let me look at you

Chapter 29 I've Been Watching You Go
She only believed that Wu Yu would watch her go and watch her all the time, so she was not afraid of anything.

When Ju Nian returned to his aunt's house, the tricycle that his aunt and uncle used to pull fruit had already parked at the door.Auntie heard Ju Nian's footsteps, she came out of the kitchen and scolded.

"I can't count on you to do me a favor at home during the summer vacation. Girls are so playful. I warn you, don't hang out with Wu Yu again. I have already said that he is not a good seed. No, today at noon For a bottle of soda, you beat Uncle Henggui to the point of bleeding. Your uncle has already gone to the hospital, this time you have to send that little bastard to a forced labor camp... You, what's going on with you?"

My aunt babbled, but finally realized that there was something wrong with Ju Nian standing on the threshold.A button was missing from Ju Nian's clothes, the cuffs were torn, and his trouser legs were covered in dust, not to mention his hair was in a mess.

As a woman, my aunt instinctively felt a little ominous, after all Ju Nian was her real niece.She walked up to the silent Ju Nian, took her arm and asked, "What's the matter, Ju Nian, what did you do with your body... Did someone bully you... Tell me, child, Tell Auntie who bullied you...whether it's that bad guy Wu Yu, I'll tear him apart."

"It's none of Wu Yu's business!" Ju Nian held back his aunt who was about to rush out the door, "It's Lin Henggui, aunt, it has nothing to do with Wu Yu, Wu Yu only got into a fight when he saw Lin Henggui bullying me I also hit Lin Henggui on the back of the head."

"What did you say? You mean..."

My aunt didn't believe it at first.But she has been married to her uncle for many years, and she has heard about the character of her uncle's cousin. Lin Henggui did do such a nasty thing.Besides, Ju Nian is still a little girl, she can't make up such a big lie.

"Sin, that inhuman bastard, you want to piss me off!" My aunt sat down on the threshold, hammering her thighs and wailing in a low voice.However, after a while, she recovered from the initial shock and anger, pulled Ju Nian into the house, closed the door tightly, and found a change of clothes for her niece.

"I'm going out to find your uncle, you stay at home and don't go out, do you understand?" the aunt urged.Before going out, she touched Ju Nian's hair, and there was a long-lost distress in her eyes.

After about three hours, Ju Nian lay on the head of the bed blankly, the passage of time didn't mean much to her.There are too many things that happened on this day, some are the ugliest in the world, and some are the most beautiful. She is willing to believe that all the ugliness is only to bring out the beauty.

At about nine o'clock, my aunt finally found my uncle, and Ju Nian's parents arrived at the same time.The four adults surrounded Ju Nian in the center. In Ju Nian's impression, she rarely received such attention. She was a little embarrassed and couldn't answer anything.

Later, her mother pulled her into the room alone, and kept asking: "Ju Nian, where did he touch you? Does he have that...does he have it?"

Ju Nian hasn't talked to her mother alone for a long time. When she first came back, she longed for her aunt to be her mother, longing for a woman with warm arms to hold her, but now she suddenly doesn't think so.Maybe her rest period was too long, and she had passed the most bewildering time while waiting, and now she was more worried about Wu Yu, not knowing what was going on with Wu Yu.

"Ju Nian, please tell me, don't scare mom." Mom's hand hurt Ju Nian's arm.

Ju Nian understood why her mother was anxious. She wanted to know whether Lin Henggui had succeeded, and whether her daughter's chastity was still there?
"He tore off a button of mine, fumbled on me, and then, Wu Yu rushed in." Ju Nian said.

Mom obviously breathed a sigh of relief and let go of the big stone in her heart.It seems that things are not as bad as she imagined.

Didn't Lin Henggui make a qualitative difference in the harm caused to a girl by the obscenity before the last step?Tangerine is confused.

Next, Mom went out to whisper a few words to Dad.The four adults approached the aunt's bedroom and closed the door. They should be discussing things that only adults understand, and Ju Nian does not need to participate.

This discussion lasted for more than ten minutes. Ju Nian sat alone on the bench by the gate waiting for their results. How to deal with that scoundrel Lin Henggui and how to wash Wu Yu clean of the dirty water splashed on him? This is Ju Nian. What concerns her most is that she is willing to take any responsibility for Lin Henggui's slap on the forehead.

Parents, uncles and husbands filed out of the bedroom.

It was Dad who spoke first: "Ju Nian, I have discussed it with your mother and your aunt and uncle. This matter cannot be made public, and we all agreed to keep it private."

"You? Private?"

Dad sat beside Ju Nian and lit a cigarette. The smell of the smoke made Ju Nian want to cry.

"Private means that the whole family settles it privately. The ugliness of the family should not be publicized. Lin Henggui is not a thing, he is worse than a beast, but he is your uncle's cousin, your uncle treats you well, thanks to him all these years With your aunt. If this matter is exposed, your uncle's family will not be able to hold their heads up."

"Father, you mean... that person doesn't need to go to jail?"

The aunt interjected after hearing the words: "Silly boy, what benefits do you get when he goes to jail? You beat him who should be beaten, and he didn't have time to do what he should do to light the sky lantern. Your uncle will go and talk to that Shamelessly, don't even think about medical expenses, whether he has a concussion or a broken head, he deserves it all."

"Damn that bastard." Mom cursed too.

The uncle who had been silent all this time said: "Don't worry, that bastard has to pay for the spiritual compensation that should be given."

Ju Nian was stunned: "I don't want his money."

"Ju Nian. You are still young and don't understand anything. Let this matter pass." Mom comforted her.

"No, I want him to go to jail." Ju Nian's voice was very low, but his attitude was extremely firm, "I'm going to sue him!" Thinking of the nightmare at noon, Lin Henggui's disgusting hands in the small dark room , Ju Nian blinked, tears fell down.

"Shut up!" Dad threw the cigarette butt on the ground fiercely, "You have no brains at all? If this matter gets out, how can you be a girl?"

"I'm not afraid of this." Ju Nian timidly retorted.

"You are not afraid of me. Our old Xie family has never attracted those unscrupulous gossips. I told you a long time ago that girls should love themselves, and your aunt also said that you follow those unscrupulous men all day long. The child runs around, who would think you are a decent person. Otherwise, why didn’t that beast attack others? Don’t make trouble for me. There have been enough things recently. I feed you a few people and run outside all day. Like a dog, you still fucking cause me trouble. This matter is settled like this. If you dare to say it, I will not have your daughter. Also, you have troubled your aunt and uncle for too long when you pack up. From now on, you will move back home."

Just like that, an unforgettable event in Ju Nian ended silently, and no one mentioned it again, as if it had never happened.She is finally going back to her parents.It's so strange, six years ago, she lived with her aunt, and felt that the sky was gray. Six years later, she returned to her parents, and there was not a single happy star in the sky.In fact, it is just a circle and back to the original point, but everything is different.Life is like a kaleidoscope, you think that just by twisting it slightly, thousands of changes have been made inside, and the world has changed.

The adults have repeatedly reiterated that Ju Nian and Wu Yu are not allowed to play together again, not even to talk. Dad said that if Ju Nian is not obedient again, he will ask my uncle to break Wu Yu's leg.During the few days when she was packing up her things, my aunt also watched her very closely, always afraid that something would go wrong before finishing the task, and it would be difficult to explain to her parents.

The parting came so fast that people were completely unprepared.

In such melancholy, the admission notice from No. 200 Middle School was officially issued to Ju Nian.She went to a junior high school in the suburbs, and the quality of teaching was not comparable to that of key middle schools in the city. More than 3 fresh junior three students took the senior high school entrance examination, and Juan was No.[-] in grade, and those who scored higher than her all went to technical secondary school.In that era, technical secondary schools were more expensive than high schools. In the end, the entire school received an olive branch from No. [-] Middle School, and only one student was in Juan, and Wu Yu was admitted to a vocational high school.

On the day of leaving, Ju Nian woke up very early.Dad brought the big luggage back home the day before, and then he went on long-distance transportation to other provinces. Mom stayed at home to look after my younger brother and couldn’t leave. My aunt and uncle also had their own affairs, so the adults asked her to sort out the last trivial things stuff, take the bus home by yourself.Ju Nian was happy, she had to go, but she had to say goodbye to Wu Yu.

Thinking of this, Ju Nian was worried again, how could she find Wu Yu?He didn't have a phone at home. If someone knocked on the door of his house and someone saw it, it would spread to his aunt's ears, which would cause another disturbance.Just as he was hesitating, someone knocked on the glass of the small window. This was a code that only she and Wu Yu knew.

Ju Nian was overjoyed by this consonance, she pushed open the window, and Wu Yu was standing outside with a smile on her face.

Ju Nian also laughed, before she felt that she had something to say to Wu Yu.But now a god-given opportunity, it took her a long time to squeeze out a word.

"Wu Yu, I'm leaving."

She was calmer than she had imagined when she spoke.

Through the open window, Wu Yu also saw that Ju Nian had emptied many rooms.

He said, "No.[-] Middle School is better than here, and your home is also better than here."

Ju Nian wanted to ask: "Will you look for me? Will you forget me?" But she thought again, even if Wu Yu said no now, one day he really forgot, there was nothing he could do about it.

"I saw that Lin Henggui's store is open again." The fear was rooted in her heart, she had nowhere to say it, and she only asked Wu Yu to understand.

"What are you afraid of? I watched you go on the martyr's cemetery and kept watching you. If he dares to do anything else, I will definitely kill him."

This is the farewell between Ju Nian and Wu Yu.Ju Nian thought that at least one of them would cry.After all these years, they actually only had each other in their world. When she returned to her parents' house, although she was not separated from each other, the chances of meeting her were always less, and it was impossible for her to be as close as before.

But the fact is not as sad and sensational as she expected, they are always smiling, everything is indifferent.In the end, Wu Yu told Ju Nian that he planted a loquat tree in his yard, and he didn't know if it would survive.

Ju Nian likes the fruit of loquats, no wonder Wu Yu asked her to spit out the loquat cores, so it was for this purpose.Her heart was filled with joy, as if she had seen the bright yellow fruits of loquats hanging all over the branches when they were ripe, protruding from the mossy courtyard wall of Wu Yu's parents.

What are you worried about, maybe on that day, she will be able to sit under the tree with Wu Yu, carefully picking up the fruits on the ground.

Wu Yu's pomegranate and Ju Nian's loquat are not together, but they are still companions. Besides, one of them must be fruitful.

Wu Yu didn't understand why Ju Nian's face suddenly turned red.Ju Nian quickly concealed his embarrassment.

"Grow a few trees, otherwise, if there is a tree growing in a yard, wouldn't it be a word for 'sleepy'? This is not good."

Wu Yu laughed hard: "Master Xie, you are becoming more and more obsessed. According to what you say, should there be more people in the house, otherwise, one person in a yard will become a word of 'prisoner'."

No one is home, and their laughter can echo freely.

In the afternoon, Ju Nian packed up his things and bid farewell to his aunt's house.

No matter how much you disliked a place, after a long time, you will develop inextricable blood and flesh connections, and you will always feel a little sad when you leave.This is a helpless thing.

After putting the key under the threshold, Ju Nian walked alone on the road with a big bag. Every time she walked for a short distance, she glanced in the direction of the Martyrs Cemetery. Cars, roads, etc., have a panoramic view.

We are approaching the bus stop, and from that angle, we can just see a touch of red on the martyrs cemetery, which is the pomegranate flower in full bloom, and a white spot under the flower, which is Wu Yu.

Ju Nian could imagine Wu Yu smiling under the flowers, his head was bald, and his white teeth were shining brightly in the sun.

Later, Wu Yu told her that actually that time, he was sitting under the tree and dozed off without paying attention. He closed his eyes, but Ju Nian didn't know.She only believed that Wu Yu would watch her go and watch her all the time, so she was not afraid of anything.

(End of this chapter)