I'm Mrs.

Chapter 179 Don't Look For Me
"My one is broken."

Seeing me fiddling with the crystal ball without speaking for a long time, Han Lin smiled at me comfortingly, "I'm very touched that you can go out and buy a new one."

"Forehead……"

I was a little embarrassed, raised my hand and put the crystal ball back on the desk, "Well, I..."

"It's okay, if it's broken, it's broken. This thing is fragile."

He grinned grinningly, "Are you a little scared when you see what I wrote?"

I lowered my eyes and scratched my head, not embarrassed to ask what you wrote, I don’t know anything.

"Maybe, I was too sudden, I know, you can't accept it so quickly..."

Han Lin inexplicably turned on the self-talk mode, "Last winter, I ordered a song for you, but after thinking about it later, I always felt that it was not suitable, and then Pang Pang told me that you dropped out of school I don’t need the number anymore, I’m still wondering if it’s because of me…”

"no!"

I interrupted him directly, "It's nothing to do with you that I quit school, I just don't miss it."

Han Lin nodded, pursed the corners of his lower lips, and his face was full of shy confusion, "I know, you are young, and we have known each other since childhood. Some things are embarrassing to say, but I wrote them under the crystal ball seat. What I say is the truth, I, that..."

He glanced back out of the window and saw my second aunt and uncle were in the courtyard with Pang Bangla’s housework and seemed to have raised his courage, “I still want to tell you in person, let you know… I like you, but I won't force you to accept me, I can, give you time... as long as you want."

Oh my god.

Immediately my scalp went numb, and I cursed myself for being so owed, everyone was chatting in the yard and I went to the yard too, why would I go to the side when I saw him playing with my crystal ball!

"that……"

Han Lin suddenly smiled, and raised his hand to interrupt me, "I know what you think, Pang Pang told me, she said you don't think about these things now, I also know it's still early, I haven't worked yet, stand by From your point of view, you must think that I am not reliable, there is plenty of time, you can give me an answer after my work and life are stable in the future, I am telling you this now, just to let you know, that's all."

"I……"

"Let's go to the yard too, and talk to your second uncle and the others."

Han Lin pulled my arm as if he didn't want me to express my opinion, "We can go fishing by the river in the afternoon. I was very good at it when I was young... Let's go."

I stood still, and pulled my arm from him, "Han Lin, I don't like nonsense, and if I don't explain it clearly, I will feel uncomfortable."

Han Lin smiled, "I know what you mean, so I'll give you time, we haven't done much yet..."

"I understand what you mean too!"

I seriously interrupted him, "But no matter how much time you give me, it's useless. Let me tell you the truth, I have someone I like. He can't get out, and others can't get in. It's as simple as that. Do you understand what I mean?"

The smile on Han Lin's face froze, "Is there someone you like? Who, who."

I exhaled helplessly, "You don't need to know his name, he is a bastard, we have already broken up, but there is no way, I am proud of him, as you said, when I was young, I was very stupid, stubborn, like You can't forget the last person, so if you turn to the light as soon as possible, we can still be friends, otherwise we won't even be friends."

Han Lin took a deep breath, "You mean...the two of you broke up, right?"

I don't think I need to hide anything, so I nodded generously, "It's divided."

Han Lin's eyes were incredulous, "That's... when did we get together? Why didn't I listen to Pang Pang..."

"I haven't told anyone about it."

I raised my eyes and looked at him, "My family doesn't know about this matter. It's not a nice thing to hear about my puppy love, but I think I have to tell you, otherwise your efforts are meaningless, isn't it? It's a very beautiful thing, really, I think two people are equal only if they like each other, you say I'm right."

Han Lin's drooping eyelids completely covered the light in his eyes. I always thought he was a very sunny boy, and he was very energetic and warm when he smiled. But I'm afraid of heat, so my taste may be different from others. , I like the moonlight.

Patting his arm, "Han Lin, as a smart person, you should know that you should never be someone's spare tire, otherwise, you will hurt yourself in the end. Everyone should treat themselves kindly, right? "

He didn't raise his eyes, but he laughed at himself, "Bao Si, you are so different from other girls, I thought you would say something inappropriate, or something about your personality, but I didn't expect that, It's weird that you comfort me like this..."

Is it weird, I don't think it's weird.

I feel very tired every day when I watch Xiao Liu chasing someone who doesn’t like me. This kind of thing will be clear to the onlookers. Therefore, according to the experience I got from Xiao Liu, I think he is going to the spare tire if he goes on like this. , and I don't need a spare tire.

I am very concerned about emotional matters, and I also feel that there is no way to do it. Either I am single, or I like that one, otherwise it would be unfair, torturing myself and delaying others.

"Han Lin, you..."

"I see."

Standing there for a long time, Han Lin raised his head and looked at me with a forced smile, "Thank you for your honesty, really."

I chuckled, "Just figure it out, I think the stupidest thing is..."

"I will wait for you."

"what?!"

I'm hallucinating!
Han Lin smiled again, "Didn't they all break up? It's okay. I can wait. As you said, treat yourself well, so I have the right to pursue my own happiness, right?"

I was stunned, this child must have taken the wrong medicine.

"You're making us not even have to be friends!"

Han Lin who walked to the door looked back at me, "I don't want to lie, I just want to be friends with you. I have a lot of time, and I can wait. When you feel that the person in your heart has come out, I won't be able to get in." , also willing to be a doorman."

I go!

I kept my mouth open for a long time, until I saw Han Lin enter the yard through the window.Don't hold back!

In a blink of an eye, Xiao Liu poked his head in from the door frame, "Fourth Sister, I heard everything..."

Not wanting to see his frowning face, she pulled out the chair and sat down directly beside the desk, her eyes staring at the crystal ball and she straightened, "Go away."

Xiao Liu didn't think it was a big deal, hehehehe kept laughing, and walked to me with a half-gnawed apple in his hand, "Hey, the third brother-in-law."

I rolled his eyes at him and paused every word, "Brother, house, um, get out."

Xiaoliu smiled and ate the apples, but looked towards the courtyard from time to time, "I just said that Brother Dalin is so good that he insists on coming back to visit some kind of relatives. The affectionate relatives are at my Xue's house. The four of us Sister is a village flower, everyone wants to pinch it... Oh oh oh, fourth sister, fourth sister..."

I glared at him with a blank face, "If you're in love with me, believe it or not, I'll strangle you first."

Xiao Liu's facial features were distorted, "I was wrong, I was wrong, I just want to see who can become my brother-in-law, I like the big brother-in-law the most, hey, hey, it hurts..."

"Baosi! Let's go! Han Lin said to fish by the river!!"

I let go of my hand viciously, looked at Pang Pang and smiled, "Okay, let's go."

Pang Pang looked at Xiao Liu with some doubts, "What's wrong with your brother, why does it hurt?"

I snorted and took Pang Pang's arm, "Don't worry about him, it's hot recently and he has hemorrhoids."

"What, hemorrhoids? Your brother has hemorrhoids at such a young age."

Ignoring Xiao Liu's staring eyes from behind, I pursed my lips and took Pang's hand and walked out, "He, it's a mixture of internal and external hemorrhoids, it's serious."

……

Pang Pang stayed at my house for a week. During this period, I wanted to go to the mountain to see where I lived, but I refused. It’s not that I was stingy and didn’t tell her, but I didn’t think there was anything interesting. Besides, we would fight when we were together. There is no taboo in making noise and making jokes. I'm fine at home, but I don't feel very good at my uncle's house.

At the beginning, Pang Pang was still very persistent, so I came up with a quid pro quo, I said you tell me who you like, and I will consider taking you up there, but the sisters immediately ran out of battery, and it was too late. No more fussing about going to see it, this little secret is not usually kept from me.

When she left, her eyes were still flushed with tears, and she said that she might have to help the family with business after going to university, and she didn’t have so much time to come see me again, so she had to call often, I kept nodding, and didn’t want her to Such tossing is mainly because we can all do well, which is better than anything else.

"Bao Si, you must come back quickly, we can meet when we come to Bincheng."

I answered with my mouth, but I didn't know how long I would have to wait in my heart. I waved my hands until the bus she was sitting in could no longer be seen, and then I followed my second aunt, Xiao Liu, who sent her off together, and walked slowly towards home along the dirt road in the village. .

The sun is very strong, but I feel a little lonely in my heart.

Silently comfort myself, life is like this, when there is a reunion, there will be parting, it's no big deal, when we meet again, we will definitely become what we want.

Han Lin didn't go with Pang Pang. He stayed at my house for two days and then visited his aunt's house and his relatives in the neighboring villages. When he came back, Pang Pang had already returned to Bincheng for several days. Well, to be honest, I was really embarrassed by his sudden confession that day.

But then he looked at me or got along with me as if nothing had happened, it was so natural.

As for me, I didn't throw face at others or pull him aside to tell him that we are not suitable. I don't think it is necessary. Sometimes, the more you say it is not suitable, the more unwilling people are to give up, so I simply return to myself. Benzhen, love whoever you want, if I always worry about what other people think, I still need to live.

Han Lin really spared no effort. He has been helping with the work in my house for a few days, whether it is chopping firewood or repairing the warehouse. Anyway, he is not idle. The people in the village must be strange. What kind of work does Han Lin come to my house so well? , My second aunt stopped everyone's mouths with a single sentence, what are you talking about, Xiao Linzi is my godson! !

I know the intention of the second aunt. With so many eyes watching in the village, who wouldn't wonder why Han Lin is helping my family like this? But from the perspective of the second aunt, she can't stop Han Lin, let alone fight with others. Face, so I came up with such a pattern, mainly for me.

It's like she told me behind my back, she said that I'm still young, so it's not easy to gossip, if people misunderstand that Han Lin is my partner, it will be troublesome.

In the end, the second aunt said as if she had come here, "Bao Si, I can tell at a glance that Han Lin is interested in you, but we can't play blindly with a good hand. Xiao Linzi is a good kid, but talk about those things." It's still early, I need to observe more. For Xiao Liu, I just leave when I see the profit. , there is no rush."

I held the corner of my mouth, just listened, and didn't want to talk. I was really grateful to my second aunt.

Until Han Lin left, the second aunt was always a godson, and Han Lin was always coming for any delicious food at home, which made him feel embarrassed. When he got in the car, he looked at me and smiled softly, "Bao Four, take care of yourself."

The second aunt put her arms around my shoulders and looked at him carelessly, "There is nothing to worry about Baosi in her own home. Her second uncle protects her like an eyeball, but you have to take care of yourself, study hard, and you will be fine." Come back and have a look."

"Hey, good."

Han Lin has always been flattered by the "love" of his second aunt. He was embarrassed to call Mingyue Godmother, and he just nodded when he heard her words. Waving my hand, I shook my hand perfunctorily, and let out a long breath in my heart, God, there are quite a few people with one tendon,

Xiao Liu squeezed his throat and waved, "Third brother-in-law~ have a good trip~~"

The voice was thin and small, but Mingyue still heard it, "Third brother-in-law, who is your third sister?"

Xiao Liu heheed for a while, looked at the bus that turned out of sight, and sighed, "Oh, Mom, you don't understand, my third brother-in-law is not easy, it's just another me..."

That Mingyue frowned and looked at me, "Baosi, what is he talking about, I think this kid is getting more and more heartless."

I had no choice but to pinch him and it hurt my hands.

……

The arrival of Pang Pang brought me a little surprise, but the days are still my days alone, and nothing has changed.

I am like a pious practitioner, doing the same thing every day in a regular manner.

Occasionally, I will be a little bit interested, fold a wooden stick to draw a big gossip diagram in the yard, point sand to make a formation, and enjoy myself.

Xiaoliu will come to stay with me for a few days every month, and bring some rice noodles and the latest news and current affairs according to my requirements. I know that life will be slower this way, but I try not to lose touch with the times. There is no way, uncle If I can't finish reading the master's book, I won't go down the mountain.

After a long time, Xiao Liu couldn't wait for me to find a job in the town as a network administrator. He licked his face and told me that it was in the IT industry. In my opinion, it was entirely to satisfy his own selfish desire to play games.

My mother still only came back during the Chinese New Year and stayed for two days in a hurry. She didn’t get along for a long time, and it was inevitable that she would be unfamiliar when she met again. She knew that I was on the mountain to read a book, and the opening sentence gradually changed to, Bao Si, how is the book going.

I'm almost back.

She said, your grandma must be pleased with you like this, it's not easy.

I didn't know what to say, I was silent for a long time, until the second aunt came to collect it, and it was like this every year, until I was numb.

…When I groped for the last book on that bookshelf, I didn’t feel the sense of surprise that I thought at the beginning, so I continued to read it calmly.

how many years.

I couldn't remember clearly for a while, until I remembered the phone call with Pangbang when I went down the mountain last month. She complained to me that the magazine's work was too boring, the sales were not good, and the leader made fun of her every day. She had decided to be a freelancer. Contributor too.

"Bao Si, you don't even know. My parents keep urging me to go home, but I don't want to. I'm just messing around for two years while I don't lack money. When will you come back? Come here, my dad The house bought for me was quite big, and I was suffocated to death living alone..."

She has graduated from a three-year college, that is, oh, four years.

That's right, it's been four years, and Han Lin has passed the recruitment examination to become a police officer. He came back last year for this purpose and invited us to dinner to celebrate. Turning the color of wheat, he toasted to the bright moon generously, and said to her with a smile, godmother, thank you for not treating me as an outsider, godson toasts you.

I get along with him very naturally, and it seems that we have both forgotten about the fact that he confessed to me.

The long time seems to have polished my mind, I think I should become indifferent, but it seems like nothing has changed.

I was in a trance, feeling like I was still living in yesterday, living in that extremely cold winter, cleaning the house, lighting the fire and chopping wood. I was still me, laughing and making noise, but I was no longer the 19-year-old me.

I didn’t tell Xiao Liu about the fact that I had finished reading the book. When he came, I asked him to take my old malfunctioning second-hand notebook for repair as usual. I was really at a loss, and I was looking forward to going out. But when this time came, I didn't know what to do.

People in the village don't trust me very much. I have been here for four years, but I haven't received a single job from the villagers.

Li Ermao's father did help me spread the word in the village at first, but the response was mediocre.

I've heard some bad words, but it's just that I'm just a fledgling yellow-haired girl. No matter how capable my grandma is, it's my grandma's business. I haven't arranged a house for anyone. Isn't it the same as asking me to practice my hands? It's not that there are no one else in the village, so it's not worth betting on me.

The second aunt got angry after hearing this, and even competed with the villagers, saying that Mama Hei's reputation is still there, what is a bet, it doesn't mean that the one who sees more is powerful, Bao Si has real skills!

The villagers sneered, "What's the matter, if I have an ancestor who leads the hall, I can take over the hall. If you ask me, it's better for Xu Banxian to take over the hall of this black mother. At least it can be carried forward. What's Baosi doing? She's just poking around on the mountain every day, but she's showing some skills for us to see!"

This can be regarded as the ethos of our village all the time. Baishan Village really doesn't lack people who play tricks.

In the past few years, Xu Banxian'er is the hottest one. You can find her if you have big things. A base of [-], and more on the difficulty level in the middle.

There is no shortage of pilgrims in the town and county. The second aunt scolded her behind her back, saying that people in her village would pay [-] yuan for her, which is really a trick for money.

But the second aunt didn't dare to say too much, knowing that I was listening, she was worried about my affairs, and if anyone in the village wanted to build a house and move a grave, she would recommend herself for me, and said she would find me and give it to me for free Regardless of the time, the host is fine, but it's a pity that he gets slapped in the face every time.

Those who are not short of money are willing to go to Xu Banxian'er, and those who are short of money, go to Grandpa Chen or Grandpa Li. Anyway, they can't find me here anyway. There is no shortage in the village.

I don't care, I've heard the ugly words since I was a child, and I'm used to it.

Occasionally, I met Xu Banxian'er a few times down the mountain, sitting in a car wearing gold and silver, and when he saw me, he deliberately asked the driver to slow down and lower the window to greet me, "Isn't this Baosi? Where are you going?" , would you like me to take you for a while?"

I smirked at her, "No need Grandma Xu, you are going out to watch things for others."

She waved the hand wearing the big gold ring wearily, "I'm busy, I don't have a day off, the owner of this matter is lining up to send a car to pick me up..."

Talking about her, she was quite emotional, "You said that your grandma couldn't think about it back then, and insisted on passing on Mama Hei to you. Isn't it embarrassing for you? How can you invite a fairy if the yin and yang are not fair? Alas, if Mama Hei was given to me back then , how many soldiers and horses have been collected, how can I be aggrieved by you..."

I smiled obsequiously and leaned in front of her, "Grandma Xu, you earn a lot of money, isn't it tens of thousands a month?"

She raised her eyebrows and snorted, "What's the matter, are you jealous?"

I giggled, and lowered my voice, "It's not that I'm jealous, it's because I heard that if a disciple of a horse uses the old fairy to earn money, he will not be able to be a human being for life..."

I purposely exhaled and blew into her face to say the following words, and saw Mrs. Xu's expression change, her eyes suddenly frightened, she gouged me viciously, said bad luck, and then went up the car window and left.

I stood there and sneered, am I unlucky?
It's a big taboo for Banxian'er to earn money by running a horse. If I let it go, within three years, I will see the retribution of your old lady Xu.

(End of this chapter)