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Chapter 40 Don't Be So Nice To Me
He is such a proud boy. Since he was a child, he has been used to others being kind to him. When he first tried to give this "goodness" to others, he tasted the taste of rejection before he could express it. .

Romeo jumped off the balcony with the princess, as great as Shakespeare, no matter how cleverly written, it is impossible to write about how embarrassing Romeo's "most important friend" is in the face of this situation.

Ju Nian is like standing in the icy wasteland, suddenly being doused in the head-on by the downpour of snow, freezing into the bone marrow, but his mind is still as clear as frost.

How could she be so stupid that she thought that the years when the two walked over hand in hand, carrying the same dust all over their bodies, they should take it for granted to spend the rest of their lives together.What could she blame Chen Jiejie for?Give her 1000 million if chances, and hand over the note to Wu Yu with her own hands. Could it be that on this cold winter night, under the quiet and desolate martyrs cemetery, the "little monk" holds his hands like treasures in his palms? Could it be her face?The cloud covering his chest would be her long hair?

"You saw it too?" She whispered to the pomegranate tree beside her. It was also due to loneliness, every flower withered, and no fruit could be produced.

How many times have she and him lay quietly under the tree, and the fiery red fallen flowers once fell on her face, and also perched on his face.

People have no roots and have feet, so they will naturally go farther and farther. Fortunately, trees are different.

Ju Nian took off the hairpin on his head, took the sharp iron end in his hand, and carved strokes on the tree trunk. He had another person in his heart, and hoped that this tree would only remember the original "little monk" and Orange year.

She was so timid and careful, fearing that this hidden mind would be known, she deliberately walked around to a backlit corner, and did not dare to tell the familiar name to her hand.

xhs&jn
No one will see the mark except with the tender touch of a hand, but who will love the old and ugly trunk of this forgotten pomegranate tree?Who will remember the quiet existence in this corner?Unless he put it in his heart.

The first letter "x" was unskilled when it was started, and the engraving was shallow.After Ju Nian was finished, he went back to mend it. One of his subordinates didn't put any effort into it, and the hairpin drew a long line and left it, which happened to be stuck in the tiger's mouth with her left hand held below.The sharp thing stuck down heavily, and the hand was left in the cold wind for too long, at first it was just a dull pain, but she didn't react, she blinked her eyes, and the blood slowly spread from the wound.

Ju Nian was glad that he didn't cry out, pinching the wound, he remembered the pack of tissues he had taken out from Han Shu's backpack earlier, he only took out one, and didn't take the rest back, so he quickly found it out from his body , pressed on the wound.After dealing with all this, when he looked up, he saw Han Shu climbing up the dozens of steps below.

Seeing Ju Nian sitting under the tree, Han Shu opened his mouth in amazement, and was about to say the word "you".

Ju Nian was startled, without thinking too much, he quickly put his index finger to his lips, motioning for him to keep silent.

She didn't know how Wu Yu and Chen Jiejie would clean up the mess afterward, but the more people knew about it, it would only make things more chaotic, especially since Han Shu and the Chen family had a lot of connections.Ju Nian didn't want to disturb the couple under the stele, nor did he want Han Shu to see that scene.

Han Shu actually swallowed the words that came to his lips, Ju Nian was still afraid that something might change, so he got up quickly and walked all the way to Han Shu's side.

"Thanks……"

"Hush, don't talk. There are ghosts up there!" Ju Nian's heart beat like a drum.Wu Yu once frightened her with a lie, whether it can stop Han Shu's curiosity.

As expected, Han Shu looked at her with a look of "So you are sick, so pitiful", but his voice couldn't help but pressed against Ju Nian's throat.

"Nervous, what the hell are you doing in the middle of the night." He said, unbelievingly going up to see what happened.

Ju Nian panicked, and before she could think about it, she held his hand, her fingers touching and tightly entwined, if he broke free, she would hug his feet.He couldn't let him know about Wu Yu and Chen Jiejie.

However, Ju Nian did not expect that Han Shu, who has always been stubborn and rebellious, was actually retained by his hand.Han Shu's hand struggled symbolically in hers, and then became extremely quiet along with his whole body.

The winter wind passes through the pine branches and escapes into the infinite void, sounding like a mournful moan.Ju Nian's hand was cold, and the wound was still wrapped with a tissue, but Han Shu's hand was warm and moist. Her senses, which had been frozen, gradually recovered under his fingertips, and she felt the pain where the blood was bleeding.

Ju Nian held Han Shu's hand silently and walked down step by step.With the financial resources and anger of Chen Jiejie's parents, the farther away Han Shu is, the more likely it is for Wu Yu to gain temporary security.

The steps quickly disappeared under the feet of the two young men.Ju Nian's feet landed on the mud at the end of the stairs, and his hanging heart fell back into his cold chest.She almost forgot that Han Shu's unexpected silence and obedience was her own problem.

Standing opposite Ju Nian, Han Shu looked at an unknown clump of dark low plants on the side, his hand was still in Ju Nian's palm, neither clenched nor freed, his whole body twisted into a strange posture.

He couldn't help coughing lightly, and the hand that was holding him was released like lightning.

The moment he withdrew his hand, Han Shu began to regret it.

He had to say something to dissolve this murderous silence.

"Your aunt lives there?" Han Shuxu pointed to the martyr's stele on it, with a familiar sneer on his face, "Are you going to tell me that your aunt is actually the old demon of Montenegro, and you are Nie Xiaoqian? "

Ju Nian smiled vaguely: "I'm going for a walk, the air here is good."

Han Shu looked around, too lazy to refute her ridiculous words. The night was dark, the moon was dark and the wind was high, and the mountains were like ghosts. He didn't want to think about the fear that was lurking in his heart when he followed her all the way. If he didn't know her back If the road here is not the only one, he would have thought he had a nightmare about supernatural events since he was a child living under the neon lights of the city.

"What's on it?" He put his hands in his pockets and asked in a serious voice. He was almost sure that she had a ghost in her heart.

Sure enough, Ju Nian said: "I said there are ghosts, I didn't lie to you. Boys have a strong yang energy, and you will be discovered as soon as you go up. Those are girls who died before the age of 18. They cannot be buried in the cemetery normally. , and cannot go to the grave, otherwise her soul will remember the family and the way home. This kind of ghost is the most vicious, and there is resentment in her heart, because they have no time to experience many good things. If things catch up, the whole family will no longer have peace. In the past, people called them "troublemakers". When they appeared, there would be a cluster of fire at their feet, like candlelight, and it was darker. When they screamed, they were like babies crying. She has no feet, floats clumsily but moves very fast, she is in front of her in the blink of an eye, and you must never look her in the eye!"

"How?" Although Han Shu knew that she was talking nonsense, a tingling coolness slowly crawled up his spine like an ant.The wind picked up again, really like a baby crying, what was moving in the distance was not the falling bushes, but the shadows carrying the wind.

Ju Nian came over unexpectedly, opened her eyes wide, and said quietly: "Because, she has no eyeballs at all!"

Han Shu jumped up and pushed Ju Nian back a few steps: "You are so perverted!"

Ju Nian pursed his lips and smiled, Han Shu was probably annoyed, so he turned his head and left.Ju Nian let out a long breath because he was finally willing to leave, followed behind him and asked, "Are you afraid of ghosts?"

"I'm afraid?" Han Shu sneered, "Go and find out, our Han family is full of materialistic blood from top to bottom. Is that called fear? I think you are ridiculous!"

"Oh."

Ju Nian stopped making a sound and walked a few steps, Han Shu felt that the quietness was creepy again, and was about to look back at her when Ju Nian suddenly called out behind him.

"Ah, troublesome aunt!"

"Where?!" Han Shu was startled, and then reacted, gritted his teeth and said, "You are the Naojiagu!"

"The face is pale, and the blood of materialism fades quickly." Ju Nian said reverently.

"Running to this kind of place at night to tell ghost stories, you are so boring."

"Seriously, why are you following me?"

"I want to see what the hell you're up to, can't you do something normal?"

"Like?"

Han Shu seemed to think about it for a while: "Have you heard that the city is planning to hold a badminton competition for middle school students?"

"Yeah." It's written in the newspapers, and the school has heard about it.

"Speaking of which, I haven't played a serious match with you yet. I don't know how good your level is. Anyway, I don't dislike it. Why don't you sign up for the mixed doubles with me." gravel.

"Huh?" Playing mixed doubles with him?Ju Nian couldn't even imagine that scene.

Seeing her disapproval, Han Shu sneered, "Oh... Maybe it's because I heard that this doubles competition can be cross-school, waiting for someone... Let's partner with you."

He never seemed to remember a certain name, a sort of dominant forgetfulness.

Ju Nian bowed his head and said: "His name is Wu Yu." He has a name, not "that who".

However, at the mention of these two words, her heart was pierced like thousands of needles.

"Then Wu Yu, the one from the vocational high school, I can tell, you treat him..."

Han Shu didn't go on, leaving this paragraph blank, as if giving Ju Nian time to refute.

But Ju Nian said hesitantly: "I, I probably don't have time to play games. I have to read books, and there are many things at home. When my mother is busy, I have to watch my brother."

"I don't like your family members." Han Shu suddenly said this.

"Why?" Ju Nian was very puzzled.Leaving aside the fact that her father Xie Maohua was expelled from the procuratorate, during the years when she drove Dean Han, her father did his best and was considerate to Han Shu.Han Shu can hate her, but there is no reason to hate her family.

Han Shu said: "They treat you badly. I can't imagine that a pair of parents can say that their own daughter has an IQ problem for the sake of their son, and send them to someone else's home for foster care!"

Ju Nian was silent, and suddenly a thought flashed through him.

"It's you?"

Han Shu clasped his left and right hands repeatedly, and seeing her look over, he put his hands behind his back.

"You mean posting the report letter at the door of the clerk's office? That's right, it was me. They made mistakes first, why, you think I did something wrong, don't you hate them at all?"

Ju Nian didn't know whether to cry or laugh, and there was only a sigh in his heart.He did a "just act", which naturally pleased people's hearts, but he never thought that Xie Maohua was the pillar of Ju Nian's family.No matter what, Ju Nian was born and raised by him. An ordinary family has lost their main source of income. How difficult life will be these years, how can it be simple love and hate that can be summed up in one word?

Ju Nian didn't even intend to tell Han Shu the pros and cons, she never expected him to understand.It is quite normal for one person not to understand another person's world.

"There is a small shop a little ahead, I'm going to buy a bottle of water, do you want it?" Han Shu asked.

There is only one small shop in this area, Lin Henggui, Nightmare of the Orange Year.Just by mentioning it from Han Shu's mouth, the sultriness, filth and ugliness of that summer afternoon seemed to be still yesterday.

Ju Nian kept shaking his head.

Han Shu was a little suspicious: "You don't need to shake your head if you don't drink water."

"Don't go. He...is not a good person."

"Please, I'm just going to buy a bottle of water... Could it be that he bullied you?" Han Shu was not stupid.

Ju Nian didn't want to mention it, he just wanted to stay away from Lin Henggui and his small shop, so he didn't even want to hear it.

Han Shu said: "Forget it, don't drink. When I came here, I passed that small shop, and there was an annoying dog that kept barking."

"That's Zhaofu. Maybe it's not called Zhaofu. It's a Japanese name." Lin Henggui used to always say that his Japanese breed dog has a noble blood, so it should be given a Japanese name.

"There is a ready-made Japanese name. It's called Ma Le Gebazi, and it's usually called Bazi."

Ju Nian was so preoccupied that he couldn't help laughing. They had already reached the ridge path next to the sugarcane field, and the gloom before had finally dissipated a lot.The road is very narrow, only one person can walk, Han Shu let the girl go first, and he followed Ju Nian one step behind.It was the first time he saw Xie Junian with his hair untied. His long hair flowed behind him, and the tips of his hair swayed gracefully following her footsteps.

Han Shu secretly reached out his hand to touch her hair, but she didn't notice, he then boldly grabbed it in his hand, it was cool and slippery, this touch even made Han Shu feel that the scarf tied around his neck was a little awkward heat yourself.

He couldn't help thinking about how it would feel if this hair was wrapped around his neck like water weeds.

Hair was not tactile, but Ju Nian didn't pay attention to her feet when she walked, stumbled, leaned over, and the strand of hair that Han Shu held in her hand immediately hurt her.

"Ouch!" Ju Nian turned around in a daze.

Han Shu didn't let go, his hair was entangled in his heart like a monster with a hole in his hair.

"Uh, this is my hair." Ju Nian reminded him in a low and embarrassing voice, but Han Shu ignored him, so she had to carefully pull out the strands of hair from his fingertips inch by inch, but his hand seemed to be covered by the lock of hair. Pulling, with her strength gradually approaching, almost touching her face.

Ju Nian panicked and sneezed.

Han Shu finally let go, took out the pair of gloves that were the same color as the scarf from his backpack, and handed it over: "Take it, so as not to kill you from the cold and become a troublemaker."

"Oh, thank you." Ju Nian put it on his hand, and it was the right size, "I'll take it off for you later."

Han Shu laughed and said, "Who is being mean to you? The gloves were also sent by my sister. I don't need them anyway."

"The gloves your sister bought for you seem to be a little too small." Ju Nian waved them in front of his eyes with the gloves on. The texture of wool was very good, with a soft and warm touch.

"She didn't buy it for me... Hey, she likes to do boring things anyway." When Han Shu said this, he never looked at Ju Nian, but even in such a dim night, Ju Nian still noticed that his The face is burning.

Ju Nian began to understand something, maybe she knew it all along, the way he looked at him was so familiar, this familiarity actually made her feel sad.

"Orange..."

"Han Shu, don't be so nice to me."

Ju Nian slowly took off the gloves and stuffed them back into him.

The footsteps lingering outside the door of the heart are still drifting away, let alone someone who is on a completely different path.

Han Shu looked at Ju Nian who lowered his head, and finally understood the meaning behind her words.

He is such a proud boy. Since he was a child, he has been used to others being kind to him. When he first tried to give this "goodness" to others, he tasted the taste of rejection before he could express it. .

The huge sense of humiliation distorted Han Shu's handsome face slightly. He sneered and said, "When will I treat you well? Seeing that you are pitiful, I'm just teasing you. You really treat me like you... Xie Ju Nian, You're really self-indulgent."

Ju Nian also blushed under his naked ridicule, but still insisted that he take back the gloves.

"You take it."

Han Shu took it and threw it into the sugarcane field, "You've worn it before, and I want it again?"

After finishing speaking, he squeezed past Ju Nian, leaving her far behind in a few steps.

Ju Nian cherished things, and jumped down from the sugarcane field to look for the glove, but the night was too dark, and after searching for a long time, he only found one, and the other was missing, so he had to give up.When she returned to the path, Han Shu was nowhere to be seen.

She took the glove and walked along the way. She didn't want to go to her aunt's house. When she came out, she told her mother that she was going to a classmate's house for her birthday. Although she was going back at this time, she was late, and at most she would be scolded.

After passing by Henggui store, the rolling shutter door has been lowered and the lights are turned off. Just as Ju Nian breathed a sigh of relief, he saw a little fire in the dark opposite to the store. Then, Lin Henggui's face that made Ju Nian feel sick and frightened together with him nodded A smoking cigarette emerged from the darkness.

"Ju Nian, I haven't seen you in two or three years, the longer she grows, the more beautiful she is, and her hair has grown a lot."

Ju Nian was gripped by fear, she could run, and not too slowly, but she trembled because of this sentence, and she couldn't even move her feet.

"That little bastard Wu Yu didn't accompany you? Didn't he want me to die? I'll kill him sooner or later. Ju Nian, don't you know Uncle Henggui? Don't forget, the scar you gave me is still there , do you want to touch it?"

Ju Nian took a step back, her hand quietly held the deformed hairpin, Lin Henggui approached with a smile, as long as he took another step forward, she would, she would...

She had already gathered energy, and the moment she raised her hand, she heard Han Shu who had gone back and forth impatiently shouted in front of her: "Xie Ju Nian, get out of here."

(End of this chapter)