Wrong love: the first is best not to meet

Chapter 201

It is a question, but it is a positive tone.Xiao Yiyuan was slightly stunned, and then he showed a rare smile, "You." In a helpless, doting voice, "I only love you." When he said this, his eyes were dark, and his side face was calm, His bony fingers rested on her waist with moderate strength.

Only then did Zhou Yinran laugh, and tiptoed to place a kiss on his right cheek, "I love you too." With a satisfied tone and expression.

love?Xiao Yi looked sideways at her satisfied smile, and a doting smile appeared on his lips.That's enough, love or not, maybe it doesn't matter.A small figure suddenly appeared in his mind, the smile on his face gradually dissipated, no expression could be seen on his chiseled handsome face, and a gloomy light flashed in his eyes.

It's just, really, doesn't matter?

Behind her, Mo Xuan watched Xiao Yiyuan embrace Zhou Yinran, as if she wanted to keep her in her arms to prevent her from leaving. Seeing Zhou Yinran standing on tiptoe and kissing his cheek, she just felt so sore in her heart, so sore that she couldn't help but want to bleed out Tears come.The joy of being a mother and a father, such a warm scene, I am afraid that I will never be able to have it again.

Ji Yan looked at the disappointment in Mo Xuan's eyes, couldn't bear it, but silently took her shoulders, "Where are you going?" There was a hint of caution in his voice, which was soft and warm.

Mo Xuan raised her head and smiled slightly, "Let's go eat first. After shopping for a long time, I'm already hungry."

Looking at her smiling face, Ji Yan was in a daze for a moment. Qin Ma, who was standing aside, looked at Ji Yan's hands on Mo Xuan's shoulders with a slight displeasure on her face, but she couldn't do anything, even if she She didn't want to admit that she and Xicheng had divorced, and it was Xicheng who failed her first.In any case, I had absolutely no right to say anything, so I had no choice but to hold back the displeasure in my heart.

After dinner, Mo Xuan insisted on buying something for Qin's mother, and sent Qin's mother back.Qin's mother originally wanted Mo Xuan to stay in Gu's house for dinner, but Mo Xuan refused, and she coaxed Qin's mother for a while before giving up.Seeing Mother Qin walk into the house, she just turned around and stepped into the car.

"Where do you want to go?" Ji Yan turned his face sideways and looked at her.

Mo Xuan shrank back, "Go home. I'm tired." The faint voice was indeed deeply tired.Ji Yan looked at her appearance, and started the car without saying anything, and the familiar scenery receded.

She watched Gu Zhai get farther and farther away from her. The mobile phone in front of her chest has been silent for so long. Xiao Han and Ming Jue have not contacted her again. The initial anxiety and expectation in her heart have dissipated, leaving only a sense of powerlessness .

Xicheng said, if one day I am gone, you have to live a good life until you become an old woman, still being pampered by others, and if possible, die with a smile on your face.

Is that the bondage you gave me called expectation?

When you said those words, what kind of existence did I have in your heart?Before I could ask, how could you just leave like this?

She just felt tired, physically and mentally tired.These days, every night, in the dream, Xicheng was lying on the hospital bed, his beautiful face was as pale as white paper, doing it day after day.When I wake up, I often sweat profusely.Falling asleep is even as tiring as not sleeping.

When I got home, Li Ao hadn't come back yet, so Mo Xuan walked to the bedroom, "I'm sleepy, go to sleep. Don't wake me up." She lowered her eyes and said lightly, with a silent expression.

Behind him, Ji Yan's steady voice fell into his ears, "En. Have a good rest." Mo Xuan stopped talking, entered the bedroom dully, and closed the door.

She squatted down beside the bed, took out the key to open the drawer, took out all those photo albums, sat on the floor and flipped through them one by one, it was her deepest love, she loved so much that she left it for herself, So little; she lowered little by little, until she was in the dust.

And is this the end of her first and deepest love?The ringtone of the mobile phone that will not ring again, the person who disappeared in the world, and that sentence, don't watch me leave.And she didn't even know that he had ever been tempted by her.

Five years is both long and short.She once spent five years loving someone, but how much time would it take to forget that person?Five years, ten years, or longer?
She only felt pain in her eyes, and her eye sockets were burning, but no more tears fell.It seems that she cried too much in the past days, and used up all the tears in her life.There are no more tears to shed.

Fingers slowly caressed the man's face in the photo, such a beautiful face, clear and indifferent appearance, seemed to be the focus of the crowd by nature.Eyebrows are clear and cold, and there is a gentle expression on his face.But only after getting in touch with her again, can I know what kind of indifference and alienation there is after that gentleness.

Mo Xuan looked at the photos one by one, looking at them very carefully, the corners of her lips were always pursed tightly.So many photos, but it didn't take long to go through them, every bit of her in the past five years.

She sat in the middle of the photo albums with a downcast expression. After a long while, she slowly put the photo albums back one by one and put them in order.Then he took off the mobile phone hanging around his neck. There was still no new news or new calls on the mobile phone.Ming Jue's voice seemed to ring in his ears again, if he wakes up, I will tell you, if not, you can start your new life.At that time, I said that this number exists just to wait for his news.And so many days have passed, so there is no point in waiting, right?
After closing and locking the drawer, she only said in her heart, Gu Xicheng, without you, I can live well, very well.I want to prove to you that I don't need you.While thinking this way, another voice broke into my heart, it was such a gentle and sad voice, "If I am not by your side, you must be happier."

She kicked off her slippers, lay down on the bed, and pulled off the thin quilt to cover her head and body. She only felt that she was completely occupied by despair, and her heart was empty, as if nothing could fill it.

Bo was cut off from all light sources, lying in the dark light, Mo Xuan gradually closed his eyes, and that beautiful face appeared in his mind, he stood under the moonlight, and said to himself, "That is the responsibility", he said , It's not respecting each other like ice, but loving each other, he said, I'm afraid I won't be able to let go of your hand again, he said, I'm sorry, I love you.

So many memories come flooding back.

Mo Xuan finally closed her eyes, and whispered softly on her lips, Xicheng...


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