Our youth is over

Chapter 24
I don't know if Lin Zhishen thought about the series of consequences before he took action. I only know that he was arrested on the day of the incident, and then he stubbornly refused to refute himself on the trial bench, and was finally sentenced to jail, hiding himself almost like self-destruction In that dark cage.

As for Xiao Jiang, because of the car accident, he was unconscious in the hospital. I thought he would just fall asleep and become a vegetative state. He would only grow old with time until he died.

As for me, I stayed by Xiao Jiang's hospital bed that day, trembling all the time, my whole body was wrapped in a great cold, and my whole body was swallowed by endless fear, and I couldn't be arrogant anymore.

He Yebei spent the longest two and a half hours of his youth in the college entrance examination room, and then never took the second exam, and left the examination room to look for me, because he was worried about me.

I have always believed that He Yebei really loved me when he was 19 years old. He gave up the first college entrance examination in his life for me, and looked for me all over the street, crazy and passionate.

Because of this, no matter how cruel, dark and painful that past memory is, I can't forget it, not even a single detail.

There is the most authentic me, the most authentic He Yebei, the most authentic Xiaojiang, Qiqi, Lu Xia, Lin Zhishen, etc., all the people who flowed through the long river of my youth.

6
"and after?"

In the silent atmosphere, I was the only one with a light tone, narrating my youthful days neither sad nor happy, and when the most youthful years of our youth came to an end in gray, I was so calm as if the person who connected the whole story was not me.

After a moment of silence, someone spoke hoarsely, with a moving nasal voice, and asked, "What happened next?"

and after……

My eyes moved over the young faces in front of me, and I smiled with a long and distant voice.

Later, He Yebei, who missed the college entrance examination, was afraid that his parents would blame me and that our immature first love would die, so he concealed the real reason for leaving the examination room from everyone, and only excused himself by saying that he was not feeling well.He Pili and his wife were not convinced by such a clumsy reason before going to the examination room in the morning, but why did He Pili beat his son for the first time? Bei still kept his mouth shut and never mentioned me, but said that he would repeat his senior year of high school and fight again next year.

Xiao Jiang is as strong as Xiaoqiang. He didn't wake up for a few days at first, thinking that he was in a vegetable state, but unexpectedly he woke up suddenly, and the wound healed quickly, and he was alive and kicking again within a few months.Because of this incident, I finally forgave Jiang Chengrui. I think that on the day of Qiqi's accident, if he knew the situation would be like that, he would use his body to resist those dangers just like protecting me, and let Qiqi and Lu Xia run away. Yes, instead of leaving Qiqi behind.He is such a person who values ​​love and righteousness, but the moment he held Lu Xia's hand in the rose garden, his love was greater.

After the summer vacation, I was promoted to the third grade, but Xiao Jiang stayed in the grade. He was not as lucky as me. He stopped classes for a few months and failed to pass the make-up class.And He Yebei who came back was in the same grade as me.We are still in love, but we are more cautious than before, afraid of being discovered by the school and spreading to He Pili's ears.

When the two are together, the love is not too vigorous, but the sweetness is always there.In private, He Yebei often gave me supplementary lessons. We agreed that if he was admitted to Tsinghua University, I would go to Beijing as long as I could take the exam.It's funny to say that He Pili also praised me several times because my grades suddenly improved.Occasionally, when I see me during class, I will warmly say "Bei Yinan" to me.

When I was playing with He Yebei, I often behaved like a good boy, and said with a smile that my future father-in-law praised me today, that my future father-in-law invited me to eat a piece of roast sausage, and that my future father-in-law’s test paper was so difficult that I almost failed again. My future father-in-law let me stand for a class because I accidentally said a few words to my deskmate in class, my future father-in-law...

In the future, my father-in-law wants to know whether his good son will stop smiling at me because I gave up the college entrance examination...

The happier you are, the more you fear that happiness will be lost, and the more you fear that things will come sooner.

The news about my relationship with He Yebei finally reached He Pili's ears, and I was called to the head teacher's office many times to talk.The main content of the conversation was to persuade me not to pester He Yebei any more. He Yebei is going to take the Tsinghua University entrance examination, and Bei Yinan, I, graduated from a mess.The reason why He Yebei gave up the college entrance examination at that time was also analyzed. He's mother had another heart attack, and she was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment and almost failed to be saved.

My parents were invited to the school, and my mother felt very sorry for the He Pili family when she learned about this.She selfishly thinks that her daughter is too bastard. Last time she hugged her forcibly, it's fine. Now she directly forces her to fall in love, and makes her a good boy. The complete Tsinghua University seedling is reduced to the point of repeating her studies. It's really a heinous crime. .In order to make me realize something, and to give the school an explanation, my mother took me home and told me to reflect on myself, and I was not allowed to go to school if I couldn't figure it out clearly.

I want to calm things down. On the surface, I listen to the lessons of teachers and parents, and I swear that I will never poison a good boy from a good family. If they don’t believe me, I can transfer to another school. I am busy contacting He Yebei secretly to discuss countermeasures, thinking Let's cool down for a while to avoid the limelight.But there was no news from He Yebei. I understandably felt that he was afraid of making his mother angry and causing her a heart attack, so he simply didn't reply to me.

I just think too much, and it's easy to make mistakes when I think too much. When I finally passed my parents' test and was released to continue going to school, I found that there was no shadow of He Yebei in the school.

He Yebei's phone has also been shut down, unable to get through, and slowly became "the phone number you dialed is empty".

Where did He Yebei go? Everyone in the school knows. During a certain period of time when I was suspended at home, the school had a place to be an exchange student in a famous American high school.The school leaders have always thought highly of He Yebei, and sighed at the fact that he missed the college entrance examination. This time such a good opportunity, he was the first thing that came to mind, so they went to ask for permission from him and He Pili.

The answer is naturally yes, because there is no He Yebei in the school anymore.

Everyone in the school thought that He Yebei and I were in love for a while, or that he was forced by Bei Yinan. In order to protect him, I also said that I was entangled, so at that time they left me and left, and I also It’s not as if the whole world is gone, and I still look like a normal person on weekdays, listen to my mother, don’t fall in love early, and study hard.Only occasionally, on a whim, I hid in the classroom on the third and sixth floors of high school where He Yebei gave me extra lessons and cried secretly.

At that time, I thought, why is he so cruel, he didn't say a word to me, and just left the country without a trace.Did he think about how I'd feel knowing he was gone?Did he make it clear to me that he would die if he left?He told me that I can go too!What's going on now, whether he broke up or not, he left without explaining.

Now that I think about it, He Yebei really understands me. According to my previous temper, if he wants to tell me, he won’t be able to leave. I will really cry and fight with him.But if he doesn't leave, his parents won't be able to explain, maybe what kind of stimulation his mother will be.

I still believe that even when he left, He Yebei still had me in his heart, but love weighs more in his heart than his future, but it is not as good as family affection, so he finally left behind for the sake of his family. I.

To put it bluntly, the first love between me and He Yebei, from when I was tempted to when he left, was only a short period of time, I could afford to let it go, and within a few months after he left, I looked away.

I also reconciled with Xiao Jiang, after so much experience, the relationship is stronger than before, because I have been hurt by love, and I am afraid of getting hurt, so I made an appointment not to fall in love, eat and drink all day long, my grades are in a mess, and I have been staying for a long time. After the second grade, it was hard to get admitted here.

I don’t know that after five years, life is too comfortable. I have gained more than 60 catties, and I have become as fat as I am now. Don’t say that I want love right now, even if boys see me, they won’t be interested in love up.As for Xiao Jiang, after entering university, she had already forgotten our original agreement. She had changed several girlfriends. Shu Lei was the one she had talked with for the longest time. During her sophomore year He has been chasing it for almost a year.

Finally finished the whole first love, I didn't care to look at the dull expressions of the audience around me who were still immersed in the story, and impatiently picked up the Coke in hand and drank it.

Mo Xuxu who went out to answer the phone did not know when he came back. He sat on the bed next to me and kneaded melon seeds. Seeing that I finished speaking, he stood up from the bed, patted the melon seeds on his body, and clapped his hands: "Old man Bei, your first love is really dramatic. Whoever knows how to write a novel can write it down. It’s much more interesting than mine. My first love is a shame in my life! Thinking of that man, I can only call him scumbags. .Okay, after Lao Bei finished speaking, who will speak next? Ding Dong is you, right?"

Xu Xu's slender fingers pointed to Ding Dong who was curled up on his bed, Ding Dong rolled his eyes at her helplessly, and said angrily: "You know my first love the best, you all watched it, do you need to say it?" , let the little shadow speak."

Little Shadow waved his hands again and again, and said shyly, "I don't have any first love. I've always been studying, so I haven't thought about it."

Xuxu's old problem came again, and he continued to make up Ding Dong: "Little Shadow is so pure, what do you ask her to say! I can't believe where is your first love!"

"Believe it or not!" Ding Dang replied impatiently, took a look at the mobile phone at hand, and exclaimed, "It's already 04:30, go to dinner, or wait for the group of brats who are freshmen and sophomores After school, there are so many people that we can’t beat the stewed eggs.”

As soon as she finished speaking, a group of people who were listening to the story gathered in the dormitory immediately disappeared, fearing that Xu Xu would arrest them next and force them to question "first love".In the blink of an eye, a group of people in the small dormitory left completely, and in the end there were only four people left in our small dormitory—Xu Xu, Ding Dong, Xiao Ying, and me.

Xu Xu, whose full name is Mo Xulu, has a straightforward personality, daring to love and hate, very much like Qiqi who lives forever in my memory.She and Ding Dong are from the same township, and they had the best time at first, but later they broke up because Ding Dong snatched the boy Xu Xu had been chasing for a semester, where is the computer department.If nothing happened, they would often exchange a few words, insulting each other, and the relationship has always been stiff.Xiaoying, natal Dongying, is just like her name. She is a very quiet girl with a delicate appearance and a pair of thick black-rimmed glasses on the bridge of her nose. She was No.1 in our department when she was admitted, and now she is also a scholarship recipient every semester. The winner, in Xu Xu's words, is a "little nerd". In fact, he is a typical good student who loves to read.

It was Xu Xu who suggested talking about first love, but I ended up talking to her, and the others fled away. I felt a little guilty, and Xu Xu seemed to feel sorry for me, so he stretched out his hand to hook my shoulder, with a tone of voice Heroically said: "Lao Bei, I'll treat you to dinner tonight, and Little Shadow is also with me. Let's go to Fallen Street, so we don't have to spend time with people in the cafeteria."

Our school is built on a hill, which is very remote. It takes more than 20 minutes to climb several hillsides to walk from the dormitory to Luoyang Street.I am a big fat man, although I like to eat, but I don’t like to go to Fallen Street. It’s too tiring to walk once, and half my life will be gone when I walk back after eating. It’s better to go to the cafeteria and refuse Xuxu’s offer kindness.

Hearing this, Xu Xu moved his hand away and looked at me contemptuously, with a disgusted expression on his face: "Old Bei, you are so lazy, the fat on your body will only pile up more and more, you just don't exercise too much, so the more you grow, the fatter you get. "

"I really don't want to go." I spread my hands.

Xu Xu rolled his eyes speechlessly, and arrogantly pulled the little shadow aside: "It's up to you, it turned out that my shitty first love just happened to come to our school for a stroll. Slaughter him, now you have no luck."

I waved my hand, not being tempted in the slightest: "I'd rather go to the cafeteria to grab food with the brats and exercise than climb a hill."

If I couldn't say anything, Xu Xu didn't say any more, regardless of Xiao Ying's willingness or not, he dragged him away, and I was the only one left in the dormitory.

Ding Donggang also went out with her meal card. After breaking up with Xu Xu, she likes to be alone most of the time.

In fact, I didn't go to the cafeteria to eat. I drank a few glasses of boiled water alone in the dormitory, and I couldn't describe the feeling in my heart.

I think, whoever talks about first love will not be as heartless as when he said it.Many times, the pain is hidden in the most secret corner of my heart, and it only hurts when I am alone.

(End of this chapter)