If the love is deep into the bones

Chapter 63 The Shadow of the Past

I was amused by his exaggerated tone, and I glanced at him angrily before saying, "Actually, it all happened when I was studying. At that time, I had a crush on Ji Ning..."

For a long time, every time I hear or mention this name, I always have an indescribable feeling, hate is not like hate, I can’t say I like it, it’s just aggrieved, and I just can’t let it go.

Speaking of which, Luo Jingwen was actually the one who liked Ji Ning at first, and it was because of her that I noticed the existence of this person, because Ji Ning was not in our class at all.

Then after realizing the existence of this person, I fell in love with him unknowingly.

Because Ji Ning is not only handsome, but also good at studying, tall and thin, and can play basketball, it's hard not to be attracted.

But a secret love is a secret love, I never met him, and we were in the same class with a good friend of his. Coincidentally, that good friend of his liked me, and that was Wang Zonglei.

In the beginning, Wang Zonglei always liked to find things to strike up a conversation with me, or make trouble with me. His family was rich, so he would deliberately find opportunities to treat us to snacks.

In the beginning, they just invited us to have drinks for physical education class, and they still thought he was nice. Later, they bought breakfast for me, and bought it for me alone, and their liking for me became more and more obvious.

I don't like him, so I must have started to reject his kindness, and the classmates in the class started making all kinds of booing, and I didn't even dare to talk to him, trying to avoid him as much as possible.

After a period of time, he seemed to feel something too, but he didn't give up, and began to write love letters to me, not obviously, but blatantly and eagerly.

Later, the story of the love letter was spread, and my classmates kept teasing me about him and the love letter.

At that time, when I was young, I didn't feel that being liked by others was such an attractive thing for me. Instead, I would be shy and feel ashamed, and I would ignore him even more.

Later, he wrote another love letter and asked a classmate in the same class who has a good relationship with him to give it to me. I didn't read it and threw it in the trash can.

My behavior not only made him lose face, but also hurt him. He ignored me for a long time.

In fact, I feel that I am a bit too much, but I always feel that it is not good to be entangled like this. It is impossible for me to like him, and I also feel uncomfortable when he is always like this.

Later, it was my birthday, and he didn't know where the news came from, so he suddenly gave me a birthday present.

I felt that I was too much that time, and I didn't throw him a gift, but asked him to meet after school.

He was very happy at that time, but I just wanted to find a place with few people to return the gift to him, and I didn't want him to lose face again.

That would be when Xiao Ru went to school with me and met him at the door. What I didn't expect was that Ji Ning was the one waiting for me with him.

I always knew that he knew Ji Ning and had a good relationship with him. Xiao Ru also suggested to me to date Wang Zonglei first, and then use Wang Zonglei to get close to Ji Ning.

Of course I refuse, I'm all right with his brother, how can I get close to him!

It's just that I didn't expect that Ji Ning and Wang Zonglei would wait for me that day.

At that time, my mood was indescribably complicated, and I didn't want Ji Ning to think that I had any ambiguity with his brother. When I handed over the gift, my attitude was a little decisive.

Wang Zonglei looked hurt, but I had no time to take care of it. I just thought, what would Ji Ning think of me.

Not long after that, Wang Zonglei suddenly told me that Ji Ning liked me and wanted to date me.

The real heart is beating like a drum, the male god who has been secretly in love with me for almost two years, suddenly wants to date me.

I didn't say yes at the time, sorry, embarrassing, but later it was Wang Zonglei who led the line, saying that Ji Ning would ask me out to play.

I agreed. On the weekend, I, Xiaoru, Luo Jingwen, Li Jie, Ji Ning and Wang Zonglei went to play together, and then Ji Ning and Ji Ning proposed to go roller skating.

I have never skated before, he taught me very patiently, with indescribable gentleness, Luo Jingwen and the others, who were taught by Wang Zonglei, had a terrible fall.

That day was very happy, I think it should be the happiest day since I became sensible.

When we were apart, we made an appointment to come together again next week, and I agreed without hesitation, and then I looked forward to a quick weekend every day, which can be regarded as like a year.

On the weekend, we went skating again, and we played until nine o'clock in the evening, and he sent me back. On the way, he mentioned to me about his relationship with me, and asked me personally.

I agreed, and then he took my hand, sent me to the gate of the community, and made an appointment to play together next weekend.

Xiaoru, Luo Jingwen and the others knew that I was in a relationship with Ji Ning. It was a jealous envy. That week I felt like I was walking on cotton.

Soon the weekend came, and we played until nine o'clock. He sent me home, but no longer to the gate of the community, but directly to the downstairs.

On the not-so-dark stairway at my house, he hugged me and kissed me, a real kiss, not just a lip-to-lip kiss.

I came home in a daze, from missing that kiss to wondering if he had kissed a lot of girls, and stayed up all night.

Immediately after going to school the next day, the bad news came...

Although we didn't talk very much at school, we mostly smiled at each other when we met, but that smile was gentle, and we could always feel that our relationship was very close from that smile.

But today, he completely regarded me as a transparent person, so he had a bad feeling. Wang Zonglei came to me and said that Ji Ning wanted him to break up with me.

I was stunned for a moment before I realized what Wang Zonglei said, and asked Wang Zonglei why without thinking.

Then Wang Zonglei looked at me with contempt and said, Ji Ning said he doesn't like girls who are too casual.

With a thunderbolt from the blue sky, my whole head exploded at once, my scalp was numb, my blood seemed to be on fire, and my hands were trembling uncontrollably.

I was ashamed and annoyed, and wanted to yell at how casual I was, but thinking about the kiss last night, I couldn't speak, and even wanted to find a crack in the ground to slip in.

But the matter didn't end like this. Only one day later, Ji Ning dated Luo Jingwen, and Luo Jingwen actually agreed, and comforted me the first day, but when someone mentioned it to her the next day, she actually agreed!Don't be too ruthless with this knife!
The next day I took sick leave and didn't go to school. I didn't want to see anyone, but my dad came back from get off work and scolded me to vent his anger. I replied and got slapped.

Humiliation and betrayal, my parents didn't want to see me. At that time, I thought of committing suicide. I felt that my life in this world was not only unnecessary, but also completely meaningless, so I ran out of the house covering my face.

I sat by the lake in the park and cried for a long time. Finally, I didn't have the courage to jump, and then I went to find Xiaoru.

(End of this chapter)