let me look at you

Chapter 55

No matter how much she felt that she couldn't hold on, the next second, she was still holding on, and the encroachment of every tiny pain in her mind, body, and memory was so clear.

The light from the desk lamp hit Ju Nian's face directly, and the strong brightness made her unable to open her eyes. After she told the sweet address and the appearance of the hotel owner whom she met, several police officers including Officer Huang In the other corner, the members started a low-pitched discussion.She couldn't hear, and she couldn't listen, and she was on the verge of collapse.She thought, if she dies now, or just breaks down and goes mad, it would be a good way to get rid of it. At worst, she should pass out.But no, no matter how much she felt that she couldn't hold on anymore, the next second, she was still holding on, and the encroachment of every tiny pain in her mind, body, and memory was so clear.

She felt that someone came to her side, slightly turned the angle of the desk lamp, and then there was another whisper, someone walked out, and someone stayed.

It took a long time for her aching eyes to adjust to the light, and instead of a uniformed policeman in the room, a woman sat quietly beside her.

That was Prosecutor Tsai.

"Be tired, eat something first, and drink saliva is also good."

Only then did Ju Nian realize that there was a piece of cake and a bottle of milk in her hands. She drank the milk almost in one gulp, and when she chewed the sweet cake, she almost vomited it out, but when the food went down her throat Pharynx, the feeling of being alive came back a little bit.

She felt desolate because of this, the original deep-seated despair and extreme sadness could not stop the feeling of hunger.

She is alive, who keeps her alive.

"Ju Nian, I can call you Ju Nian." Prosecutor Cai's voice was so gentle, is this the fierce and resolute woman known to everyone in the compound?

Ju Nian didn't answer, so it didn't matter what he called.

"They have all gone out. I want to talk to you alone, not as a position, but as an elder. Would you like to?"

Ju Nian swallowed the last mouthful, blushed and began to cough violently. Prosecutor Cai gently stroked her back.

"Ju Nian, he told me everything about you and Han Shu. That bastard Han Shu has never suffered since he was a child, and he was spoiled by us. I am also a woman. What he did to you, I Hearing this makes him grit his teeth with hatred. But in the final analysis, Han Shu’s love for you is true. I watched him grow up. He has always been a good boy. He is used to being a person with feelings, I have never seen him being so caring about someone..."

"Prosecutor Cai, if you have something to say, just say it directly. You don't need to say what you just said."

"You know me? You were young when you left the compound, and you've become so pretty when you grow up, I can't even recognize you. Your dad and I used to be colleagues. You can call me Aunt Cai. What I want to say is , things have already happened, although it is not satisfactory, but there must be a solution, especially you are facing this kind of thing now... Han Shufei wants to be a time witness for you, I read your transcript just now, you I haven't said that I was with him last night. In this regard, I really appreciate you. I also know that for a girl who loves herself like you, it is very painful to expose those things. Besides , your parents are decent people, if they know, what will they think?"

Prosecutor Cai mentioned Ju Nian's parents, and Ju Nian couldn't tell what he was feeling.Prosecutor Cai sat across from her, with a kind face and soft voice, so much like a mother, but unfortunately her mother is not like this, the person sitting opposite is someone else's caring elder.Ju Nian does not want her parents to be ashamed. She knows that her parents want face, and she is most afraid of being poked in the back. She just got into such a disaster, and she is destined not to be their good daughter.However, police had called her family a few hours earlier and they have not turned up until now.

It would be okay to come over and slap her, but no, no one came.

"Ju Nian, I think you are the same. I hope to pay the least price to get out of this predicament. It is not a good idea for Han Shu to testify, whether it is for you or him. I will find someone to talk to the hotel owner you mentioned as soon as possible. He contacted me, I have a lot of acquaintances in this regard, you can rest assured, I know you are innocent, and I will try my best to find a way to exonerate you."

Seeing that Ju Nian was silent, Prosecutor Cai took out a set of girls' clothes that he bought from the nearest department store from his bag, including underwear, shoes and socks.

"Looking at you is bad enough, how can you be comfortable wearing it? This matter can't be resolved for a while, I told them, let you change your clothes and take a rest. After all, you are a girl, and you are not It’s iron. Some of the clothes are going to be used for evidence testing... Go ahead, Ju Nian, don’t make things difficult for yourself, the place to change clothes is the policewoman’s temporary bathroom, wash your body by the way..." Prosecutor Cai said softly After finishing, put the things gently in Ju Nian's arms.

Ju Nian hooked the corners of his mouth imperceptibly: "Are you afraid that I will sue him?"

Her voice is so low that Prosecutor Chae doesn’t listen carefully at first.

"what?"

"You said so much, you asked me to change my clothes because you were afraid that I would sue Han Shu for rape."

Han Shu is happy, there are always people running for him.Some things, some have, some don't.Some people can't get what they want, and some people don't want it. If you have to give an explanation, it's fate.

"Are you going to sue him?" After all, Prosecutor Cai was used to storms, but he was not disturbed, and asked calmly.

Ju Nian said word by word: "Shouldn't I sue him?"

Prosecutor Cai was silent for a moment, then smiled: "You are a smart girl, it is not in vain that Han Shu likes you. In this case, Ju Nian, I am not afraid to tell you clearly that there are many embarrassing and blind spots in our country's sex crime laws." , even if you intend to sue, how do you prove it? You said that you had sex with Han Shu involuntarily, but who knows except you, do you have any scars on your body? Did you drink it voluntarily? Did you struggle with Han Shu in the car and into the hotel? Did you wake up and resist during the relationship? Could Han Shu understand that you were willing? If not, would you how to prove?"

"Prosecutor Cai, are you going to tell me that the law can't help me?" Ju Nian smiled slightly.

"Son, the law is the criterion, but it is not God. You can't win by suing, and you know the situation in Han Shu's family. Such a result will not only ruin your reputation, but also make your parents more uncomfortable, and make you repeatedly expose There is no benefit other than opening your own scars. For the sake of his repentance and his sincerity to you, Ju Nian, let him go, and you too."

Ju Nian looked at Prosecutor Cai with empty eyes. They looked at each other, but Prosecutor Cai felt that those eyes passed through him and looked at another world.

For a long time, Ju Nian did not push away the clothes in his hands.Prosecutor Cai felt relieved, she knew that she had convinced the girl.

"You were drunk, you were afraid of your parents scolding you and dared not go home, so you got into a taxi and stayed in Sweet Honey Hostel, and you left at nearly seven o'clock. Because you were worried about Wu Yu, you found Lin Henggui's small shop and called to rescue him. He then found Wu Yu in the martyrs cemetery, you persuaded him to surrender, but he refused, the two of you started arguing. After playing games all night in an Internet cafe, Han Shu went to the suburbs to get some air, saw his classmates, worried that something happened to you, a girl, I followed behind to the Martyrs Cemetery, found Wu Yu who was about to escape, so I stepped forward to stop her, Wu Yu fell ill, slipped and fell down the stairs, this is the whole truth."

Maybe it was fate. The sweet boss disappeared on the day of the incident. It is said that he was a good gambler, and his gambling addiction broke out. He ran to a certain stronghold for ten days without losing his last penny. is not coming back.

Before the key witness in the case was found, because Wu Yu was dead, as the only suspect in Lin Henggui's robbery in the early morning of August 8, Ju Nian was reported to the procuratorate for arrest by the public security agency on suspicion of robbery.After investigation and comparison, her fingerprints, footprints, and socks stained with Lin Henggui's blood all matched those collected at the crime scene. In addition, the nearby vegetable farmers easily identified Ju Nian's back from a group of girls of the same age during the criminal identification process. , and Lin Henggui's unequivocal identification on the hospital bed, the situation in Ju Nian is not optimistic.At the same time, Prosecutor Cai has always spared no effort to use her contacts to help the police find the hotel owner. Except for Han Shu and Ju Nian, no one knows why she is so dedicated to a young suspect she is not familiar with.

During the detention period, Han Shu asked to visit Ju Nian several times, but was refused.The clothes, daily necessities, books, letters he kept sending in...everything was returned intact, except for a photo taken by Fang Zhihe during the badminton match, which showed Han Shu, Ju Nian, Wu Yu and Chen Jiejie.

Han Shu indirectly heard that Chen Jiejie ran away from home again, and was arrested by her family before she had time to leave G City. For a long, long time, no one saw her again, and no one heard about her. It is a drop of water that evaporates from people's sight.

A month later, Prosecutor Cai and the hotel owner, who had been unsuccessfully searched by the police, unexpectedly approached the police on their own initiative. He said that he had heard this matter brought up by his family and agreed to be a witness for the case.At this time, the evidence collection work of the case is basically over, and it will be formally tried in the Chengxi District Court in the next few days.

Before the trial, Han Shu couldn't let go of the big stone in his heart, and repeatedly asked Chief Prosecutor Cai: "Godmother, is he reliable?"

Chief Prosecutor Cai said: "That guy is a ruthless guy, he only has money in his eyes. But don't worry, I have taken care of everything that should be given. He also initially admitted that he did say hello to Ju Nian that morning, and he still had an impression. "

On the day of the trial, not many people came.Not even Ju Nian's parents were present. From the day of Ju Nian's accident, they declared to the outside world that they would sever ties with this daughter and treat her as dead.This is just an ordinary case of a marginal boy with nothing who robbed a mediocre shop owner, stabbed someone, and then fell to his death while fleeing. Didn't take much place.The remaining Ju Nian lived in a forgotten corner, except that her status as a freshman at the National People's University briefly attracted discussion, and people soon forgot about it, or never remembered it.

The love and hatred, disputes, reluctance, desire, blood and tears in it are so insignificant in the big world.

After a month of detention, Ju Nian stood alone in the dock, the only feeling he gave was "light", with light eyebrows, light expression, and light body.You look at her, she is clearly at the focal point of the entire court, but she is more like a gray and blurry shadow, like a gust of wind, about to turn into smoke.

All the previous cumbersome procedures were like revolving doors. The presiding judge announced the composition of the collegiate panel, clerks, public prosecutors, defenders, names of appraisers and the powers of all parties, and the prosecution and defense made statements.

Ju Nian did not hire a lawyer. Her defender was a young man arranged for her by prosecutor Cai.The defender and the public prosecutor debated the most controversial point between the two sides, that is, at around 8:14 a.m. on August [-], whether Ju Nian had definite evidence of his alibi. Then, with the permission of the court, the owner of Sweet Honey Hotel Appear on the witness stand.

"Zhang Jinmin, at about 1997:8 am on August 14, [-], did you personally see the defendant in this case, Xie Ju Nian, walk out of the door of the sweet honey hostel you run, and confirm that she has not been in the hostel since she checked in the previous night? leave."

The hostel owner named Zhang Jinmin squinted his eyes at Ju Nian for a long time: "It's kind of like it."

Small whispers came from the few auditoriums.

"What's going on, what do you mean by 'somewhat like'." Han Shu grabbed the godmother's arm nervously and confused.

Chief Prosecutor Cai also showed some confusion.

"Something like it? In your previous statement to the public security organ, didn't you confirm that you did greet the defendant and say good morning to each other?"

The hotel owner laughed dryly: "I will say 'morning' to anyone who leaves my hotel before 12 o'clock in the morning."

"I ask again, can you be sure that she walked in front of you at that time?" asked the prosecutor.

Han Shu held his breath.

"Every day there are dozens of people who live in Tianmi. They come and go. There is a university nearby. There are also many girls of this age. How can I remember all of them clearly? I dare not book a [-]% guarantee. "

Ju Nian on the dock also slowly straightened his waist, staring intently at the man named Zhang Jinmin.

"Then does your hostel have relevant accommodation records?"

Zhang Jinmin smiled again: "Haha, people like my place and don't need to record it. But there are things that must be recorded. I checked that night, and there was no little girl staying alone. The policeman also knows."

"Do you mean that you have no way to definitively prove that the person who walked past you at 8:14 am on August [-] was Xie Junian himself in the dock."

After what seemed like a century, Zhang Jinmin replied: "There is really no way to guarantee it."

Ju Nian seemed to hear a whimper in his throat, and died in his heart before he could utter it, loosening his tightly wrapped fingers one by one.

In the corner of the auditorium, there were two middle-aged men and women in bright clothes. Ju Nian's memory is very good, and she can still recall a birthday party where the parents who lost their beloved daughter rushed down the stairs. madness and anxiety.

Ju Nian understood, it was either her or her.

This fateful multiple-choice question never ends.

So Zhang Jinmin suddenly had no way to prove it.

……

Han Shu was about to stand up almost immediately.Prosecutor Cai next to him firmly suppressed him.

"What are you doing?" She squeezed a few words through her teeth.

"She is innocent, I shouldn't have listened to your words!" Han Shu was sweating all over his face.

"It's too late, can the court accept what you say now?"

"She will go to jail..." Han Shu's tears rolled down without warning.

"Han Shu, be rational, control yourself, don't be impulsive. Think about your father, think about your future, your future..."

Han Shu's older sister, Han Lin, graduated from a Belgian university, married a local without saying a word, quickly conceived a child, and declared that she would be a housewife from now on.This made Dean Han, who has always been proud of his daughter, add a lot of gray hair overnight.He used to think that his daughter would inherit all his advantages and be the best able to take over his mantle, but Han Lin, who was extremely outstanding since she was a child, unexpectedly broke his heart, and she was pregnant with a child before letting her parents know that she was married. people.On the morning of the trial day, before Han Shu went out, he heard his parents talking in the room.Mother reassured Dean Han not to get angry.Dean Han's voice seemed to be several years old. He said, "Fortunately, we still have Xiao Er. That child has become more and more like me in recent years."

Han Shu had never heard such words from his father. It was the first affirmation he had received in the past 18 years despite the pressure of his parents and the aura of his sister. All costs are not bitter.As long as Ju Nian is fine, his life will be a perfect small universe.

"Han Shu, don't move, don't do something you regret..."

What else did the godmother say, as if she had said a lot, and she seemed to never speak again.

In the huge court, all the people and props are like the blurred background in the photo, only one of them is alive - Ju Nian.

At this moment, Han Shu suddenly longed for Ju Nian to look at him, just one look, one look, even without dialogue, he has the power to subvert everything and the reason to abandon everything.

But she didn't, he knew, not for a second.

Although she knew he was there.

Defender You Zai insisted on his duty to justify Ju Nian.

"In a hostel like Sweet Honey, it's rare for a girl to stay alone. Is there really no one else who can prove that you stayed there that night? Xie Ju Nian, think again."

The court was silent.

Ju Nian's empty but clear voice echoed in it.

"I do not remember."

Han Shu leaned back on the chair slumped, and closed his eyes for a long time.

A week later, the court officially pronounced that Xie Junian was found guilty of robbery and cover-up. He was sentenced to five years in prison and deprived of political power for one year.

At that time, Xie Ju was 27 days old.

Everything in the past is like dying yesterday.

Han Shu did not attend the court hearing that day, although the godmother promised repeatedly that she would find a way to get Xie Junian to receive a lighter sentence.

He was wandering aimlessly on the street alone, and somehow, he arrived at a department store, where he bought a pair of white canvas shoes, size 6, under the hospitality of the salesperson.

After leaving the shopping mall, it was cloudy with a little wind, which was his favorite weather.

Fang Zhihe called him.

"Han Shu, have you been bored at home recently? School is about to start, we plan to find a place to get together and have fun, will you come?"

Han Shu opened the shoebox with one hand and stroked the unique rough marks on the canvas.

There was a drop of rain, and damn it, it changed.

He tossed the shoes into the trash can on the side of the road.

"Come on, why don't you come to a happy place, where are you?"

(End of the upper part)

"Let Me See You" (Part [-])

(End of this chapter)