Horse on the World

Chapter 178 Qingfeng's Monologue

Jiyue sat in front of the window sill, carefully holding the sole of the shoe one by one, with a concentrated expression, smiles on the corners of her eyes and brows, and on one side of the window sill, there was a shoe sole with densely packed stitches. Neat and neat, like a row of soldiers, showing Jiyue's intentions.

When Qingfeng walked into the room, Jiyue didn't notice it. Seeing her sister being so attentive, Qingfeng's heart shrank slightly as if being pierced by a needle point, feeling a tingling pain.

"Yun Rong!" she called out in a low voice.

"Ah!" Jiyue was taken aback, slipped her hand, and the tip of the needle pricked her finger, and the dark red blood immediately dripped onto the snow-white layered bottom.

"Yunrong, are you okay?" Qingfeng took a step forward and took Jiyue's hand, wanting to see the needle wound on her finger, Jiyue's hand shrank slightly, avoiding Qingfeng's hand, and wrapped her finger Into the mouth, suck a few times, "Sister, you are here!"

Qingfeng sighed almost inaudibly, looking at her sister's calm face, she felt sad for a while.The two sisters looked at each other for a moment, but they had nothing to say. After a long while, Qingfeng brought over the packed layered bottom on the window sill, and said in a low voice, "Is it for him again?"

Jiyue turned away, looked at the fallen leaves flying outside the window, her eyes became hazy, she pursed her lips, but due to too much force, she lost her original blush and looked pale.

Qingfeng stood up, walked behind Jiyue, hugged her affectionately, gently stroked her sister's loose long hair, and murmured: "Yunrong, I know you hate me, I know that you have long since I like the general, but I tried my best to stop you, but in the end I fell into the general's arms. I separated you in Chong County and didn't let you come to Dingzhou, just because I was afraid that you would see the general again, but Yunrong, you know my sister's Are you painstaking?"

Jiyue's shoulders trembled slightly, but she still held her head stubbornly, not letting the tears in her eyes flow out.His face became paler and paler.

Turning in front of Jiyue, Qingfeng cupped Jiyue's delicate face, "Yunrong, do you know how hard your sister is going?"

"In Angu, when my sister lost her innocence, I really wanted to die at that time, but I couldn't die, Yunrong, I couldn't die, I still had to take care of you, you know? At that time, you were about to be killed As a gift, I was sent to another tribe by Wanyan Bulu to exchange for armor. If I die, those beasts may come to insult you immediately. Although I know I can’t keep you for a few days, but even if it’s only one day , My sister also wants to do it, my sister prays to God every day, prays for the gods and Buddhas in the sky, prays for the collapse of the sky, and prays for the floods and beasts, so that I can go to hell with these barbarians. So that you can escape this catastrophe."

The tears in Jiyue's eyes finally fell, and the ice in her eyes melted inch by inch. Thinking of the precarious days when she was in the Angu Tribe and struggling with fear every day, her body trembled involuntarily. Unknowingly, her hands Embracing the slender waist with a breeze.

"The gods have manifested, and the gods and Buddhas have manifested!" Qingfeng's tone suddenly became excited, and an abnormal flush appeared on his face, "The general led the troops, he defeated the barbarian, and personally killed the demon, Jiyue, You were saved, your life was saved, and your innocence was saved. At that time, my sister thought of death again. But when I saw your frail body and frightened eyes, I didn't dare to die anymore. I don't know if I Once you die, how can you survive, just like this, we have arrived in Chong County."

"I know the general's life experience, I know he is a son of a family, I was horrified to find that you fell in love with him, Yunrong, but what were our identities at that time, do we still have identities? Yes, you are innocent , but who would believe it? Except me, who would believe it? A freed slave wants to climb up to the noble general, the noble young master of the waiter, if it is known, we will have no place in Chong County."

"I was wrong. I didn't know that the general had such a broad mind and such a benevolent heart, Jiyue. If I knew, I would definitely not stop you. I would do my best to help you."

"When I understood all this, it was too late. The general said he liked me and loved me. And I, during the days with the general, fell in love with him hopelessly. I refused , but I can’t change it, I know I’m sorry for you. At that time, I still thought that both my sisters could rely on the general, because the general is worth relying on.”

"However, what happened next made me wake up from a dream. Yunrong, except for the general, everyone else still thinks that we are unclean women, unchaste women, and women with unknown identities, which will harm the general's future. Women, but these people are all the general's confidantes, they spare no effort to prevent the general from loving me and marrying me."

"The general's insistence gave me hope. I dreamed that the Lin family could accept us again. At that time, we would regain our status as the distinguished ladies of the family. We could marry into the Li family in a fair and honest manner. However, That night, the ruthless reality of that night completely shattered my dreams, our grandfather, the well-read poet, known as the scholar leader, and respected by the world, never looked at me from the beginning to the end."

Qingfeng cried bitterly, Jiyue's psychological defense was completely shattered, she hugged Qingfeng tightly, buried her head in her chest, and cried bitterly.

"Death is a small matter, but loss is a major matter!" Qingfeng stopped crying and murmured, "This is what our grandfather told me. Yunrong, from then on, our surname is no longer Lin, and our surname is no longer Lin. Without a home, without parents, without relatives, there are only two of us and sisters left."

"Yunrong, since that night, I have made up my mind that one day, I will re-enter that door openly, and I tell them loudly, my surname is Lin, but I will never be surnamed Lin again, and I will let you They regret it, is their reputation more important than blood relationship, more important than the lives of our sisters? They are trying to force us to death!"

"Yunrong, don't blame me. I also thought about quietly being a woman of the general, but I was in charge of the Statistics and Investigation Department. Back then, I just wanted to complete everything the general entrusted to me, and strive to He made him perfect, but after I did it, I was stunned by the strength and power I held in my hands. Mr. Shang began to doubt me, began to attack me, and tried to pull me down."

"I'm scared. Yunrong, you don't understand. After I get to my position, I have no way out. Even if I step down, will Mr. Shang rest assured of me? The Statistics and Investigation Department I established, from top to bottom, No one is my confidant, unless I die, no one can take him away from me. But now, I don't want to die, I want to live, live a more beautiful life than anyone else, more Proud, I want to show those people what kind of person Lin Yunxi is!"

Qingfeng stood up abruptly, walking back and forth in the room excitedly.

"Who is Shang Haibo? He is the general's number one subordinate. He is the general's confidant. A person with prestige, there is such a person staring at me, what can I do? I can only continue to expand my strength and build my own circle in order to fight against him."

"Yunrong, do you think it's so easy to be a general's woman? You don't know the hesitation in my heart. The general's future wife is the famous Princess Qingcheng. Will she be able to accommodate our sisters in the future?"

"I can't let you get involved. Elder sister has no choice but to retreat. If she retreats, she will die. But you, younger sister, have no eggs under the capsized nest. I am finished. Is it possible for you to survive? Elder sister is struggling now. If you follow the general again, what will Shang Haibo think? He will deal with us even harder."

"I hope you will be safe and sound for the rest of your life. I absolutely don't want you to be involved in this fight. Yunrong, forgive me." Qingfeng stood still.

"My sister will choose someone for you who will make you happy for the rest of your life, someone who will take care of you and protect you for the rest of your life. Even if your sister fails, Shang Haibo will not touch you at all." Qingfeng said firmly.

"Sister!" Ji Yue shouted.

Qingfeng picked up the layered bottom that Jiyue had taken half, stretched out his hand and broke the silk thread, and threw it out of the window, "Yunrong, believe me, my sister is doing everything for your own good."

Jiyue calmed down slowly, looked at Qingfeng, "Sister, I think you already have a candidate, can you tell my sister?"

There was joy in Qingfeng's eyes, and he sat opposite Jiyue, "Yunrong, that man is not well-known now, but he will become one of the most famous generals in Dingzhou in a short time. No, he won't despise you, I'm afraid he never dreamed of marrying a knowledgeable, virtuous and gentle wife like you, and you are still perfect, when he realizes this, he will love you even more ,Love you."

"More importantly, he doesn't belong to any faction in Dingzhou. Like his sister, he fights alone. If he can form an alliance with me, it is his dream. If the two lone wolves can become friends, their strength will become stronger. become stronger."

"When all this becomes a reality, Shang Haibo will find out, and the future general's wife, Princess Qingcheng, will find out that if they want to move our sisters, they have to bear the turmoil they can't bear, for the great cause of the general, and for their own. Wealthy and rich, they can only tolerate us, compromise with us, and share the glory with us. Only then will we be truly safe, can we truly gain peace and tranquility, and will we be able to stand in front of the Lin family's gate in a glorious manner .”

Jiyue looked at Qingfeng, and suddenly laughed, and in the laughter, tears were falling down bit by bit, and her eyes gradually became strange when she looked at her sister, "Sister, you forgot, although my sister doesn't understand worldly affairs, but I am also a person who has been familiar with history books since I was a child. What is your sister? Is it a tool for you to fight for power? What you value is the future strength of that general, and what you value is the help he can give you in the future. And Princess Qingcheng's powerful weapon, but, have you ever thought about your sister's happiness? Have you ever thought about your sister being happy? Have you ever asked her if she is willing?"

"Yunrong!" Qingfeng sternly said, "Isn't my sister doing all this for you? Yes, I admit, I have this idea, but can you deny that my sister is also thinking about your future? Don't think about it." General, being a general's woman is a burden you cannot bear. I have embarked on this road of no return, and I can only continue on. Maybe one day, my sister will be smashed to pieces and die without a place to bury her. And you, There is still a chance to choose."

Jiyue stood up slowly, "I don't want to, never!"

Jiyue walked out of the house without looking back.

Inside the house, Qingfeng sat down slumped, covered her face with her hands, and sobbed silently.

(This chapter is very difficult to write. Under Gunslinger’s pen, Qingfeng finally took this path inevitably, a road of a strong woman and a female politician. To be honest, Gunslinger has always wanted to avoid this. In my In my heart, I hope that she is a gentle and pleasant little woman, but the development of the plot leaves the gunner with no choice. Qingfeng’s long monologue in this chapter is an analysis of her inner transformation process. The world is impermanent, and people are often forced to In reality, we are often faced with this kind of choice! For those who don’t like the character of Qingfeng, I can only say sorry, understand Qingfeng, understand Qingfeng , this is a pitiful woman who may make you feel hateful in the future, but there is no doubt that she is also pursuing her own peace.)
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