The queen leaves the court

Chapter 85 Is it so difficult to like (1)
Xichu ushered in the first winter snow this year. It was as light as cotton wool falling off. From noon to night, the nights were quiet with regular rustling sounds. Occasionally, heavy snow fell and snapped. These snowy nights were extraordinarily quiet.

Several braziers were lit in the bedroom, but An Zixun still felt cold, the coldness spread from the bottom of his heart, flowed from the blood, entangled his limbs and bones.

She got up and put on her clothes and sat down beside the desk. The candle was flickering. Rice paper was laid out in front of her and she prepared a pen and ink. She wanted to write something to He Lianqing. It will take a few days to deliver. She writes almost every day, but she doesn't order people to deliver it.

These letters were neatly pressed one by one at the bottom of her dressing box, could he see them when he came back?

In the past, she wrote and left books to him, but now she writes words that she has never said to him. Mother always said that she was a bit like Daddy, and kept everything in her heart.

She is obviously in love, but she is rarely willing to express it, which is completely different from He Lianqing's crazy and hot performance.

At the end of the payment, she thought about it and added the child's baby name. She was afraid that this would be the last letter to him, and the child would be born in a few days. So far, she had no idea that Dongfang Feichi did not agree to her request.

The only way out is to really ask Ji Yunshang?
She didn't believe in this man, not at all, she could die, but she couldn't believe that he would really save the child.

There were intermittent flute sounds outside, and it was roughly heard from a distance as the boat song of the South China Sea, which was not played well.

An Zixun came out of the bedroom wrapped in a cloak, the moonlight was hazy and cold, against the snowy snow, she walked in small steps in the corridor to find the source of the sound.

After hearing the news, Aduan Kapok followed her step by step,
In troubled times, my cousin in Nanhai asked someone to bring a letter before, but there has been no news recently, and she is the only one left to face here, but she promised He Lianqing that she will wait for my king's return!
Walking around the corridor, the sound of the flute stopped abruptly, An Zixun looked around, and the cold air was inhaled into his nose, which was a bit cold and choking, and his spirit was particularly shocked.

The glazed tiles on the red wall were covered with snow, and they were white. Her eyes suddenly moved, and there was a person sitting on the snow on the eaves. He was completely white. It's like melting into snow.

An Zixun pursed her lips, she roughly knew who it was from her figure.

The person on the eaves was waiting for her, but he was afraid that she would not come.

He slowly took off the hood, and he smiled at her with curved lips. He always knew that when Kaoru looked at her, he was looking at another person.

"It's getting late at night, Lord Hou, please come back." She clasped the silver needle in her hand, and now it's not that she can't trust others, but that she has to.

Helian Chunshui was barely still smiling, with unspeakable bitterness in his heart, he and she couldn't even go back as friends.

"I have something to tell you." He was a little anxious, and he had been waiting for this opportunity for a long time.

"Not yet." She refused indifferently.

"My mother treats you..." He opened his mouth to meet An Zixun's sullen eyes, Helian Chunshui finally lowered his head, Xie Qingxuan had always been strict with him, almost harsh, he could not meet her expectations, he was a useless person in the eyes of his mother . "Akun, I'm sorry."

"Helian Chunshui, if you don't leave, I'll be rude to you. Your mother has done me a bad enough job. If you fall into my hands, I won't care about the friendship I once had."

He understood that it would be useless to say anything else, Helian Chunshui's whole body was frozen stiff, his fingers were a little clumsy, and he took out the small porcelain bottle from his arms, "This is..."

An Zixun turned around without looking at him, and returned to the original corridor without looking at him any more.

She casually patted the fine snow that fell on the cloak and entered the dormitory. The sudden heat dispelled the cold. She couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief and walked to the bed. At this moment, she wanted him to be by her side most. Swollen calves, help her turn over at night, when her cushion sits till dawn...

Her eyes gradually blurred, An Zixun subconsciously touched her cheek, her hands filled with cold tears.

He said that as long as she wanted him by her side, he would definitely show up.

She missed him very much, thinking about him for a long, long time...

Saburo, I will wait until the day you come back safely.She murmured in her heart, and slowly pressed the pearl hairpin to her heart.

Leaning against her in a light sleep, the snow fell even more heavily in the second half of the night, and the rustling sound woke her up. The candles in the room were not extinguished, and through the curtain, she raised her hand and raised her hand to check.

With her eyes darkened, covered by cold palms, her breath filled with icy coldness, she slammed backwards with her elbows, was deflected by someone who came, and then was embraced from behind, leaning against her softly. .

The exclamation that had not yet come out was firmly sealed by something soft and cool, entangled with glue, and the familiar feeling made An Zixun's tense body instantly relax.

The rubbing between the lips made the coldness become warmer, and she opened it slightly with urgent rolling, and the tip of the warm tongue slid into the mouth deftly to entangle her.

Eager yet gentle, but also overbearing to absorb.

The deep kiss almost made her suffocate, and the long-lost fresh air rushed towards her face. An Zixun couldn't help panting, but the corners of her mouth were curled downward, like a wronged child.

"You bully me..." She pursed her lips tightly, even though the other party let go of her palm, she still closed her eyes and kept snuggling in his arms.

"Baby, you should give me an explanation!" The voice in the ear did not sound angry, but there was a power that had been suppressed for a long time and was about to explode.

When she heard the sound of the paper, she opened her eyes suddenly, and reached out to snatch it back, "You peeked at my letter!" The letter was written but not hidden.

"It was written to me, so it's a peek." The corners of his mouth curled up, and the coquettish double pupils flashed a strange brilliance. With the ashamed expression on her face, He Lianqing really liked to see her move for him.

He was glad that he saw it, she didn't write for several days, he was flustered, and he couldn't be quiet for a moment without hearing from her.

His calmness and self-control, his decisive decision, all these things don't belong to Qing Helian anymore.

Returning on a snowy night, he hoped that he did not return to her side late.

She didn't know that he had been staring at her for a long time just to be afraid of waking up her light sleep. This letter was alone on the desk, with his name written in familiar characters, and the ink wasn't completely dry, so he couldn't help but open it and read it.

When he came back this time, his woman gave him an unexpected surprise.

She thought about him, and he actually came back, but it was not the time, she was afraid that she would not be able to hide the matter from him.

He Lianqing propped her arms on both sides of her body and looked down at her from a high position. Her petite face was a little swollen, her arms were still slender, and her belly seemed to be much bigger. She was almost unsteady when she walked.

One child is enough, just one, he is reluctant to bear such hard work.

There was mist in her eyes when she stared at him, it was really rare that she was speechless, she could always annoy him with a few words, sweet words or something, he hadn't heard her say it for a long time, there is no doubt that he loves her , she has feelings for him, forgave his hurt, agreed to be his wife, and is more willing to bear children for him, she even said she misses him, but it is not enough, he wants to know what is he in the heart of this woman he loves so much What kind of position is it?
She never said it, and he waited a long time for an answer.

Every word on the letter was written by her, but it couldn't compare to what she said to him in person!
"I'm waiting for your answer." He squinted his eyes and approached her. The process of waiting for the answer was like a thousand claws scratching his heart. The anticipation was painful but also joyful.

She turned her face away and didn't answer, but her nose was sore and uncomfortable.

He knew he couldn't force her, and every word and every word on the credible letter had already made He Lianqing unable to hold back.

He became more and more greedy, and wanted to get closer to her heart, but he was hesitant about his promise to her.

"Help me up, it hurts."

Supporting the bed with her hands, she stood up with the help of He Lianqing. She could hardly complete a simple movement by herself, but he cheerfully acted as her cushion.

His face was dusty, with green stubble protruding from his chin, and there were traces of ice and snow on his clothes.

From Yecheng to Xichu, he kept rushing back to see her day and night...

The joy in my heart was about to overflow, sticking to his heart, feeling his strong heartbeat, the mental and physical exhaustion some time ago disappeared quickly the moment he appeared, only the warmth and peace of mind surged.

"I wrote that indiscriminately. You bullied me and peeked at me, you, you..." Under his scorching gaze, the only secret in her heart was clearly seen.

I wrote them down one by one in order to prepare for Helian Qing to see them one day if she was gone. She hoped that he could understand her. Some things are really beyond her control. She just wanted him to understand that he and the child are the same. Her only concern.

"Written indiscriminately?" He took a deep breath, the duplicity girl refused to let him listen to even a nice sentence.

He Lianqing was silent for a moment, and spread out on her belly, "Tell Father, the words in the letter that worry about Father's hard work abroad, keep in mind, and look forward to staying by your side, did your mother write it indiscriminately?" he asked in a low voice to himself.

"Don't tell the child this, the child understands it!"

"It's better than someone who clearly understands it but refuses to admit it." He Lianqing snorted, hooked her fingers around her drooping chin, and looked at each other, not giving her a chance to avoid it. "Bao, is it so difficult to say you like me?"

An Zixun's mood fluctuated, and she was about to speak, but He Lianqing took the initiative to hug her. "It's almost dawn, I will go back soon, and I will accompany you and the child for the rest of the time."

"Do you want to go?"

He Lianqing took her palm and kissed her reluctantly, "I can't worry about you, I can feel at ease when I come back to see that you are fine, the old seven in Yecheng is temporarily guarding, I must go back as soon as possible, after taking Yecheng, I think The teacher will return to see you soon." He rubbed An Zixun's soft hair, his eyes filled with warmth.

She pursed her lips, and suddenly stretched out her hand to wrap around his neck, and buried her head on Helianqing's chest. It would be dawn in a while, and An Zixun couldn't help hugging him even tighter.

"It's rare for you to act like a spoiled child to me." He Lianqing smiled lightly. He has always been domineering. After meeting her, he learned to tolerate everything. There is nothing wrong with it. It is a great fortune for him to meet someone worthy of his heart in his life.

The two leaned on each other until the sky turned white, and An Zixun felt the people around him move.

"Take care of yourself and your child. As long as I'm here, you don't have to worry about anything." He hugged her again for a while before letting go, his eyes traced her eyebrows and eyes, and he couldn't let her go.

The gentle voice and the firm back were deeply imprinted in her memory. For a moment, she really wanted to tell him what she missed in her mouthpiece, but she couldn't speak in the end.

Half a day after He Lianqing left, she felt extremely uneasy, and at night the amniotic fluid broke, and the baby was a few days earlier than she had calculated.

There was a vast expanse of whiteness outside the window, and it was impossible to tell the difference between day and night. An Zixun could only hear small hurried steps in her ears, as well as Mu Mian or A Duan talking to her from time to time.

The regular labor pains had worn her out for a long time, her hair was wet with sweat, and she lay there gasping for breath.

The pain lasted all night, but there was still no movement of the child.

She felt that her strength was constantly flowing away, and she moved her eyes to Kapok, Kapok understood.

"Call out if it hurts badly, and use more strength..." The old mother kept talking to her. Seeing that An Zixun was about to collapse, Mu Mian quickly pricked a few of her acupuncture points.

She moved her lips as if she wanted to say something, but Mu Mian leaned over and heard what she said clearly, her eyes became hot and almost shed tears. "It's going to be fine, you and the baby will be safe!"

She was saying, please, save the child.

An Zixun reluctantly smiled at her, and soon she was once again involved in the pain of childbirth.

It doesn't matter if she is okay or not, but that the child has been bewitched, she is helpless, she is afraid... afraid that something will happen to the child...

The old mama's brows also gradually frowned. After such an hour passed, the adults and children might not be able to keep them!
She raised her head and shook the kapok.

Kapok was startled, and then turned to look at An Zixun beside her. She had just gotten a few needles, and her eyes were full of pleading.

She couldn't control that much, and stuffed a pill into An Zixun's mouth, so that she couldn't lose her strength. As for the child...

Saburo, where are you?She thought silently in her heart, she really wanted him to be by her side, if this was the moment when her life ended, she wanted to be by his side in the end, she had a lot of things that she didn't say to him!
Outside the dormitory, Dongfang Feichi rushed over in the wind and snow, and when he was about to enter the dormitory, he heard a burst of heart-piercing cries inside.

"Give me the child, give me!" An Zixun struggled and fell off the bed, and was stopped by kapok.She disheveled her long hair and cried towards the child in the old mother's hands, "I clearly heard the child crying, I heard it, you lied to me, the child is fine, give the child to me!"

Kapok couldn't help crying, "Don't be like this, be careful..." The baby only uttered a few weak cries, and then lost his breath.

An Zixun didn't know where the strength came from and rushed over to snatch it, "No one is allowed to touch my child, Saburo hasn't seen it yet!"

Dongfang Feichi held the newly born child in his arms one step ahead of her, "Give the child to me."

"Dongfang..." She seemed to see a life-saving straw, and knelt down in front of him, her pale face was full of tears, "Please, I will give you my life, my child is still alive, still alive, please help me!" I!"

He stretched out his hand to detect the child's breath, and then took out a small porcelain bottle from his sleeve. People who are trapped by love in this world are all fools, including He Lianqing and An Zixun, and there are even more foolish ones who are finally knowledgeable. arrive.

After a while, a child was heard crying in the dormitory. Although it was not loud, it was a pleasant surprise. An Zixun stared fixedly at the crying child in Dongfang Feichi's arms. She bit her lips tightly and stretched out her hand carefully. took over.

The child took the first mouthful of milk in her arms, and the little life she was looking forward to almost returned to her side when she was about to collapse. An Zixun's heart was filled with joy, but the tears could not be stopped no matter what .

Saburo, our child is alive and well, come back soon, come back soon!
In the dormitory, only the sound of weeping with joy was heard. Dongfang Feichi was not used to this kind of feeling, so he turned around and went out. In the wind and snow, at a distance, he could see the person on the eaves that was about to melt into the wind and snow, just like that waiting.

He nodded slightly, and the man immediately bowed to him before leaving lightly.

There has been love and infatuation in the world since ancient times, and getting rid of the Gu on that child is almost equivalent to sending him to die early. For a person who doesn't love him, for a child who is not his, Dongfang Feichi is puzzled by such an approach, but he seems to understand something .

He's always been a non-nosy, and this time it's really an exception.

In the midwinter of January, there were several battles between Xichu and Yecheng, but there was no winner. Every few days, He Lianxiao had the latest battle results sent back.

(End of this chapter)