Marriage Crisis: Lonely Apricot Blossom

Chapter 4 The Inescapable Memories (2)
It took a long time before Fang Zhenqian let her go. Hua Mei stared at him with watery eyes and smiled charmingly, "You know what? I have been waiting for this day for two years."

Hua Mei noticed Fang Zhenqian in her sophomore year. She went to the boys' dormitory to look for Feng Hao, and saw Fang Zhenqian sitting on the upper bunk. A Taoist cultivator isolated from the world.

The cleanliness that belongs to his domain is incompatible with the slovenliness around him.What made Huamei even more curious was that Fang Zhenqian was able to read his book seriously without being disturbed during their noisy conversation. Could he really read it?
Then, in her major class, she saw the teacher showed them the articles translated by students from other departments. Although it was a bit of a suspicion that others would destroy her prestige, she had to accept it after reading the translation. Without years of accumulation, It is impossible to achieve such a deep foundation.

"Teacher, who translated this?" She asked curiously.

"A boy from the Computer Department, named Fang Zhenqian." The teacher replied.

From then on, Hua Mei couldn't help but pay attention to this boy who looked kind but indifferent.

She loves to observe his restraint the moment he is called by her and the indifference he shows immediately after, as if he has frozen himself up.According to Feng Hao, his family's financial conditions are relatively difficult, so he put all his energy on studying and making money.

Hua Mei didn't know when she fell into it. In short, she ran more and more diligently in the boys' dormitory, and often followed Fang Zhenqian to the library and study room, secretly paying attention to him.

When Hua Mei revealed her girlish feelings to Fang Zhenqian, he was not only excited, but also deeply moved.

After suffering a sudden change at home, Fang Zhenqian felt too much of the world, enough for him to see the true nature of the world. The relatives and uncles who had been walking around disappeared all of a sudden, but it was the two fathers who never left. My old friends often come to see their mother and son and say some sympathetic words, but given their abilities, they can't provide much practical help.

During the days when his mother was sick, Fang Zhenqian had to go to class during the day, take care of his brother who was four years younger than him, and go to the hospital to guard his mother at night. At only 16 years old, he showed the calmness and vigor of an adult.He is a person with strong self-esteem. He knows that only by himself can he save his mother from working hard and let his younger brother finish his studies smoothly. Therefore, even in the most difficult days, he never slacked off, and his grades have been consistent. He is far ahead in the grade and has become a role model in the eyes of the teacher.After a long period of persistence, he gradually got used to having things to bear by himself.

But now, there is such a beautiful girl who boldly tells him her love, which makes him suddenly feel that he is so humble, and that deep down in his heart, he has always longed to stay.

Hua Mei and Fang Zhenqian finally came together, and they appeared in pairs in every corner of the school, in the library, cafeteria, and even in their respective classrooms.

They fell in love relatively late, already in the second half of the junior year. At this time, some male and female friends who had talked early had already begun to break up, and their relationship was laughed at as dusk love.

Fang Zhenqian has also become more and more used to following Huamei's ass and obeying her orders. Every time he finds this, he will laugh at himself, but the heart is full of sweetness.

The relationship between Feng Hao and Fang Zhenqian has also become more subtle. From the appearance, it is Fang Zhenqian who robbed Feng Hao's girlfriend, but in fact, both of them understand that Huamei has never been with Feng Hao. As a result, Hao's frustration became more intense, and there was a gap between the two of them until graduation.

Love is like this, people gain and lose.

Fang Zhenqian loves Huamei wholeheartedly. He hopes to hear her happy laughter and see her satisfied expression all the time. If he can spend his whole life with her like this, he feels that he has nothing to regret.

However, everything cannot be as you wish, and in the world of love, it will not always be sunny.

Gradually, Fang Zhenqian discovered that Hua Mei was a very willful girl, she would get what she wanted, and if Fang Zhenqian refused, she would put on a face and even ignore him for a few days.Of course, the result every time is naturally that Huamei wins a big victory.

Faced with Hua Mei's toughness, Fang Zhenqian was at a loss at first. He had never been in love before, and he didn't know how to deal with all kinds of tricks and weirdness of his girlfriend. But after thinking about it, maybe most girls are like this. Child.

That being the case, there is nothing wrong with pampering her like a child.

After figuring it out, Fang Zhenqian soon felt relieved. He coaxed, worshiped, and cared for Hua Mei like a god, tolerated her petty temper, and satisfied her demands. Sure enough, after a short while, the cheerful smile appeared again. On Huamei's face.

As far as Fang Zhenqian is concerned, it is easy to talk about being coquettish, playing tricks, etc. However, no matter how good a person's self-cultivation is, there is a bottom line.

On Fang Zhenqian's birthday, Hua Mei spent a lot of money to buy him a set of expensive clothes, but Fang Zhenqian refused to accept it, and tried her best to persuade her to return the clothes.

Looking at Huamei's teary eyes, he didn't know what to say, he knew she meant well, but this suit made him feel embarrassed.He has seen Feng Hao have clothes of the same brand, and knows what that means, and this is by no means what a child in his environment should pursue, especially now.If he did, it would only make him look ridiculous.

But Hua Mei didn't understand at all, she lost her temper in their dormitory and forced Fang Zhenqian to wear it, but this time he didn't compromise.

Huamei was annoyed by his silent insistence. Without thinking too much, she grabbed a pair of scissors on the table and cut several holes in the clothes with a few clicks.

At this moment, Fang Zhenqian's face turned completely pale. For the first time, he felt Hua Mei's unreasonableness, and the gap between them that had always existed, but which he tried his best to ignore.

His mother got up early and returned home late for the meager accumulation of one or two cents, but the girl in front of him from a wealthy family could wantonly destroy a dress worth thousands of dollars because of a moment of anger. She showed an unprecedented indifference, as if she was a stranger he had never known.

That look actually made the stubborn Hua Mei feel a little afraid.

Fang Zhenqian's 21st birthday ended with the unhappiness of the two.

Not long after, they reunited somewhere on campus.This time, Hua Mei was the first to bow her head. She also felt that her behavior was too much. She is the kind of person who does things recklessly and regrets easily.

Facing the tearful Hua Mei, Fang Zhen couldn't say anything to condemn him, he sighed secretly, hugged her silently, and the two reconciled as before.

Time flies, and graduation is approaching in a blink of an eye.

For the future, Fang Zhenqian has more pragmatic ideas. Although the teachers of the college appreciate him and encourage him to stay in school for graduate studies, considering the family situation, he still does not want to add a heavier burden to his mother. He needs to make money and completely unload his mother. A heavy burden on your shoulders.

He told Hua Mei frankly about this idea and all the reasons supporting this idea, and she didn't speak for a long time after hearing it, so Fang Zhenqian took it for granted that she had no objection, and she would stay in this city with him.

What Fang Zhenqian didn't know was that Feng Hao also had a talk with Hua Mei on the eve of graduation.

That afternoon, the two walked slowly around the playground of the campus, and were about to leave the campus, only to realize that the four years were so hasty, and before they had time to recollect, the parting had already arrived.

"What are your plans after graduation?" Feng Hao asked her.

Hua Mei seemed a little absent-minded, "Fang Zhenqian wants to stay and work here, but of course I can only stay here."

Feng Hao knew that Hua Mei had always wanted to go abroad, but she reluctantly chose to give up because she couldn't bear Fang Zhenqian.

"Do you think it's worth giving up your ideals for him?" Feng Hao asked.

Hua Mei felt that there was something in his words, and glared at him angrily, "What do you mean?"

Feng Hao said quietly: "I am thinking of you. You stay here because you want to marry him, but you know that Fang Zhenqian has a sick mother and a younger brother who is still in school, right? Fang Zhenqian is not the kind of person who can be left behind. People who don't care about the family will definitely pick them up to live with them after they get married. After that? Can you deal with the biggest problem in the world-the problem of mother-in-law and daughter-in-law? Also, when you and Fang Zhengan are together, the work is all He is doing it, let his mother see it, what do you think the old man will think?"

Hua Mei's heart skipped a beat, and the rebuttal she had just thought of just now disappeared.

Undoubtedly, what Feng Hao said was the truth.

Feng Hao didn't look at her, and stretched his arms leisurely, as if feeling emotional, "Your youth will be submerged in endless care and disputes, and by the time you want to regret it, it may be too late."

Hua Mei shivered, she knew Fang Zhenqian, and she had vaguely thought of what Feng Hao said, but when faced with Fang Zhenqian's tenderness, she couldn't let herself think about such realistic issues, but not thinking about it would not Equal to the problem does not exist.She was afraid that she would become a little daughter-in-law who worked hard and endured humiliation, spending her beautiful appearance in the gloomy years, until one day she would become a yellow-faced woman who even her husband spurned.

Seeing her struggle, Feng Hao took no time to approach her, held her hand tightly, and said with an extremely sincere expression, "Hua Mei, come to America with me."

Hua Mei's body shook subconsciously, as if she had been hit, she quickly withdrew her hand, and ran towards the playground as if fleeing.

On an early summer night, the moonlight was shining softly on the green grass under the stands of the stadium. Fang Zhenqian and Hua Mei sat in a corner hugging each other, enjoying the unique tranquility and warmth.

"Zhenqian, some people say that love is a chemical reaction that lasts only eighteen months at most." Hua Mei said suddenly, playing with Fang Zhenqian's slender fingers.

Fang Zhenqian brushed her long hair and said with a smile, "Nonsense, I will love you forever."

Hua Mei lowered her head, as if she was thinking about something, then murmured: "A lifetime is so long! But, if it really only lasts eighteen months, what do you think we should do?"

Fang Zhenqian turned Hua Mei's shoulders and looked at her squarely, "What exactly are you trying to say?"

Hua Mei didn't dare to look at his face, so she buried her head in his chest. After a while, she raised her head and said persistently, "You can go abroad with me, okay?"

Then, she saw Fang Zhenqian's brows half frowned. They had discussed this issue countless times since it was brought up last month. It's not that Fang Zhenqian didn't want to go abroad, but no matter what he couldn't leave his family behind, mother He and his younger brother both need him and need him to work and make money.

"Hua Mei, I..."

Hua Mei stopped him, "Forget it, don't say anything, I was just joking." She slipped back into Fang Zhenqian's arms.

Fang Zhenqian sighed, stroked Hua Mei's green hair, but did not see the faint tears on Hua Mei's face.

After the dissertation defense, everyone breathed a sigh of relief, and all they had to do was wait for a diploma that took four years to obtain.

In the evening, the roommates still chatted enthusiastically after the lights were turned off. Naturally, the most talked about was the future after graduation.

Someone asked Fang Zhenqian, "Your grades are so good, it's a pity that you don't take the postgraduate entrance examination."

Fang Zhenqian was unmoved, and said with a faint smile, "I went to college to work and earn money earlier."

Feng Hao suddenly said: "Fang Zhenqian, do you know that Hua Mei is going abroad too?"

Fang Zhenqian was taken aback for a moment, but said nothing. This is a sensitive topic for him and Hua Mei.

Feng Hao went on to say: "She and I applied together. I have already received the admission news from the United States. The school that Huamei applied to may be slow, but it should be fast. If successful, the next I will be busy going abroad for half a year."

There was complete silence in the dormitory, everyone knew that this was Feng Hao's propaganda to Fang Zhenqian in disguise.

Fang Zhenqian also remained silent. He is not someone who is easily mobilized into emotions, but he clearly felt something crack open in his heart, which was extremely bitter.

That night, Fang Zhenqian lost sleep completely. He thought over and over, would his love for Hua Mei bring her happiness or actually restrain her?
If it's the latter, then he would rather let her go, even if his heart is broken.

When meeting Huamei again, Fang Zhengan didn't ask any questions, some things had to be said by the person concerned.

After a few days, the two had dinner together, and Hua Mei finally said, "I applied to study in the United States, but I thought it would not be successful, and I only got the news this morning that it will be done."

Fang Zhenqian ate in silence, neither surprised nor blamed, as if everything was clear.

"Zhengan, do you hate me?" Hua Mei asked softly, his expression made her feel cruel.

Fang Zhenqian's face was pale, and after a while, he forced a smile to her, and said in a hoarse voice, "Eat quickly."

Hua Mei lowered her head to pick up the rice, which was rare, two lines of tears silently and slowly slid down her cheeks.

On the day Huamei left, Fang Zhenqian still went to see her off. He was a bit late, and the crowd was quite crowded. He could only stand on the steps far away, silently watching Huamei, who was in high spirits because she was about to face a new starting point. , and Feng Hao, who was full of affection beside her, they looked so compatible, for a moment, he didn't even have the courage to walk up.

Hua Mei's eyes moved back and forth among the crowd, and finally found Fang Zhenqian, the corners of her lips raised, and then, a melancholy flashed across her cheeks, she paused for a moment, and ran over to him without hesitation.

The two soon faced each other, but neither could find the right words to say.

Fang Zhenqian played with the small protrusions on the steps with his toes, and after a long while, he forced a smile, "When you get there, take care of yourself."

When they were about to part, Hua Mei suddenly found that her heart was full of reluctance. Although studying abroad has always been her biggest dream, she never thought that leaving Fang Zhenqian would make her so sad. Before she knew it, tears filled her eyes.

"If, if you want me to stay, I... I can..."

Fang Zhenqian looked at her in amazement, but saw that her small face was full of awe and sorrow.He was a little moved, but shook his head resolutely, "No, you go, I can't afford it."

Hua Mei was silent, she was speechless, the one who was going to leave was herself, how could she let him choose again in the end.

When the wind blows, the tears have long disappeared.

In the distance, Feng Hao was waving to her. The plane was about to board. Hua Mei shook her long hair to get rid of all the hesitation and reluctance in her heart. She has always been a girl who can afford to let go.

"Since this is the case, from now on, we will each go our own way, and there is no need to have any entanglements."

"……it is good."

(End of this chapter)