For me, no one can replace my mother. No one can take the position of my mother. Even if it is because Well, I have become the daughter of a concubine, so it doesn't matter if I am looked down upon by others in the future."

Shen Junzhi was almost speechless in shock, especially after seeing Shen Yulan's teary eyes after raising his head, and the tear stains on his face, the fragility and stubbornness in his eyes, he felt more and more that his throat was blocked by something.

"Father. Just this matter, can I beg you?" Shen Yulan begged and pulled Shen Junzhi's sleeve, shaking it lightly.

Shen Junzhi could no longer suppress the surging emotion in his chest, and the water in his eyes finally slipped down.Shen Junyi grasped Shen Yulan's hand with some force, his voice hoarse: "Don't worry, I won't agree. Your mother is my first wife, and you are not a concubine. You are my solemn The eldest daughter. No one can change this."

(End of this chapter)