I'm Mrs.

Chapter 163 What Do I Know?

Qin Sen simply rejected me, "Impossible."

I looked up at him, I knew where my strengths were, and I would make a pitiful beg for help, but at this moment, I couldn't make any expression, "Qin Sen, didn't you say that we are friends? .”

He nodded, "Yes, but I can't help you and Lu Er, sorry."

I nodded, I understand, there is no need to beg anymore, Qin Sen is my friend and has helped me a lot, but compared to Lu Er, he will always be loyal to Lu Er.

Lu Er.

Lu Er...

"Bao Si, I hope you are well."

Qin Sen seemed to be showing mercy to me, did he think I was too pitiful at this moment?

"Since Lu Er has remembered everything, he must have thought about it a lot. It would be very troublesome if the godmother knew about Uncle Shen's medical treatment at your house, so I don't think the result is bad. .”

I lowered my eyes and clearly saw tears falling on my white cloth shoes one by one.

"All I care about is whether he likes me or not..."

"Don't be so childish."

Qin Sen felt helpless, "Like is not love, you are so young, what do you know?"

Oh, what do I know.

I know that when Lu Pei hugs me, his heartbeat will speed up. I know that he likes the way he looks at me. What do I know? I know that he cares about me, it's that simple.

"Are you listening to me, Bao Si, don't do stupid things, you know, you will still have..."

"do not talk."

I lightly interrupted him, took a deep breath and took out a box from my schoolbag and handed it to him, "I gave it to you, watch, thank you for telling me how to break the beauty body, everything, thank you .”

At the beginning, I bought two pieces, one for Han Lin and one for Qin Sen, but when I gave it to Han Lin, I chose a sports watch, and for Qin Sen, I chose a black belt watch. I saw that Lu Pei wore it like this, so when I bought it, I wanted to choose it.

He was startled, "This..."

I lowered my eyes and didn't look at him, and stuffed the box into his hand, "I don't know the brand, but this watch costs more than 1000, which is very expensive to me. I think maybe you are the same as my father, you are all Wear a watch worth tens of thousands of yuan, but I don’t have the ability, all I can do is thank you as much as I can, accept it.”

After finishing speaking, I bowed to him, "Thank you."

Holding the watch, Qin Sen was at a loss, "Bao Si, even if you are like this, I can't tell you where Lu Er lives."

I suddenly wanted to laugh, how can these smart people think so deeply.

Holding the corner of his mouth and looking at Qin Sen and shaking his head, "I don't need you to tell me, I understand you, okay, I'm just grateful to you, thank you for taking care of me... goodbye."

"Bao Si!"

When he opened the door, he called me from behind, "Let's go after eating."

I looked back at him, he was trying to smile, "I thank you for the gift, I like it very much, we are still friends, let's have some dinner together."

"No."

I replied softly, "I have to save my own life, otherwise, I can't do anything."

empty.

My mind and heart are empty.

I held onto the handle of the stairs and went downstairs. When I went out, I felt the sun was dazzling, so I slightly raised my hand to cover it up. How could I fail to beat Lu Er with such a hard life?

Taking the bus home, I did not forget to send a text message to Pang Pang. I said that I want something tomorrow morning, please bring it to me.

Going home in a daze, after entering the door, I found a mineral water bottle mechanically, drew the scale, then cut it in half with scissors, put it on the coffee table, and pushed out the blade of the paper cutter, I looked at myself In his right hand, the blade made a gesture on the middle finger, but it still landed on the ring finger.

The ring finger is the most inflexible finger of human beings, but it is called nameless, in order to engrave the name of the other half one day.

I have never worn a ring, but I think bloodletting is also an impressive thing.

The knife went down, I don’t know if it’s because of the sharpness of the knife, it didn’t hurt very much, the blood dripped into the mineral water bottle, there was red blood, and there was also a transparent liquid, I looked at it for a long time, still wondering , How could my blood flow out transparently? It took me a long time to understand that it was me who was crying.

Looking at the bloody fingers like a fool, I inexplicably remembered how I was squatting and falling asleep at the door of his house. He woke me up by pressing the car horn, and asked me pretending to be innocent. ...

Even if he doesn't know me, he still has feelings for me. I don't know. I just have that confidence. I think he will take me in and help me. Not really going to hate him very much.

It seems to be soon, but I think I waited for a long time, waited for a long time before he said that he likes me, but how long have we been together, one day, one night, one phone call that I didn't hang up.

It's over like this, isn't it said to be responsible for a lifetime, my mother died in Zhou's hands a few days ago, that's a lifetime, okay?

When I came back to my senses, the blood had far exceeded the scale, and it was much thinner than usual. There were a lot of my tears, and I smiled with the corners of my mouth, trembling and sad, "How good, how can the hurt tears need to be specially drained?" Cai, I will be able to help you with a little help..."

At night, my mother still didn’t come back. I was alone, wrapping my fingers and instant noodles, but I couldn’t swallow them when I ate them. I forced myself to eat, swallow them, and sleep with my eyes closed. I have to live. This is what I thought when I was young. If I go down, I'm afraid everything will get out of hand.

……

When Pang Pang found my house according to the address in my text message, I opened the door for her like a ghost, and her smiling face froze in an instant, panicking, "Bao Si, what's wrong with you?! Who hurt your arm!"

I didn't open my mouth, I took her arm to enter the door until I walked into the door of my house, I didn't give her any space to comment on my house, I was in a daze, and leaned my face on her warm shoulder, "Fatty, I envy you ,do you know."

Pang Pang was a little dazed, she looked at me ignorantly, "Bao Si, why are you leaving? Your mother said you and beat you."

I still shook my head, opened my eyes, tears flowed, and put my arms around her body, cold, it has been very cold since last night.

"Why is life so tiring..."

She didn't dare to ask any more, and comforted me incoherently, "Bao Si, don't think too much, didn't you tell me that no matter what happens, there will be no hurdles you can't get over, keep the green hills, don't be afraid Chai Shao, oops, what am I talking about...Bao Si, what happened to you?"

I wiped away my tears and looked at her with a smile on the corner of my mouth, "You're right, keep the green hills here, don't worry about running out of firewood, my green hills are still there, it's okay... Come on, let me see the leeches, are you still alive?" It’s good to know that the mineral water bottle is eye-catching, it’s all alive, it’s good.”

Pang Pang looked at me with some confusion, "Bao Si, I'm quite afraid of you like this. You don't have any blood on your face, and your arms are still being scratched so hard. Who did it?"

"The cat scratched it, the cat went crazy, and suddenly it was scratched by me, it's okay, the scab is coming off soon."

I relaxed my tone a bit, and continued to think about the things she brought me. Feeling that they were all complete, I raised my face and sniffed and smiled at her, "It's all complete, let's go to the market to buy loach, if you want to live, you Help me choose, okay?"

Putting on long sleeves, I took Pang Pang to the market. Along the way, I knew that she wanted to ask a lot of questions, but I interrupted them all. She couldn't help it until I sent her to the station after shopping. Exit, "Bao Si, have you lost your love?"

I laughed, tiredly, "No, how could I be so cute as Youth and Invincible?"

Pang Pang felt distressed in his eyes, "Don't embarrass yourself so much, if you are unhappy, tell me, I can help you, as long as I can help, I will definitely help."

I pursed my lips and nodded with a smile, "Well, I will."

……

It went very smoothly, as long as I calm down and do everything, I think it will go well. My mother rushed back after receiving my call. She was supposed to work overtime, but I said not to overtime. Immediately happy over there, said yes, will come back immediately.

I sat on the bed and waited, watching the second hand of the clock move forward little by little with dull eyes. At eight o'clock in the evening, my mother came in. When I saw the leeches, I was still shocked, "There are so many!"

"It doesn't hurt..."

I explained in a hoarse voice, and my mother came back to her senses, but looked at me a little surprised, "Bao Si, why are your eyes so swollen, have you not slept in the past few nights?"

"Well, a little sleepless."

Mom nodded, looked at me with some guilt and sighed, "You should worry about my affairs, it's all Mom's fault."

I still smiled, a very fake smile, I only saw my eyes but didn’t see the long sleeves I was wearing, don’t you think it’s strange, in the midsummer of August, I wrapped myself so tightly at home.

But I didn't ask, I thought, in my mother's heart, she may love me and my father, but more, she loves herself.

How wonderful, you should love yourself more, and those who are capable should only torment others and protect themselves.

I asked my mother to lie down on the bed first, and opened her clothes. When the black and purple skin was lumpy and caught my eyes, I couldn't help retching. There were a lot of yellow and white pus, accompanied by an inexplicable phlegm. The stench kept drifting towards the nose.

Mom was cautious, "Is it serious?"

I held my breath and poured all the leeches on top, "It's okay,"

The leeches don't like to burrow into it very much. It seems that they also know the difference between the smell and smell, but they have an irresistible instinct, wriggling, and getting into the mother's flesh little by little. I don't open my eyes, I can't look anymore, There is nothing in the stomach, and the feeling of vomiting acid water is not very good.

"Hey~"

Mom was a little surprised, "I actually feel pain."

I smiled perfunctorily and said, "This is a good thing, come on, swallow the loach now, and I have to take other medicines later..."

My mother didn't want to swallow it a bit, but looking into my eyes, she raised her breath and grabbed the messy and twisted loach and swallowed it into her mouth. She covered her mouth, wrinkled her expression, and swallowed it hard.

Until I swallowed everything I bought, my mother was sweating profusely, and looked at me as if she had just finished a big battle, "What else to eat."

I motioned her to stand with her back to me, and saw that the leeches had grown a few sizes. She was full. I found a lighter, lightly flicked it, and then scraped it with a knife. The bloodshot locusts fell one after another.

My mother started to cry about the pain, which was a good sign. If she knew the pain, it meant that the old tree was about to sprout new shoots.

After the leech came down, bright red blood started to flow from my mother's back. I grabbed a handful of grass clippings and applied it to her wound. Because it will release something like an anesthetic during the blood sucking process.

But the wound is easy to bleed after falling off. I have to take this into consideration, so I asked Pang Pang to get the scorpion grass. I saw my grandma used it when I was a child. This thing has a good effect on stopping bleeding.

I've been busy for a long time, but it's a pity that my mother didn't ask, otherwise I really want to explain this deer grass to her.

I could see that her complexion was not very good. She must have been in a bad mood after swallowing several loaches raw. I was not idle, so I let her continue to eat these powdered medicinal materials, poisonous spiders, centipedes, scorpions, snake gall...

The taste is very strong, and my mother hesitated for a long time with a spoon and dared not put it in her mouth. I was a little anxious, "Eat it, it's okay."

I'm ashamed to say that this food is not much more delicious than her rotten meat, and now I think about it and my stomach hurts.

My mother gritted her teeth, poured it into her mouth, and kept drinking water to send it. Tears came out of her eyes. I think it’s a sin for her to suffer a little bit. , my mother shook her head and said that I couldn’t eat this, and I said I had to eat it, “For yourself in the future, you have to eat it if you don’t eat it.”

I thought I was very calm, but my mother looked at me with a complicated look. After eating a few mouthfuls, she couldn't help retching a few times, wiped her mouth and asked me, "Bao Si, are you very angry with me? Some look down on me?"

turn around.I went to get a towel, the last step was completed, the bet was placed on this beautiful body, whether it can be broken or not depends on the introduction.

"Mom, let's stop talking about your matter. What I hope is to let it pass quickly. Both you and I want to forget about these things as soon as possible."

My mother looked at me, bit her lip, and nodded after a while, "Okay."

Let her lie down on the bed again, and I asked her, whether to stab out the six-character mantra or to suppress it?
Mom said, six-character mantra.

I nodded, and took out the blood from the refrigerator. A needle had been soaking in it all afternoon. My mother glanced at it, a little surprised, "Baosi, you put so much blood?"

"Well, not much, nothing."

It's me and Lu Er's blood that merged together.

"Does it matter?"

"The point is, love..."

As I said, the hand that took out the needle paused, it was love, there was love blood, but Lu Er told me to break up, would that blood have love, I thought blankly, just right, I can try it, or I died with my mother, or I indirectly peeked into Lu Er's heart.

I wiped my mother's back with a towel, and the black rotten skin peeled off, revealing the bloodshot tender flesh. How wonderful, my mother is going to be born again.

With the tattoo on my hand, I murmured softly, "May you have all the blessings and a long life, and may you have endless discernment to have mighty power...May you get rid of all diseases and prolong your life...May you eradicate ignorance , hatred, stinginess, jealousy, and other troubles..."

Mother's body trembled slightly, "Bao Si, you are crying."

"No……"

She looked at me sideways, "I feel it."

I held the corner of my mouth and sniffed softly, "I'm just happy."

In fact, there is no need to deliberately take the tears of hurt, I found that I couldn't control myself to cry.

Finished.

I smeared the blood all over my mother’s back, and I told her to stand it overnight, wait until it is fully soaked, and then wash it off tomorrow morning, “Be gentle when washing, don’t use shower gel, the dead skin on the back will peel off, and chemical irritation will cause skin irritation. It hurts."

Mom nodded, looked at me and said thank you, I don't want to listen to this anymore, said I was tired, let my mother go to bed early, and when she came back to the cabin, I packed up my things and lay down on the bed with my legs curled up.

It's that simple. Once I thought, if everything goes well for me, I must call Lu Er after the stabbing, and tell him excitedly that I have taken another step on the road to being a husband!
But now, I took out my mobile phone, and I still sent a text message to that number, 'I've ruined my body, tell me, is your blood emotional blood? If not, I'll die. '

He didn't return.

I close my eyes and force myself to sleep.

Three days later, my mother called me from the work unit, and the voice could not restrain surprise, "Baosi, the scabs have fallen off! The skin is smooth! These two days I always vomit for no reason, and the things I vomit are all It’s black like scum, now I think, it must be detoxification, Bao Si, my mother is finally getting better, and I finally don’t have to suffer like this anymore!”

I squeezed the phone tightly until I put it down, but I couldn't utter a word. My mother was still saying that I was her lucky star, but I was too repulsed, and I didn't want to hear it.

It's just that mom is okay, okay, isn't she.

Love and blood, Lu Er, you are a liar.

School started early, and I went to report with my schoolbag on my back as usual. Pang Pang looked at my tentativeness carefully and asked me how I was feeling. I smiled at her and said it was fine, I was fine.

It's really good, it looks good, and I'm grateful I'm faking it.

Except for the plummeting grades, I am really good at everything, no, not all subjects are declining, my English is still good, I am studying hard, memorizing, and I am doing some kind of preparation that I can’t explain myself .

When the class teacher called me to the office, I looked at the big tree on the playground outside the window and lost my mind. How come the leaves are about to fall off.

"Xue admits!"

The head teacher called my name to draw my attention back, and kept tapping my paper with his fingers, "What's wrong with you, you're in the third year of high school, your grades have dropped so much, don't you feel any sense of crisis at all?"

A sense of crisis, the countdown to the college entrance examination that is changing every day on the blackboard is quite a sense of crisis.

The class teacher spoke softly, "Xue Zhen, the teacher has always thought you are very smart and your grades have been stable. Tell me, recently, is there something wrong with your family, or something on your mind."

I shook my head, "No, I don't have anything on my mind, teacher, I just want to ask you, is it necessary to go to university to be successful?"

The homeroom teacher was stunned for a moment, "Of course not, but getting into college is a shortcut to success. If you work hard on your grades, it's no problem to get into a good university. The English teacher told me that you have made a lot of progress recently, but you can't just improve one subject. Your grades, your history is also..."

"I can not remember."

I replied directly to the teacher's words, "I've memorized farming economics for a long time, but I just can't remember..."

The head teacher took my hand, "Xue Zhen, the dean has been asking me to supervise you more, I know she knows your father, and I also know your father is a doctor, I think, your father is so good, you don't It will be bad, tell the teacher, is there a big fluctuation in thinking recently?"

I twitched the corners of my mouth jerky, "No fluctuations, I just don't have the heart to study, I don't know if I want to go to college or not."

The class teacher was a little displeased, "If you are so out of control again, I will call your parents, you know."

I nodded, "Teacher, I know I was wrong. I will try my best to adjust my emotions and try to let you see your progress in the next exam."

When I walked back to the classroom, I tightened my school uniform jacket. It was a bit cold. I would be stunned if I lay down on the corridor. The yellow leaves on the ground under the big tree, now when I wake up in the morning, I will find hoarfrost. When I breathe out, there will be white mist , winter is coming.

"Bao Si!"

Pang Pang ran over in panic, "The teacher didn't say anything to you, did you?"

I looked at the playground in a daze, "No, it's just that the test is a little low, it's okay."

When the first day of school started, I saw Qin Sen's car at the school gate, and I laughed twice in my heart. It was obviously Lu Errang's, and I wanted to see if I would go to school.

I was waiting, waiting for him to appear, waiting for him to come out to find me, but day after day, he shut down the cell phone that I knew the number, silently. Peaceful, a bit strenuous.

Lu Er, can you resist not seeing me?

I know he is still here, I will call Assistant Yang every day, if he doesn’t answer, I will call my elder brother, who will not see him often, but it is not difficult to know if Lu Er is still in this city, I'm like a madman, immersed in the packed shell, ready to go.

"Bao Si, what's the matter with you? You're getting more and more depressed every day. Don't scare me like that. Eleven Han Lin is here. We three are going out to play. You look like you have no soul. You can't even hear what you say. You don't even know that when you left, Han Lin was watching you from behind!"

I was a little surprised, "When did Han Lin come here?"

Pang Pang was speechless, "Last month, he came here during the National Day holiday and bought you a big bear! Have you forgotten!"

Big bear?

Oh, I just said that when I woke up that morning, I suddenly found out where the big bear came from, and I was shocked.

"Bao Si, why don't we do this? If you have something to say, don't hold it in your heart!"

"I am fine."

He went back to work with no enthusiasm, lay down on the table and began to sleep, Pang Pang sighed beside him, "What's the matter, I don't know what to do seeing you like this."

I didn't respond, I was in a trance, as if I was asleep, and faintly, I heard the crying sound, rubbing my eyes and looking up, Tong Qianqian sat in her seat and turned to look at me, red tears kept dripping down the corners of her eyes ...

With a shock in my body, I sat up straight, my eyes instinctively looked at Tong Qianqian's seat, it was empty, since school started, the seat belonging to Tong Qianqian was always empty.

(End of this chapter)