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Chapter 93 The Three People's New Year's Eve (2)
Han Shu was quiet for a while, and didn't go to pick up the umbrella that Ju Nian handed over. He looked at her through the water droplets and the rain curtain that flowed from his hair, as if he had just realized that she was not good at being tough, and the pain of his rejection The intention is so firm.He once thought that he had worked so hard to get closer to her, closer, but it was not the case. Even at this moment, it was only a step away, and her door never wanted to be opened for him.She is in her closed world separated by a door, and he is outside the door, whether it is far or near, there is actually no difference.

She didn't know what he went through this New Year's Eve, busyness, exhaustion, shock, anger, grievance... Han Shu felt that he had reached his limit, there was no one more unlucky than him in the whole world, and the whole world could not get along with him.In front of the iron door that was as stubbornly closed as hers, all the negative emotions suddenly climbed to the peak, he took a step back, raised his leg and kicked the iron door fiercely, "I just So annoying!"

That poor iron gate was broken once during their last quarrel, and then it was erected again with the help of Uncle Cai. After one kick, the iron door vibrated, and the dust and mud clods on the edge fell down, and a small piece even hit Ju Nian's trouser legs.

Ju Nian took a step back in a panic, but luckily the iron gate was still alive and crumbling.In this unmanageable situation, she felt absurdly absurd, how could there be such a rascal, who was clearly doing annoying things, and asked, why am I so annoying.

She turned her head back to the house indifferently, but she had to think uneasily in her heart that if he went crazy and added another kick, the iron gate would really be sacrificed, and she wondered if it could stand up again.

However, the tragedy that Han Shu made up for did not happen. When Ju Nian walked under the eaves, he heard a pitiful voice, "I was kicked out by the old man."

"Ah?" Ju Nian was startled, and turned to look at him in a daze.In Ju Nian's consistent impression, although Han Shu is rascal and unreasonable, he rarely lies.

Han Shu stood in the drizzle, dejectedly, but the awkwardness was still there, he kicked the small mud lump that fell from the edge of the iron gate, and said reluctantly: "I have nowhere to go, okay?" .”

Ju Nian still didn't believe it. She had heard from Feiming earlier that Han Shu didn't live with his parents. With ability, it is not difficult to find a place to take him in.

Han Shu seemed to have guessed what she was thinking, and continued: "I know you don't believe me, but my current residence is still fully paid by the old man, under his name... I just want to win, let him see, I It’s not like you can’t live without him.”

"Why bother." Ju Nian is a person who has never received any protection from her parents, so she can't understand what people like Han Shu are struggling to prove.

"I'm not that shameless, you said it's impossible, I admit it, and I don't want to do anything, I just want to find a place to catch my breath..."

Under the eaves, the gust of wind blew across the hall, and Ju Nian felt a biting chill. Han Shu wanted to save face and didn't shiver in the rain, but she knew he must be terribly cold.Ju Nian was silent, she was not hard-hearted, nor did she have to see him suffer in order to gain comfort from it.At other times, in other places, it is not impossible to let him sit for a while, but it is different here.This is the place where the little monk lived, storing all the memories she didn't want to show to others, and it was the last place she insisted on, a world that belonged only to her and the little monk.She can tolerate people like Tang Ye who have no connection with memories occasionally stepping in, but Han Shu can't, he alone can't, she doesn't want this only inch of quiet corner to be disturbed by him.

She was only thinking about it, but she didn't know that the movement here had attracted Feiming who was on the bed. Feiming got out from beside his aunt's arm, and when he saw the person outside the door, he was both surprised and happy, and shouted, "Uncle Han Shu." ", I was about to rush to open the door.

Ju Nian quickly hugged Feiming, still afraid, the child didn't even have a coat on, and wanted to plunge into the rain, it would kill her!
"Auntie, Uncle Han Shu is here. He got caught in the rain and will get sick!" Feiming was stopped under the eaves by Ju Nian, and he still poked his head out desperately to look at Han Shu outside the door and yelled.

Ju Nian looked back awkwardly, only to see Han Shu standing outside the iron gate without saying a word, he no longer got angry or asked, and looked at her wetly.Feiming, who was still in her arms, also opened his eyes wide, full of confusion.Under the attack of these two pairs of eyes, Ju Nian felt helpless for some reason.

After Feiming called "Uncle Han Shu" again, trying to break free from Ju Nian's shackles and run to open the door, Ju Nian steadied the child who was so skinny and stared at him with stern eyes that he had never seen before. Feiming shouted sharply: "Don't make trouble, do you know who he is?"

This child, she only read Han Shu's good words...she didn't understand anything.

Feiming didn't dare to move anymore. Although she was a little self-willed, she was still an obedient child. The suddenly cold face of her aunt and the incomprehensible things in her eyes made her feel strange and terrified. Wanting to cry, he replied honestly, "He is Uncle Han Shu."

In front of such a simple answer, Ju Nian's lips trembled, and he couldn't say a word.Yes, she was speechless, the person outside the door was Uncle Han Shu whom Feiming loved, admired, and even pretended to be his father.How can she refute it?Does she want to say that he is the sinner who indirectly made you an orphan, and that he is the scourge of your aunt's 11 years of loneliness?

However, is this really the case?

Sometimes she thinks yes, sometimes she thinks no.

It has been 11 years and we have come to this point. What is the cause, what is the effect, what is the truth, and what is the illusion?
Ju Nian took off his coat and wrapped it tightly around Feiming's body. Feiming's tears flowed down. Tang Ye's missed appointment had already disappointed her for a while.For Ju Nian, the small courtyard guarded by an iron gate is the peace she longs for most, but for the child, it is inherent loneliness.

"Stand here and don't move." She was afraid that the child would run desperately into the rain again, so she said to Feiming with a hint of warning.Then she walked to the rickety iron door step by step, without looking at Han Shu's expression at this time, she lowered her head and took out a small key, and inserted it into the rusty keyhole.

The keyhole rotated, and Ju Nian heard the slight "click" of the spring, and the door opened.

Han Shu pushed the door open and stepped on the dead leaves softened by the rain.During this period of time, Ju Nian has been busy taking care of Feiming, so he didn't even bother to clean up. Water creaked up from the edge of the soles.Ju Nian didn't greet him, and had already led Feiming into the house, and he followed behind cheekily.He had never been able to enter this house before, and he knew that their lives were poor. Although he was prepared in his heart, he saw that the dark and old house was almost empty except for the necessary living utensils. The courtyard full of leaves has an indescribably dilapidated feeling.He is a person who pays attention to the quality of life, and he pays attention to the perfection of food and clothing. At first glance, it seems that they have lived such a life for many years. Under the strong psychological gap, it is like a stick in the throat, and it is indescribably bitter.

While Han Shu was looking around, Ju Nian took a dry towel and handed it to him silently.He was sad in his heart, and he was afraid that she would see through, so he couldn't control that mean mouth.He clicked his tongue and said while wiping his wet hair: "I see that if you sell all the messy things in your yard to the waste collectors, the money you get is enough for me to retire early now and enjoy my old age. "

After hearing this, Ju Nian felt infinitely sympathetic, "Then I'm afraid your old age will be very short."

Han Shu who "died young" wisely stopped on this topic, because he couldn't tell whether Xie Ju Nian had completely lost his sense of humor, or was telling him a cold joke.

For unknown reasons, the old house is more likely to make people feel colder, and there is no heating in the house.Han Shu's hands were half stiff from the cold, and after finally wiping his hair to stop dripping, he couldn't help but sneezed again.Feiming refused to lie back on the bed to rest, so she moved a stool and sat next to her Uncle Han Shu.Seeing this, Ju Nian had no choice but to take out a small electric heater that Feiming usually used, and put it beside the two of them. Only then did he feel that the blood in his body began to circulate again, and at this moment, the discomfort of the wet clothes sticking to his skin became more and more obvious.

He took off his coat, and the thin sweater and shirt inside were also soaked by the rain. Others Cheng Men Lixue, he is Xie Men Liyu, the goal seems to have been achieved, and the consequences are also very serious.It was not in vain that he hurt Feiming a lot. Seeing this, the little guy immediately yelled, "Uncle Han Shu, you are going to be sick like this!"

Han Shukong shook his clothes, coughed a few times, and made a seemingly reasonable request to Ju Nian at the right time, "Well... can I borrow your bathroom to take... a shower?"

He is really humble, but Ju Nian is also really surprised and embarrassed.In her opinion, allowing him to step into this house was her bottom line, and she never thought that he would continue to make such a request.

Ju Nian said dully, "Didn't you say sit down and take a breather before leaving?"

Han Shu opened his eyes wide, "That's what I said, but you see, I'm so wet all over, and it's cold, if I don't change it, I'll catch a cold. I don't have anyone to take care of me now, cook porridge for me, maybe A cold becomes pneumonia, and pneumonia becomes meningitis, let alone take a breather, it will be good if you don’t stop breathing."

After he finished speaking, he made a couple of bahs. He didn't say such things before the Chinese New Year, but he talked to Xie Ju Nian a lot, and he would naturally say some inexplicable dialogue—but as long as it has an effect.

Ju Nian forced a smile, "I don't have any clothes for you here either."

"Yes, aunt, you forgot, in your room..."

"Unclear!"

Tong Yan said nothing, Ju Nian frowned and stopped the child's words.Feiming didn't have a heart, she just wanted to keep her Uncle Han Shu, how could she know that a single sentence was enough to make her aunt's face blush, embarrassing and inexplicable.

"Those are your Sinian father's old clothes, how can Uncle Han Shu wear them?"

Han Shu looked at the aunt and nephew silently, and stood up happily, "This is not a problem, I have a change of clothes in the car, I just borrowed your place."

(End of this chapter)