let me look at you

Chapter 78 Pretending to Forgive Me (1)
Thousands of words turned into "I'm sorry"?Maybe she would leave if she just said "It's okay".

It was almost midnight when Han Shu rushed to the hospital.

When he left the KTV, he was in such a hurry that he even left his coat on the sofa in the box.It was Cai Jian who chased him out with the clothes himself, and he was already in the parking lot at that time.

"Where are you rushing so recklessly?" Cai Jian asked.

Han Shu took his coat and didn't answer, unexpectedly Cai Jian already had the answer.

"Are you going to find her? Han Shu, I thought you had figured it out a lot these days, but I didn't expect you to become more and more confused."

Even under the dim light of the parking lot, Han Shu could still read the puzzlement and helplessness on the face of his godmother who loved him since he was a child, as well as the subtext behind her voice.

He wanted to say, maybe I have been confused all along, and now I understand.But he didn't say that until he drove away.Understanding and confusion have always been the benevolent see benevolence, and the wise see wisdom.

Han Shu drove through the still bustling streets at night, and inexplicably thought of a word that was not very appropriate - returning home like an arrow.Although his destination is actually an elementary school in a remote location.He thought, no matter whether he could catch up with Feiming's show or not, he would lift the child up in a big circle. As for how to face Ju Nian, he imagined countless possibilities.

Thousands of words turned into "I'm sorry"?Maybe she would leave if she just said "It's okay".

Confess directly?Han Shu talked to himself and simulated it in the rearview mirror, and found that he was so numb that he trembled a few times.

Or...just kiss her?He thought carefully about the feasibility of this method, and finally admitted that he really didn't dare.

Sit quietly beside her, don't say anything, let time and actions prove everything?But with Xie Ju Nian's personality, she could definitely sit there forever without saying a word.Han Shu felt that he would die in a long period of dullness before he acted.

It seems that no matter what you do, nothing will work, no matter what you do, it will be wrong.Of course, after 11 years of delay, all actions and expressions are like scratching the surface.Han Shu imagined that 11 years ago, if he had just stepped forward and hugged her tightly, no matter if she blamed or resented, kept silent or pushed away, it would be fine, instead of just waiting in vain for her to take a look at him in the auditorium , In that case, would he not regret it as much as he does now?It was a question that would never have an answer—fortunately, he still had the option to hug her today.

hug her.Ignoring her indifference and refusal, allowing her to be puzzled, resisted, or even contemptuous, was the only thing Han Shu could think of.

As a result, the auditorium of Taiyuan Road Primary School arrived, but all the ideas could not be implemented.Han Shu was surprised to hear that something had happened to Feiming in the commotion, and rushed to the hospital under the guidance of the teacher who knew about it.

At this time, Feiming had come out of the emergency room and was sent to the temporary intensive care unit.Han Shu met the child's class teacher at the door of the ward. He ran out of breath, greeted hurriedly, and was about to go in. Before pushing the door, he glanced inside through the glass observation window above the ward door. Feiming, whose eyes were unclear, and Ju Nian, who was sitting by the bed with his back to the door.

Ju Nian's back was as thin and thin as in Han Shu's memory, and Han Shu's heart felt sour, and he felt a little close to his hometown. During this hesitation, he further noticed that besides them, there were other people in the room. other people.Who was it but Tang Ye who put a hand on Ju Nian's shoulder and handed her a glass of water?
Han Shu watched Ju Nianwei turn sideways to take the glass of water. Even if he couldn't see her face, Han Shu could still imagine her smiling at Tang Ye.To be honest, even though Tang Ye had blatantly brought Ju Nian to Cai Jian, calling her his girlfriend, and Ju Nian did not deny this, Han Shu was skeptical about their relationship deep down in his heart. I can't tell why, but it's just based on intuition that Tang Ye is not Wu Yu.Han Shu had personally seen the inexplicable things that flowed between Xie Ju Nian and Wu Yu. He admitted that there was no such thing between him and Xie Ju Nian, but he could not find that kind of trace on Tang Ye and Xie Ju Nian either. .Even so, looking at Tang Ye in the ward, he still regretted it.

He should have gone to watch Feiming's performance. Even if Feiming's accident could not be avoided, at least he was the first person to accompany them at that time, and now he left that position to Tang Ye.

Tang Ye lowered his head, as if he was whispering to Ju Nian.Han Shu couldn't hear their conversation, so he gently withdrew his hand on the door.He felt like an arrow leaving the string, rushing towards the red heart whistling with the sound of the wind, but suddenly he couldn't find his direction, his strength gradually lost, and he fell to the ground in vain.

So he walked away a few steps and asked Feiming's class teacher about his condition in a low voice.He really couldn't figure out why Feiming, who seemed healthy and lively, had a sudden illness and was admitted to the hospital without warning.

Teacher Yang, the teacher in charge of Feiming, was obviously vague when facing Han Shu's question, but Han Shuming saw confusion and regret from Teacher Yang's expression, his heart sank immediately, and he stopped wasting time on the teacher, Turn around and walk towards the doctor's office on duty.

There was no one in the doctor's office, so Han Shu had no choice but to find the nurse on duty at the front desk, and immediately asked, "The little girl who was just sent here is the one named Xie Feiming. What's wrong with her?"

A little nurse who lowered her head to copy and write glanced at Han Shu, "Who are you?"

Han Shu was at a loss for words for a moment, and then he replied cheekily, "I'm her father." After saying this, he felt a burst of fever in the nurse's puzzled eyes.

"Can you have such a big daughter?" The other party replied with distrust.

At this time, another older nurse answered, "You are her father, so who was the one who went through the formalities for the child just now? Let's talk about it when the doctor comes back."

Han Shu's heart skipped a beat when he heard this, instead of arguing, he just lowered his posture and begged, "Please, I just want to know what's wrong with her."

He originally had an appearance that was easy to please the opposite sex, and his words were sincere. The nurse thought about it for a while, and didn't make any trouble. She lowered her head and looked through the admission records, and when she looked up, there was something strange in her words.

"Are you really the child's father? She suffers from delayed onset epilepsy..."

"Epileptic?" Han Shu subconsciously repeated.

After saying thank you with a blank expression, he walked to the chair closest to him and sat down. He was in a daze for a while. Finally, seeing no one around, he pinched his arm vigorously. The pain was severe. It seems this is not a dream.

The illness made him think that she might be related to someone else.This fact, which should have been suddenly enlightened, weighed on Han Shu like a mountain, making him breathless.

Han Shu knew that Feiming was not born by Xie Junian. Before that, he had always attributed to her kindness and loneliness that he dragged a child who was not related to him to live in poverty.He really never thought that Feiming was that person's child, it turned out to be like this!

In fact, looking back now, isn't the fact right in front of you?Besides Wu Yu's children, who else deserves to be treated like this by Xie Ju Nian.Feiming's face, her brows and eyes, all depict traces of familiarity.Han Shu broke out in a cold sweat because of this discovery. For so many years, she actually lived in the shadow of another person. He thought that whether she wanted to or not, the image of Wu Yu left in the world would forever disappear with that afternoon. , it did not.

Wu Yu, how long has it been? Han Shu doesn't want to recall this name, but now that he closes his eyes, he seems to be able to see that person, who is still a young man with light eyebrows and bright smile.In front of him, the young Han Shu suddenly felt tired and dusty all over his body.

Ju Nian sent Tang Ye to the gate of the hospital.She is not very good at words, she walked in silence for a while, and when it was time to stop, she said: "Thank you."

"Don't worry about money." Tang Ye caught a cold and spoke with a nasal voice.

Ju Nian shook his head, "Thank you for coming."

It was also a coincidence that Ju Nian received a call from Tang Ye while he was waiting for Feiming outside the emergency room.After Christmas Eve, they didn't see each other again, and Tang Ye just greeted them briefly on the phone. He didn't expect to rush over immediately when he heard about Feiming.

"It seems that we are so predestined with the hospital." Ju Nian smiled helplessly.

Tang Ye said: "That is also a kind of fate. You can go back and be with the child. I am leaving. You should also pay attention to rest. We will wait until the CT results come out tomorrow."

Ju Nian nodded.

Tang Ye seemed still worried, and he comforted him again: "Don't think too much. If you think too much, it won't help, and it will only increase your troubles."

Ju Nian said in a low voice: "It's okay. I just thought, things have gone so bad, how could it go any worse? Thinking of this, I feel relieved." She laughed hastily, "At least she Still alive."

Tang Ye showed a little puzzled expression. He felt that Xie Ju Nian was like a clear lake. At first glance, it was clear, but he didn't know what was deposited underneath.Before this night, for instance, he hadn't known she had adopted a girl that age, and she seemed so far in no mood to explain it.

(End of this chapter)