The queen leaves the court

Chapter 29 I Don't Owe You When I Leave You (1)
"Ah Xun." In the torrential rain, there was a pitiful whisper in her ear, warm and strong arms wrapped around her cold heart washed by the rain.

An Zixun was full of bitterness. When she was most helpless and needed warmth, it was never you...

The house, which has been in disrepair for a long time, encountered this heavy rain, leaked everywhere, and fell into the basin with a loud clatter.

Hold the ginger tea in your hand and drink it down your throat. The hot liquid enters your stomach, arousing a burst of heat/spiciness, warming your cool body from the inside to the outside like a fire.

"Thank you." An Zixun breathed a sigh of relief, feeling as if he had stepped out of the chaos again, and said gratefully to him beside him.

She bent her knees and hugged her, wrapped in a heavy blanket, but still trembling.A head of long hair was soaked, and strands of it hung on his shoulders like lifeless.

Her plain face was as calm as water, and her eyelashes were lowered to hide the mourning that flowed from her pupils.

When we first met her in the mountain wind, her eyes were amazing. Outside the city, when she looked back and smiled, that innate coquettishness broke into his heart without warning, and opened up the deep part of his memory. The good things that have been treasured for many years.

Kaoru, you must not know the joy and excitement when I was sure it was really you; the sad hopelessness when I found out that you are his wife.

He really wanted to reach out and hold her in his arms, the person who was right in front of him, but her alienation made him dare not get any closer impatiently.

Instead, he turned up the brazier, "Thank you, this is my old house, it's very simple, there's only so much I can do for you."

"I have a house to live in, a charcoal fire to keep warm, and Chunshui's unwavering care. I have already gained a lot." Her hands and feet gradually warmed up, and she said to Chunshui with sideways eyes.

On the contrary, she never knew that Chunshui lived such a life.

There was a flash of sympathy in her eyes, and Helian Chunshui seemed to be stabbed in the heart by something.

Kaoru, don't look at me with sympathy.

In the eyes of outsiders, his head is not clear, he is a royal family with no power and influence, he has seen the warmth and coldness of human relationships thoroughly for more than ten years, no matter how others look at him, it doesn't matter.

She is different, she regards him as a child in her teens, she cares and protects him, and her kindness to him is so pure, without any impurities.

"I should go, where is A Duan?" She stood up, put down the blanket, her wet clothes were pressed against her body, and she was suddenly shivering.

"Where are you going?" Helian Chunshui was taken aback, and firmly grasped her wrist.

On a rainy day, when she came out of the palace, only A Duan came out with no one to stop her. It must be Helian Qing who drove her away. No one in Western Chu knows what kind of temper that person is!

An Zixun was pinched by him, and the anger and anxiety in Chunshui's eyes was completely different from his usual. This was the second time, and she noticed his abnormality for the second time.

"Chunshui, what's the matter with you?" She couldn't help reaching out to touch his forehead, "You seem weird, don't you feel uncomfortable?" She remembered that Rong Fu said that after his serious illness, his head became more and more confused, and even his personality became more and more confused. A lot has changed.

"It's nothing, I'm fine..." Realizing that he lost his composure, Helian Chunshui laughed as usual, and pressed the back of An Zixun's hand on his forehead tightly with his hand. "My head hurts a bit."

With a very childish smile, An Zixun couldn't help but soften his voice with a bit of flattery.

"Remember to find a good doctor. You originally had a headache. The method I taught you can only treat the symptoms. If you want to get well completely, you need medicine and time to recuperate." After speaking, she sighed, remembering the situation he was in. He said, "If your Seventh Emperor Uncle is here, I can invite Mu Mian to show you. Now that I have come out of the palace, I can't help you at all."

"Ah Xun, are you still going back to Third Emperor's uncle?" Helian Chunshui asked tentatively, but his eyes were eager to get her sure answer.

She shook her head, He Lianqing owed her a favor, and she asked for Ji Yunshang's life, but the matter of the tiger talisman had not been resolved, even if she wanted to leave, the king of Xichu might not let her out of the city gate.

It doesn't matter whether she goes back to the palace or not.

"Then you stay and live with me, okay?" Helian Chunshui suggested, before she could reply, he immediately jumped up happily, "That's it, I'll clean up the house for you!"

He ran out and almost bumped into Ah Duan who was about to come in.

She walked over to An Zixun and put down her clean clothes, "Master Hou is really a good person, but it's a pity..."

"If you can be like him, sometimes it's good." She smiled, turned her head and told A Duan, "We can't stay for long, we will leave when the rain stops, no matter where it is, don't trouble this person."

What He Lianqing said to her was to warn her that if she left the palace, she would have no protection, and maybe someone would want to kill her.She got into trouble unknowingly, let alone dragging Chunshui down.

"How could Lord Hou keep Princess Qing here?!" Rong Fu spoke fiercely.

He Lian Chunshui sneered, "Why not?" He Lianqing didn't want her, he loved her.

"Have you forgotten what your wife told you before you left? It's been ten years since Lord Hou was allowed to return to Xichu with great difficulty. What if Prince Qing offends Prince Qing because of the concubine? Last time, the prince said he would send Lord Hou back. If you really go back like this, how can you explain to Madam?"

"Master Ben has his own plans." After ten years, it was not easy for him to come back. It is precisely because of the hard-won things that he should cherish them all the more, and the same is true for An Zixun. "Rong Fu, you remember the humiliation how we left from Xichu back then, and now I, Helian Chunshui, will definitely get it back!"

After changing into clean clothes, I have seen it for a long time, the heavy rain has no intention of stopping at all, it is falling with a clatter, and the water basin in the house is almost full, An Zixun rolled up her sleeves and hurriedly poured water out.

"Young lady is an honored guest of Lord Hou, so you must not do these things, let this old slave do it." Seeing this, a man in his [-]s or so rushed forward to prevent her and A Duan from busying themselves.

"You're welcome, Master Hou took me here to shelter from the rain. These trivial matters are easy to do." She smiled. Helian Chunshui was very careful, and even sent a good wound medicine. The arm was covered with medicine, which was wet and infected by the rain at first. Swelling and pain, much better.

If she didn't do anything, An Zixun had no choice but to stand aside and look around. Although the house was dilapidated, the carvings on the railings were exquisitely crafted, not inferior to the Xichu Palace.

Seeing her fascinated, the man started talking, "Don't look at the dilapidated place here. I didn't know how beautiful it was many years ago. When the late emperor was alive, he bestowed upon Prince Jin Beiyuan."

"Young Master Jin?"

She heard Jin Xiaotong mention son Jin, a well-known talent in Xichu.

The first emperor lived long and had already made his eldest son the crown prince. At that time, Helian Yufeng was not the eldest son, but he was the most outstanding among the many princes.Just because the biological mother is an ordinary concubine, it can't compare to the prince being the queen's only son.

The prince was established, and the grandson of the emperor was established as the son Jin.

He has outstanding literary talents, and his proficiency in piano, chess, calligraphy and painting was even more favored by the late emperor.

However, the eldest son is already old, so he can't wait for the first emperor to go and do rebellion.Although it was quickly quelled, the first emperor died in a fit of rage, and the kings took advantage of the situation to raise troops. Helian Yufeng quelled the rebellion with the help of the Jin family, and was enthroned as emperor with the support of his officials.

Gongzi Jin was demoted to King You and placed under house arrest in the imperial capital.

Not long after, rumors spread that Prince Jin conspired to cause rebellion. Afterwards, more than a hundred members of the family were killed, and his name was even removed from the genealogy of the Xichu Helian family.

Chunshui said, this is his old house, what is the relationship between Chunshui and son Jin?
"Young Master Jin is the deceased father of my Lord Hou." The man continued.

An Zixun was astonished, feeling a little uneasy in his heart, He Lianjin's family was killed, but why did Helian Yufeng leave Chunshui behind?And he was allowed to return to the capital of Western Chu?
In a trance, Helian Chunshui's excited voice sounded in his ears, he ran in like a whirlwind, An Zixun saw that his clothes were half wet, and there was something hidden in his sleeves, as if he was afraid that she would see, with his hands behind his back, he smiled looking at her.

"Uncle Zhou, you go down first." He urged the man to leave.

"What's wrong, Chunshui?"

"This is for you." He took out what was in his sleeve and handed it to An Zixun.

Oiled paper was wrapped layer by layer, An Zixun took it and slowly opened it, a pair of embroidered shoes...

Looking down suddenly, she lost her shoes when she came out, and her feet were cut. She had been bandaged with medicine before, and she was wearing Ah Duan's shoes, which were wet and stuck to her feet.

She had seen the size of the shoe, and it was exactly her size.

Suddenly, Helian Chunshui squatted down, took the shoe in her hand with one hand, raised her foot on the knee with the other, took off her wet shoe, and held the injured foot in his palm.

"Your hand is hurt, I'll help you wear it."

Being held down by him, watching him carefully cover her with new embroidered shoes, An Zixun stood there in a daze. "Spring water..."

Helian Chunshui lowered his head and carefully put the shoes on her feet.When prescribing medicine for her, he remembered the size in his heart at a glance.

"Don't tell me thank you, I like you. Although I am more confused after being sick, I can't forget you. I said I like you, and I asked you if you like me, but you never gave me an answer. Ah Kaoru, is it hard to like me?"

His palms are warm, much warmer than Helian Qing...

An Zixun is afraid of the cold, she prefers warm things, including people.

"You're so nice, it's hard not to like you." She whispered, and under Helian Chunshui's surprised gaze, she took a deep breath, "Chunshui, every time I'm in danger, you're always by my side. I'm fine, I know very well."

He was a little excited when his eyes lit up and he spoke, "Really? Don't lie to me!"

"Chunshui, you haven't lied to me, so of course I won't lie to you." She pulled him to stand up, never expecting to meet in the mountains to say goodbye, it wasn't the end, it was just the beginning of her relationship with Chunshui.

She doesn't hate Chunshui, she likes his childish smile, every time she is alone and helpless, Chunshui will always appear by her side.

For him, An Zixun didn't have the same heartbeat as when he was with He Lianqing, only the warm peace of mind.He Lianqing wanted her because of the physical needs of the poisonous poison.

Chun Shui likes her, it's just that he wants to treat her well, it's as simple as that.

Her heart is very small, and now it is full of a person, maybe in the future, everything left to her by that person will be gone with the wind.

"Don't go back to the palace, and don't go home, you follow me, let's go back to Jinzhou. Ah Xun, you don't have to worry about anything!" He reached out to touch her shoulder, and seeing that she didn't refuse, Helian Chunshui was overjoyed and rolled his arms. Stretch and hug her.

She seemed to be tired, she leaned on his shoulder for a while without saying a word, then slowly said, "You don't understand, I can't go." She straightened up and kept a little distance from Chun Shui.

"Because of He Lianqing!" His slightly raised phoenix eyes suddenly revealed a hint of coldness.

"It's not just him, there are many other people and things. Chunshui, Xichu is not a place for you to stay. If possible, you should go back to Jinzhou, where it is much safer than the emperor." She rubbed her hands like comforting a child. Chunshui's hair on the forehead.

The crown prince and He Lianqing, just between the two of them, I am afraid that it will not be long before the balance of harmony on the surface will be broken.

Also, the bet between her and Dongfang Feichi, by the way, her life is no longer her own, in order to keep Anjia and Nanhai, she made an exchange.

In exchange for her life, love is already a luxury for her, and she can't afford it again!
I'm sorry Chunshui, I'm sorry...

She said apologetically and wanted to pull away from his embrace, but Helian Chunshui hugged her tightly again.

"I don't care, Kaoru, I want you to be my woman!"

His face was only a square inch away, the corners of his eyes were slightly raised, and his pair of phoenix pupils were dark. When he looked carefully, there were two clusters of fire in the depths of his pupils, and the warm breath was blowing on her cheeks.

An Zixun was stunned, the eyes of Helian Chunshui in front of her were burning/hot, and her strength was unprecedentedly strong. She had always regarded him as a child, but ignored that he was no different from other grown men except for his intelligence.

"Ah Xun." With a soft voice, he slowly moved his face closer to her, absorbing the faint fragrance of An Zixun's body, and her slightly parted lips were rosy.

He once kissed, not intentionally, but not accidentally.

It was sweet, unexpectedly sweet, and he couldn't forget it.

Lowering his head, he wanted to kiss her again.

An Zixun turned slightly, this time his kiss was in vain.She turned her face sideways, Helian Chunshui could only see her thick butterfly-like eyelashes fluttering.

After a while, her voice came to his ears clearly, "You will meet a woman who is thousands of times better than me."

"No one is better than you!" He held her thin shoulders, "He Lianqing doesn't understand you, doesn't like you, and even treats you badly. It's because he has blind eyes. I'm different, I treat you..." He I want to tell An Zixun that this feeling for her is not as simple as she thinks now.

"Don't say it." She interrupted Helian Chunshui, "My heart is not made of stone, I can feel it. Chunshui, I like you very much because you are innocent and harmless. In Xichu, you are the only I believe in people, but the kind of liking I have for you has nothing to do with love."

His expression froze, her liking for him had nothing to do with love!

"You still can't forget Helian Qing. Just because she married him, she has to bear the pain he gave her?" He shook An Zixun, with pain in his eyes.

She was frowned by his shaking, Chunshui has been really weird recently, she seems to be an adult who knows everything from time to time.

Sudden dizziness, An Zixun couldn't help pushing him away, but Helian Chunshui hurriedly let go when he saw that she was uncomfortable. Unexpectedly, she would push away, he staggered back and fell to the ground.

"I understand..." He smiled teasingly, mist appeared in his eyes, he waved away An Zixun's hand, Helian Chunshui curled his lips, and said sadly in a low hoarse voice, "Ah Xun, you hate me."

The appearance of him about to cry made An Zixun feel uncomfortable. Regarding Chunshui, she didn't want to drag him into those disputes because of her relationship.

Especially after knowing Chun Shui's identity, Gongzi Jin was killed by Helian Yufeng, but Chunshui, the only son of Gongzi Jin, survived. Such an identity was like standing on the edge of a cliff.

He obviously didn't want to hurt him, but maybe he couldn't be spared to hurt him in the end.

She stood where she was, and slowly withdrew the hands that were supposed to be stretched out to support him and hung them by her side. "Thank you for taking me in. When the rain stops, I will leave with Ah Duan."

He didn't say a word, stood up slowly, turned and left, the back was lonely and pitiful, An Zixun turned his face away and couldn't bear to look at it.

At night, the heavy rain did not stop, A Duan beside him had fallen asleep, and An Zixun was wrapped in a blanket and sat quietly on the bed.

Where to go?
Because of the tiger talisman, she couldn't go back to An's house or the South China Sea for the time being. There was no news about Jin Chenbo and He Lianxiao, so she didn't plan to go back to Prince Qing's mansion.

Where else can I go?
The world is so big, but she was trapped under the sky of Xichu, like a bird whose wings were broken, or a fish stranded on the shore.

Outside the window, a smear of gray flashed in the dark night sky, flying towards the south of Miaojiang Lingnan at a high speed.

"Are you really planning to do this?" Rong Fu looked at the person standing in the rain, his eyes following the direction of the pigeon.

"You talk too much recently." The cold voice was full of anger, and the heavy rain soaked his clothes. He raised his head to the sky and stood motionless.

"The subordinate is just worried that if Madam knows that Lord Hou is doing this, what should I do?"

"That's the Seventh Emperor's Uncle Benhou. You must not make any mistakes. All the consequences will be borne by Benhou Ye. Just listen to your orders."

She can't control that much anymore, she wants to leave, even if she has to be trapped here in Xichu now, she is not willing to stay by his side for a moment longer.

Kaoru, you want to go back, but there are many obstacles, so how about I help you?

In this way, when you let go and leave, you will no longer have any excuses not to stay by my side.

Such a result satisfied Helian Chunshui, the corners of his lips were finally no longer pursed but raised happily, one day, he will prove to her that he is not such a useless fool, how much better he is than Helian Qing times.

What I want is not your sympathy and gratitude, Kaoru, I will let you know who you really love.

Rong Fu looked at Helian Chunshui's yearning and even complacent smile, but he felt unspeakable worry in his heart.

Lord Hou's liking for An Zixun made him go against Madam's expectations. His reckless behavior, when Madam finds out, it may be...

The heavy rain hit the glazed tiles of the palace, making a series of noises. In the imperial study, Helian Yufeng was playing chess with someone.

The chess game was meticulous, fighting all night, each attacking and defending properly, both sides had a chance to win several times, but they were cleverly led by the other side, so there was no winner.

"Looks like it's a draw." Helian Yufeng said with a smile, after moving his calm and sharp eyes away from the chessboard, his expression was gentle and introverted again.

(End of this chapter)