I'm Mrs.

Chapter 114 Chaoyang
Xu saw that Mingyue's reaction was too excited, and his father's expression was slightly puzzled, "I really don't know him, Mr. Shen used to do some charity activities, I thought you had seen him on TV."

"Ah, he has done charity..."

That Mingyue looked at my dad with chest heaving, "Yes, I seem to have a little impression when you say that. This person looks like a leader at first glance. Looking at his appearance, he is either a leader or a boss. It's a pity. , then it will be gone at such a young age, what is the disease..."

Dad nodded regretfully, "He developed liver cancer from hepatitis, and he went abroad for liver replacement. He recovered well, but two years ago, he had some sclerotic ascites, and the disease was more complicated. In the end, he didn't say anything. He left the hospital and said he wanted to go out to relax, but when he found him, his condition had deteriorated and passed away in Anxi City. I heard that even his family members didn’t have time to see him for the last time. I wonder if it’s because of his own virus. Hepatitis, the disease will not be so uncontrollable, it is a pity that he passed away when he was in his prime."

That Mingyue's face became stiff for a while, and her lips became pale, "Why does the Anxi you mentioned sound so familiar to me, is it Anxi from our side?"

I understand why Second Aunt's reaction, time, and place are all right, that is to say, it is true as grandma said, Uncle Shen's condition deteriorated and passed away as soon as he went to the city, but how could it be so fast!

Dad still nodded, with helplessness in his eyes, "Yes, that is the county-level city closest to Anfeng, Anxi. Looking at his memorial service, it has always been clear that his condition is very serious, sooner or later, he will definitely go one step earlier, it is not an accident that this kind of thing happened, it is just a pity."

That Mingyue was silent, and a slight sweat broke out on her forehead. She cleared her throat, looked at her grandma, her voice trembled uncontrollably, "Mom, tell me, it's a pity that this person left at such a young age." Ha, just, less than forty."

Grandma's face had lost all blood for a long time, and after a day of running around, her eyes were full of grime. She looked at the photo, and did not look at her father's face, but her tone was so indifferent , "Everyone has his own destiny, and as long as he lives, he will die. Sooner or later, even if we others think it's a pity, no matter how worthless it is, it's useless..."

Dad hummed, "Yeah, what can't be helped, what should be done, Mr. Shen's family has also done it, and it can be said that they have done their best. I heard that Mr. Shen's liver transplant operation is the best in the United States. Experts are also using the most advanced treatment methods, and this alone is difficult for ordinary people to achieve."

Grandma didn't say much, but still looked at the photo, pointed to a middle-aged woman with good temperament next to Uncle Shen and continued, "I think this woman looks a bit like him, is she a sibling?"

Dad glanced at the woman in the photo and nodded, "It's President Shen's sister, the honorary president of our hospital, also the chairman."

"That's called..."

"Shen Mingya."

After Dad finished speaking, he looked at grandma and smiled puzzled, "Why, Mom, you are very interested in our hospital?"

There was no superfluous expression on grandma's face, she just looked at the photo carefully, "Wendong, Mom has something I don't know whether to ask or not."

"You say."

Grandma pursed her lips and looked up at Dad, "You mean you came to this hospital more than two years ago, right?"

"Yes."

Grandma took a deep breath, "Mom, although I don't know why you left the military hospital, at least we ordinary people know very well that no one who can eat at the public house is willing to do it for someone, regardless of the reason. More money and less money, but doing it for the public at least includes an honor, but you left. Of course, I don’t ask for this reason, but the time period is a bit too coincidental. You said that you and Ruojun divorced two years ago , and you went to this hospital two years ago, tell your mother the truth, does your divorce have something to do with changing jobs? "

Dad seemed to be a little bit embarrassed, lowered his eyes, and didn't answer all questions like he did just now.

Grandma sighed, "If you don't want to say it, then Mom can just ask again, as long as you tell the truth, because I know my girl, she is stubborn, she has ideas, and she is stubborn and won't change anything when she encounters something. She doesn't listen to anyone, but marriage is no better than others, if you two really don't have the same personality, then after divorce, mom won't complain about you, and mom will ask you, do you have a son. "

"people?"

Dad didn't seem to understand what grandma meant by this person for a moment. He stared at grandma in a daze for two or three seconds before opening his mouth, "Mom, do you mean that I'm having an affair?"

Grandma nodded sullenly, "I want you to tell the truth, do you care about Ruojun, that's why you divorced Ruojun..."

Dad shook his head, "No, Mom, I won't hide it from you. Ruojun divorced me is indeed some reason for me to change jobs, but it's definitely not that I had an affair. I love Ruojun. Even if I divorced her, I still love her very much. Even if I can't be a husband, I am willing to accompany her as a friend!"

"Really?"

Grandma didn't believe it, "Then why doesn't Ruojun like you changing jobs? Besides, if you go to another place, why do you have to go to a private hospital? Is it because you have any friendship with the director?"

Dad took a deep breath and looked at grandma, "It's like this mother, Dean Shen's father was a professor in my medical school, I can be regarded as his student, so I have known Chairman Shen very early, when I After leaving the military hospital, I was in a mess for a while, so I went to Chairman Shen's hospital, and there was indeed some conflict between Ruojun and Chairman Shen, I..."

"I understand."

Grandma opened her mouth lightly and interrupted Dad's words, "You don't need to say anything, no matter what, Mom thank you for taking care of Ruojun these years, it's just that you are divorced, we don't want to bother you, how about this, tonight we will... ..."

"Mom! What are you talking about!"

Dad was in a hurry and stood up, "I said that even if Ruojun and I divorced, we would still be friends, and we ended our marriage peacefully. Maybe, my words are still relevant in places where you have more conservative folk customs. I can’t accept it, but it’s normal for us, I beg you, please don’t see me as a layman.”

"Yes."

Mingyue also nodded at the side, "Mom, no matter what you say, even if my brother-in-law and Ruojun divorced, wouldn't there still be Baosi, then Baosi is the blood that connects our relationship, as long as Baosi calls you Grandma, brother-in-law, is also your son..."

I sat by the side with my head down and didn't make a sound. I kept thinking about my grandma's words. I seemed to think of something, and I felt that it was a little incredible...

Grandma glanced at me and continued to sigh, "Then, where does Ruojun work now?"

"She's far away from here. She's in the outskirts of the city. In this way, you have a good rest tonight. I'll go directly to her work unit to find her tomorrow morning. In this way, let's go to the hospital together, shall we?"

Mingyue interjected, "Brother-in-law, why don't you just go to the hospital where you are!"

Grandma stared at her at the time, "It's private, and the fees are guaranteed to be very expensive. What am I going to do!"

Dad nodded, "Yes, let's go to the public school. I can also find friends I know. It's also convenient."

That Mingyue seemed to be thinking of where she had said something wrong, so she didn't dare to intervene indiscriminately, until she heard her father said that she wanted to see grandma's inspection report in the county, she handed it over and asked softly, "Brother-in-law, are you Doctor from which department?"

Dad took the examination report and looked at it seriously, then answered casually, "Gynecology."

But Mingyue opened her eyes wide, silently watching her grandma make a mouth shape, I don't understand, how exaggerated is this man in the department?
"Then, brother-in-law, I heard that the department of gynecology is also divided into medicine and surgery. Is this department of obstetrics and gynecology specialized in giving birth to children, or..."

"Moon."

Grandma squinted at Mingyue, "You know what Sotou is doing, do you have anything to see!"

Mingyue's face turned red when she was told by her grandma, and she opened her mouth in embarrassment, "I have something to ask the doctor, but it's not mine, it's Baosi's, I want to ask my brother-in-law about her situation Is not normal."

"Sibao?" Grandma was displeased, "Sibao is more normal than anyone else!"

Dad read the report very seriously and didn't answer their complaints. He didn't put down the report until a few minutes later and signaled grandma to lie flat on the sofa. After that, he pressed lightly on grandma's upper abdomen and asked, "It hurts." What kind of pain is it..."

Grandma made a hissing sound, "It's just a painful pain, it's unbearable, it's indescribable."

Dad nodded, "Will your back and waist hurt?"

Grandma responded, "It hurts, it will hurt, the whole back and waist hurt..."

Dad's face was a bit serious, "In the early stage of abdominal pain, the pressure will intensify, and the pain will be radial. In this way, let's go to the hospital tomorrow to check the pancreas. This is the most likely to be misdiagnosed as a stomach problem."

That Mingyue responded, "Oh, okay, brother-in-law, is my mother serious?"

Dad didn't say much, "No matter what the disease is, the first thing we need is a good attitude, you know."

That Mingyue nodded again and again, and pulled her father aside, "Brother-in-law, I have to talk to you about Bao Si, I think she..."

"Moon!"

When the second aunt talked about my grandma, she was a little unhappy, "Why do you talk so much!"

That Mingyue frowned, "Mom, this is not a disease that can't be asked. Isn't my brother-in-law a doctor, and Bao Si is a girl, so I just want to ask him, do you think this Bao Si doesn't have hair at all?" What's the problem, normally every child has hairs or something, but Baosi doesn't have any at all, I'm just afraid that the child's hairs will suffocate to death, and I will be stunned by the chicken skin in the future!"

"No sweat?"

Dad looked at me in a daze, walked up to me a few steps, picked up one of my arms and looked at it carefully. "Indeed, it's not. This is mainly related to genetic factors and hormones in the body. I can see that there are really few under the nose..."

"Yes!"

That Mingyue looked at him exaggeratedly, "Brother-in-law, to tell you the truth, I think Bao Si is more like a city child than a city child. She is white and has no hair. I took a closer look at her when I took her to take a bath." , there is nothing on her body, smooth and smooth, just some small yellow hairs, that kind, there are few, all over her body, only the eyebrows and eyelashes are black, and look at her hair, it is a little gray now ..."

"Cough cough!!"

Grandma couldn't bear it anymore and began to cough, "Mingyue, you lead Baosi into the house and spread the quilt. I have to say something to Wendong."

That Mingyue came up and grabbed my hand with a cry, "Let's go, Baosi, I'll take you back to the house first."

Dad opened his mouth in the back, "Sister-in-law, don't worry too much, it should be fine, Bao Si is still young, we can wait until she is older, and if it doesn't work, we can also go to the hospital for a blood test."

That Mingyue didn't dare to talk anymore, took my hand and walked back to the hut. After closing the door, she turned around and saw my sullen face, "Bao Si, what's wrong with you, did your aunt say that your business is not good?" Happy."

I shook my head numbly, now I don't care about what she said about me, I just keep thinking about Uncle Shen, Lu Xingyue, and their disappearance...

Mingyue sat next to me and put her arms around my shoulders, "Baosi, you are only 12 years old, don't be so serious about your thoughts, no matter what illness your grandma finds out, we will do our best to treat it. , Birth, old age, sickness and death, everyone has this day, you said, right?"

"Second aunt."

I took a breath and interrupted her, "Tell me, did my dad divorce my mom because of that Shen Mingya..."

"what?"

Mingyue was stunned, "What do you mean by that?"

I looked at her, "Grandma made it very clear. She said that my father went to Uncle Shen's hospital two years ago, and my mother divorced him at that time, and Uncle Shen also died at that time." Yes, and what Shen Mingya my grandma mentioned...could it all be a coincidence."

That Mingyue stretched out her hand and slowly covered her mouth, as if she had thought of something, "Oh, I realized it when you said that, yes, your grandma said that she would help Mr. We don't seek profit, as long as he does a favor, and then we don't let us know... Yes, there is another thing, your second uncle also told me that your grandma originally refused to let Mr. Shen stay, but in the end Just suddenly mentioned Shen Mingya, saying that she stayed because of her relationship with your father, right?"

I nodded and looked at my second aunt's raised eyebrows exaggeratedly, "Oh, I said, how did your grandma say that saving that Shen would always help your mother? It turns out that the relationship is in this connection. It's on!"

She clapped her hands with a 'snap', and looked at me with a serious analysis, "It means that your grandma knew that there was a crisis in the relationship between your parents, or she knew that the crisis was related to that person named Shen Mingya...but she How did you know it? Forget it, let’s treat it as your grandma and figure it out..."

I reminded from the side, "It should be counted. On the night when Uncle Shen came, I secretly watched grandma offering incense outside Mama Hei's door to petition, that is, to save Uncle Shen, but Mama Hei stared at me. As soon as I was scared, I took a picture of the table behind. There was a piece of paper on it, which was full of incense ash. After I patted it with one hand, I saw that the first word was Shen. I didn’t think it could be Uncle Shen’s name. If it didn’t belong to Uncle Shen, then Grandma Shen Mingya must have been told by Mama Hei, otherwise grandma wouldn't know the name."

Ever since Mingyue asked about Dad's photo, my mind has been thinking non-stop. I don't think everything can be a coincidence. Grandma would not spend such a large amount of money to save a difficult person for no reason. Besides, she kept saying that she was there for her children, so any details, I think there must be an indispensable connection among them, but I was too young and too scared at the time to notice it.

That Mingyue was a little dazed, "Then why did Mama Hei tell your grandma the name Shen Mingya for no reason?"

"It's very simple. Grandma must have asked Mother Hei about my mother, because my mother seems to be in poor health, and a big piece of her shoulder is rotten!"

I looked at the second aunt seriously. If the time period at that time was pushed forward, it would be when my mother came back, that is, before Uncle Shen and the others came. One night, my mother and grandma were in front of Mama Hei After talking for a long time, I think about it now, maybe it was because she had a bad relationship with her father, but she didn’t tell her grandma, so grandma went to ask her mother Hei, so she heard Uncle Shen blurted out the three words Shen Mingya for Uncle Shen's name. Isn't everything clear?
That Mingyue looked at me as if looking at an alien, "Isn't it Baosi? I found out that you are amazing after you have opened up your mind. Are children so careful!"

I was a little anxious, "This is not the point, Second Aunt, there are many things, in fact, they are all foreshadowed, and they didn't happen for no reason!"

That Mingyue nodded in agreement, and slapped her thigh again, "Anyway, no matter how your grandma knew about Shen Mingya, we are clear about this matter, that is to say, your father may be because of this Shen Mingya and your mother. Divorced, and your grandma saved this Shen Mingyuan in the hope that he would help. If, I mean, if, if that Shen Mingya has something to do with your father, then if we saved this Shen Mingyuan, would we be the savior of the Shen family?
I don't believe that Shen Mingya is still ashamed to talk to your father, but something went wrong and it wasn't fixed, and Mr. Shen still left, so your grandma won't let us talk about it, and wants us to screw it up In my stomach, because there is no way to say it, now we are not only useless but also easy to be blackmailed, and your mother can't say it. If your mother knows, your grandma wants to make your mother happy. And to save the younger brother of the woman who broke her marriage, your mother must be angry too, Bao Si, you think your aunt's analysis is right? "

do not know.

In fact, I don’t know if this analysis is right or not, it’s just very depressing, some truths, the more depressed you feel when you get closer, even though the body’s instinct wants you to know everything, but all of this, really Knowing, what will happen, I can only bear it, very weak to bear it.

My lord, why is it so complicated.

"But, didn't my dad say that he loves my mom?"

That Mingyue sighed, "Baosi, actually, my lord, some things are not as simple as you think. Take your grandma saving Mr. Shen as an example. She is wholeheartedly for your mother, isn't she just trying to save her life?" Does that Shen Mingyuan and the Shen family owe us? Mr. Shen is not a person who does not do things. You think, if he goes back alive in a good shape, can he not explain it to his sister? Now think about it, It's no wonder that after your grandma told him about begging him for help, his face was so ugly, it's embarrassing, tsk tsk..."

I think my second aunt may really treat me as an adult, and she doesn't have any scruples to express my feelings, but I feel very aggrieved and uncomfortable in my heart. Don't say whether my father's denial just now is because he lied, just say Shen Uncle, how could you just leave as soon as you said that? All of this was so sudden.

"Second Aunt, I still don't understand why Uncle Sheng and the others didn't come back and didn't tell us that Uncle Shen is gone..."

That Mingyue put her arms around my shoulders and looked up at the ceiling, "Why did you come back? It's right not to come back. Think about it, if Mr. Shen dies, if he can't keep his family members, he'll blow up his ass, and he'll have to ask if we killed him." Yes, if Xiao Sheng was facing us, he wouldn't be able to tell us about us, and Xiao Lu, if he was a sensible child, he would definitely stop his mother, maybe if he didn't come back, it was for our own good. "

I bit my lips tightly, "But grandma has paid a lot for Uncle Shen, her illness, her illness also became serious after Uncle Shen left..."

"Hey! Who cares about you? These days, everyone only looks at the results and not the process. Baosi, I really don't understand. You can talk about that Shen Mingya. It looks like that kind of female entrepreneur, but the age must be at least seven or eight years older than your father, how can the two of them... Oh, Baosi, what's wrong with you?!"

My shoulders trembled uncontrollably, the corners of my grinning mouth made tears flow out uncontrollably, I reached out and wiped it, but there is still, wipe again, and, "Auntie, I don't want grandma to be misunderstood, I want to Go to that Lu Xingyue and explain it clearly to him, but I don't know how to say it...I don't think I can do anything..."

That Mingyue was so frightened by me, she hugged me tightly and patted my back lightly with one hand, "It's okay, Baosi, to put it bluntly, your parents are divorced now Well, no matter whether your dad behaves like others or not, that's not something you worry about. We're not here to figure it out. We're here to see your grandma. Don't feel bad, ah, it's okay. "

I sucked my nose hard, but I still felt out of breath, "But, I'm afraid that my grandma will die. If my grandma dies, what should I do? I don't want to be with my parents. I hate this complicated thing." relation……"

"No, no matter what time it is, our Baishan Village is your home, and your second uncle and I are your parents. As long as you don't want to, no one will dare to send you away..."

My mind was in a mess, although the bright moon comforted me one after another, but I still couldn't listen to anything.

I couldn't figure it out, even if Lu Xingyue felt that he couldn't tell his family about Uncle Shen, why didn't he come? If Uncle Shen suddenly became seriously ill, according to his personality, he would definitely get to the bottom of it.

Even if he is angry, so what, I am also angry, and I don't believe that he is the kind of person who will keep quiet when things happen.

Could it be because he knew about his mother and my father?

But, you can’t, let’s not say that all of this is just my second aunt’s deduction, my dad still doesn’t admit it, even if it’s true, just think about Uncle Shen’s ugly face the night before he left. Got it, I clearly remember that Uncle Shen didn't have much food that night, if adults think this is ugly, why would he tell Lu Xingyue, probably he wouldn't tell him.

Until Mingyue left to take care of grandma to rest, I was still nesting in a corner of the bed by myself, without turning on the light, just sitting there with my hands around my knees, my mind was full of messy things, grandma's illness, Uncle Shen's Death, they seem to be connected with each other, but they can't figure it out.

Rubbing my red and swollen eyes, I reached out to touch the lamp when I heard a familiar voice in the dark air, "Sibao, don't turn on the lamp!"

I was startled, and looked around, "Little annoying?"

"I am here."

I lay my head on the bed and saw a pair of sparkling eyes under the desk at a glance. Although I didn't see the whole body, these eyes were enough to make my heart happy. I could see them here, and there was an inexplicable feeling. The kindness and familiarity of meeting an old friend in a foreign land.

"Little annoying, why are you here? Did you come with us by train?"

Its eyes blinked at me, probably because its body was too dark, so I couldn't see clearly in the night, "I am a spirit fox, I can go to the ground and pass through mountains!"

I half understood, "Then when will you become a great fairy?"

It sighed lightly, "I have to wait for you to seal it. I don't have the skills of a great immortal now. I only have some small supernatural powers and can't do much. I follow you. I just want to tell you that no matter what happens , don’t be sad, be strong.”

I lowered my eyes, not daring to think about the messy things in my mind, "But I don't know how to seal it, and I don't know how to seal it for you."

"You will in the future!"

It looked at me with full eyes, "As long as you grow up, you will understand these things."

I slowly got up from the bed, "Then why me, I have been stupid since I was a child, why don't you find a smart person to seal it for you, if you don't seal it, you won't be able to become a fairy."

"You can't find anyone else."

Its childish voice has always been clear and crisp, "Sibao, I can't tell you clearly about many things. What I can tell you is that everything in this life is what you once wanted. No matter what happens, you can do it yourself." What you want is to be strong and persistent, and I am connected with your fate. I have been practicing for so long, and I am waiting for you, waiting for you to seal me up. When it was sealed."

I still don’t understand, so I can only ask it back in the language I understand, “That is to say, you can become a great immortal on the day I become Mr. Da, right? But what if I can’t become Mr. Da.”

The light in its eyes was a little gloomy, "Then I can only stay like this forever, or maybe I will become an ordinary fox and die of old age in the mountains."

I was a little anxious, "Then you have to help me, tell me what I need to do to become Mr. Big, so that we both can get what we want!"

God knows how much I want to be this Mr. Big, these three words are like a curse that has been dangling in my ears all these years!
"No, I can't remind you. My rule is not to say too much so as not to leak secrets and commit crimes. What I can tell you is that you have worked hard to win this life. I think you must You won't let me down, I will wait for you to grow up, the world is very hard, Sibao, you must be strong..."

"Hey."

I felt that it was going to leave, so I couldn't help feeling a little anxious, "Don't leave without finishing your sentence, at least tell me how Uncle Shen died of illness, why Lu Xingyue and the others didn't come back, how can I let my grandma..."

'Boom boom~'

There was a knock on the door, and I sighed silently. Seeing those eyes flashing for a moment and disappearing completely, I hammered my head, too, it was useless to ask, the little annoying said that it can't reveal the secret , that is, you can't tell me anything, but what's the use of being strong, why do I get more and more aggrieved the more I think about it!

'Boom boom~'

"Bao Si, are you asleep?"

Dad's voice sounded outside the door, I promised to get up and open the door for him, and replied lazily, "No."

He smiled softly, and handed me a cup of warm milk, "Drink it before going to bed, I'm afraid you won't be able to sleep if you change places."

"Thank you."

I politely took it and sat back on the bedside with the big glass in my arms, "Is grandma asleep yet?"

He nodded, pulled the chair beside the desk and sat down in front of me, looked at me carefully, "Bao Si, I seemed to hear voices outside the door just now, are you talking to yourself?"

I lowered my eyes, wanting to say that he would not believe that Xiao Han came with me, so I could only nod, "It's a bit boring."

He has been looking at me, giving me a look that wants to see my growth trajectory through my face, "Bao Si, are you really weird that Dad hasn't visited you?"

The habit after enlightenment let me know that it is not necessary to express what I really think in my heart, so I shook my head, "No blame, I know you and mom are busy with work."

His eyes were a bit complicated, he looked at me and sighed softly, "I know you are weird, you not only look like your mother, but you also have a similar personality, and you always speak insincerely, in fact, Bao Si, Dad really missed me all the time Bring you back, so that our family can live together, but your mother and I have some personality differences. Maybe we are more suitable to be friends, but we always quarrel when we live together, so..."

"Are you in love with another woman?"

Dad was a little surprised, looked at me and then shook his head, "Of course not, I love your mother very much, it's just a matter of personality difference."

I let out a light breath and thought to myself, even if this is not the real answer, it sounds comfortable to me.

"Bao Si, listen to Dad. Divorce is a matter for adults. I know that you are about to enter puberty, and you will have your own opinions and thoughts on these matters, but I want to tell you that no matter whether Dad or Mother or not, we all love you, do you know that you are my only daughter, everything I struggle for is for you, I like you very much."

I don't think I believe it.

"But why did I see you once when I was a child, and I haven't seen grandpa or grandma either."

Dad was communicating with me very seriously, "Because your grandparents live far away from here, they are from the south. When I got married, I didn't have a banquet with your mother, so they never came back, and they didn't even come back. I didn't go to see your grandparents, besides, I was really busy at work at that time, so I couldn't visit you often, but look at this room, this is the bedroom I specially prepared for you, and there is a desk, I have been there all the time I am preparing for you to come back at any time, as long as you think about it, this is your home, you are my daughter, no matter your surname is Xia or not, this is a fact."

I raised my eyes and looked around the girl's room again. There are a lot of plush toys, white desks, pink chairs, and sunflower curtains...

If I was just a girl playing crazy in Baishan Village, then I would be pleasantly surprised to see all these things. These things are something that children in Baishan Village can't have, but now I don't like it at all.

Probably seeing that I was looking seriously, Dad looked at me and continued to open his mouth, "Bao Si, Dad asked you, do you like this place? If you like it, then this time, you can stay and Dad will take care of you, okay?"

"Leave?"

I repeated it softly, but it reminded me of my fate. To be honest, the gossip of the villagers did not hurt me much, but my aunt’s words left a shadow on me. Dike's grandma's condition worsened.

"I do not know."

Dad nodded, "Think about it carefully, if you stay, Dad will contact the school for you, and you will go to school here in the future, okay?"

Seeing that I was silent, my father told me to drink the milk and go to bed early before going out.

I was tossing and turning all night, until I felt that the sky outside the window was bright, and then I fell asleep in a daze. When I opened my eyes, my mother's voice sounded outside the door.

Pushing open the door, I saw my grandma and the others were already sitting on the sofa, my mother's eyes were red, and her face was full of worry and anxiety, "Mom, why didn't you tell me about your poor health earlier?" , tell me earlier, so I can leave my unit's landline for you!"

"What's the use of telling you, will you tell your family, Ruojun! Do you want to hide such a big divorce from me!"

Grandma looked a little better after a night of rest, but her face was still pale.

Mom opened her mouth, "Did Xia Wendong tell you all?"

"Need to say!"

Grandma pointed out, "Is there a little bit of your breath in this room? Ruojun, how righteous your idea is, you dare to hide everything from the family!"

Mom bit her lips and lowered her eyes, "Forget it, it's okay if you know, I divorced him, we broke up peacefully, there's nothing shameful about it..."

Grandma was a little depressed, "You said you didn't tell me when you got married, and you didn't tell me when you got divorced. Do you really think of me as your mother? Although I have only met Wendong once in these years, I think he is nice. Ah, how can you..."

"Oh, Mom! Don't worry about my business! We can be friends even after breaking up!"

My mother was busy arguing with my grandma, and she looked up and saw me, "Bao Si? Bao Si is here too? Ah, come here quickly, let, let Mom see!"

I really want to say, how can I be extremely unfamiliar with every parent-child meeting?

Ah, Baosi, you have grown so tall.

Ah, Bao Si, you have become so handsome.

What a big girl, come on, call mom.

Sigh, did I grow up suddenly after pouring some water? I grew up day by day. If other relatives see me and say this, I will think it is intimacy and affection, but if my parents say these things again, I am really awkward.

But looking at my mother's face, I was so angry that I could only hold it back. I remembered Han Lin's mother's appearance of being stimulated when she got divorced, and she was close to madness. I lost a lot of weight when I saw her for the first time. I think she must have been stimulated too, but she is stronger and more tolerant than Han Lin's mother.

While talking, Dad came back with breakfast, "Sister-in-law, let's have some food first, and Mom won't eat, don't have an inspection in a while because the meal is delayed, according to Ruojun's arrangement, I have already found someone to hang up in the second courtyard It's numbered, and we'll check it directly when we go there in a while."

I kept staring at my mother's expression, but she looked at my father normally, thanked her very politely, and then called my second aunt and me to eat quickly.

After serving the table, my mother was not as embarrassed as I imagined, or she was tense or something. I could still hear my mother saying to my father, please take care of my mother last night.

Dad's expression was a bit complicated that I couldn't describe, and he just nodded slightly, "Don't be polite to me, your mother is also my mother, although she knows everything, but she knows we are still friends."

Mom abruptly swallowed the fried dough sticks in her mouth, and still said those three words, "Thank you."

There was no one talking about the meal, and I was also anxious. After finishing the meal in a hurry, I was about to take my grandma to the hospital. But when I was waiting for the elevator, Mingyue took advantage of my parents' absence and whispered to my grandma, "Mom, what do you mean?" People in the city are more open-minded than people in the countryside. If we get divorced, we will never see each other. We can still be friends. Tell me, it is good to have a high quality. The chickens are flying like dogs."

Grandma's face was already showing that she couldn't control so much fatigue, "Don't people have a face, they won't show it when they are beating behind their backs or arguing in front of us. If Jun is a person who wants to save face, she has lived a lot. If you don't like it, you won't let me know, that child is just thinking, and she can't help it, forget it, I can't control her anymore. "

The second aunt nodded, and stopped talking when she saw my parents coming out.

……

I went straight to the hospital in my father’s car. After helping my grandma to go in, my second aunt and I were still involuntarily stunned. It’s big, it’s really big. For the first time, I felt that the hospital is as big as a shopping mall, with smooth marble floors. , the escalator that can make people look up and feel dizzy, and the patients in Wuyang Wuyang, Mingyue couldn't help but blurt out, "Oh my God, how did this hospital catch up with our rural Daji? There are so many people..."

Dad looked accustomed to it, "Normally, this kind of well-known public hospital receives tens of millions of patients from all over the country a year. There must be more people than specialized hospitals. Come on, you come with me... ..."

Mom also nodded beside her, "Sister-in-law, don't ask too many questions, this is how it is here, as long as it is a hospital, there will be no shortage of people."

The second aunt was full of emotion, obediently followed behind my parents without talking too much.

The examination went very smoothly. Of course, this is due to my father’s friend. If I don’t know anyone, I think I can get some patients out of this big maze. I thought I would go to my mother’s place after the examination in the afternoon. I continued to live, and I knew in my heart that my grandmother's illness could not be cured in one day, but I didn't expect that we would be arranged to be hospitalized that afternoon.

I don't know what disease my grandma was hospitalized for. I heard the doctor who arranged my grandma's hospitalization also said that a detailed examination is needed, but I know the three words written on the sign above the department, 'oncology department. '

Dad originally insisted that grandma should live in a single ward, but grandma disagreed. She said that it would be useless to spend more money, and she would live in a large ward, where there were many people and it was lively.

I was left in the ward to take care of my grandma, while my mother, father, and second aunt went to the doctor's office. I was thinking about it, so I stood at the door of the ward and waited. Seeing the mother who came out and the bright moon, they all wiped their tears.

"Second aunt."

I yelled and ran over, "What did the doctor say."

That Mingyue looked at me and waved her hands, "Baosi, you go and take care of your grandma, the adults will arrange it, you children don't understand..."

I still want to ask, so I watched my father look at my mother with some worry and opened his mouth, "I can tell you, my mother's disease is most likely pancreatic tumor. This kind of disease has a very poor prognosis. Rarely more than five years, usually more than ten months, let alone the economic situation, according to my mother's age, chemotherapy..."

"What do you know!"

My mother suddenly became anxious, "You are just a gynecologist. I don't care what kind of disease she has or how long she can survive after the operation. All I can do is try my best to treat her. That's my mother, do you know that!! "

Dad looked at her helplessly, "Of course I understand your feelings, but this process is very painful, even far surpassing her illness. What I want to tell you is, do you want to consult the old man and see... "

"unnecessary!"

The mother's attitude was firm, "Even if I treat it, it's better to die than to let my mother wait at home to die, do you understand!"

The second aunt pulled her mother's arm, "Ruojun, don't be so excited, my brother-in-law is also kind."

Dad took a deep breath and seemed to calm himself down, "Okay, I won't say much, and I don't want to quarrel with you. I have encountered this disease in our hospital. I think you must know how much it costs. Chemotherapy in the early stage, and maybe radiotherapy after the operation, the total cost is about hundreds of thousands..."

As he said that, he took out a card from his pocket and handed it to my mother, "There is 20 in this card, which is my savings over the years, you know, use it, if it is not enough, I will..."

"I do not need!"

Mom pushed Dad's card away, "Thank you, but I don't need your money now, I'm responsible for my mother's affairs."

That Mingyue was a little confused, "Hundreds of thousands? That's so much... I also brought money, but we..."

"How do you have any money!"

Dad didn't care what the second aunt said, but just watched his mother open her mouth, "You can't take care of yourself now, why don't you steal it?"

Mother gritted her teeth, "You don't have to worry about it. I can only say, thank you for your kindness, but we are divorced now. I am responsible for my family affairs."

After finishing speaking, she turned around and left, "I'm going to raise money now!"

"Hey! Ruojun!!"

Dad caught up with her anxiously, and looked back at me, "Bao Si! Take good care of your grandma! I'll see you later!"

The second aunt was also a little confused on the spot, "What's going on, we brought 10,000+ and it's not enough, my god, is this going to see a doctor or cannibalism... That Baosi, you go back to the ward first, I Go find that doctor, and I'll ask again, why is this money so worthless in the hospital!"

I put my hand on the cold wall of the hospital, lowered my eyes, and turned around stupidly. Even if no one cares about my current thoughts and feelings, I want to say, don’t think about money, save my grandma, save my grandma ...

"Little sister."

Looking up, I saw a sister in the same ward who was much older than me was looking at me with a smile on her face, "Your grandma is asleep, do you want to go open the water with me? After this time period, it will be gone." .”

I sniffed and nodded, stepped forward to take a water bottle, "Thank you sister."

She smiled and took my hand, "Are you worried about your grandma?"

I nodded, "Well, I'm afraid she will die..."

She paused, half bent over and looked at my face very seriously, "Listen to my sister, your grandma will not die, even if one day, she leaves us, she will go to a place where there is no more pain. place, live a good life, she will always be by our side, all we can do is not let them worry, don't let them feel that we are not strong, okay."

I couldn't control my emotions, I shook my head and looked at her, "Not good."

Her eyes were also a little red, "My grandpa lives in the hospital bed opposite your grandma. He is very sick and in pain. The doctor said that his condition is very bad. Maybe he will leave us in two days. I I'm really afraid of leaving him, but I can't make him stay with me all the time. If I force him to stay by my side, I will only watch him suffer. There is no pain in heaven. I think he will go away. That’s right, that’s going to a very beautiful place, looking at me and the people who love him forever and ever.”

I seem to cry a lot in the past two days, and I kept wiping my tears with my hands, "But I can treat them, if they are sick, just go and treat them..."

"Little sister, listen to my sister, your grandma just got this disease, maybe the treatment will be useful to her, maybe she will recover, but my grandpa can't recover, he has been ill for a long time, very painful , My sister just wants to tell you that no matter what happens, you have to open yourself up, don't lock yourself in a dark room, this is what the family who loves you don't want to see, you know."

I nodded sullenly, "I know, I know to be strong."

She held my hand tightly, took a deep breath to suppress the tears in her eyes, "There is a saying that I like very much, it is called, the blue sky is always there, you must not let your heart turn gray , no matter what happens, we have to be good, you know."

I looked up at her, "Sister, what's your name?"

She gently touched my head, "My name is Chaoyang, because my grandfather is often hospitalized, so I am familiar with this place, your hometown is not here."

"Anfeng, from Baishan Village."

She raised the corner of her mouth, "My hometown is in Anyuan, but our village name is very similar. My name is Heishan Village. You look like my sister, too. You are very cute. Come on, sister will help you fetch water. very hot……"

After returning to the ward, my mood has improved a lot under the comfort of Miss Chaoyang. To be honest, although she hasn't known me for a long time, and she didn't say much about how familiar she is, just a few words, I feel I like her very much and want to be close to her.

Of course, her cheerfulness and sunshine are part of it. What’s more, I feel that I have a feeling of sympathy with her. I think that kind of feeling is only understood by her. It is the most respected elder who is seriously ill. What do I want to do? , but I feel like I can't do anything, so her relief is very useful to me.

I stayed in the ward all afternoon, my mother brought some meals at noon and was in a hurry to buy daily necessities, and my second aunt was going to call my second uncle, so for a long time, I was the only one who stayed with my grandma in the ward, of course, And Miss Chaoyang, and her grandfather.

This room is very big, and I don't know if it is taken care of by a doctor. The only sick patients are my grandma and her grandfather.

But her grandpa was really too quiet, just lying there with a breathing mask on her nose, she would turn around and give me an encouraging smile after wiping her grandpa's body, as if telling me to be strong, but in fact, I think it's telling her too.

Whenever I see her like this, I will hold my grandma's hand unconsciously. In fact, I am afraid. The more I see such a scene, the more afraid my grandma will leave.

In the evening, people from her family seemed to come over. Two men were carrying a big bag in their hands, "Chaoyang, I've sold out all the old clothes. Would you like to see if your grandpa likes this style?" of."

Chaoyang didn't speak, but just opened the black bag and took a look, feeling a little out of control at that moment, covered his mouth, and cried in restraint.

One of the older ones looked at her and sighed, "Why are you crying? Your grandfather has been here for many years, and you can do it. At school, you are looking for classmates to collect donations, and you ask your adoptive parents to help you pay for it." If it is not normal, who would be able to see this disease, you are a good boy, you have done more than uncles, and now the hospital is not recruiting, so if you leave early, your grandfather will enjoy the blessings."

I gritted my teeth, why am I so disgusted with this word now!

Sister Chaoyang sniffed hard, "Master, then my parents didn't say when to come and have a look..."

"Your parents really can't count on it now. They say they can't come now, and there are many jobs in the countryside. When your grandfather was sober, he didn't plan to bury him in his hometown. So let's do it here. Didn't your adoptive parents say that they would find you?" Is it a cemetery? I think it is very good, and there is still a place to worship..."

Sister Chaoyang nodded, "Alright then, put this clothes here now, let's wait for my grandpa..."

As she spoke, she broke down again, "I don't want to see these things, can I take them out first?"

The two men began to sigh again, "Chaoyang, who is willing to watch this? It's useless. I'll ask my hometown to find someone to do it. Let's find out what time it is when we leave. Let's change clothes , otherwise I heard that if you just leave like this, you will have no clothes to wear..."

The man next to him also nodded, "Yes, you have to change your clothes while you are alive, otherwise it won't be easy to wear, brother, you should ask now, or we will have no idea."

As the man vented his anger, Chaoyang was a little unhappy, "What do you do with these things, can you be sure? People can leave at what time they say."

The man was a little anxious, "Chaoyang, you are young, and you are still like this now. I don't believe your aunt, is she so particular about it?"

Mingyue, who had just entered the door for a while, was stunned when she was called, and then nodded perfunctorily, "It seems that there are such particularities, but they are all particular about the rural areas, and I don't know about the urban ones."

"It's all the same in rural areas and cities!":
The man said and sighed, "I'll finish changing sooner, and I'll be warm when I'm on the road, otherwise it's cold down there..."

I didn't say a word, I just looked at the grandpa in a daze, and after a while, the man who went out came out sweating profusely, and waved his hands with a mournful face, "In vain, the man I was looking for said he was out, and he didn't know when he came back."

"Then what's the matter? The doctor said it's only been a few days. If it happens all of a sudden, shouldn't we be caught blind!"

Mingyue looked at grandma when she heard the sound, but grandma's eyes were closed all the time, she seemed to be sleeping but she didn't dare to talk too much.

Sister Chaoyang was a little helpless, "Forget it, it doesn't matter, it doesn't matter if you change your clothes or not..."

"It has to be changed."

The grandma who closed her eyes suddenly said, "If you don't change it, it will be cold if you go on like this. Let's find someone to check the time and change it to be safe."

The room was silent for a moment, the two men looked at each other but had no idea, "But, who do you look for, this thing, I don't understand people, neither do we."

"Mom, look..."

Mingyue opened her mouth tentatively, but grandma raised her hand with her eyes closed, signaling that it was useless to find her, "I don't have the energy anymore."

"let me try."

I got up straight away amidst everyone's amazed expressions, and watched the grandpa wearing the oxygen mask open his mouth, "I can try."

(End of this chapter)