Reborn Scholar

Chapter 50

Farce is farce.

Even after it passed, Meng Shi still felt uncomfortable.

After all, she is not a saint, and she cannot be calm.

Sitting at the desk in his room, looking through the things he wrote recently, Meng Shi calmed down to revise.

Ever since the first chapter of Zhanxian was serialized in Jingu, this subject has become completely popular.

And she took the opportunity to write an article on The World of Cultivation.

If Zhanxian is just a fairy tale in a romantic cloak, then the world of cultivation is a real cultivation novel.

Meng Shi used a somewhat slow brushwork to delicately and vividly describe a grand world of self-cultivation.

The level of the cultivator, the innate spiritual root, various spells, exercises, spiritual weapons, all kinds of incredibly powerful monsters...

The story begins with Xu Fan, a son of an ordinary mountain village, a good-for-nothing with extremely poor talent who was considered impossible to embark on the path of cultivator.

Of course, because it's a novel, coincidences inevitably happen, and things like heaven and earth are obtained.The golden finger is a must.

Because she is serializing it in a magazine, and there are manuscripts, and the magazine is published fortnightly, that is to say, she can produce [-] words in half a month.It's not difficult, so Meng Shi has time to carefully structure the whole story.

On the table is the manuscript written some time ago, and she needs to proofread it again to find bugs.

Not only that, but her deadly virus is about to start filming. For the script she brought earlier, the actors and directors have already held a script discussion meeting and finalized it for the last time.

He was concentrating on looking at things when suddenly, Meng Shi heard some commotion downstairs.

She frowned and looked down from the window!
"Get out, don't bother my sister." Meng Xiangfei roared angrily.

And Qi Chuan covered his mouth and nose, and blood flowed from his fingers.

Meng Shi was startled and hurried downstairs.

She knew that Qi Chuan would definitely come to her, or rather, she had been waiting.

What happened yesterday, Qi Chuan came over this morning...

Meng Shi ran downstairs and went out.

Qi Chuan was pressing his nose with his hands.

"Sister, what are you doing down here?" Meng Xiangfei was furious.

Parents are going to help uncles and aunts, and the task assigned to Meng Xiangfei is to take good care of her sister, don't let people come to bully her, and call her if there is something wrong.

When Qi Chuan saw Meng Shi, he slowly lowered his hands covering his mouth and nose, his lips were tightly pressed, and his eyes... were extremely complicated.

Meng Shi didn't know what to say.

"You're here." With three dry words, Meng Shi looked at Qi Chuan.

Qi Chuan walked over slowly.

"You didn't hear me telling you to get lost, did you? Still want to ask for a beating?" Meng Xiangfei stepped forward to block Meng Shi.

Meng Shi sighed, grabbed his younger brother's arm and asked him to stand aside before looking at Qi Chuan again.

In Qi Chuan's eyes, there seemed to be a dancing flame burning, which made her afraid to look at him.

Meng Shi clenched his fists, but didn't know what to say.

Her feelings are very complicated.

It seems to be relief, but it also seems to be guilt, as well as Qi Chuan's sympathy and pity, and... can't bear it.

The two of them just stood there for a while.

The sky, which had been gloomy for two days, finally began to snow, but it was not at all appropriate.

Meng Shi thought to himself, it should be raining heavily now, so it would be more like an idol drama.

She really didn't know whether to cry or laugh, under the circumstances, she could still think about these things.

"Shishi, I'm sorry."

Depressed, dull, tired...

There was obvious pain in Qi Chuan's voice.

Meng Shi's tears flowed out all at once.

It was her fault.She shouldn't have given Qi Chuan hope, and she shouldn't have revealed the relationship between the two impulsively.

Meng Shi blinked hard, but the tears could not be stopped at all.

"Sister, sister, come in."

Meng Xiangfei cried when he saw Meng Shi, and his heart ached so much that he dragged Meng Shi back to the house forcefully.

He poured a basin of hot water for Meng Shi to wash his face, and said bitterly, "Sister, I really can't see why they are...how are they like that! Don't cry, or...or I'll beat him again Meal!"

"Okay, Xiao Fei, I'm fine." Meng Shi hurriedly grabbed Meng Xiangfei, "Let him go back."

Meng Shi washed his face and went back to the room to continue reading the manuscript, but his mind was in a mess.

After a while, Meng Xiangfei came up and secretly pushed the door open. Seeing Meng Shi sitting and looking at something, he slipped in.

"Sister, are you alright?" Meng Xiangfei sat on the bed and asked in a low voice as he approached Meng Shi.

"It's okay." Meng Shi forced a smile and rubbed Meng Xiangfei's head, "Okay, Xiaofei, don't worry, sister is really okay. You can't blame Qi Chuan for this matter, no one has the right to choose their parents, and he I don't want to."

"But sister, he has such a mother, you don't want to be with him anymore, do you?" Meng Xiangfei's eyes widened.

Meng Shi shook his head, "No more."

"Really?"

"Well. Don't worry, forget who your sister and I are. I won't bear with my grandma, elder aunt and third aunt, let alone... well, you just know, I'm going to write something, you go play Right. Or go to the street to help my aunt."

"...I won't leave, I'll just read a book downstairs, I'm afraid he will come looking for you again."

"Go, he won't come again."

"Anyway, I'm worried. You can rest for a while, I'll go down first."

"Ah."

When his younger brother left, Meng Shi threw the manuscript on the table and went to lie down on the bed.

In fact, she felt a little relaxed in her heart, as if the knife hanging in front of her had finally fallen down, and it gave her a great joy to kill and scratch.

But at the same time, she felt ashamed of herself for thinking this way.She is so selfish.

Ever since she heard her mother tell about Qi Chuan's family, she was retreating in her heart, regretting why she didn't speak out to Qi Chuan later.She is really selfish and only thinks of herself.

Seeing how good Qi Chuan was, she wanted to frame him as her own, but after seeing what was wrong with him, she began to regret it again.

Where in the world is there such a good thing that you can take everything?

Meng Shi admitted from the bottom of his heart, and also spurned his selfishness.

She wants such a good Qi Chuan, but also wants him to have a harmonious family. If one of the two is not right, she doesn't want it anymore...

Is this not selfish?
But even if she knows that she is selfish and that she is sorry for Qi Chuan, it is useless, because she will not just get mad and decide to fight side by side with Qi Chuan, and work hard to be with him Get happiness or something.

She had to admit that she was...a person who was ugly and selfish to the extreme.

Meng Shi slowly closed his eyes: Qi Chuan, it's me who should say I'm sorry.

I'm sorry that my love for you is so fragile, it can't withstand any waves, it's like glass, it shatters on the ground with a light touch; I'm sorry that I gave up on you so easily, and I don't even want to try harder; I'm sorry You love me so purely, and you are willing to agree to all my requests; I am sorry that I still failed you...

I'm sorry for giving you hope, but I haven't fallen in love with you yet...

When he woke up, Meng Shi became the same as before, and there was no difference at all.

Everyone in the family thought she was normal.

After all, in their eyes, Meng Shi has always been very smart and decisive in his actions.Being made such a fuss by that woman this time, Meng Shi would definitely not be so foolish as to continue dating that woman's son.

No matter how good that Qi Chuan is, he has such a mother, but anyone who loves his daughter would be reluctant to let his daughter face such a mother-in-law.

Seeing that Meng Shi was back to normal, he wasn't sad anymore.The whole family is very happy.

They also secretly rejoiced that things happened early, Shi Shi had nothing to do with that Qi Chuan, otherwise it would be troublesome when the two talked for a long time and became inseparable!

Meng Shi also felt that his behavior was normal, and no one should notice anything.

She had to admit that she just liked Qi Chuan, liked him very much, but she couldn't achieve that so-called desperate love.

See, she abandoned him so easily, didn't she?

Of course, Meng Shi didn't know if there was that kind of desperate love, but she thought there shouldn't be one.That kind of love is often blind, desperate, and not afraid of mountains of swords and seas of fire.But she is too selfish, she has to weigh the pros and cons in everything, so how could she be desperate?
Meng Shi felt very guilty in his heart.But she doesn't plan to do anything. This uncomfortable feeling is probably the feeling of growing up. Every time she wakes up, she will always be accompanied by this feeling.Although she is already very old mentally, there are some things that she has to grow up, so live and learn.

She thought that she would never fall in love with someone casually again, like Qi Chuan.

This kind of love is too fragile...

The 28th of the twelfth lunar month.

Han Cheng called, "Girl, go to Qiongdao to play, will you?"

"It's Chinese New Year, why are you running out again? Could it be that you were forced by your mother again." Meng Shi spoke venomously without hesitation.

"Girl, bosom friend!"

"Go, I don't want to be a confidant like you. If your mother finds out, maybe I will be blamed. You have to hide from yourself, don't pull me." Meng Shi laughed.

"Hmph, you think that every time I hide, my old man and the old man don't know. They just don't care, let me go. To be honest, are you women so persistent? My mother plays with this cat with me. How many years have you been playing the game of catching mice, and you still haven't given up!"

"Hey, Han Cheng, I have a solution once and for all, do you want to listen to it?" Meng Shi thought of something, and his mood that had been depressed all this time suddenly soared.

"Once and for all? Don't let me just find someone to marry and fool my mother. It's impossible. It will only be more annoying."

"Of course not, am I that stupid?" Meng Shi said with a smile.

"Then talk about it."

"Benefit fee."

"... Qiongdao eats, drinks, and enjoys the Spring Festival tour, all inclusive."

"Deal. Well, it's actually very simple..."

After finishing speaking, Meng Shi hung up the phone without waiting for Han Cheng's answer.

Imagining Han Cheng's expression at this moment, Meng Shi couldn't help laughing.

Sure enough, when I was in a depressed mood, it was very cool to beckon cats and dogs to tickle Han Er.

The phone rang again after dozens of seconds.

As soon as he picked it up, Han Cheng roared angrily, "Master is not gay, I don't like men!"

Meng Shi presciently took the microphone a little farther away, "Hey, that's all I said, and you are serious. But don't you think my method will really solve it once and for all? You threatened your mother, if you force you again , bring her a son-in-law back!"

"You..." Han Cheng was about to lose his temper.

Meng Shi laughed extraordinarily happily, and his depressed mood disappeared.

In the past few days, Qi Chuan came again several times.

Meng Shi didn't see her, but he felt very uncomfortable.

She felt guilty and sorry for Qi Chuan in her heart, but she couldn't open her thoughts to show Qi Chuan.

After Han Cheng called this time, Qi Chuan came again.

Meng Shi decided to meet him once.

No matter what, always make it clear.

She was already a little sorry for him, and she couldn't be so ambiguous and didn't even explain anything clearly, that would be too bad.She doesn't like that kind of person, and she doesn't want to be that kind of person.

Both parents are at home, and they are busy frying fried dough sticks, steamed buns, braised pork, etc., preparing to entertain guests during the Chinese New Year.

When they saw Qi Chuan, their parents' expressions were not very good-looking, and the younger brother wanted to chase him away, but Meng Shi gave him a stare and could only stand by the side angrily, staring at Qi Chuan with a stern look in his eyes. Always be ready to fight.

"Mom, I'm talking to my friend for a while."

Meng Shi explained.

"Uncle, aunt, Xiao Fei, I'm really sorry about what happened that day." Qi Chuan looked at the Meng family with a sorry face.

Meng Qingshan didn't say anything.

Lu Caixia looked at Meng Shi with a calm expression, and finally nodded, "Go, treat your classmates well."

"I know." Meng Shi agreed.

Qi Chuan's eyes darkened a bit.

The downstairs was busy, so Meng Shi took Qi Chuan upstairs to talk.

Originally, the second floor was directly facing the two rooms of the main room downstairs. Above the stove room and the original bean sprout room was a one-story house. In the past two years, my parents connected the one-story house again, and created two more rooms and a living room.After all, my younger brother has grown up and needs to live alone.

Meng Shi took Qi Chuan to sit down in the living room and poured him a cup of tea.

After being silent for a while, Qi Chuan spoke first, "Shishi, what you said that day is true...is there no turning point?"

"what?"

"You said that day, if...if my mother doesn't like you..."

Meng Shi smiled bitterly, "Yes. I'm such a very realistic person. I don't talk about friends to catch up with trends or show off, but to find a...husband who can accompany me in the future. I don't want to talk for a few years first, and the relationship is deep. But we have to separate. You should know that short-term pain is worse than long-term pain."

Qi Chuan raised his head and stared at Meng Shi with deep eyes, "Shi Shi, you"

"I'm very selfish and unfeeling, aren't I? Qi Chuan, I'm sorry that you didn't really understand me until today. I...is just such a person." Meng Shi's hand holding the teacup, his fingertips turned white.

"No!" Qi Chuan's eyes were red, "Every time, my mother is like that, you are right to be angry. It's just...how can you be so rational and calm? I would rather you get angry with me and slap me a few times."

Meng Shi couldn't help clenching the hand by his side.

Taking a deep breath, she said slowly, "Qi Chuan, I'm sorry. I'm really sorry, I... I'm selfish and cowardly..."

"No! From time to time, I'll take care of these things. Can you wait for me for a few years?" Qi Chuan begged.

Meng Shi didn't dare to look into Qi Chuan's eyes, "Qi Chuan, what are you going to do with it? I'm not your mother's ideal daughter-in-law, and this cannot be changed. You can't just abandon your mother for me, right? She's alone People raise you up, and you are more kind than heaven."

"We can... We can live separately." He also lacked confidence.

"...Qi Chuan, I'm sorry." Meng Shi sighed.

Qi Chuan closed his eyes, covered his face with his hands, and stiffened on the chair, motionless.

After a while, Qi Chuan slowly put down his hands, sat up straight, his eyes were scarlet.

He stared straight at Meng Shi without any deviation, and his voice was unreasonably hoarse, "Shishi, I know. You're right, I don't blame you. It's just...it's just me, I'm so reluctant."

Such a Qi Chuan made Meng Shi's throat choke.

Her nose was blocked, she opened her mouth slightly to breathe, and blinked her eyes to keep herself from crying.

"Qi Chuan, I'm sorry."

Qi Chuan suddenly laughed, but his smile made Meng Shi feel so distressed that he almost convulsed.

"Shishi, never say these three words to me, you didn't let me down. It's just...haha, it's just that I'm not blessed."

The smile on his face became brighter again, "I remember you said that you like my smile like this, it looks good, doesn't it?"

Meng Shi nodded silently.

"Shishi, let me hug you once, in the future... can we still be friends?"

Meng Shi nodded silently again, biting his lips tightly.

Qi Chuan took a step forward and stretched out his hands to hold her in his arms.

Meng Shi could clearly feel the trembling of Qi Chuan's arms, which was faint but present, and he could also see his Adam's apple rolling up and down.

"It's been 8 years. I've waited for this hug. I've waited for 8 years. I thought it would be forever... but I didn't expect that the first time will also be the last time."

"Sometimes, goodbye."

Qi Chuan's arm suddenly tightened, as if he wanted to rub her into his body.

The next second, he let go of her.

turn around.

When he walked out of the living room and reached the stairs, Qi Chuan stopped, his back straightened, with an aloof strength, and an unbreakable... dignity.

He didn't look back, and said in a very soft voice, "I haven't been back since I went to college. I only found out last night that Liang Bing has been to my house every Spring Festival for the past two years... That's why my mother always reminds me I'm coming back."

After finishing speaking, there was a pause, Qi Chuan didn't hear any voice from Meng Shi, he laughed at himself and went downstairs slowly.

Watching Qi Chuan leave, Meng Shi felt as if his life had bid farewell to another stage.

Although when she first met Qi Chuan, she didn't have any strange thoughts about him.

But in the first year of high school, when Qi Chuan clearly told her that he liked her, she also had an idea in her heart.

She thought Qi Chuan was good, although it was too early to think about it at that time, but later, Qi Chuan wrote to her every month, which made her feel that Qi Chuan had not changed his mind and had always liked her.

After all, it has been three years.

Meng Shi sighed, as expected, he would not be disappointed if he had no hope.

Even if you don't love it enough, or even like it enough, it still hurts when you let go.

As for Liang Bing, Meng Shi couldn't help but smile wryly.

She never liked to please people, nor would she.And Liang Bing, when he wants to please someone, he always succeeds, doesn't he?Even for someone like Qi Chuan's mother, Liang Bing was able to catch them with his hands, which was also a talent.

Qi Chuan had long since disappeared from the stairway.

Meng Shi said secretly in his heart: Goodbye, Qi Chuan.

Immediately afterwards, Meng Shi used the fastest speed to pack up all the things related to Qi Chuan in his room and put them in a box.

Among them were the newspaper clippings and letters Qi Chuan gave her, and even the tutoring materials Qi Chuan prepared for her when she was in high school, test papers and the like, filled a cardboard box full and sealed it with tape.

It is impossible for her to send this thing to Qi Chuan's family, or...send it to the school, and the recipient should write Qi Chuan.

Although Qi Chuan said that he hoped they would remain friends in the future, Meng Shi felt that it was better to forget it.

If you can't be a lover, you are also destined not to be a friend.Of course, nodding acquaintances are affirmative, but they must not be good friends.

On the 29th of the twelfth lunar month, Meng Shi and Meng Xiangfei went to City Z by car.

Han Cheng booked the plane tickets for them to fly directly to Tianya City, Qiongdao Province.

Originally, Meng Shi planned to go alone, so he thought it was to relax.But mother Lu Caixia disagreed!
Looking at his mother's eyes, Meng Shi knew what she was thinking.

"Mom, you think highly of your daughter. Han Cheng is not an ordinary person. If he doesn't want a pretty girl, how can he fall in love with a little girl like me. Don't worry."

"Who said that! Look around and see who is more beautiful than mine? They are doing well in study. If Han Cheng has good eyesight, why should he look down on you? No, he can't look down on you, just like him, It’s two concepts, okay? In short, you’re an adult now, and you’re a big girl, so I don’t worry about it. What if something happens to you, what should you do? Don’t be afraid of men, you’re a girl, and something will happen to you In the future, you should be more careful and don’t go out with men casually. Although Han Cheng is very familiar with him, it’s not okay! After all, he is not from our family, so he should avoid suspicion.” Lu Caixia solemnly confessed .

Meng Shi was helpless, "Then let Xiaofei go with me. Qiongdao's temperature is right now, neither too hot nor too cold, and you can go to the beach to play."

"Okay, I don't worry if Xiao Fei is with me. Just let Xiao Fei go to see the world."

Of course, Meng Xiangfei had no objection, so the matter was settled.

Hearing that Meng Xiangfei was going to go, Han Cheng didn't have any objection, and asked if he wanted to let his grandparents go too, the old people spent the winter there, it was warm.

Meng Shi said no.

She has read the theory of traditional Chinese medicine that people who have lived in the north for a long time, especially the elderly, go to the south to spend the winter in the winter, which is harmful to the body and has no benefit.

In places like North China and Central China, the four seasons are distinct.

In spring and summer, people's qi and blood go from the inside out, while in autumn and winter, people's qi and blood go inward.When going from the cold north to the warm south in winter, human qi and blood will no longer flow from the outside to the inside due to environmental factors, but will continue to flow from the inside to the outside.

Originally, these northerners should make up for the lack of energy and blood flowing out in summer in winter, but when they went to the south, the blood continued to flow out, and their bodies were still empty without any storage.In this way, it means that no nutrients are hidden in winter.

If you don't hide your essence in winter, you will get sick in spring. This is the reason.

Young and middle-aged people are not afraid, especially the elderly.

Hearing what Meng Shi said, Han Cheng couldn't help laughing, "Fortunately, those people don't know this truth, otherwise the houses in Qiongdao would not be sold. You don't know how many northerners are buying houses in Qiongdao for the winter ah."

On the 29th of the year, at two o'clock in the morning, the plane landed at Tianya City International Airport in Qiongdao.

(End of this chapter)