Wrong love: the first is best not to meet

Chapter 208

You are the last thing I want to give up, the most precious baggage.

Ji Yan vaguely remembered the question he was asked when he was very young.If you could only have one thing in this world, what would you choose?If there is a major fire and you can only bring one thing out, what will you bring.and so on.At that time, what I thought of always seemed to be my cherished toys and treasures. When I got older, I began to understand that I needed to bring money.The answer has been vacillating.

And it was only now that he realized that if he had a choice, he wanted her to be by his side, and he wanted to see that she was safe and sound.

Even if it is a burden, it is his most precious burden.It is a burden that cannot be let go at any time.

In front of her eyes, Mo Xuan turned her face sideways and sat quietly in the hanging chair.Her side face is still beautiful, but her smile is no longer bright.The calm water appearance makes Ji Yan feel unreal, the smile he loves should be flamboyant and bright.Instead of this, the quietness is distressing.

"Ji Yan." She suddenly spoke softly, her voice was quiet, and it sounded a little more sad in such an evening, "Thank you for taking care of me for so many days. But now, I want a Quiet." After a pause, she whispered, "You have your life."

Ji Yan was in a trance for a while, he shook his head, and let out a long breath, "Mo Xuan, you have to know that in this world, everything will be replaced, memory, love, and you cannot help yourself."

The tone of voice is earnest.A calm, comforting tone.

But only I understand that when she said, you have your life, the emotions in my heart at that moment swept in like a raging tide, an unstoppable posture.

I don't need the so-called life of one person, as long as I have you in my life, it is enough. As long as I have you, even if the world becomes a desert, even if I turn my back on the whole world.It doesn't matter either.

This is the life I want, this is the happiness I thought.As long as there is you.

He didn't say these words.He was afraid, afraid that this kind of love would only push her further away, and would only make him farther and farther away from her world.

Mo Xuan stood up, walked to the window sill in the bedroom, looked at the gorgeous red sunset in the sky, "Well, I know it all, I have always known it." Her voice was low and faint, "If the interview the day after tomorrow It's over. I won't be coming back."

Are you not coming back?Ji Yan was startled, and then tried to pull a smile, his voice was still gentle as if he was about to part, "Do you have to go?" When he said this, his chest was sore, "I will accompany you .”

"No." She turned around, and the sunset behind her shone into the room, covering her body with a yellow halo, sad, sad, against the light, unable to see her expression clearly, "Jiyan, I want to be alone and live my own life in a small city. If you stay in such a grotesque Jiangcheng for a long time, people will not know what you want. Maybe two years, Maybe in three years, I will come back."

Ji Yan looked at her without blinking, and after a while, he pursed his lips and said, "Then I'll wait for you, whether it's two or three years, ten years, or twenty years, I'll wait for you."

Word by word, firmly, decisively.It was never shown to Mo Xuan, his true heart.

Hearing these words, Mo Xuan was stunned for a moment, that expression of determination was a determination she had never seen before.And what suddenly appeared in my mind was that in the hospital, I said to Ming Jue, tell him, I will wait for him.And at that time, what I wanted to say in my heart was, Gu Xicheng, I will wait for you, whether in this life or in the next life, I will always wait until you give me a good reason to forgive you and forgive myself.

There was a smile on the corner of her mouth, with a clear and shallow appearance, but it was so helpless and sad, "Ji Yan, it's not worth it." She stood quietly in the sunset like that, looking at him sadly. "Because there is no room for anyone here."

She stretched out her hand and pressed her sore and aching chest.Here, full of love, hate, and disappointment for a man.If you can't, let's accommodate another person.Jiyan, do you understand?
Don't be ambiguous, don't be your burden.Ji Yan, if I am your bond, then let me cut it off with my own hands.

"I'll wait for you, and one day you will forget him." Ji Yan looked at her quietly, staring into her eyes.

Mo Xuan walked towards him step by step, and also looked into his dark eyes, without any flicker in his eyes, "Ji Yan, no more. There will never be that day again. Those three words have been engraved on my heart , As long as my heart is still beating, I will not forget him. So, you should have your life, and I will have mine. "

Are you going to push him away?Ji Yan looked at her, with eyes that never flickered, with a determined expression, telling himself so cruelly that as long as she is still alive, the memory that person gave her will exist with the beating of her heart, endlessly .

Seeing that Ji Yan didn't speak, a smile appeared on the corner of Mo Xuan's lips, "So, Ji Yan, don't wait for me." After a pause, she still smiled lightly and said, "I want to have a completely new life. Is it possible?"

His eyes were burning, and his eyes were full of anticipation, expecting him to nod and say hello.

Ji Yan suddenly felt that he was so powerless, he was the most suitable person for her, but all she wanted was love.So stubbornly drilled down the horn.It was as if someone stuck a knife in his chest, took it out again, and then stuck it in again, repeating this, the pain was so painful that he could suffocate.

"Even if he hurt you like that, can't you forget it?" He pursed his lips, unable to hear his words clearly, he could only open his mouth weakly to speak.

But she just nodded firmly, "Because of this, I can't forget it even more."

Yeah?He looked at her with some trepidation, at her determined expression.When she learned the reason why she and Gu Xicheng got married, and when she tried to dissuade her, she also had the same resolute expression, saying resolutely that she wanted to try harder once.

"Ji Yan, I'm tired." She said lightly, with a tired look on her face.She is really tired. The amount of exercise imposed on her these days makes her often doze off sleepily.


(End of this chapter)