let me look at you

Chapter 38 A Drop of Rain on Wushan Mountain
It's like a piece of red-hot iron that hurts you, but you can't throw it away. It burns and sticks to the skin, leaving ugly marks.

Whether you like it or not, expect it or not, for a high school student, the senior year will come sooner or later.What is the third year of high school? It is the darkest night road before dawn, the most suffocating dullness before the heavy rain, and a hurdle that you look forward to jumping over but have to be careful about.

After class division, students from different classes were regrouped. Ju Nian and Chen Jiejie met again in the new second class of liberal arts. Han Shu, who had relatively good grades in science, also chose liberal arts, but he was assigned to the first class of literature.

Chen Jiejie is still Ju Nian's deskmate. She told the class teacher that her grades are not very good, and she can get help in studies with Xie Ju Nian at the same table.Ju Nian did not express any opinion on this decision. She did not defend the results of her labor like other top students. The homework and exercises that were written were always placed on the desk, and countless classmates took them every day. To "borrow", familiar or unfamiliar, anyone can, as long as you remember to return it after you borrow it, or the last person who borrowed it will help her hand in her homework. This has become a customary practice in their class.After other good students finish their homework, they are also used to flipping through Ju Nian's notebooks during get out of class or self-study to see if the answers are the same as their own. At such times, Ju Nian usually keeps his head down indifferently. Reading her martial arts novels, a few chapters a day, is the only unconstrained style in her ordinary life.

But Chen Jiejie doesn't turn to Ju Nian for help in her studies. A beautiful girl like her with a good family background doesn't need to pay too much attention to her grades. Chatting freely, talking about her favorite movies, and her mood.Ju Nian is an audience most of the time, so in order not to spoil the fun, he occasionally smiles.When Ju Nian was studying or obsessed with martial arts novels, Chen Jiejie looked at her Zhang Ailing quietly. She was a dignified and ladylike girl, but she always liked things that were cold and decisive. This is true whether it is text or film.

Chen Jiejie also has a special hobby, that is nail polish.For simple and strict high school students, pointing at Danko is still a niche behavior.Chen Jiejie just buried her head under the wall of the book base to paint herself, first her left hand, then her right hand, often the color of each finger is different, the bottles and jars she secretly hides in her schoolbag are always gorgeous and weird s color.After applying it, I looked at it carefully, and then took out the nail polish remover to remove the traces of nail polish one by one, and I never tired of it.

The smell of nail polish is pungent, whether it is applied in self-study class or after school time, the whole classroom can smell that smell.At this time, the boys couldn't help but look in that direction, and most of the girls showed expressions of disgust and disapproval.Only Ju Nian, she turned a blind eye to take care of her book, although the smell is around her, her sense of smell may be slower than others.

After Chen Jiejie finished painting, Ju Nian was usually the only audience. She secretly spread her fingers under the desk to show Ju Nian: "Ju Nian, which one do you like?" Ju Nian always said, "Both are good."In fact, Chen Jiejie's bright red nail polish looks the best. Her thin white and slender fingers are as long as water onions, and the tips are as bright red as blood, which is shockingly beautiful.Chen Jiejie always paints this color on the middle finger of her right hand, which is the most perfect. The ten fingers connect to the heart, which is like a drop of blood from the tip of the heart.

Once she said: "Wu Yu likes it too."

Ju Nian knew that Wu Yu was no longer a friend of her classmates to Chen Jiejie.Many times, she learned some details about Wu Yu that she didn't know from Chen Jiejie's mouth. Wu Yu likes the most gorgeous nail polish, Wu Yu likes black and long straight hair, and Wu Yu doesn't listen to funny jokes. The happiest... It seems that the Wu Yu that Chen Jiejie knew and the "little monk" of Ju Nian were two completely different existences.Similarly, the worlds of Chen Jiejie and Wu Yu, as well as the world of Ju Nian and the "Little Monk", also seem to belong to different spaces.Ju Nian was careful not to touch it, and didn't want to pry into it, but she knew that the other Wu Yu, like another dimension, was real, and this knowledge made her helpless and sad.

Gradually, Ju Nian no longer participated in Chen Jiejie's weekend games.Han Shu provoked her: "Are you afraid of losing to me?" She turned a deaf ear.Even the number of times he went to Wu Yu secretly by himself was less.If the person waiting is just wandering outside the door, then Ju Nian would rather close the door and think about it. Compared with an unidentifiable back figure, at least the thinking is intact.

That day, Ju Nian walked back to his classroom from the math teacher's office with a stack of practice papers in his arms. This was originally the duty of the study committee members in the class, but the study committee members were lazy. It happened that Ju Nian had something to do with the teacher, so he simply Let her do it for her.Ju Nian didn't have any objections, but it was just a matter of little effort, but on the way home, he unfortunately ran into Han Shu who was also going to the teacher to collect the test papers.Han Shu is the study committee member of Class [-] of Wen.

Han Shu meddled and asked, "Why did your class committee change?"

"I'm just helping."

"People are chatting in the corridor, what kind of coolie are you? You are so kind, why don't you help me?" He couldn't help but tried to fold the test paper in his hand into Ju Nian's arms, Ju Nian didn't want to tangle with him , so he walked tremblingly with the test paper that was at the same level as his head, and finally reached the door of Class [-] of Wen. He couldn't see the steps, and almost stepped into the air. Han Shu grabbed her and took back his things. Still not grateful, "You should do what others tell you to do, you deserve it!"

Ju Nian ignored him and walked back to the classroom adjacent to Class [-] of Wen. Unexpectedly, he was bumped into by someone behind him. He almost fell forward, barely standing on his feet, but half of the test paper in his arms fell to the ground .She turned her head, and a girl stood behind her with an innocent face and said, "I'm sorry, they pushed me!"

The girl who bumped and the girl who pushed, Ju Nian couldn't name them but they looked familiar, they were all classmates in Han Shu's class, Ju Nian knew they couldn't understand him "changing ways to flatter Han Shu", so he had to Acknowledging his fate, he bent down and picked up the scattered things on the ground one by one.After a while, another pair of hands joined the queue of picking up the test papers. Ju Nian recognized those hands, and they still smelled of freshly washed nail polish.

After tidying up the test papers again, Ju Nian stood up and hugged the things in his arms tightly.

"Thank you, classmate Chen Jiejie."

Her tone was so polite, Chen Jiejie fell silent under this polite alienation.

Back in the seat, Chen Jiejie played with her nails for a while, and suddenly asked: "Ju Nian, do you hate me?"

Ju Nian looked at Chen Jiejie for a moment, then shook his head.

How she wished she hated Chen Jiejie, and even hoped that Chen Jiejie had more reasons to be hated, just like many bad girls.However, Ju Nian had been Chen Jiejie's deskmate for so long, yet he couldn't find a reason to hate this girl enough.Chen Jiejie is beautiful and bright. Even if she has some little eccentricities, she still can't hide her fun and kindness.Ju Nian thought, if he were Wu Yu, it would not be surprising that he had a crush on such a girl.

Ju Nian doesn't hate Chen Jiejie, she just has no way to be friends with Chen Jiejie, and insists on the darkness in her heart, maybe she is jealous of Chen Jiejie, she also has long black and straight hair, but Wu Yu never said that he likes.

If you must vent your anger, you must blame others for the sadness in your heart. Ju Nian is more quietly complaining about the "little monk". If the "little monk" really belongs to her, then no matter how beautiful others are, they are just someone else's. matter.But who said that Wu Yu belonged to her?Except herself.

Chen Jiejie asked again after a while: "So, do you like Wu Yu?"

Ju Nian is not used to showing her heart in front of others. Her attachment to Wu Yu is the deepest secret hidden in her heart. Only she knows it. She is not ready to share it with others.

"Ju Nian, you won't answer?"

"Wu Yu is a very important friend of mine." Important and unique.

Chen Jiejie said: "I seem to be relieved, I was afraid to hear you say 'yes' just now. Because I like Wu Yu, if you also like him, I don't know if I can beat you."

In fact, it was not a surprise to Ju Nian that Chen Jiejie liked Wu Yu, but Chen Jiejie was so straightforward to point it out, it still shocked her.The more open and aboveboard the other party was, the more hesitant and cowardly Ju Nian appeared. She had never obtained anything confidently, so she was far less brave than Chen Jiejie.

"Do you think I'm the biggest obstacle between you and Wu Yu? I'm afraid you're wrong." Ju Nian said in a low voice, flipping through the math practice papers she just handed out, but she couldn't understand even a single question. .

Chen Jiejie rested her chin on her hands: "I don't know. You didn't grow up in the environment of my family, and you don't know how crazy it is. Now my parents have to send someone to pick me up from school. They say a It's uneasy for a girl to come home; I can't sleep with the door closed; there are no locked drawers; the phone is filtered by them; I have to get their permission to go anywhere; I have to play in a designated court. I often think , One day, I will disappear from under their noses, disappear completely, so that they can never find them again, I think so every day, every day, but I don't know where I am going alone... The first time I saw Wu Yu At that time, he pulled you to run on the road, so reckless, he knocked me down, I envied you at that time, I hope I was the one he pulled."

"He can't take you anywhere."

"How do you know you can't? As long as he is willing, I will go with him. I know that the person I am waiting for is him, just like my destined Romeo, take me away."

Ju Nian lowered her eyes silently, she confessed so familiarly, she didn't even have her own thoughts.Wu Yu only has one pair of hands, he can't take two people away, not to mention he doesn't have wings, where can he fly?

"I know these sounds silly, and I'm not afraid of your laughing. If you like it, you just like it. You ask me to give you a reason, and there is no one. I don't care who Wu Yu's son is, I just know that I feel happy when I'm with him. The roadside stall was also the first one he took me to. Why can’t I eat that? He doesn’t talk, and when I’m around, I feel very quiet. There’s no sound in the world. I’ve never told these things Anyone, except you. No one else understands, but you should know what a good person he is."

Ju Nian smiled, she wished she never understood.

The teacher walked into the classroom, and Chen Jiejie put down her chin resting hand: "Let's not talk about this, next weekend is my birthday, this day is very important to me, I invited some friends to my house. In the year of Orange, I sincerely hope You can come too."

Chen Jiejie must have invited Han Shu, because she said that Han Shu's father was a respected friend of the Chen family, and Han Shu became one of the few boys who could associate with her.

On Thursday, Ju Nian ran into Han Shu again on his way home by bicycle.

Han Shu asked, "Have you decided what gift to give?"

Ju Nian really didn't seriously consider this issue.

"I haven't thought about it either. How about saving time? I'll get together with you and just give you anything."

"Huh? Me and you? Isn't that bad?"

"The big deal is that I pay a little more, and you pay as much as you like."

"No, that's not the question?"

"Why do you have so many questions? It's settled if you don't say anything!"

"Uh..." Ju Nian didn't have a chance to say the next words, Han Shu's car had already slipped into another fork.

After his reminder, Ju Nian felt that since he had promised to go, he couldn't go empty-handed. Her pocket money was pitifully small, but what else could Chen Jiejie lack?

Ju Nian was troubled by this problem, and when she got to the door of the house, Wu Yu yelled a few times behind the telephone pole at the entrance of the alley before she heard her.This was the first time Wu Yu came here to look for her, Ju Nian was surprised and delighted, and was about to ask a question, but Wu Yu took her bike and rode on it, turning around and hinting that she would also get in the car.

"Come on, let's not talk here."

Of course Ju Nian would understand, her parents wouldn't like such a visitor, and she couldn't care if she came home on time or not, so she jumped on the tail seat of the broken bicycle without thinking about it, and let Wu Yu drive her away without asking where she was going.

They left the alley where Ju Nian's house was, and drove into a road with few people. Wu Yu turned to her and asked, "Why didn't you come to me?"

Ju Nian said, "I thought you didn't have time."

"I always rest."

"When you are resting, Chen Jiejie doesn't need to look for you?"

Wu Yu rode his bicycle quietly, and when Ju Nian regretted bringing this matter up, he said, "She doesn't come out often, and besides, she and you are two different things."

"It's the same thing."

Her voice was too soft, Wu Yu couldn't hear clearly: "What did you just say?"

"Nothing said... where are we going?"

"do not know."

"Then why did you let me get in the car?"

"Let's talk, let Master Xie tell me a fortune teller, you can't say it at your door, you can't come back too late, why don't you take you to the places I usually go?"

"What can't you do?"

"Those places are too messy, I can't let you go."

The bicycle drove into an old street, surrounded by shops full of incense and candle offerings, perhaps because of psychological effects, it felt gloomy in broad daylight, Ju Nian thought, why did they wander here.

An old and skinny black cat sneaked out of a shop, and almost ran into Wu Yu's wheel. Wu Yu twisted the handlebar and rang the bicycle bell.Ju Nian has been riding this bike for more than two years, and he never knew that the broken bell could still make a sound, let alone an old cat who can understand the bell?She chuckled.

"What do you want?"

"Well, I don't know..." Wu Yu also laughed carelessly in front of her.

"Does it mean that my name has any special meaning?"

"Wu Yu, Wu Yu, isn't it just a drop of rain on Wushan Mountain?" Ju Nian said nonsense.

Wu Yu laughed and said, "You also said that?"

Ju Nian was stunned: "Who else said that?"

Wu Yu didn't answer.

Ju Nian was puzzled, only then did he find a corner of a folded note in his trousers pocket.She reached out to take it, but Wu Yu didn't refuse.

It was an exquisite purple sticky note with light butterfly-shaped dark patterns on it. Before it was unfolded, Ju Nian could already smell the faint fragrance on it.

Open it, there is only one line of beautiful small characters on the paper.

The concubine is in the sun of Wushan, blocked by high hills, morning clouds at dawn, rain at dusk, day and night, under the balcony.

The beautiful letter paper has slight wrinkles on Ju Nian's fingertips. It is like a piece of red-hot iron. It hurts you, but you can't throw it away. It is scorched and sticks to the skin, leaving ugly marks .

This handwriting is recognizable in Ju Nian.

"She gave it to you?" The car moved forward, piercing the air, and the slight sound of the wind covered up the imperceptible strangeness in Ju Nian's voice.

It took a long time for Ju Nian to wait for Wu Yu's words.

"Yeah, I like it very much, and I even think my name has meaning. Ju Nian, what do you think?"

Year of the Orange, what do you think?
Ju Nian lowered his head, a tear fell on the back of his folded hands.

He didn't look back, so he couldn't see it.

(End of this chapter)